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i longed to be supported and provided for (and basically kept) for so long...

turns out i need to work on receiving and accepting support better.

oh the irony.

this is probably the result of being hyper-independent and living in survival mode for years.

nevertheless, if i want to fully embody the woman i envision in my head, i must learn to be comfortable, open and receptive to receiving from provider men.

not easy for me though. i'm basically rewiring my nervous system.

[shisasan]

June, 1935 Journals of Anais Nin 1934-1939  [volume 2]