Head Over Heels

I have had an overflow of emotions over the course of my relationship with my girlfriend. She undoubtedly changed the course of my life. This tumblr blog is simply a place for me to let out feelings without annoying friends with my sappiness.

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Knowing her Intimately

Make no mistake, this is not a desperate or lustful post.  That being said, there is no place I would rather be then with her in the most intimate sense.  The feeling of her thighs twitching against my cheeks, her hand running through my hair then reaching for mine squeezing my hand with every impulse I send through her body.  Connecting with her is simply a beautiful thing and I simply can’t wait until we can see each other again.  She is my best friend, my hero, and it makes me feel like the luckiest boy in the history of boys to say my girlfriend.

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Beyond Understanding

It boggles my mind.  It blows me away.  And it scares me shitless how in love I am with this girl.  And when she says things like she thinks I am too good for her it honestly makes me laugh at the notion that someone I think is so perfect could possibly see merit in me.  Now I do like myself and I know I am doing my best to be the best I can which is pretty good but compared to her I don’t see how I measure up to be nearly as amazing but somehow it seems like she does at times.  We can be so different in certain tastes and even feel different on when to stay and when to go but there is an indescribable core to this relationship that doesn’t budge or break.  She makes me believe in miracles.  The fact that through all of Earth and human history; all of the wars, strife, disease, joy, feasts, relationships somehow I was able to meet her and at a time in each of our lives where we could engage one another in a relationship.  There is truly serendipity in my life as long as she is in it.  I am uncontrollably proud to be her boyfriend and I won’t stop improving myself until I feel I am good enough for her. 

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Little Talks

Just got off the phone with her and my heart is filled with a contentedness I could not have fathomed a few years ago.  No matter how hard a week I have nor what hard feelings my family or work may bring upon me, a simple phone call from her shushes the world for a while and refills my heart so I can continue pouring into my life.  We could talk about anything from deep topics like faith and the future of our world and ourselves or simply tell jokes and hear how one another’s days went by.  No matter the time of day or depth of words, one thing is certain; she is holding the words I need to hear and when they come across my ears they leave my heart in a higher place in my chest than where it started.  Even just talking for a few minutes can leave me feeling infatuated until I fall asleep and getting to talk for an hour leaves me feeling unbelievably blissful and pumped up.  I simply can’t wait to live in a place where we can see each other daily.

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I Travel Well

I am wildly and recklessly in love.  The kind of in love that leads to nights like last night.  I got off work early and she had a race two states away.  I didn’t even hesitate to get straight in the car and drive to see her.  I knew it was possible she would be busy and that I would likely spend more time driving than seeing her but there is something about seeing your girlfriend of going on three years return to her passion after a 6 month injury that is worth more to me than logic can dictate.  Seeing her family was fun as always, the look on her face when I showed up was worth every second of the four hour drive, and seeing her line up to start the race stopped my heart.  The gunshot started it pumping again and every time she made it around to my end of the track it pounded harder than ever before.  She amazes me every single day and yesterday was no exception.  Before the four hour drive back home the same night (did not want to stay with her and risk getting her in trouble with her team) something amazing happened.  I was able to steal her away for a few hours in the late night and just talking to her in a dunkin donuts I lost all conception of where and when we were.  We were together and that was everything I wanted.  We have been long distance our whole relationship so far and every moment with her is one of the most precious memories I have.  I’ve driven 16 hours overnight to see her and will likely drive hundreds of miles time and again until we can finally be in the same city (likely before the end of this year!!).  There is no distance that makes seeing her not worth it.  I will always spend my last dollar on tolls and gas to push my flaming dumpster of a car to wherever she is.  This has been a long enough post.  Future ones may fill in backstory while others look forward.  I guess my hope for a reader is for them to share in the overwhelming joy and love that I feel from this relationship.