over the bend, entirely bonkers

✧ - gnawing on the bishops, claw our way up their system. repeating simple p h r a s e s, someone HOLY insisted. i want the MARKINGS made on my skin to mean something to me again. hope you haven't left W I T H O U T me, please. don't forget about me, don't forget about ME. even when i doubt you, i'm no good without you. ✵ hilarie ross burton. 34. hudson valley, ny.mother. actress. activist. ♡

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Z: i think a smore a day keeps the chaos away.

H: that's a wonderful motto. you should put that on a sign and sell them.

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Z: smores make the world a happier place.

H: this is the definitive truth. the world needs more happy.

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Z: i really can't trust anyone who doesn't like smores. there is no trust to be had there.

H: that's so true. if they don't like smores, it just makes me assume that they don't enjoy happiness.

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perriics:

・゜* ★ — trust me, i remind myself every day just ‘ow lucky i am t’ influence so many people in the best o’ ways. whether it be music, interviews, or anythin’ i do really. s’always really lovely t’ know ye’ give n’ get such a positive influence just by writing some lyrics, or even just givin’ someone advice, i think that’s one o’ me favorite things ‘bout me job as well. thank you though !! took a load o’ ‘ard work but, whether or not it was number one doesn’t matter as long as the fans loved it.

well it's good that you feel that way. some people don't take the platform that they have very seriously and it's a shame. you use your voice and your music for good and it's refreshing to see in the age of social media and all the fighting going on between public figures. stay humble and kind as long as you possibly can.

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Z: at least someone shares the same idea as me.

H: smores are legit the best thing on this planet

H: my little boy likes them a lot too so i gotta keep him happy.

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perriics:

・゜* ★ — i just prefer things t’ be real n’ raw y’know ?? like i think that’s why shows get so big is because they’re real life shit instead o’ just tryin’ t’ cover it up with perfect relationships n’ friendships, reckon if a show was all about that it would get EXTREMELY boring. people get extremely attached t’ television characters, especially on a deep emotional level … s’crazy but i can definitely relate t’ the fact. oh definitely, our fans ‘ave the craziest stories n’ theories n’ whatnot, but i guess that’s the joy o’ bein’ famous sometimes. either way though, we’ve gotten number one with this recent album n’ i couldn’t be ‘appier.

i feel the same way. i just find it amazing how we can impact so many people and draw out such raw emotion with what we do. whether it's playing a character or singing a song, we can get these emotions out of people and make them feel such strong things. it amazes me every single time i talk to a fan or go to work. it's why i love what i do so much. number one? that's incredible! congratulations.

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Z: a little word of advice, don't build a bon fir in the hills unless you wanna have the fire department knocking down your door.

Z: i just wanted some fuckin' smores..

H: i'm assuming that you mean the hollywood hills? don't you guys have fires out there all the time?

H: hey man i would risk the fire department at my house for smores too.

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perriics:

・゜* ★ — cause it’s real !! s’not like some sugar coated life bullshit type o’ deal. everyone goes through breakups n’ cheaters n’ just everythin’ peyton did, n’ i think that’s such a wonderful thing t’ make sure that viewers are watchin’ like, somethin’ they can even test off o’ life experiences. i appreciate that in shows, even music y’know ?? i think it’s just somethin’ nice t’ see that artists write ‘bout their feelings n’ whatnot, or life experiences. well the last couple we ‘ave, this past one we sorta did like some o’ it we did write n’ ‘ave influence on, the other ‘alf not so much so it just ultimately depended. 

oh that's the god's honest truth. the last thing we did on that show was sugar coat anything. we covered so many horrible topics and so many things happened that you could pretty much find someone and something to relate to no matter who you are. i never understood why people were so mad about chad and i leaving after season six until i started doing these conventions and hearing the fans' stories. i imagine you feel the same when fans talk to you about your songs. it really blows you away. well that's still good that you had at least some influence.

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ffvckhaz:

    ‘that’s a good middle ground, yeah. like, stand up for what you believe in, but, y’know, be calm and cool about it. seems like a SMART KID, though, he’ll pick that up! and he’ll no doubt be your best mate, jus’ don’t let him turn into too much of a mummy’s boy, i speak from experience. we’re quite demanding. augustus? that’s adorable! i love it.’

i don't really want him to be a mama's boy cause i don't need a thirty-something boy living with me and making me do everything for him still. i want him to be independent and successful and not rely on his parents for everything in life. and he's already on the right track for that. well thank you. we loved it as well which is why we stuck with it.

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thischickjnels:

You’ve got a cool son Hil. I don’t know much about parenting but I do know being childish is much more fun then responsible, so I get your dilemma… kind of.

well thank you. i think he's pretty adorable and hilarious myself. i would definitely agree with that statement. but both me and my son's father are like big kids so that's probably where he gets that goofy nature.

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troyeism:

“oh my, i would love to! if i’m ever in the area i would for sure babysit for ‘ya.”

that's a very nice offer, troye, thank you. teach him how to be musically gifted like you and i will be forever in your debt.

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hbugomez:

Don’t me wrong, i think it’s pretty good training for whenever i do have kids, two little sisters are good practise, don’t you think? See that is what is making me excited to start my own family some day, do you mind me asking how old were you, when you had your son?

having younger siblings is definitely good practice. i have three younger brothers so that definitely helped me to be ready when my son came along. i was about to turn twenty-eight when i had gus. i wasn't too old but i wasn't really all that young either.

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hbugomez:

Wow ops, i feel so outta of the loop here!! I’m very sorry, i had no idea that you were pregnant or anything, i blame Sophia for this normally, normally she keeps me up to date on her friends life and i’m not even kidding! Damn, i wish i would have seen this! I bet i would have laughed, or try not to laugh and just walk away while laughing.

it's not really sophia's fault. my son's father and i wanted the pregnancy to be very private and not have anyone really know about it. no one even knew we were parents until paparazzi caught us one day in an airport with our son. that's when people lost their minds about it. it was pretty hilarious after the fact but not as it was happening.

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perriics:

・゜* ★ — well it was a pretty fantastic series so i can definitely understand why ye’ would be most proud o’ that one. s’definitely a solid bit o’ character development, which o’ course is always good when it comes down t’ a shower, innit ?? oh wow, that’s definitely a major accomplishment, i know ye’ barely know me n’ that but m’like insanely proud o’ ye’. um, maybe our get weird album ?? glory days as well ?? those are pretty big accomplishments o’ mine. so definitely those two !!

i go to these conventions a lot for fans of the show and so many girls come up to me and tell me how much having a character like peyton on television helped them. it's amazing to me how i could portray someone that had such an impact on so many people. makes me feel proud and as if i did her justice which was my main goal. well thank you, i'm proud of you as well. we need some more kick ass females out there going after what they want and not taking no for an answer. did you get to do more writing on those albums?

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jelcna:

really? well hey, that’s even more reason into considering moving there. it’s always good to be able to get away from the public eye for a while. right? i mean, i don’t sound ridiculous saying that do i?

you don't sound ridiculous saying that at all. it's one of the main reasons i live anywhere but los angeles and new york. i go to each city for work a lot but i refuse to live there. i don't want the madness that comes along with it.

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jdmcrgans:

“don’t what, hil? don’t tell you that i still love you? oh fucking well, get over it. i don’t care how many times you tell me not to love you it won’t change the fact that i do. no matter where our lives end up, or if you get another husband later on down the road, i will always love you. you are the mother of my son, and you were there for me through everything. that kind of love just doesn’t fade over night.” he took one final look at the license in his hand, before he sat them back down on the desk. “at some point you have to forgive me.”

looking down as he spoke, she shook her head and felt more tears fall down her cheeks. "how can i forgive you when they are still in your life? i know for a damn fact you still talk to one of them and you can deny it all you want but i know you do. how can i possibly trust you again?" shaking her head, she ran her fingers through her hair and sniffled. "who's to say you won't go running back to them or other girls if you start feeling that way again? see, you think that it's the sex that fucked with me the most. but what really did it was the fact that you were going through things and feeling things but instead of coming to me, you went to them. that's not love."