just a hug would be nice

Hi my name is Shelby and I have 6 cats. Thanks for listening.

[hellomuthafucka]

I don’t know why tonight feels harder than the rest. I just feel so sad tonight. I hate this type of sadness. I hate when people tell me it will be okay. They don’t understand how sad I am in this moment. Maybe they were this sad once but they aren’t feeling my sadness in this moment. I hate when people say “just don’t talk to him” “don’t be weak” I’m trying so hard.

I’m trying to strong. I’m trying to move on and feel better. I’m trying to be happy and act like a badass but I’m faking it.

I don’t know. I’m just sad.

[booniesbride]

my last polaroid of 2020

[hellomuthafucka]

I have a hard time keeping up with a physical copy of a journal so I’m back to my OG venting space. Not sure who even uses this anymore but I’ll enjoy venting.

My boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me back in February but a week or two later we started texting regularly and hanging out weekly. I was okay with that, I felt like we were working on things and rebuilding. But today I asked a question, “if we’re doing all the same things as when we were dating, why aren’t we together” he went silent for 20 minutes trying to process his thoughts. He blurted out some thoughts and talked in circles. I just sat there letting him work through it but I can’t stay in this limbo. He doesn’t want to lose me as a friend but for me it’s either relationship or nothing. I can’t feel like I’m just waiting for him to come around.

Also, my therapist suggested I talk to my mom about what’s going on so I did. She ended up telling me my ex sent my family audio messages when he broke up with me, apologizing and thanking them. My mom tried to read her reply out loud but she kept crying. I tried to reassure her that I’m okay even tho I wanted to cry too. I’m just sad.

I thought he was my forever, part of me still hopes he is.

[ilylukey]

calum » close ups

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Troye Sivan performs at the Royal Oak Theatre [x]

[danepst]

Ian Fisher, “Atmosphere No. 64 (Convertible)” 2015 

oil on canvas

[gq]

Going Backstage with Troye Sivan

The Prince of the Internet

[hovseofcards]

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[hotdamn5sos]

@Michael5SOS: when I was in Japan. standing infront of a door. with a hat on. it was cold. Japan was cold not the hat. #theh…

[hellomuthafucka]

What if I've already found my soul mate and they didn't love me back What if I'm never able to love anyone else again What if I'm always going to love you while you're loving someone else

[hovseofcards]

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[clummyhood]

you're so painfully unaware of how beautiful you really are

[hellomuthafucka]

I bought this $9 onesie from Walmart and it's the bet thing ever.

[claywoman]

[ziamnerds]

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