My little heart lives with these two ♡ The books are chaos and their lives were chaos but I love the little soft moments they so very often still manage to have
Story rambling (harsh childhood discussion):
Rick struggled with a lot of different things, as you do once life becomes as troubled as Rick’s was. Among these things was his terrible insomnia, and it was one of the reasons why he struggled with drinking as much as he did later in life. Before he was in therapy, once he couldn’t live in his own head awake and nightmares took away his sleep, alternatives often seemed alluring, no matter how destructive they were.
A huge reason behind his bad sleep wasn’t even the Underground, but his late father Rostya. He was the one Rick so very often refused even acknowledging the existence of due to just how big of a stain he left on his life, the main perpetrator behind Rick’s restless nature and broken fight or flight instinct.
Rostya was a very frightening man, an extremely man1pulative person who, in a lot of ways, got destroyed by his own selfishness and decided to overpower the only thing he still had authority over – his own son. Across many years, he not only isolated Rick, but ensured him they were two pieces of the same puzzle. And Rostya was, above all, an extremely cruel, possessive man, and he broke Rick’s identity to the point that he couldn’t see himself as anything but a reflection of his father, just an extension of the most vile person he had ever known. It was Rostya’s treatment that eventually lead Rick to making the desperate decision that would change the course of his entire life.
Some way, somehow, throughout everything he had been through, Rick managed to collect a small circle of people that saw behind the lies his father and later even Kendle fed him. In a lot of ways, FJ simply making sure the rare hours of sleep Rick gets were spent in a safe, comfortable space helped heal bits and pieces of that shy, quiet kid who needed to change everything about himself to merely survive another day.
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🥹🥹🥹 this continues to be up there on my list of absolute favorites from you boo 💕💕💕 I adore the softness, the tenderness, the SAFETY portrayed here ❤️ The warm light of the lamp beside these darlings really sets the scene so beautifully agh it's so inviting 😭❤️
Finally papa Rick gets some more moments of peace and quiet and he gets to SLEEP 😭😭 The typewriter on his lap always makes me emotional too like *sobs* he gets to do his favorite thing in the world and people love him for it and devour his works ❤️❤️❤️ I need a whole trilogy with nothing but slice of life things like this with absolutely ZEROOOO angst and sadness and hardships PRETTY PLEASE?? 🤣😭❤️💕❤️💕❤️
