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buddie rivals to lovers au where they're applying for the same jobs and have interviews back to back. they never end up getting any of the jobs.

maybe it ends with buck and/or eddie getting a job as a firefighter and saving the other (inspiring him to be a firefighter too?). or it ends with them finally getting a job, only to be coworkers?

idk how to finish this. anyways, can you tell im having troubles finding a job?

[howdoichooseablogname]

sorry for being inactive recently. im in the process of moving cities and its hard finding a job

anyways, i plan on writing my fic as well as maybe some microfics or just putting ideas and aus into the world more frequently

all if that including stress from work. just found out some coworkers have 'expressed worries' about me to our supervisor and just found out on my last shift. so yeah 🙃🙃🙃

anyways, if anybody has advice it'll be great, thanks

[howdoichooseablogname]

i have finally posted chapter 1 of my fic!!!

You and I Were Meant to be More Than a Faded Memory

"Well, they are only picking one person per station. And," Buck tried to explain, just coming off as more arrogant. He tried to think of something to say to lighten the mood. Stories about Max usually would lighten the mood, and he knows he has something about Max and calenders, probably. "Wow, that is a beautiful man," Chimney cut Buck off. "Where's the lie, and I like girls," Hen agreed. Buck slowly turned around to look at who they were talking about. It must be a new person, probably B shift. However, when he saw who they were looking at, he was changing into a work shirt. Clearly, a new member of the team. Buck saw red. It was the asshole from Texas, here in L.A. or; Buck had a one night stand years ago that resulted in his son Max. The alpha he slept with turned out to be a cheater so he left. Years later, after being a firefighter for a year, the man is there in the fire station.

this was supposed to be a one shot, but it got so long i have decided to make it a three shot. anyways, it's omegaverse buddie where life would be easier if they actually talked to each other, but alas.

it will have a happy ending because as i grow older i appreciate a happy ending more. but it will be a ride to get there.

[howdoichooseablogname]

sorry for not posting for a while. i am having some mental health problems

i also hurt my wrist (i'm just hoping it isn't carpal tunnel syndrome). i have a doctors appointment this week.

i have a new fic i'm gonna be posting soon. i just need to read through chapter 1 and make some minor edits. and i need to think of a story title for it.

[howdoichooseablogname]

clearly the season will end with all the 118 dying and, one character (or multiple) start blinking awake

its because they all (including bobby) wake up, like a year or so, in the past. whether or not this was a dream or time travel is up to the viewer. but everyone lives and is happy and alive

season 9 will be the redo of season 8 (or the last 2 or 3 seasons idk)

[howdoichooseablogname]

wip wednesday (current word count: 1,841)

this is an angsty soulmate au i'm working on. i'm just proud of how i wrote (about) ali (she will have a proper scene for the breakup)

yes i know i still have 4 wips i should work on, but i really want something angsty right now

also, yes, qpr ali with her soulmate. and yes, this will be buddie endgame.

(spellchecked) written snippet under the cut.

Buck agreed to go on a date with Ali, the woman he and Eddie saved from a hotel during the earthquake. She was fun and reminded him of his first girlfriend. While she has the ability to write to her soulmate, she and her soulmate both agree they don't want a romantic relationship with each other. That Ali can date whomever she wishes.

Buck was okay with that. It's just like every other person he's ever dated. This time, though, she was honest about her soulmate. Honest that there was no chance Buck was hers.

So, whenever Ali was in L.A. the two of them would go on dates. They would have fun. She never called him a whore or a slut for not waiting for his soulmate. She called him bold, strong, kind, amazing. Buck knew he could fall in love with her.

[howdoichooseablogname]

fuck canon

bobby lives in my heart

[howdoichooseablogname]

i want to watch the newest 911 episode but i watch with family. my mom said after lunch. it's 2. my sibling is still asleep and my mom is watching a true crime video

im literally on the verge of watching it myself because i think i saw a spoiler last night (pretending i didn't). my family got the same spoiler and want to wait. but i need to watch now

its just frustrating

[howdoichooseablogname]

911 fic recs 2 - buddie fic recs 2

ones that make me smile or laugh

come and be my baby by colonoscopys (locked)

He recognizes that he’s faintly stepping into the hazing sort of entry requirement. It doesn’t help that Eddie’s mouth flattens to the level of desert plains, sweat still cascading down the long length of his throat. “Buck, I don’t know what the hell your problem is—” Buck cuts him off. “Is that so, princess?” Eddie breathes through his nose, looking up at him. But before he can, his eyes flicker down to his lips. Just for a moment. Just for a second.

21, 165 words | 1 chapter | complete | teen

i love this fic so much! the silliness of the pet names, the beginning of buddie where buck didn't like eddie. puts a smile on my face (not-really angst with this though. it's hard to explain without spoiling. there isnt really angst, just self-sabotage) also, shannon is in this and shes great

Drastic Measures by paleredheadinascifi

Eddie was once proud to say that he’d never, in his life, posted a thirst trap. Alas. @.eddiaz followed @.firehose @.eddiaz posted a new photo @.eddiaz liked 3 of @.firehose’s photos  Or, Eddie tries to thirst trap his best friend. Easy, right?

1, 619 words | 1 chapter | complete | teen

this is hilarious and puts a smile. i absolutely love it. all the different interactions between the various characters. the first buck interaction is my favourite though

my man says he loves me (never says he loves me not) by colonoscopys (locked)

croakett: I don’t know what to do tubbalubb: me neither He stares at the screen. Is this the correct time to bring up Buck’s abs? croakett: I’m pretty new here. Just signed up tubbalubb: okay well i love my best friend more than you love your best friend croakett: Um croakett: No I don’t think that’s what we’re supposed to do tubbalubb: oh

9, 713 words | 1 chapter | complete | general

i love fics like this. the mutual pining. the anonymous "i love my best friend" to your best friend is always amazing. love the ending so much (spoiler: there is a little fight between buddie close to the end if you want no angst whatsoever)

i tried to keep this angst free, what little "angst" there is almost wouldn't be qualified as angst. but i did warn in case you were looking for happy fluff. something stressful happened this morning which made me put this list together.

these aren't everything in my bookmarks, but i think keeping it 3 at a time is manageable.

as always, if you liked any of these please send a kudos or a comment their way.

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these are snippets of my 4 current wips (in image form) written versions will be under read more. each fic is coloured with heart emoji

these are all the first hundred or so words of each fic. they are all unedited nor are they proofread

💚 (green) [t rating]

🩶 (gray) [t rating]

🩵 (light/baby blue) [t or m rating]

🖤 (black) [t rating]

non-image written under read more

💚 (green) [t rating]

2010

It was a sunny day when Eddie's world fell apart. The stories always claim it's going to be cloudy, there will be rain. The outside weather matching what they feel inside.

But, it was sunny. And Eddie didn't feel sunny at all. He knew his world was falling apart.

It all started when he was in high school.

Eddie had presented as an omega pretty early. He was 12 and the only one in his class who had presented. However, being a male omega in his world was not a good thing. So, his family hid it. He wasn't Eddie Diaz the omega. With the help of an underground doctor, he became Eddie Diaz the alpha.

When he started high school, he met her. Shannon. The only other person thier age who has presented as something other than beta.

While she introduced herself as an omega, Eddie could tell it was a lie. Despite that, they became fast friends. It was only after asking her to a school dance in senior year that he learned she was, in fact, an alpha. He told her the truth about himself then too.

🩶 (gray) [t rating]

2023 - Fall

It was a good day. Chimney and Maddie were hosting a party in celebration of them buying a house that day. Meanwhile, Maddies parents and Albert were going to be there in a few days for a family celebration.

Buck was the first to arrive, knocking at their door half an hour before lunch. When Maddie opened the door he held out a reusable bag with a grin.

"Guess who brought lunch!" He announced as he entered their house. He must have been told by Maddie that the house wasn't ready to live in because he didn't question how disheveled it was.

"If its not mac'n'cheese you're fired," Chimney joked as he entered the living room. Buck just turned to face Chimney with a sly smile.

"Well, I guess I'm not gonna be helping with dinner tonight," Buck joked right back. Maddie playfully slapped Buck's arm before grabbing the food.

🩵 (light/baby blue) [t or m rating]

2014 - Spring

Evan was driving by Texas when he decided to stop by a bar. He was on the way to sign up for the Navy SEALS.

At the bar he flirted with an alpha and ended up bringing him to his motel room. There they had fun.

Limbs tangled together, mouths pressed upon each other, breaths whispered with each other's names.

It was the best sex Buck has ever had. He was almost tempted to stay a little longer just so he could know the alpha better.

Only, in the morning, he woke up to an empty bed. On the nightstand was a note, more of a letter really. After reading the first few lines Evan threw it out.

The alpha was an asshole who was married with a kid.

Without a thought, Evan made sure the motel room was tidy and left. He needed to leave the city before he did anything else he regrets.

A couple months later, after training for the SEALS had begun, Evan learned he was pregnant. Unfortunately he knew the father could only be one person.

The asshole from Texas.

🖤 (black) [t rating]

Buck

Vampires aren't immortal beings. They're born, they live, they die, just as all other living beings do.

However, the more powerful vampires can live centuries. That is where the myth of immortality came from.

Evan Buckley came from a line of powerful vampires. The most powerful family in the North-Eastern United States. His father fought in the American Revolution.

Buck, however, wasn't all that powerful. He had the lifespan of a powerful vampire, but the level of a turned vampire.

It was that reason he was not loved by his parents. The black sheep of the family. Kept out of the public eye.

As far as anybody was concerned, the Buckley Family only has one child. A daughter Maddie.

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lmao. i just realized this week i wrote close to 5k words while last week i wrote about 9k words in less than a week. 💚🩶 are from last week and i wrote, like, 200 words total for them both this week while 🩵🖤 are from this week and one has like 4.3k words and the other has 500 words.

[howdoichooseablogname]

it just occurred to me. in season 5 buck knew maddie was leaving. but at that point maddie did try to kill herself. im guessing she didn't tell him that. probably just that she was leaving (maybe not that she was coming back, at least not right away. but buck believed she was coming back)

im making myself sad with this thought 😭😭😭

[howdoichooseablogname]

i kinda wanna write a oneshot with this premise now 😭

itll be sad 😭 but idk how to do it justice 😭

might write a snippet to test the waters

[howdoichooseablogname]

wip wednesday

warning: omegaverse, mpreg, evan instead of buck (because it's in the past), pre-canon

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On the second day in the city he dropped by a diner and saw a young man, possibly even a teenager like himself, sitting alone, wallowing.

So, Evan sat next to him.

They talked and flirted. Eddie told Evan everything. It sounded like he needed somebody to have his back.

Evan vowed that whole he was in Texas he will be that somebody.

When he heard his girlfriend left because they thought he could be pregnant and she wasn't ready, he was ready to throw hands at somebody.

Being a sire would be amazing. Being a parent is any alphas dream. Evan told Eddie as much.

They ended up leaving together and Evan brought Eddie to his motel.

There Evan learned how good omegas can be. How loving having one, even temporarily, is. Evan promised Eddie that he'd stay around, knowing it was a rebound fuck. Maybe, just maybe, after being friends for a few months Eddie will learn just how good of an alpha Evan can be.

If not, being a friend is all that matters.

So, they talked. They became friends. Nobody questioned it because everyone in Eddie's life, bar his mother, thought he was an alpha. Evan was clearly an alpha also.

Almost a month later, after settling in on the construction job, Eddie was panicking at his doorstep. Letting Eddie in, Evan was surprise to learn what Eddie was telling.

Eddie was pregnant. He didn't know the sire. His parents would kill him for being an unwed pregnant omega.

It took Evan only a minute to wrap everything around his head. The answer was simple. They're friends, he could be the sire, the other potential sire is long gone. There was only one option.

"Marry me."

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this is part of a prologue for a longfic im working on. i know buck is a little iffy here (hoping that eddie will like him if their friends long enough), but they're young (literally i think 18) and they will grow.

also, this is not edited. when i post this on ao3 i will edit it. im looking through it and i can see a few things i want to change before posting

wip word count and doc info (as of last night) under the read more

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wip wednesday

"So, what did you bring Buckaroo?" Chimney asked trying to peer into the bag. Before he could Maddie gripped it closed with a mischievous grin.

"I don't know yet. Why don't we all take a guess," Maddie suggested. Buck placed Jee down on her chair before grabbing the paper plates Chimney bought the previous day.

"That sounds fun. Person who's closest gets first dibs for dessert," Buck added. Jee perked up at the mention of dessert.

"Ice cream!" She shouted. Buck only smiled.

"Close. That's not a lunch food though. What do you think is for lunch?"

Chimney would call him out for giving Jee a second guess, but since his daughter is too cute sometimes he'll let it slide.

"Dino nuggets!" She shouted mimicking how she plays with them before eating.

"Unfortunately not. Maybe next time. Maddie, what's your guess?" Buck asked, turning to face her. Maddie gave a thoughtful look before answering.

"Is it spaghetti?" She guessed. Buck gave a thoughtful hum before turning to Chimney.

"Saving the best for last, huh?" Chimney teased. Buck turned to face Jee.

"I guess your dad doesn't get a guess!" Buck said with a mock cheer. Jee cheered along.

"Hey!" Chimney gave Buck a dramatic look of betrayal.

"Alright. I guess you can have a guess," Buck dramatically sighed. From the side Maddie laughed as she opened the bag to see what was for lunch.

"They were guessing things you usually make for lunch. I'm gonna guess you brought take-out. Specifically Thai take-out," Chimney guessed. Buck had an exited glint in his eyes.

"Close. It's Indian take-out," Buck grinned.

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this is a chimney centered fic. i thought id show the buckley-han family (plus buck) being silly because we need more of it. this is set around mid season 6 so jee is about 2/3 years old

i was gonna choose chinese take-out, but my love for the one indian restaurant on door dash took over.

the fic is about chimney being gray asexual. discovering and coming out later in life. im not gray ace, so if anybody who is has any experience or stories you would like to share please let me know 🙏

wip word count and doc info (as of last night) under read more

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it just occurred to me. in season 5 buck knew maddie was leaving. but at that point maddie did try to kill herself. im guessing she didn't tell him that. probably just that she was leaving (maybe not that she was coming back, at least not right away. but buck believed she was coming back)

im making myself sad with this thought 😭😭😭

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chimney overhearing buck talk to maddie rapidly texting hen like

buck hooked up with tommy!

buck is saying he's not in love with eddie cause eddie is straight!

tommy said eddie was his competition?!?!?!

omg! maddies doing it!

maddie called out buck! shes "subtly" asking if he's in love

buck is still insisting he's not in love with eddie because eddie is straight

obviously this is crack cause i don't think chimney would eavesdrop on the buckley siblings having a heart to heart. let alone text somebody (even hen) about what he overhears

[howdoichooseablogname]

okay, i watched the new 911 episode

all i can say is that buck denied having feelings for eddie by saying he's straight. anytime he said he's not/can't be into eddie he immediatly followed by saying he's straight. "why do you think i'm in love with my best friend? he's straight"

except i think the line to tommy said it all:

"i dont have to sleep with everyone im into. and i dont have to be into someone i sleep with" (wording may be off, sorry)

i think deep down buck has feelings for eddie, but because "he's straight" he's not thinking about it. it slipped out nonetheless because his ex was implying eddie was competition and buck was into him. so buck was angry and spewed out his feelings without realizing it (he's 100% gonna realize what he said after realizing his feelings)

(and he also said he's not into tommy)

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since i can't watch the newest 911 episode until my family get home later this afternoon, i started watching skymed

im like partway through episode 4 of season 1 and i really like it so much

i remember texting my mom that there's racism. like fn specific racism. (undoubtedly there's the unspoken racism reason the pregnant lady in episode one bussed back. winnipeg racism is awful (i say as someone who lived there as a small kid) she probably didn't tell her white nurse that reason because she wouldn't get it)

in episode 2(?) the most frustrating part is the racist nurse denying what she did was wrong!! like bitch the woman almost died!! and you know she's not gonna learn from her mistakes!!

am i unreasonably mad over a fictional story? no. im mad because shit like this actually happens? yes.