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perrie / ooc diamonds on my neck, i’ll shine for you

[holdingfires]

Big Nervous

[felinetay]

there’s nothing

like a mad woman

[arab-quotes]

“And I say to myself: A moon will rise from my darkness.
 وأَقول لنفسِي: سَيطلعُ مِن عَتْمَتِي قَمَر.”

— Mahmoud Darwish

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hhhhhhhhhhhhhhHhhh

[nedlittle]

landscape with a blur of conquerors - richard siken webcam footage from the amundsen scott south pole research station good bones - maggie smith fata morgana -  gundula blumi franz marc’s blue horses - mary oliver niagara falls (12.31.19)

[holdingfires]

LOVE being told i’m not important 🤩

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yeah, i’m mad. i’m furious actually. this was all just potential talk, i was being open with jamie and honest, not leaving it until the last minute. i told him i’d try and get an answer back to him by the weekend at the latest as i know he’s got other commitments and he even said he needs an answer by the weekend. i didn’t tell jade that, because i knew it wouldn’t sit well with her. he’s acting as if this is something in my control; like i could help the fact that my best friend got pregnant and that we’re in the middle of recording new stuff. it’s such a double fucking standard that i’m supposed to be able to cope with him cross country and having such an extreme schedule for hockey, but as soon as i need to do something relating to the band, all hell breaks loose.

[holdingfires]

[qatarillicious]

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yeah!

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getting ignored is nice :)

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i know i’ve been really difficult to deal with lately and i’m not entirely too sure why and it sucks just giving the excuse “haha i’m just anxious sorry!” 

LIKE what’s wrong? what’s happening? i’m like. low-key second guessing everything in life atm, and i’m not too sure why? like. it’d be so much more logical for me to be feeling this way if there was something CAUSING it but there isn’t. jade’s been asking me what’s up, i’m assuming she can tell something is off, but i really don’t know what to tell her? poor jamie’s been getting the brunt of it, i’m just hot and cold with him at the moment and i’m trying to not be because it’s not something he’s caused or even deserves to go through. i feel awful/weird talking to aly about it because i know she’s got her own issues at the moment with the wedding/lack thereof and probably other stuff. I Don’t Know. 

maybe it’s worthwhile talking to someone of a professional capacity?

[holdingfires]

idk i’m probably just being an anxious piece of shit

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won’t lie i sort of hoped for a better reaction than oh .... nice

[hcneysuck1e]

tiny hearts generate above my head when i think of u

[holdingfires]

i’m overthinking it’s fine i’m fine