“You know what’s also your fault? The fact that you think I have a shame spiral because I don’t. I’m not spiralling. I’m a nerd. I’m no more ashamed of being attracted to guys than I am of anything else in my life. Do you know what I did almost every night before I went to college? I sat in my mom’s basement, with three other debate club kids, playing dungeons and dragons. And, it’s the same basement I live in now. Trust me when I say, no one was having sex. With guys or girls. Sex was, sex was like the sun sword. It’s a magical weapon in the game that’s really hard to find. It’s basically like a talking lightsaber. Never mind, it doesn’t matter. The point is, sex wasn’t on the table for us, so I didn’t know I was gay. I, I knew that I had feelings for boys, but I didn’t understand it. Not until you kissed me. You kissed me. And I felt the opposite of shame. I felt like I existed and everything fell in place. For the first time, I felt like I was holding the sun sword…”
