the inclination to fall

What is this curious inclination to fall? How did it conquer, or come in at all? How terrifying, this massive beast. Devours my heart, as its bloody feast.

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Is there a difference between wanting to dye* and not wanting to Iive*?

*deliberate spelling errors so I don’t get those safety warnings again

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did not realise my joy of 2026 would be seeing the HR boys just killing it (and also enjoying themselves) on the fashion circuit!!

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okay hudson williams opening the dsquared show is so perfect just ten outta ten outta ten outta ten!!!!!!!

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I wish I was the sort of person who made video edits because what I would GIVE rn for a HR edit to Tove Lo’s Talking Body 🔥

Also I’m really proud to say that I’ve had Тату’s music in my iTunes library for like, I dunno, 20 years? Yes, their whole 200km/h in the Wrong Lane album. So fucking iconic. To see it revived the way it has been revived? I’m dead. In all the best ways.

Also, thanks HR for making me wanna go clubbing again sigh 🤦🏻‍♀️

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2026, just be decent to me. Okay?

Just don’t make me broke again with expensive surgeries, or make me unable to rest because of surprise deadlines and irresponsible environments.

I just want to stop having to brace and clench, every single day.

Please.

I don’t think it’s too much to ask.

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I may hate everyone and everything but I do love my lock screen hahahaha ♡

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I’m forty!

And I’m still sad!

Nothing has changed!

It doesn’t get better, kids!

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Ope just saw you haven’t seen it hahahahahaha

(U should watch/read it :))

Haha yes that’s right and I still haven’t watched it because tbh I don’t think I have the emotional bandwidth for all the yearning and pain between the two. But I’m enjoying their chaotic press tour 😂

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I’m so happy you also know about Heated Rivalry. I have been obsessed this month. Ilya’s my baby boy (that’s probably no surprise to you).

Do you have a favorite scene/line?

PS hope you had a good holiday :)

Hahaha I only learnt about it though some gossip blogs I still read. And actually, I didn’t really pay much attention to it! But then, I stumbled upon a Teen Vogue compliment battle between Hudson and Connor and then I was just gone haha. They are soooo charming together my goodness 😍

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I would like to point out that as an Asian female who’s just turned 40, I too have freckles like Shane Hollander so who would like to stare lovingly and intensely at me and count them?

I should also point out that I’ve not actually seen a single episode of HR so this is evidence of its insane level of virality. So pervasive is its influence that the whole time I was out singing karaoke today, almost every angsty or emotional love song made me think of the two and again I HAVE NOT WATCHED EVEN A SINGLE SCENE so wtf is happening how can something one has not actually encountered take one over almost completely?!!?!!

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Hudson Williams looks so much like Utt, a VJ from the mtv asia days, and has therefore single-handedly rekindled my crush on Utt and i’m just dying cuz i had no idea Utt is now 52 but the dude still legit looks like a teenage heartthrob and now i’m just mad (okay no I’m not ily Utt 🥹)

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There’s really nothing more anti-climatic than reading a really well-woven, well-paced, exquisitely-built romance only for it to face the ‘twist’ that is the nauseatingly predictable and 99.9% of the time absolutely unnecessary love triangle.

The way my interest just DROPS.

Sigh.

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It’s been a while. I hate that even when I’m covering my face you can see how much weight I’ve gained on my face. Sigh. Fuck me. But hey this was a nice day. Took a good friend out for their birthday lunch and the food was nice:)

Hope everyone’s surviving in this very weird world. Whomever is still here, hey:) sending love and hugs.

Random post is over. Byeeee~

[euryalex]

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(if you haven’t watched the final season of Squid Game, don’t read on pls)

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I’m only two episodes in and my fave character has DIED??!!? I mean, I’m not entirely surprised cuz they were subtly leading up to it but I was HOPING AGAINST HOPE and now I have lost ALL motivation to watch the show cuz literally this character was the only reason I even gave S2 a chance and ended up loving it!

I’m so sad 💔

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Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh,

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh

Again

Sigh

Sigh

Sigh.

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Sitting by a bridge that overlooks the evening speeding cars.

My dog is with me on this walk.

I’m regretting bringing her with me.

Because she’s the only reason stopping me from jumping off this bridge and plunging right into the oncoming traffic.

How nice that would be, if my life could end right this very moment.

But since she’s here tugging at the leash.

I guess we should walk back home before it gets too dark.