Forever~Changing

Name's Kayla. Im 20. I've been through hell and back on numerous occasions. Im a fucked up person and my life is a bitter sweet nightmare always changing and rearranging. Ive broken hearts and have gotten my heart broken on quite a few occasions. Im a masochist, I find any vice I can to take away the pain. Ive recovered and relapsed more than I can be proud of. I'm trying my best to be a better version of me that I can. I never settle and feel like my soul will never rest. Dont be afraid to ask questions about anything. I'm always open to questions and to help with advice.

[tallhotpregnant]

more from my maternity shoot. 

[hidden-in-darkness]

Is it possible ...

Is it possible for a dream to break your heart?

To show you what you desire the most and when you awake have that very thing ripped from you. Knowing you’ll never feel or touch what you loved in your dream

[sunsetquotes]

“I knew that what was left of me would always love you, but never in quite the same way.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald; The Beautiful and Damned

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“The worst pain … isn’t the pain you feel at the time, it’s the pain you feel later on when there’s nothing you can do about it, They say that time heals all wounds, But we never live long enough to test that theory …”

— José Saramago

[jollyrogers777]

And I will take you there kitten… again and again….

[adrenaline]

by ✂

[adrenaline]

[gosh]

“I confess I do not know why, but looking at the stars always makes me dream.”

—

Vincent van Gogh

(via adrenaline)

[phaxes]

via weheartit

[rhapsodic-evanescence]

Someday he’ll be sitting down for his morning coffee. He’ll stir in the cream and sugar until he realizes his coffee is the same brown as her eyes. He’ll know that because he spent so much time getting lost in those brown eyes all those years ago. And then he’ll dump the coffee and go to work, wondering where he went wrong.

— first love

[iglovequotes]

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[purplebuddhaquotes]

“You left me in ruins, but not ruined.”

— Sylvia Plath

[convertions]

“You know what turns me on? Effort. Assurance. Show me you care. That you really want me. I’m tired of doubting whether people are coming or going.”

— personal (via yoitshenny)

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“The women whom I love and admire for their strength and grace did not get that way because their shit worked out. They got that way because shit went wrong, and they handled it. They handled it a thousand different ways on a thousand different days, but they handled it. Those women are my superheroes.”

— Elizabeth Gilbert

[curlsandstems]

[radykalny]

[heavyemptyheart]

“1. Be the type of person you would love to meet. Crack dorky jokes. Smile at little kids. Do something generous just out of the genuineness of your heart. Talk about your passions, your goals and even your deepest fears; you never know someone worth it could be listening. 2. Be honest. Even if it takes away every last breath out of you and you feel like you would rather chew on needles than say what’s in your heart, tell the truth. Especially if it hurts, because trust me, you will feel so much lighter. 3. You are you and I am me and that is okay. The grass always looks greener on the other side, but in the wise words of Big Sean, “it’s greener where you water it.” Stop trying so hard to find flaws in your physicality and focus on your brighter aspects. That big mole on your nose? That makes you, YOU. The way you bite your lower lip when you’re nervous? That makes you, YOU. The books you read, the songs that make you cry, the things you find attractive in someone else; all these make you, YOU. And there is no one else like YOU. And that is okay. 4. Choose happiness. I’m sure you’ve heard before that happiness is not a destination. Maybe it isn’t. Or maybe it is. Either way, if you choose to be happy during your journey, your destination will be so much happier and full of love that you’ve collected along the way. Although it’s not such a bad thing to be sad sometimes. Don’t repress your tears. Let them flow. And after you’re done, choose to be happy for what’s yet to come. Try not to cry for the same reason again. 5. Stop and look up at the sky. This world is getting faster and changing rapidly every millisecond. It’s okay if you feel like you’re behind. It’s not a competition; stop trying so hard to catch up. You’re breezing past momentary blessings because you’re too busy searching for temporary satisfaction. Take a break sometimes and let the universe pull you in into her vast arms. That’s a billion year old hug and you better appreciate it from time to time. 6. Stop destroying yourself. I know life sucks and people aren’t who they claim to be, but that’s not your fault. A moment of destruction can hinder you for years. You are as beautiful as the day the galaxies came together to produce this beautiful world we live in and nothing and no one can compare to that. If you want to destroy anything, destroy the old you. And replace it with a fresh, loving, kind bundle of ethereal beauty that is the new you. What have you learnt from 2017?”

— 6 things i learnt from 2017