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This is a video I made for my university where I reflect on my study abroad experience in Japan! Feel free to watch and ask any questions (especially those of you planning to study in Japan in the future). It was the best experience of my life, and I encourage everyone to consider going abroad at some point in their lives!

#Japan #study abroad #hokkaido #nippon #日本 #北海道 #札幌 #留学

Promise to Self

With 2019 just around the corner, I need to come clean.

For months, I have been feeling unwell in terms of headaches, nausea, and maintaining body heat. These symptoms, although seemingly insignificant by themselves, over time have piled onto my body to the point where I feel constantly feel sick.

I’ve been tackling my health concerns independently with frequent trips to the gym, changing my diet to more salads and less red meat, and valuing my time with people more. To be quite honest, I think that these health efforts were effective and are what permitted me to still enjoy the semester overall.

A quick confession: Not going to the gym for a whole month and being suddenly bombarded with the stress of final papers, saying goodbyes, going abroad, my lack of plans (and preparation) for the future, and an unexpected loss in the family made these efforts seemingly go to waste.

I’m so cold all the time. I have constant headaches which make me more and more irritable. My skin has become more sensitive and even uncontrollably itchy some days. My morning sickness has worsened to the point that I struggle to get out of bed out of fear that the nausea will worsen when I stand.

I started to skip more and more classes. I was just too tired to even care.

Now, despite now being at home where I am less stressed and have less reason to be so tired, I still feel unwell.

These symptoms are identical to my symptoms last year when I went to the hospital; therefore, I am pretty confident that these symptoms are stress and anxiety related. Maybe I should have gone back to counseling—bad on me for thinking that I could go without it, but oh well, too late now lol.

Keeping all of this in mind, I’m trying to be more mindful on what to spend my mental energy on and when to rightfully preserve it. I’m trying to destress, read more constructive material, and be more proactive in what I want to do in the future.

I want to fix myself.

It’s going to take some time, but that’s why I’m writing this now. I want to commit to bettering myself again.

I’m going to take it one step at a time, but I’ll see y’all at the finish line. :)

#selfcare #selfhelp #mentalhealth #college #selflove