C O N T R O L @herr-thighss - Tumblr Blog

As a person who has been both underweight and obese and everything in between, let me tell you: thin privilege exists.

When I was made of skin and bones and literally teetering on the verge of death people didn’t say shit about me ordering and eating two Big Macs just to purge them. No one gave me any looks when I was sitting there, in a crowded public place, with two fatty meals in front of me while I devoured them both.

People didn’t say anything when I ordered a drink made from skim milk when I was at Starbucks. Strangers asked me where my clothes were from and congratulated me on a good deal when I said they were from thrift stores. I got jobs easily and my bosses loved me. Strangers smiled at me on the bus and in passing. Customers bought more from me when I worked in retail. Men fell in love with me so often that I fielded three marriage proposals.

I had been overweight for most of my life, and was obese for a few years after a significant trauma, and I had an eating disorder the entire time. I was a binge eater and bulimic. And it wasn’t until it turned into anorexia and I lost 120 pounds in seven months that people were kind to me and took my eating disorder seriously. That people took my FEELINGS seriously. That people took my work experience and opinions seriously.

I’ve been the stranger that people think is pretty and I’ve been the stranger that people stare at with disgust. And even though I didn’t want to be looked at for much different reasons I still understand the impact of those gazes.

Thin privilege fucking exists. And it is horrific.

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ALL THIS AND FUCKING MORE

as someone who was also clinically obese for most of her life i remember vividly all the times people would comment on me eating a single slice of fucking cake or even an extra bread roll with disdain. but now when i binge eat like a fucking maniac in front of people i get comments on how lucky i am to be able to eat the way i do and, worst of all, a handful of times i’ve gotten people say the way i (BINGE) eat is “so hot” like the fuck what the actual fuck is wrong with people. the way our society demonizes people who openly have a good relationship with food is disgusting and i wish every day i could go back to being overweight and happy like i used to be once upon a time