Just her and her thoughts.

Believe that happy endings do exist. ✈

[heyitsmedeece]

Don’t you ever get tired of it all? We’re getting nowhere, only just back and forth.

[heyitsmedeece]

When I am with you, I am in utopia.

[heyitsmedeece]

That someone who’s smarter than average people and could shut me up because what he’s saying interests me. That someone who could make you feel safe more than anyone else could. That someone who wouldn’t hesitate to see places and travel the world with you. That someone who would always make time for you. That someone who could make you smile with the ‘littlest’ things he does. That someone whom I know I’ll love more than myself. That someone I haven’t had the chance to meet yet.

[heyitsmedeece]

The longer I get to know you, the clearer it becomes how we are two different individuals. We're more different than we actually thought.

[heyitsmedeece]

9th of November.

Today's been rough. Everything just doesn't seem to go according to plan.

And when the day's almost over, thinking it couldn't have been any worse, I ended up seeing something I shouldn't have. 😑

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"I told you so."

[heyitsmedeece]

It has been so long since.... I miss...us. I just realized that, now. Or maybe it's just a passing feeling after going through these stuffs again. I miss what we used to have. Well, it was all in the past anyway. All of it are just fragments of our memories now.

Am I even ready to see you? You've been asking me for a while now. I can't seem to find the courage to say yes even just for coffee. Maybe because I don't really feel the need to see you as much as I did before? Is that it? I am not sure.

[hurbi]

someone will come to my life;

i will get attached;

they will eventually leave;

i will get sad;

i will do anything to move on;

repeat.

[justherandherthoughts]

Until such time you meet that someone who actually came to stay, ending this endless cycle of losing someone.

[justherandherthoughts]

It has always been that person who’s taking every step of the way with you who makes the biggest difference. (at Tian Tan Buddha, Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzsDJ2klF4NFza9C-0vdn5IKIstU7gRVdzKCOk0/?igshid=1asfpok7rb24x

[justherandherthoughts]

“When I got tired, I slept. When I got hungry, I ate. When I had to go, you know, I went.” (at Bubba Gump Shrimp co.-The Peak Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzsD1PtFkdB9vI6eBdg3UQYjTwRA1O9hmBpXXU0/?igshid=1kyto4ixmnskn

[heyitsmedeece]

At some point in these vast blue waters is where two oceans meet. I am from an archipelago that lies in the middle of yet another ocean. 😂

#afrika

[heyitsmedeece]

Go where your heart takes you for only then you'd find your peace.

[heyitsmedeece]

So exactly how many women heard you say 'i love you' but aren't around anymore because you got tired of 'love'? Exactly.

I don't mean to judge but one has to be careful in saying words you don't wholeheartedly mean and promises you can't seem to keep. I've seen how it ruined one's life, relationship, friendship and everything in between.

[heyitsmedeece]

Para kanino ka bumabangon?

I used to live only for myself. I studied hard because I want to have a good career path. I persevered at work because I hoped to be able to buy anything I wish to have. I used to think that for every hardwork, I deserve a reward, a prize for myself. Now it sounds, egotistic, really.

After working away from home for almost two years no, it changed things. Along the way, I also wished for my family to have a good life. I find solace in seeing them happier than I am. If they're happy, I am happy. That ends there. I stopped caring about self luxury or self rewards. The satisfaction that those things can give will never ever compare to the joy of seeing my family living a comfortable life, being able to get their hands on whatever they need.

I will not mind eating ready to eat foods or home-cooked food if it would give me the opportunity to take them to a pretty good restaurant whenever I return home. I'd happily eat at my flat and patiently wait for that day.

[heyitsmedeece]

When everything is failing and nothing seem to work in your favor, still, keep the faith and witness God do His wonders.

[heyitsmedeece]

Waking up in the middle of my sleep, everything felt sooo damn wrong. I feel so out of place. It makes me question myself why am I even here. I miss home. I really do.

[heyitsmedeece]

In need of something to keep me sane.

[heyitsmedeece]