Hidden Scribblin

A place to hide my writeing practice but feel free to look

[hiddenscribblin]

Cage short

Seren's heart beat against his chest rapidly he hadn't planned this far  certainly didn't plan to be trapped in a well trap. Damn he thought tapping the bars lightly with his nails. The pleasing tinks did little to assuage his displeasure. Pulling out a lock picking kit he began to funnel all of his focus into listening for the Tumblrs. He doubted the cage was even monitored anymore. He was growing hungry his fangs ached. The inconvenience was astonishing. It never ceased to fail…..he still hadn't mastered his alchemical solution to sate the hunger but he was close. He was hoping by the time he entered school he'd have it mastered and his step mother would no longer have a hold on him. Wishful thinking. He made nice on her experiments to mollify her at his father's request but it was tearing away at his control. He never felt himself when she was doing what she ever it was she did. But the blood ahhh the blood. He shivered, setting down the now snapped lock picking tools with a few choice curses. Seems today would just be another long and twisting day.

[hiddenscribblin]

Time Piece

another entry for practice this time

It wasnt the first time today seren found himself once again haunting the halls and stairways. One would think him a better keeper of time with his constant appointments and travel. He always reminded himself while pulling a pocket watch from his coat pocket and running a thumb over its simple surface. It was worn but sturdy.

A gift he had received the day before from someone he hoped he could remain in good graces with…Then again it was the same person he was now avoiding sitting upon the stairs in the old stairwell. He’d like to say he didn't reflect on his emotions often but it would be a lie. Valarian had given him quite the tumble down the rabbit hole and while he was sure it wasn't quite love yet it was quickly becoming so. 

It was the small gestures, The gifts, the sass, heck he was even beautiful for fucks sake so why couldnt he admit what was so clear. Was it his status in the complicated politics of nobles…No he was set on leaving that to his brother he was the crown prince to begin with. Perhaps it was nervousness he had been on edge most of the day and not just because of the hunger. 

It was the lingering fingers ghosting even now along his palm. Cascading warmth in soft patterns to the heart. A delicate smile graced his lips as he repocketed the watch. Perhaps it's not all that bad to let it sit its not like every problem needed an a solution. Perhaps with time he could even ask him on a date himself. Something to look forward to he hummed to himself standing the end of day bell were ringing time to pay a visit to a friend.

[hiddenscribblin]

Journal day 1

Your gunna get miscellaneous entry's from his journal now and again more than likely XD here's an eairly one

School year mid year 2 

specialist training: alchemy

Day 1

Today has been enlightening….I find myself rethinking views I had long since abandoned. I almost find myself reluctant to recount the day but allow me my records. I still wish to keep chronicles and this is no less important than the last. I will start at the beginning of the day.

I began the day much as I had all others. Unmotivated to learn that which I’ve already learned . I only continue for the enjoyment of seeing how others solve the same problems. It is good for maintaining my investigative openness.

I’ve made significant progress on my experimental potion to stem my ravenous habit. The wretched burden. I’ll not digress on this subject again but I’m close to a solution. I’ve started tests on a flower from home, a rare blue iridescent beauty. While normally toxic I think I may be able to neutralize the effects with another part of the plant. Most days I’m late are the fault of my experiment and a victim of my poor sense of time.

The first hours of daybreak I took notes and marked the ratios but the opening day bells tore me from my study ….late again. Honestly I’m not sure how my father maintains such standards. I chose to walk to school, my mind heavy with the future. After over 250 years while not old…I find my desire lacking for anything when left too long to my own devices. I don’t desire the throne and this has been the main thought haunting me. Not that it is unappealing mind you. My brother is next in line and my hopes to travel burn within. I long to travel the sea and the countries of this land but I fear the people will reject my brother. He has been harsh of late and I don’t know if it’s his mothers doing or if he himself is much like her. A selfish man who reaches only for their goal at the expense of others…..I know he is an effective commander and has the potential. I just wish it was not at her whim. 

While my mind was distracted in its gloom (a break is much needed I’ll make note to make time to read that book I’ve been meaning to find) Without cigfran around I find I easily overwork myself and what a cycle it has been. Many more thoughts danced in my head but cleared once I reached the classroom. The new faces plagued me with a sense of mischief. I felt bad for the poor student who was to be stuck with me but I needed something to break the monotony. 

I was directed to sit with a man who bore so much passion for his profession that it was actually quite refreshing. His name is Valarian Dubois. His family owns a tea shop and he talked quite openly about his home. Blast the teacher for interrupting my getting to know this Valarian better. A breath much needed….I think I will actually try to help him pass or at least pull my weight. I don’t think he’d let me get away with anything else. Our assignment drew us out of the classroom. Likely an assignment to familiarize one with the school grounds. A big focus of 2nd year was foraging. Surprisingly Val seems quite adept in these matters. His father taught him well. 

We talked of the local plants and fauna till we came across a fae creature… A pixy i believe. They don't much bother me but valarian must be a danger magnet for i've never seen an encounter with one go so poorly for a trade…..Perhaps I also could have helped solve the problem sooner. He was a bit mad but it felt endearing or something of the nature. The walk back there was surprisingly comfortable. silence spotted with other Various conversations. I think I may have found a friend potentially for the long run.  EOE.

[hiddenscribblin]

Song fic AU : I'm not a Vampire Revamped

Shall we start with my angst vampire boy

I was super into im not a vampire revamped and had it on repeat this was the only way to soothe the need to listen to it on repeat for another 24 hrs stright XD

Thank you XD

Seren knew he had fucked up but it was all so much he had been starving but right in the middle of a fucking set the venue owner limp in his arms. She was fine he had barely sunk his fangs in but when he looked up and saw vals back running and he could no longer continue. He hadn't meant to lie before when Val asked him what he was hiding. That mystery was what kept him and the few he had found safe. Away from trouble and the authorities. “Fuck.” he threw a bottle of blood infused whisky from where he had been pacing . He didn't get drunk but it helped with appearances. Rockers always had women and drugs right….parties late into the night …he honestly detested such things but he had to watch over the others to ensure they fed within the law. No changing or killing what an example he was.

Valarians face when he walked to stage haunted him as he walked up to the mic. This could be the last show with him…his only chance to explain. So he closed his eyes and began his powerful chord. 

“Well, I'm not a vampire but i feel like one

Sometimes I Sleep all day because I hate the sunlight.”

There he was, his face peering down from the empty 3rd floor balcony his heart quivered when their eyes met and he tore his back down to the crowd “ My hands are always shaking, Bodys always aching, and the Dark is when I Feed.”  It was the only way he could think to push the truth to get him to listen, maybe he wouldn't, maybe val would kill him…perhaps that was easier. 

Voice cracking over the next few lines “ Well, I can lure any woman that I want into my bed, with me. And Whisky seems to be my holy water. Mothers better lock your doors and hide your daughters. Cuz I'm insane.” He sure felt like it as he dared to look back up emotions overwhelming. “Well, I can feel it in my bones , coursing through my veins. When did i Become so Cold? For goodness’ sakes Where is my self Control?” 

For once he fell into it the pain breaking any mask he may have had, making it clear to val he was trying to let him in. He was going to loose himself if he didnt make a choice and this was it he just needed an answer… anything “ If home is where my heart is then my heart has lost all hope.”

The artificial tabs were failing and the whisky carried no life but he needed to finish this show so he took what he had left in the office anything. He could feel the effort to hold back even now “ Well i'm not a zombie but i feel like one. Today Self-induced comatose, Chemical daze. My head is always spinning from this dizzy, blurry vision and my stomach has had enough. I feel like a lady that is pregnant with a baby ‘cause im always throwing up.”

“HI my name is Seren, I'm an addict” Fuck it, seren hummed in his head takeing the mic and lifting the stand “Daddy should’ve never raised me on Black Sabbath” Chucking it aside he walked the stage repeating the chorus “ Im Insane, I can feel it in my bones , corseing through my veins, When did i Become so Cold? For goodness’ sakes Where is my self Control? If home is where my heart is then my heart has lost all hope.” 

It almost felt like a prayer…Funny. The ‘crowd’ called behind him “ When will you mortals believe ‘he’s not a vampire’, I just want the world to bleed ‘he's not a vampire’, Lust at the sight of your blood ‘he’s not a vampire’, And i swear i am not a ‘ he is not a , he is not a’ .”  He felt the Frustration tint his voice as a cry and continued rallying them and responding to the energy

 “God Bless all of you now, Cause I’m going straight to hell and i'm taking you all down with me ‘cause you know damn well.”

Relenting for a moment to breathe he continued closing his eyes feeling the words his own fangs dropping like props, “So I sharpen my teeth, 'cause I love the way it feels

When I sink into your skin and draw the only thing that's real …You don't believe me, should I write it in blood?” the anger drove inward as he screamed like his own well placed stake.

“You better drive that fuckin' stake right through my heart and try to run

Motherfucker, I'm a vampire. I'm Insane Well, I can feel it in my bones , coursing through my veins, When did i Become so Cold? For goodness’ sakes Where is my self Control? If home is where my heart is then my heart has lost all, My Heart has Fucking lost All….”

Please… he thought as he raised his voice to the sky and locked eyes once more praying  “My heart has lost all Hope 'he's lost all hope, he's lost all hope’  LONELY ‘ hes lost all hope’ My heart has lost all hope.” as he slowly ended the song he dropped the mic and bowed in one motion to hide his face, and walked to the back the sound of thundering cheers and the questioning looks of his peers too much everything in his heart open as his hands shook nowhere to hide from his own breaking heart when he was out of sight he ran stopping only once he reached the roof and could go no higher….Valarian was already there.

“I thought you’d come here…When you need an escape … you always go where you can be under the stars.” Valarian was perched on a railing. For a moment he debated running, the fluttering in his heart shook like birds in flight but he could no longer put off what was needed as Valarian waited for something…. “...Are you going to look at me?”

He heard the soft thump of valarian sliding off the rail. Hesitant steps followed as Seren drew his eyes up valarian began to speak again “ I think… somehow… I always knew. About you. What you are… and why you would be so afraid to tell me.” Eyes locked together, Val seemed to search for something, maybe some flicker of hope amongst the sheer sea of sadness consuming him. “ …How long have you suffered in Silence? Did you think I would run? After everything, did you think I'd give up on you?”

Seren folded his hands nervously before giving up and moving beside Val and reaching a hand in offering to hold before looking up at the stars to calm his heart. “ I was unsure …Panicked and in some ways I'm sure it was worse… I know you well enough to know you’d come looking for answers but not enough to know if you'd stay once you had them.” it was a soft and strained reply as his eyes drifted back “ Too long…I have hope but it's as fragile as glass. A flame that could easily get away from me.”

“Then come here…Let me protect your flame and you can tell me all that you wish to say.” Valarian's voice was softer now as he accepted Seren’s hand pulling him into a comforting hug , running a hand soothingly through his hair. “I’m listening Seren.”

Seren couldn't help but fold himself into the welcome embrace daring to hope “Love …” he couldn't get more out but val seemed to take mercy on him as his heart skipped a beat at the pet name, a smile gracing his features. Reaching over he gently curled a finger under serens chin to lift his head . “The night brings out the loveliest colors in your eyes. I've always thought so …and now I know the truth …and if I dare say so, I’m not in the least bit deterred in knowing it.” a soft laugh came at the loving look seren could feel pouring from his own eyes as val admired him. “ All I wish to know is how I can help. How can I ease whatever hurt you’ve been feeling?”

Seren felt a deep shaky breath he hadn't known he was holding leave him as he leaned in and captured Vals lips in a gentle languid kiss breaking it only after a moment. “I’ve never been in such a spell Valarian …Enchanted to my Very core. I’m afraid I'm lost in such unknown territory but if you are here with me as human or eternally bound then I will never cease in rejoicing…I know now you never left.”

“Of course not…” Valarian affectionately touched their noses together. “You needn’t fear about that any longer, My song in the night.”  A broad smile passed over valarian as he relaxed closing his eyes “Im glad your safe.”

Seren felt foolish for a moment but it was easily brushed aside with his love in his arms. “ Love, la mia stella nella notte… “ he hummed listing names he had used before until he rested on the last one beginning to sway them gently to a silent tune “My Heart…Thank you truely.”

Valarian sighed moving with seren as his sincere voice carried gently as a lullaby and the sincerity of his love was as clear as it had ever been. He wanted to stay like this forever. 

“...always.” He replied happily, stealing another kiss as they swayed in the light of the moon.

Seren found himself also wanting to remain and indulged in a few more moments of gentle care “I'm afraid I need to leave love. The night calls me and i can wait no longer to feed or ill get sick from the tabs i took.” Punctuating his disdain to leave with a gentle nuzzle and kisses to valarian’s Jaw. Leaning back just enough for the moon to caress the man's accented features casting him as an angel driving him to steal one last kiss. This was truely harder than rolling from bed.

“Go...” valarian urged, still flushed and giggling from the kisses “...Do what you need to do. Ill wait for you at the hotel.” With a soft smile slowly and reluctantly they began to part “ Just come back to me safe.”

“Always.” Seren echoed back heart aflutter. Taking his leave with a leap from the edge and Shifting into a large raven he circled once and darted away into the night.