That 2am post you've been dreading.
I remembered a saying "nothing good ever happens after 2am" ( shout out to y'all HIMYM out there. You have my respect.) And you look at your watch 1:53 so you've got 7mins left before decisions of mayhem starts avalanching down. What are you gonna do? Go. 7mins: "what are you gonna do after boards" oh gawd, I've heard this question over and over again. It's the thing that wakes me up every morning and lulls me to sleep at night. "I'm gonna work"... "I'll be taking the nmat".... "I'll proceed with med"... "I'll terrorize students" *insert maniacal laughing* . It's a cycle really, an endless train of uncertain answers. 5mins: This. is. hard. Not knowing what to do with your life. And you guise think, going to school is hard. You ungrateful little bastards. In the real world, there'll be no books to guide you, no reference you can consult when you don't know the answer. No test papers asking you for objective answers. This is the make or break point. Everything you encounter is subjective, it's all upto you. And you can't have "removals" gawd no. It's all upto you... upto you... you.. *fades* 2mins: *turns on TV* you can't even decently watch a show without that cold clammy realization of adulthood and responsibility creeping up behind you..sooner or later you'll be paying bills. I told my friends the first thing Im gonna invest on is a life insurance, is that what you call it? And a st.peter plan. "You're so morbid" they said. Is it wrong to prepare one's death early? I dont want waking up from the dead handing you a check list of things to do and not do during my wake and such. 30 seconds: It's almost two. You're tired and sleepy but your brain is still up and about. Tomorrow is another day but I'll bet you'd still be doing the same routine. Wake up. Eat. Stare. Sleep. Repeat.
