I AM AND I AM NOT.

like a shadow, i am and i am not. LAUDNA of cr, c3. brought back by KIT. spoilers ahoy !

[hollowd]

#HOLLOWD ; // you don’t get to die and be reborn the same. you come back, but you come back wrong. this is the price you pay for resurrection. ( x. ) 

               → this is an independent roleplay blog for LAUDNA of critical role, campaign 3. this blog is not spoiler free, considering the campaign is currently on-going and continuous. while i’ll try to tag things accordingly for spoilers, i can’t promise i won’t make a mistake here or there considering the nature of development for this blog. 

previously on @sunflwrrs​​. 

brought back by KIT. ( 25 + , mst. ) 

PROMO. , GUIDELINES. , INFO. 

[i-can-drill]

Some "fun scary" babes for the week <3

[hollowd]

laudna wanting to interrogate @myrlin bc of imogen ( @temultuous ) : i just want to talk! he’s quite pretty. does he eat bones by chance? me: laudna, nO. LEAVE HIM BE. laudna: 😞

[hollowd]

stormlit​. ( fearne. ) 

dnd call / @hollowd​

        ❝ that thing you can do, where you go all black and terrifying? ❞ fearne mimes what she thinks it looks like, fingers becoming claws; she knows that she looks gentle as can be, and uses it to her advantage. what? sometimes killing is fun. it’s even more fun when people aren’t expecting it of you. the people she kills deserve it, as would the one she threatens. ( nobody hurts her friends. ) laudna happens to be the opposite. she looks imposing, but fearne thinks she’s just lovely.  ❝ it’s very impressive. is that–is that something you can teach? ❞

         laudna’s hooked on fearne’s every word, her expression growing rapidly with more delight. of all these eccentric people they’ve managed to bond with, fearne might possibly be one of laudna’s favorites. she laughs, clapping her hands in genuine appreciation of fearne’s attempt to imitate what it is the hollow one can do. “oh, you know... i don’t quite know. imogen has all her own talents and gifts and outside of pâté, i’ve had no one to teach it to. or to even try to teach it to.” she reaches for fearne’s hands, clasping them gently, but excitedly. “we should try! not that you aren’t absolutely fabulous without needing my tricks, but could you imagine how terrifying you’d be if you could just... drip away and crick-crack at will.”

still holding her hand with one of hers, she uses the other to fan herself. 

[hollowd]

@arcanaem​ ( fcg ! ) 

            “little robit,” laudna says, gesturing to fresh cut grass with a spindly wave of her fingers. she crouches, more fitting to be at their level as opposed to towering above. she smiles, a genuine gesture in spite of the way her mouth seems to crack at the seams and pull a little too wide. “do you eat bones?” her eyes are wide, curious. “it isn’t metal. no copper. but the nutritional value of bones is surely something you could ... obtain by chewing away at them.”  her gaze doesn’t waver from fresh cut grass, but her mouth moves, and her voice sounds muffled. “ehhh, just wonderin’ if you’re gonna eat me!” 

laudna laughs, patting pâté at her side.

           “yes, pâté is just curious, but by no means is being rude about it!”

           “speak for yourself, laudna.” 

            “do be quiet, pâté, letters wants to speak.” 

[gemstole-deactivated20211219]

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦? 𝘪'𝘷𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘨𝘶𝘪𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬. 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰𝘵? independent 𝐒𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐄 from 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐒 𝐕: 𝐒𝐊𝐘𝐑𝐈𝐌. crossover and original character friendly. with verses in 𝚊 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚜, 𝚍𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚜, and more!

[i-hate-life-so-so-much]

[ravenflew]

                         𝐰𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢 , 𝐛𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰.                          𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢 𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 - - 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐞…                                           independent   d&d  based  fantasy  oc                                                              rolled  by  kay

[chaosfleur-a]

ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀꜰᴜʟ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ .

a role-play blog for critical role’s artagan. loved by megan. ( template credit )

[hollowd]

i’ll be catching up on the latest episode tonight when i get home from work and then jumping back into the replies / memes i owe! 

CONSIDER THIS A STARTER CALL THOUGH. give this a like! multis please specify which muse you’d like for it to be written for.

[hollowd]

shout out to my bestie loml ( @moonflwrrs ) for the dash icon ._. 

[hollowd]

@temultuous​ says ❛  being  alone  was  never  hard  before  i  met  you .  ❜ ( meme. ) 

the pair has retired again to the safety of zhudanna’s humble set up. she murmurs to herself, knitting in her chair until inevitably falling asleep. in the candlelight that flickers and wanes, imogen and laudna sit. there’s much on imogen’s mind, laudna wouldn’t need to be particularly perceptive to take heed of that. since bertrand’s death, since the nightmares, since this whole quest, she’s seemed to fall further into herself. laudna’s only fear, and she isn’t one to boast much in the way of fear, was imogen slipping beyond where she could be reached. perhaps it’s laudna’s staring that prompts her companion, but regardless the hollow one smiles. 

           “i could say the same. i’d made peace with being ... removed from others, if you will.” their stares, their whispers, the rumors. and then there was imogen. so wholly unlike the rest. “just me and pâté,” she pats the rat strung up at her side, pausing for only a moment should he like to interject. he doesn’t. 

“as splendid company as he is, rude as he can be, but then you came along and now i wouldn’t have it any other way.” and she means it. smile in tow, pulling higher at the left side of her mouth, she uses her finger to stir her boiling cup of tea. black drips in with the liquid, but it isn’t as if she minds it. “hard or not, imogen, it isn’t something you’ll have to face again — being alone. i’m not going anywhere you aren’t going as well. even if this little adventure we have with our new friends goes south, i’ll remain.” 

with a graceful lift of the chipped cup, she toasts to their friendship and sips in delight.

[hollowd]

i just wanted to say that moonflwrrs/stella introduced me to your characterization of laudna and WHEW YOU OUT HERE DOIN' THE BEST BABY. keep it up!!!!!! <3

i tRIED TO FIND A GIF TO REPLY TO THIS WITH BECAUSE IM RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CHICKEN WITHOUT A HEAD AND THAT SOUNDS MORBID BUT THAT'S ON BRAND FOR LAUDNA BUT ANYWAY tHANK YOU SO MUCH fjlksDJFA ?!?!?!?! JSDLKFJA i have no words and you've made my day and i adore you already and i hope you're ready for laudna to be thrown your way ._. <3 i am forever grateful to stella for introducing me to CR and to laudna and now to you!  ; @wolveshowling !

[hollowd]

setting up shop here ( doing the guidelines right now ) and all that before i dive in with ask replies. thanks in advance for the follows / interest! i love laudna and i love writing her so i’m excited to continue on with her. ._.

[hollowd]

I FOUND YOU !           independent LAUDNA of critical role, c3. brought back by KIT. ( 25 +, mst. ) * not spoiler free, though tagged. * 

[ohisms]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰 .   (   sentence  starters  taken  from  /  inspired  by  volume  one  of  ‘ soft thorns ’  by  bridgett  devoue .  triggering  themes  may  be  implied .)

❛  you  are  the  brave  one .   ❜ ❛  you  make  me  brave ,  &  i’ll  forever  be  grateful  for  that . ❜ ❛  i  was  born  with  wide  eyes  &  a  fragile  heart . ❜ ❛  i  feel  everything  so  deeply .  ❜ ❛  i  am  not  yours .  ❜ ❛  you  never  asked  if  i  wanted  a  guest .  ❜ ❛  this  is  why  no  one  loves  you .  ❜ ❛  beauty  does  not  solve  problems .  ❜ ❛  someone  once  told  me  they  were  scared  of  the  truth  in  my  eyes .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  remember  love  as  a  child .  ❜ ❛  a  fantasy  in  real  life  is  also  known  as  a  lie .  ❜ ❛  i  was  eager  to  prove  i  was  good  enough .  ❜ ❛  scars  may  fade ,  but  they  last  forever .  ❜ ❛  i  always  scared  everyone  away .  ❜ ❛  i  kept  this  dream  hidden  away .  ❜ ❛  i  used  to  think  love  wasn’t  for  me .  that  i  wasn’t  worthy .  ❜ ❛  your  love  is  like  an  exorcism .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  one  who  reminded  me  i  have  a  pulse .  ❜ ❛  there  is  an  unspoken  truth  between  us .  ❜ ❛  i  crave  you ,  even  though  i  know  you  will  destroy  me .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  standing  there  watching  me  burn ,  wearing  that  crooked  smile  of  yours .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i’m  not  perfect ,  but  i  felt  pretty  damn  close  to  it  when  i  was  in  your  arms .  ❜ ❛  in  another  lifetime ,  we  have  definitely  done  this  before .  ❜ ❛  i  never  thought  i  would  be  a  good  mother .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  love  you  back  together .  ❜ ❛  we  have  this  divine  bond  between  us .  divine  in  the  way  that  it’s  certainly  not  from  this  lifetime .  ❜ ❛  my  soul  craves  a  love  that’s  undeniably  real .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  experience  why  we’re  here  on  earth .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  tell  you  everything .  ❜ ❛  hell  is  watching  something  that  was  your  everything  slip  away  &  not  being  able  to  do  anything  about  it .  ❜ ❛  i  can  tell  that  when  i’m  with  you ,  you’re  with  her .  ❜ ❛  why  is  it  that  everyone  can  see  i’m  suffering  but  you ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  pretend  like  we’re  friends .  ❜ ❛  it’s  so  painful  to  talk  to  you ,  because  i  just  remember  everything  you  turned  out  not  to  be .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  how  to  fall  asleep  anymore .  ❜ ❛  are  you  pretending  to  forget  me ,  too ?  ❜ ❛  i  can  still  close  my  eyes  &  trace  every  curve  &  dip  of  your  soul .  ❜ ❛  those  who  don’t  believe  in  ghosts  have  never  had  a  broken  heart .  ❜ ❛  god ,  you’re  beautiful .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i  should ,  but  i’m  not  ready  to  give  up  your  memory .  ❜ ❛  i  never  told  you  how  much  you  hurt  me .  ❜ ❛  i  keep  falling  in  love  with  souls  that  feel  like  yours .  ❜ ❛  being  alone  was  never  hard  before  i  met  you .  ❜ ❛  you  must  think  i’m  crazy  for  missing  something  i  never  even  had .  ❜ ❛  i’m  lonely ,  but  i  don’t  want  company .  ❜ ❛  you  walked  away  far  too  easily  for  me  to  believe  it  was  ever  really  love .  ❜ ❛  you  never  loved  me .  ❜ ❛  when  you’ve  been  fed  lies  for  so  long ,  you  eventually  lose  your  appetite  for  love .  ❜ ❛  i  have  nothing  left  to  say  to  you .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  know  all  the  ways  i  died  for  you .  ❜ ❛  ‘goodbye’  is  easy .  everything  after  that  is  the  hard  part .  ❜ ❛  even  though  you  turned  out  to  be  a  liar ,  within  me  grew  a  love  that  was  the  most  pure  &  honest  thing  i’ve  ever  known .  ❜ ❛  nothing  was  ever  easy ,  but  maybe  that’s  the  beauty  of  it .  ❜ ❛  i  am  everything  that  you  are  not .  ❜ ❛  love  is  a  necessary  tragedy .  ❜ ❛  there  are  people  who  don’t  want  you  to  heal .  ❜ ❛  remember :  you  are  not  their  prey .  ❜ ❛  you  have  more  power  than  you  know .  ❜ ❛  the  most  dangerous  thing  we  can  do  is  forget  how  to  feel .  ❜ ❛  you  will  be  safe  in  the  right  hands .  ❜ ❛  love  makes  us  immortal  in  the  hearts  of  others ,  but  mortal  in  our  fear  that  it  could  all  be  gone  someday .  ❜ ❛  we’re  only  haunted  by  the  things  we  refuse  to  accept .  ❜ ❛  we  are  not  born  broken .  ❜ ❛  time  will  either  heal  you  or  kill  you .  ❜

[vethbrenatto]