silveranddittanyâ | MR. AVOIDING THE INEVITABLE
Those hackles he didnât have, at present, were smoothing out. Bit by bit. Lynch would stay quiet. From another werewolf, heâd actually trust that. Sheâd understand. Right? Then again, who was he to guess at what other werewolves understood about a life like his? Most of them hadnât been so lucky - to carry on with any secrets to keep, in the first place. That had become so painfully clear during all his time away. Those werewolves, out there, theyâd wound up known. By family, friends. People who used to be those things, before. Who vanished, after. Or turned them out. Despised them. A betrayal quick as whiplash, in most cases.Â
The last thing Remus wanted to wonder after was how fast the Order would turn on him, given reason to. The last fucking thing in the world.Â
âAfraid not,â he grimaced, then⌠âWish I did, tell you the truth. Could use a bit of that.â A few fingers of whiskey never hurt, when he was. Remus gave her offer a momentâs thought, then anotherâs. She seemed well. Had some spark, even. Certainly didnât look as if carrying breakfast would be any imposition. Ran wild, heâd guess. Always made it easier, physically, at least. Remus had to admit that. His nights spent out with the Marauders, the packs, too, hadnât been anywhere near as brutal as the moons he spent closed in, alone. In the Shack. Or that old cellar, back home. Dark and dank. Claustrophobic.Â
But thatâs where he went, given the choice. Where he had to go. Because nothing scared Remus as shitless as the thought of the thing under his skin, free beneath the moonlight. That, over everything, was the worst part of his work for Dumbledore. Accepting that heâd have to turn loose, like they did. And heâd done it. Needed to. Fuck, though - every time was just as terrifying as the last. Every damn time.
Honora, she wasnât half so frightening. Didnât mean he was certain of her. But he was certain enough, anyway. Remus, sore, grateful, handed the basket over. âIf itâs no trouble, ta. Very much.â Then off they went, limping along through the tall paddock grass. He swallowed, nodded, flatly. âAh⌠yeah. Rough. That - that about sums it up.â Could it? Please? Sinking his hands into the warmth of his coat pockets, Remus looked over, prepared to swing the small talk elsewhere. âWere you back in Ireland, before here?â No mistaking the accent. âLiked the mountains. You know the Reeks, right? Fuckinâ beautifulâŚâ And too cold and rugged to draw too many visitors. Safer, in other words. For them, and everyone else.Â
Settling the basket in the crook of her arm, flashing another smile, more tinged with sympathyâhe was still feeling the full moon clearly. Where had he spent it? Not with them down in the woods, she suspected. How did he handle himself? There was a dreadful suspicion that he simply didnât.Â
Jerking her head in a nod, she eyed him speculatively. âYeah, I know them, and thems that run there.â Hadnât realized heâd swung through those parts; the Reek pack was far from friendly to outsiders and strangers. Kind of surprising heâd survived in one piece, especially if he went around with that blatantly English accent he was sporting. Proper Irish bastards, the lot of the Reeks, with a tendency to go full feral to keep interlopers away and out of their business.
âBut before here, I was in ZimbabweâRhodesia,â she supplied for him, if he wasnât up to date on his global geopolitics. âWorking a job. Some wards on an abandoned farmstead were unraveling and running into some of the native magics. Got messy.â She shrugged; there was a lot of that going around, as the former British populace left and the original culture and magics started to bloom again slowly. âI travel a lot,â she offered in explanation.