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What was your obscure chatroom/forum that you used before social media? Don’t say Gaia Online or Club Penguin. I’m talking obscure.

#animal planet used to have a meerkat game for meerkat manor that you could play multiplayer... that's probably about as obscure as it gets #at least for me LMAO #oh wait also there used to be this thing that was popular back when wix wasn't... wix i forget what it was called #where ppl would make warrior cats websites for their clans and they'd have little chatboxes on the website to roleplay in #does that count i used to utilize those as well lmAO #tag game

after 13(ish) years of self managing, anxiety spiraled out of control so I finally went to a doctor and it is 5 days in on being on medication and:

I have finally after months gotten 6 consecutive restful hours of sleep uninterrupted 3 days in a row

I have also finally after years gotten almost 7 consecutive restful hours of sleep uninterrupted as of last night, day 4

meds = naptime at 12-3pm I hit a major crash around this time every afternoon and yet I have to limit my caffeine intake I am suffering on that front

chest pressure has lightened significantly

serotonin rebalancing? out apparently means that "no anxiety, must be replaced with hunger".... I am literally always hungry no wonder people gain weight when they go on certain medication. THE HUNGER IS A LIE.

also apparently your brain is... not meant to always have static radio noise... who knew... you could just turn thoughts on and off... wild concept...

#m.txt #personal but i figure putting this down somewhere is good since it's only been 5 days #i guess it means it's working???

yeosang gets all the compliments for his hair or wHATEVER THAT IS in that teaser photo but hongjoong couldn't live a day in peace with his mullet back during smn era is my villain origin story

#i've returned from the depths to say this #m.txt

I need t1 to win worlds this year please god because I may actually cry if this roster is forced to part ways....

#i know the lifespan of same member esports teams is short lived anyway but god i love this roster so much #they're all talking about how it may be the last tournament together and we kNEW it was coming but i don't want this reality #let alone a reality where they part ways on a loss #m.txt