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[spidaerman]

To all my black followers and friends, stay safe.

Also, I would like to add that black lives have always mattered, will always matter.

It’s awful that we even have to say that because it should be a given. However, we need to say it loud and clear for the racists.

We cannot be silent. 

[fuwaprince]

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[uie-deactivated20230402]

ALWAYS REBLOG WHEN YOU SEE SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEASE; ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN IMPORTANT TO PEOPLE. IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO SOMEBODY AND EVEN THOUGH YOU MIGHT NOT SEE THIS IN THE SAME LIGHT, SOMEONE MIGHT. INFACT YOU REBLOGGING THIS COULD STOP SOMEONE TAKING THEIR LIFE TONIGHT.

[kitten--aesthetics-blog]

I noticed there isn’t one here for Ireland, so

Irish free suicide helpline: 01-116 123

[thescientificviolist]

last time i reblogged this, i got this ask:

so please, please reblog. this could actually save a life.

[loove-persevering]

important

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[5sosstuffss-deactivated20210220]

luke’s roommate patrice

feat. Ashton and Calum doing impressions of her

[uriahraex]

I want the kind of love Hozier writes songs about

[aliencal-deactivated20200805]

could you pretty pretty please with a cherry on top write about cal and that hot tub (the one on Luke's photo)? you aren't dating yet and you go with the boys and their gfs you end up *having sex* in the tub when they're all goneand the boys tease you about it and the girls are like "you look so good together" and so on. and then after you have dates and such 🥺❤🥺❤🥺❤🥺❤🥺

oof, sexy time y’all and a really long blurb with really bad smut whoops

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The guys had decided to treat themselves after their nation-wide tour, and they decided that a snowy get-away was the best route to follow. You had been friends with the gang for a long while now, and when Sierra practicallly begged you to come with them, you couldn’t say no, hoping that the retreat was a way for you to relieve the stress of finals and the overall stresses of a normal life.

And it did. The mountains were perfect for skiing, the hot cocoa was steaming to the point where you burned your tongue, and the snow was in perfect condition for a snowman-making contest. You were having the time of your life, surrounded by people who made your heart feel full.

But, there was one nagging thought - person really - that constantly played in the back of your mind. And that person was Calum.

You two were the only single people on the vacation, which meant the both of you spent time together whenever the couples went off and did their own thing. Couples skiing? You and Calum stayed at the rental house and lounged around. Couples baking contest? You and Calum watched from the sidelines, cracking jokes about Luke’s cooking skills and the way Michael’s supposed heart-shaped cookie looked like a dick when it came out of the oven.

But the air shifted between you two. It went from something such as that of a good, platonic friendship to something that could always, and potentially, be more. And you noticed at you felt genuinely happier around him, even more so when the two of you were just alone in the house. Your feelings for the gorgeous bass player only seemed to grow every day, especially the day where he suggested building a fort as all of the couples were out doing “coupley-shit” as Calum called it. But you swallowed those feelings down, knowing that he’d never feel the same and that he wasn’t even looking for anything, or anyone, to make him feel the same way.

But it wasn’t just you who caught the shift. Calum also noticed it too, but baffled himself when he immediately didn’t dismiss the feeling of happiness and relaxation he felt whenever it came to you. Being with you was as easy as sleeping; calm and serene, warm and soothing. He slowly found himself becoming attached to you, wanting to spend the day with you instead of with the three couples that were constantly around. He nearly jumped at every opportunity to be alone with you, and he always caught himself watching you do the simplest things or chores with adoring eyes and a soft smile gracing his lips. Although he’d quickly snap out of his stares, he couldn’t help himself and did absolutely nothing to stop the feelings that were growing in his chest. But, like you, he was hesitant; not wanting to say anything to you out of fear of rejection and heartbreak, having been down that cursed road more times than he can count.

But that hot tub. That fucking hot tub.

Ashton was insistent on giving the thing a try, considering none of you have used it yet as you all have been too busy doing other activities. But you were hesitant. You completely spaced to pack any swimsuit or bikini pieces, meaning that you’d have to go in just your underwear which was a thought that nearly made you shudder. Of course the girls offered to let you borrow some of their, but none of the pieces you borrowed had fit right.

You almost gave up and tossed in your hat, but alas, Calum’s puppy-dog eyes always won you over, and because you spent so long building up your confidence just to even go out there in front of everyone in your undergarments, you were the last one to reach the group.

The steam from the hot tub was swirling up into the night as you carefully found your footing on the square-wooden steps.

“You look very sexy.” Sierra purred as you threw one leg into the hot water, and you could tell that she was borderline buzzed off the red wine that was in her glass. You send her a small smile in return, feeling you cheeks heat up with blush as her comment drew all eyes to your exposed figure, yet although there was one pair of eyes that you did not dare to look at.

Luke had helped you in and you sank into the water, praying that the bubbles would cover your figure as the group began to discuss some new music for the album. You found yourself in the least crowded corner, KayKay close to you and Calum sitting somewhat opposite of you between the other two couples. You were quiet as your eyes found the snowy mountains that were dimly lit with ski and show-shoeing trails for the guests at the resort to enjoy. You marveled at the their natural beauty, wishing to freeze this moment in time so you’d never have to turn away or peel your eyes from them. The snow coated the mountains like a blanket, thick and heavy, but there was a graceful appearance to the gleaming, pearl-sheen of the snow that had captured your attention. Even from where you sat in the warm waters of the hot tub below the mountains, you could still see the sparkle of the snow that flashed throughout the night, capturing your heart with one simple glance. And to top it all off, the starry night sky took your breath away. It seemed to go on for miles, every star in the night sky gleaming as bright as a diamond. You were absolutely captivated by the sight in front of you.

“It’s so beautiful.” You whispered to yourself, your eyes scanning over the scenery a million times over.

“Yeah, it is.” Calum’s voice made you jump slightly as the words cut through the silence that had unconsciously surrounded you. You turned to face him in light of the silence, and found him to be the only one in the hot tub besides yourself.

“Where did everyone else go?” You asked, and you felt you heartbeat pick up as Calum pushed himself from his seat and moved toward you.

“They got bored,” he hummed and sat beside you, close enough to the point where your knee touched his thigh - the feeling causing your pulse to skyrocket. “Which doesn’t make sense considering they wanted to use it.”

“But you’re still here.”

“I see no point on getting out.” He shrugged, and took his arms out of the bubbling water. He placed each of them on the side of the tub, his one arm coming to rest directly in front of you. He leaned his head back to rest on him shoulders, and you eyes the tattoos that snaked up his arms. The black ink seemed more defined as the water dropped from his arm and onto the slick sides of the tub, and you found your eyes newly fixated on his tattoos moreso than the scenery behind him.

“Havin’ fun there?” You heard him asked, and you pulled your eyes away from his tattoos, and found him looking at you with his eyebrows raised, causing a hot flash to shock your body at how hot he looked.

“What?” You tried you control the nervousness within your voice as he continued to stare at your with his piercing eyes.

“My tattoos,” he nods his head toward his bicep. You follow his nod and find your pointer finger gently touching his caramel skin, your nail perched lightly on the black ink. “Havin’ fun tracing ‘em?”

You felt your cheeks heat up once more and quickly pulled your finger away from his skin. You felt flustered as a mumble of apologies spilled from your lips. You began to push yourself away from your spot in the tub, and only stumbled more on your words once your brain realized that Calum was watching your every move.

But he suddenly reached forward and grabbed your waist, pulling you into his lap. You felt all of the air leave your lungs as he got you settled, and you could only stare at him with wide eyes as your brain tried to register what he had done, and if this was really happening right now.

“You’re gorgeous when you’re flustered.”

Your heart was pounding erratically against your chest as your tried to focus on his eyes. Your mind began to wander at the feeling of his skin on yours, and your senses were seemingly overwhelmed by Calum. You could feel every touch of his hands and skin against yours. You could smell his cologne and the faint stench of cigarettes; hear his soft breathing; see the golden flecks in his eyes and his laugh lines, and you could practically taste the urge to kiss him on your lips.

The world suddenly caught up to you and you realized just how close the two of you were. You were sitting on his lap, his fingers delicately grasping the exposed flesh of your hips as your hands were placed cautiously on his warm and broad shoulders.

“Cal?” You breathed out as he pulled you closer to him. You were at a loss for words as you felt his hands leave your hips only to trail up your body slowly. He was teasing you, and it made your heart pound so loudly to the point where it was ringing in your ears. The air changed around the two of you, no longer filled with flustered movements or silent moments, but rather filled with lust. You felt it in the way his hands moved slowly up your body, causing your stomach to drop and your body to desperately lean into his touch. And he felt it too. He could feel his swim trunks tightening at the thought of your soft skin against his, and the feeling of your body underneath his hands nearly made him moan. The sight of you in your undergarments made his imagination come to life, and he groaned when he felt your core unintentionally brush against him as you readjusted yourself. He wanted this so bad, he wanted you underneath him and to hear you moaning his name all night. But he also wanted you to be his: to go on dates with him and be closer than a friend and to become all his. He wanted it. He wanted you.

“Tell me you want this,” he groaned and leaned forward, your lips just inches away from his. “I’ll stop right now if you don’t.”

But God he hoped you wanted him as much as he wanted you. And you did. Your body was aching for him: to kiss him, feel him, love him. This was a dangerous line you were about to cross with him, knowing that this moment would never be considered more than a hook-up, but your heart was begging you to give into your desires and allow yourself one night to get lost in Calum.

So you listened. You moved your hands up to cup his cheeks, closing the gap between your lips in a kiss that made you feel dizzy in the best way possible. Calum responded to you by kissing you harder, his hands moving back down your down your body with more pressure applied than before. You moaned at the feeling, and gasped against his lips when he grinded you down onto him. He easily slipped his tongue into your mouth, but your mind was too focused on how hard he was to properly kiss him. You pulled your lips away from his and took a breath, trying to calm your rapid heart, but the beating only spiked higher when Calum placed his lips on your neck and began to suck at the soft skin. You let out a soft moan and tilted your head back to allow him more access, and you softly began to grind down on him, the feeling of want and the hunger of lust fully taking over your body.

And the two of you continued your heavy make-out session. His hands touched you everywhere and his lips kissed every part of your exposed skin that was available to him. Your hands traveled all over his body, and you could only feel your core begin to throb at the thought of him fully inside of you.

“Calum,” you whined. “Please.”

And he wasted no time. His hands left your body and emerged into the water. He worked his swim trunks down, and you could just make out the way his cock slapped up against his stomach. You felt your mouth water at the semi-distorted sight of him, but even from the water, you could see how thick he was.

“Are you on birth control?” He asked as his hands found your hips again, pulling you closer to him. You felt his fingers slip through the material of your panties. You nodded as a response, and Calum removes his hands from the water and placed them on your cheeks. He made your eyes meet his, and you saw nothing but lust swimming through them.

“Are you sure you still want this?” He asked, nothing but sincerity and concern within his voice.

You felt as if the world had paused and your brain had finally slowed down to process his words. Did you really want this? You and Calum had a good friendship, but your mind was plagued with only one thought: him. And even if you couldn’t have him officially, you mind had already decided that you’d have him for one night. It was all you could think about; he was all you could think about, so much that all rationale though about what you were about to do - and the consequences - completely left your mind.

“Yes.”

Calum gave you a smile and pressed his lips against yours in a quick kiss. He pulled away and traveled his hands back down your body, his fingers finding your panties and pulling them to side. Calum positioned you over him, gave your hips a quick squeeze, and you gently sank down on his cock.

The two of you let out a groan at the feeling, and you felt the hot water only cause shivers to rack your body. You could feel his cock stretch your insides in the best way possible, your head falling back at the pleasurable feeling. You felt his lips against your collarbone, your eyes snapping open and head falling forward from the feeling. You pressed a kiss to the crown of his head as his hands started to guide your hips, bouncing you up and down on his cock. You two quickly found a rhythm, and the air between you became hot as moans and sloshing water surrounded the two of you.

“Fuck,” He hissed as you continued to bounce on him, your body overwhelmed with the pleasure you were receiving from him. Calum felt as if he was cloud nine from the feeling of how warm and slick you were. “You’re so damn tight.”

You moaned at his words as you continued to bounce on his cock, greedy with the feeling of Calum hitting your spot every time. Waves of pleasure tumbled and crashed over you, and you could feel your stomach tightening. Calum would sense that you were close as you began to clench around him, bringing him closer to his own high. His eyes drank in the sight of you, and he could feel himself wanting more of you, pulling you closer to him as his stomach began to tighten and his orgasm quickly approaching.

“Come on gorgeous. Come around that cock.” His words pushed you over the edge, your body pulsing as your orgasm washed over you. Calum soon came after, holding you in place as his cock twitched inside of you. Both of you were panting as your waves of pleasure began to cease, Calum’s head rested gently on your chest and your head on top of his; your arms wrapped around each other tightly as you both began to calm down. You heart slowly stalled to a flutter that brushed against your chest, and your mind finally began to return to reality. You wrapped your arms tighter around Calum and felt yourself wanting more of him, but not just in a sexual manner: you wanted dates with him and possibly a relationship. You wanted him.

And that’s when everything went to hell.

You felt your stomach drop at your position on top of Calum, and suddenly it all hit you. Things would never be the same after what just happened between the two of you. You wanted something completely different from what he had, and you began to question why the two of you even did what you just did.

“Oh no,” you cried and pulled away from Calum, wincing when his cock slipped out of you. “No, no, no. Fuck. I shouldn’t have done that.” Your mind was in overdrive with negative thoughts, your body now aching to get away.

You ignored the confused look on Calum’s face as you swam to the edge of the hot tub, hoisting yourself out of the water and swinging your legs over the side. You ignored his pleas and dashed toward your room, leaving the Maori bassist confused and flustered in the hotub.

——————

The next morning was one of regrets. Your body naturally woke up around five, and you haven’t been able to sleep since then. Your mind was fully awake, replaying the events of last night’s encounter with Calum over and over again until you felt stupidity deep into your bones. You didn’t regret the acts you did with him - far from it. But you did regret how stupid you were for letting yourself be vulnerable in front of him and letting yourself crawl into this position of anxiety. You didn’t want to see Calum for the remainder of the trip, too embarrassed that you had ruined your friendship with a night of lust and nothing else.

But yet, your stomach decided to completely fuck with you, grumbling loudly at seven in the morning as if to desperately beg for food. You sighed and threw the covers off of you, shivering at the cold biting your skin but proceeded to walk over to your door. You told yourself that no one would be up - more specifically that Calum wouldn’t be up - and forced yourself to walk toward the kitchen.

But the voice of Ashton, Michael, and Like made you stop in the hallway just by the living room.

“Seriously Cal, why do you look so upset?” Ashton asked, and you felt your heart drop at the sound of his name leaving Ashton’s lips. Your heart seemingly fell out of your body when Calum began to speak.

“I - I might have done something last night.”

“Which was?” Like pressed, and you could sniff the faint smell of buttered toast from where you were concealed from them. You heard a soft crunch, followed by the sound of someone slurping a drink.

“I had sex with....” Calum’s voice trailed, almost as if that he didn’t want to directly admit that he had sex with you. Your heart stung when you heard him falter from his admittance, but you continued to listen to the silence that followed. The boys, having known Calum for years, were able to pick up on the hint though.

“You had sex with her?”

“Where?”

“When?”

“The hot tub,” Calum responded. “Shortly after you guys got out.”

“Ew!” Ashton exclaimed, but there was laughed laced within his voice. “Fucking gross. I’m not stepping into that hot tub for the rest of the vacation!” He was full on laughing at this point, and although you didn’t want to reveal your hiding spot, you felt yourself growing angry that he took this as a joke. You revealed yourself and Luke’s eyes landed on you first, followed by Michael who nearly dropped his bagel.

“Something funny?” Your voice made Calum freeze in his seat, and Ashton stopped laughing at the sound of your voice. They all knew you were listening, judging by how you were glaring daggers at Ashton and how your voice had resembled the image of glass cutting skin: sharp, soft, and painful.

When no one answered you, you spoke again, “Can I speak to Calum alone please?”

All three of them simply nodded and cleared out of the kitchen, leaving you and Calum alone in an awkward atmosphere. But to hell with being stubborn or scared to see him, you wanted to now know where the two of you lie, especially since his brothers now know that happened.

You made your way over to Calum, who’s back was as stiff as can be, and sat down on the bar stool beside him.

“About last night-”

“Why did you leave?” He asked, cutting you off and turning his head to look at you. You could tell he was tired. The bags under his eyes revealed that he barely slept, and the look in his brown eyes told you that he was upset.

You felt your throat tighten, but nonetheless forced the reason out of your mouth.

“I was scared Cal.”

“Of?”

“What we would become after last night.”

“And what did you think we would become?” He voice was accusing as he turned his whole body towards you.

“I don’t know,” you murmured, but didn’t dare meet his eyes. “I know that you don’t do dating, or relationships, and I didn’t want to be labeled as another one of your body counts. And I don’t want to be friends with benefits because I can’t force myself to keep my feelings for you at bay.”

“And you thought running from me was better than talking to me about it?”

“We’d just got done having sex! Throwing the ‘what are we’ conversation on you would’ve been a mood-killer.”

“You leaving was the mood-killer.” He mumbled and took a sip of his coffee. Your blood began to boil and now the atmosphere had changed from one of awkwardness to one of heat and anger.

“You’re so used to girls leaving after a one-night stand. Why am I any different?” You practically yelled, not giving a damn if others in the house could hear you.

“Because you’re not a one-night stand! And you’re not just some girl that I fucked! I’ve been wanting to date you for the longest time now, and I was going to tell you that last night but you left.” Calum’s words were followed by silence as you stared at him, shock taking over your features as the realization that he had actually wanted to date you sleeping into your skin and quickly changing your mood.

“You want to date me?”

Calum sighed and reached forward to grab your hips, pulling you into a standing position. You made your way between his legs and placed your hands on his shoulders.

He nodded, “I’ve wanted to date since you broke up with that dumbass ex of yours. I’m sorry if I didn’t make that clear enough before last night.”

“I’m sorry that I jumped to a conclusion without letting you explain first. I shouldn’t have just left last night.”

“Well,” he frowned in thought. “Maybe you could make it up to me with a date?”

“Wow,” you heard Michael say, causing both you and Calum to look toward the living room. The entire group was standing beside one another as they all stared at you. “Took you long enough.”

“Fuck off.” You and Calum said in unison, causing the whole group to chuckle.

“You guys are so cute.” You heard Crystal coo, your head turning back to Calum so you could meet his eyes. You didn’t say anything in response to her, simply pressing your lips to Calum’s forehead and pulling him close to you.

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PHEW. Idk about y’all but I’m tired just from writing this. This is a lot longer than it expected it to be....but I hope you like it anon!! Again, sorry about the length...

[aliencal-deactivated20200805]

hey! I'm the anon that asked you about the hot tub and that one where I said that I see cal dating curvy women. I have another 2 concepts for you but I'm going to go easy on you with this one. here we go. cal dating a feminist?? honestly, I can't even. AND HER MAKING HIM A FEMINIST?? AJSHSHSBS I'm probably the only person that thinks this is a thing but

Hi lovely!! First of all, thank you for sending in those two requests! :) I hope I did them justice 🧡

And second, I LOVE this idea and I am here for it. I do just want to say that I personally think Calum would be all for equality among genders in their political, social, and economic lives, only because I feel like he’s spent a majority of his adult life (please note adult life) around feminist individuals to the point where he most likely is one himself.

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Okay so let’s say that Los Angeles was hosting another Women’s March, and this time, you were ready. You had gathered up your friends over at your tiny apartment, squeezing them into your living room to make posters for the event that was taking place tomorrow. The coffee table was filled with an array of paints, and the recliner chair that your father had given you as a ‘new home’ present was stacked with poster boards and printer-sized pieces of paper that were waiting to be painted. Posters with wet paint waiting to dry and printed-out fliers were placed on your dining room table. You had been so busy with creating posters and taking care of minor details for the march tomorrow that you didn’t hear the knocking at your apartment door around noon.

But your friend did.

Calum was surprised when she had opened the door with a paintbrush in her hands and some paint on her skin. He thought, for a small moment, that he had the wrong apartment, but when he recognized the cream-colored walls covered with family photos that included you - along with flashing his eyes to the number on the door he’s seen multiple times - Calum knew he had the right place.

“Hey Y/N?” You heard your friend call out as she stepped back to let Calum into your apartment. You looked up from the drying poster that was on the table and saw Calum’s eyes land on the posters on the coffee table. You could feel your heart speed up at the sight of his curious eyes scanning over the words on the nearly-finished poster, his eyebrows shooting up at the words ‘I Will Not Go Quietly Back to the 50s’ that popped out at him in red and blue paint colors. 

“Calum?” You questioned, causing his eyes to tear away from the poster and find yours as he stood still in his spot. The look in his eyes was unreadable to you as he continued to stare at you, the nervous bugs in her stomach beginning to swarm around as his eyes were seemingly scrutinizing you. “What are you doing here?”

He shrugged and walked over to you, “Thought you’d wanna eat lunch together before I need to be back at the studio, but I think you’re pretty occupied at the moment.” His voice didn’t sound annoyed or wasn’t given with a sneer laced into his words. But rather, he sounded taken back - surprised almost - and you felt to urge to explain yourself to him. Your relationship was still new, practically a baby, and while you were proud to call yourself a feminist and proud to be one, you had remained somewhat reserved on the issue when it came to Calum. Your past romantic partners had always been turned-off due to you holding feminism dear to your heart, and you knew that not everyone welcomes the idea of feminism with open arms. So when you started dating Calum, you had remained reserved on telling him, but only because you didn’t want to scare him off.

“Can I talk to you in my bedroom?” You asked, knowing that the confines of your personal space would shelter you and Calum from the prying ears of your friends. He nodded and carefully set the bag of food down on the counter next to the drying posters before following you down the hall.

“What is all of that for?” He asked once the bedroom door was shut behind you. But his voice wasn’t demanding. It was curious and nearly excited as he looked at you with a lightness to his eyes that you had never witnessed before.

“The Women’s March tomorrow downtown,” You mumbled and continued to have a tight hold on the doorknob as you stared at him. “I know I should have told you sooner Cal, but I’m a feminist. I am firm in my belief that women deserve economic, political, and social equality and I know that it can be off-putting or threatening-”

“What?” He asked, his voice filled with shock as his eyes widened. “You think I’m going to be threatened by you being a feminist?”

You nodded at him, “Most of the men I’ve dated are.”

He stepped forward and cupped your face in his hands, “I’m afraid that you’ve been dating stupid boys then, and not men. Men of quality don’t fear equality.” His eyes grew soft as he began to gently rub his thumbs against the apples of your cheeks, a soft smile on his lips.

“You got that off that poster in the dining room didn’t you?”

His lips went flat as he tried to hold back another smile from appearing. You scoffed and gently slapped his chest, causing a soft laugh to escape his throat in which caused you to laugh.

“It fits! It really does!” He tried to defend.

“Cal,” you groaned, a soft giggle escaping your lips as his name rolled off your tongue. “I’m being serious.”

“I know you are,” he responded, the laugh gone from his throat. “And I’m being serious. I’m not threatened that you’re a feminist. I admire that you are so passionate about equality and that you take a stand for something you believe in. I think it’s incredible.”

His eyes held nothing but honestly and tenderness as he brought you closer to him and pressed a gentle kiss to your lips, “I think you’re incredible.”

You felt your heart burst with affection for the man in front of you at the sound of his supportive and sincere words. A wave of relief rushed over you, and you smiled brightly at him and took his rough hands in your soft ones.

“Wanna help us paint signs?”

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wine and oreos | c.t.h.

a/n: slow-burn(??) friends-to-lovers calum x reader fic

warnings: cursing, angst, alcohol, no sex tho smh

word count: 3,678 - it seems more than that to me lmao

edited - but there is still a typo somewhere knowing my ass

credit to @beefstickirwin for the concept idea

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The night was still young when you arrived on Calum’s doorstep. The brown paper bag dangling from your fingers contained two of the most important necessities that the two of you would both need for the night. You could feel her heartbeat quickly with excitement as you brought your fist up to the dark brown door, swiftly delivering three pronounced knocks to the wood and bringing your hand back down against your thigh. The humid nighttime air of Los Angeles had settled around you in a thick blanket of heat and mugginess as you waited for your best friend to open the door.

It had been months, nearly eight if you wished to be exact, since you had seen Calum. In-person that is, and while phone calls and Skype conversations had always come in clutch whenever it meant getting to see or hear him, these sort of methods rarely happened. Time zone differences, and Calum’s overall hectic lifestyle of playing in various stadiums in other parts of the world, were the biggest culprits for the reason you barely had any contact with him beside a simple text message. You had been waiting for the moment you could see Calum again in person since he left for the airport eight months ago, and while your feelings for him back then were simply platonic, your feelings for him now were simply everything but platonic.

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All The Wounds Healed | c.t.h. (part two)

summary: after miscarrying with Calum’s baby, you suddenly move back home to start anew. But when an old friend’s wedding reception calls you to Bali, it also calls you back into the arms of your best friend.

warnings: angst, mood swings, and fluff

word count: 7.7K+

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Feel My Love | c.t.h.

part two

calum hood x plus size!reader

word count: 5.0k+

warnings: poorly written smut, fluff, maybe some typos lol but what’s new??

Feel My Love part one

here it is y’all!! enjoy! i’m not too proud of it but hopefully y’all like it!!

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I love the plus size blurb night idea, it’s so great seeing representation💜 I was wondering if I could ask for a blurb where someone tries to hurt the readers feelings about their weight, but they are a bad bitch and love themselves too much to be brought down by some loser. She puts them in their place and fluff at the end with Calum? Also if you could include the line “that’s my girl”...? Lol idk, it’s just something I’ve always wanted to see done. Thank you for doing this by the way!

Of course I can include that line my lovely!!

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The cafe was had such a serene feel to it. The smell of fresh coffee grounds was heavenly, the sound of soft, indie music playing through the stereos brought peace to your soul, and you the sight of the pastries in the display case made you stomach grumble with happiness. Calum stood behind you as you both waited in line, his arms wrapped around your curvy figure and his head resting on your shoulder. You felt his puffy lips press soft kisses against the exposed skin on your neck as he waited, and you could tell that he was semi tired due to how droopy his eyes were getting. He had just returned home a few days ago from a promo trip, but when you mentioned that you were craving a latte from the coffee shop down the street, he was game and decided to tag along.

“So what’s good here? You know, besides you.” He asked, his voice coming out as a mumble as you both moved up in the line. You rolled your eyes at him, but let out a soft scoffed laugh and placed you hands on his.

“Hm the lattes are the best.” Calum let out a soft groan.

“Smoothies are pretty good.” He let out a sound of distaste at your words.

“Mochas?” Calum groaned again, and you tried fighting the smile on your face when you thought of the perfect response to him.

“My pussy?”

“Now that’s an option I want.” Calum softly laughed, his hands hugging your body closer to his as he gave you a soft kiss on your cheek. You laughed with him and cuddled deeper into him, relishing in the feeling of his arms around you after nearly four weeks without him.

“How do you even stand that?” You and Calum both turned to look at the source of the sound, finding a young girl who was glaring at you with the most distasteful look on her face.

“What?” Calum asked, and you felt him clutch you hand tighter in his hold.

“I mean, she’s so fat that it makes me sick. How do you even stand to be near her?”

You glanced at Calum, noticing the way that his bottom lip was pulled in by his teeth and the way that his eyebrows were furrowed; knowing immediately that he was trying to find the right words to say.

But you had them already, “Sweetie, I don’t know who made you so insecure but I don’t have time for that childish nonsense. And yes, I am fat, but that’s because my body couldn’t hold all this personality. Also, maybe try focusing on a girl’s being more than her physical appearance. It was really great talking to you though. Maybe try the salted caramel mocha when you order. I heard they make extra salty, like you.”

You gave her a sarcastic smile before turning around and walking up to the young girl behind the counter. You easily said your order, asking for two revel bars when you did and make sure to look back at the girl when you did.

“You know, for added goodness.” You patted the side of your thigh when you said it, throwing her a wink before handing the girl your card.

“Fat pig.” You heard the girl behind Calum mutter.

You sighed loudly and took your card back, “No bacon for you then.”

You stepped away and waited for your drink to be made, watching as Calum ordered quickly before coming to stand by you. You handed him one of the chocolate revel bars as you both waited, but instead of taking a bite out of it, Calum only watched you with soft eyes.

“What?” You asked as you swallowed the chunk in your mouth.

“You’re so amazing,” he mumbled as a smile formed on his lips. “That was amazing.”

You shrugged and dusted off the crumbs from your finger onto the napkin in your hands, “It was nothing I couldn’t handle. She needed to be put in her place. She can’t just say things like that to people and get away with it.”

“That’s my girl,” Calum mumbled, giving you ass a small smack as your drinks were called. “My beautiful, sexy, confident girl.”

You smiled at him and grabbed both drinks from the barista who was holding them out to you. Calum took his coffee from your hand and wrapped his arm around you as you both headed toward the door.

“Now, about that pussy option?” He asked when you both were out on the sidewalk. You laughed and reached up to place a gentle kiss on his lips, the taste of coffee and chocolate seeping onto your lips.

“Oh you wanted that one?”

Calum nodded at you as you both began to walk back toward his house.

“It sounded pretty appealing and I wouldn’t mind a feast.”

You laughed and nodded your head, your core becoming wetter by the second.

“Well, how do you like it? Wet or dripping?”

Calum let out a large groan, catching the attention of some passerby who was on his phone.

“You’re going to be the death of me, you know that? You and your beautiful, thick body are sending me straight to the grave.”

“Cause of death?”

“Those thighs?”

“Last words?”

“Let me love you.”

“Last wish?”

Calum stopped walking and bent down to press a passionate kiss to your lips, stealing the breath from your lungs and making your heart flutter against your chest.

“To be with you for all eternity.”

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can you do like that theyre going to swim in their backyard with everyone (luke,sierra,michael,etc) and ur wearing a bikini and you feel good but once everyone is staring at you, you feel insecure and theyre hyping u up 🥺 and then some fluff woth cal in the end 🥺 (i suck but i hope u get me 😅)

I gotchu girl🧡

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The sun in L.A. made Calum and boys feel like they were back home in Australia. He has woke up in an excited mood, practically bouncing around the house as he contacted the boys to come over for a backyard grilling session. The quarantine hold had been lifted for the state of California after there had been a significant decrease in the number of cases, causing for more excited was Calum was finally going to be able to see his brothers again after nearly a month without seeing them. He had a smile etched onto his face all day, and he had become super affectionate with you as you both prepared the plates of food for the backyard. You felt Calum wrap his arms around your waist and his head on your should as you were preparing the chocolate covered strawberries. He continued to hold you as he waited for the boys to show up, and even though you weren’t looking at him, you could practically hear the smile on his face.

“Someone’s happy.” You mumbled as you dipped the first, freshly washed strawberry into the chocolate covering.

You felt Calum a press kiss to the skin on your elbow, “Of course I am. I got my beautiful girl, my brothers, my family. I’ve got every reason to be happy. Oh and Duke. Can’t forget Duke.”

You let out a soft giggle that made Calum’s heart swoon, causing him to instinctively pull you closer to him as you continued on with the strawberries. Your heart fluttered at his words, causing a slight pink blush to tint your cheeks.

“Family?”

“Well, yeah princess. You, the boys, and the girls. Family.”

Your heart now swooned, “I like that.” You softly said, but before Calum could answer, the sound of the doorbell echoing throughout the house caused his eyes to light up like a child’s on Christmas. He pressed a quick kiss to your cheek before racing to the front door, the sounds of rejoicing falling from his lips moments later. You watched as Sierra and Crystal both walked into the kitchen, KayKay following closely after with a platter of cheese and meat in her hands. Sierra has a six pack of red wine, and Crystal was holding a bowl of some sort of macaroni salad. Sierra was the first one to greet you, followed by the other girls as you all catched up on what had been happening since the quarantine. Crystal was all talk about her wedding plans, Sierra told you about how she helped Luke figure out some new music for the new album that the boys had already been planning, and KayKay told you about Ashton’s sickness that eventually passed. All of had been caught up around the time that Calum started putting the homemade burgers on their grill, having set two aside for Crystal and himself as they were both against eating that type of meat (a/n: I think Calum had said somewhere that he was a pescatarian and I think Crystal said that she was vegan/vegetarian so eh idk we going with it). The girls had stripped down into their bikinis and were messing around in the pool while Luke and Michael were at the grill helping Calum. Ashton was inside with you, opting to help finish up the last of the cashews while he talked to you. You both went back and forth about the album and about his health as he was feeling much better, but the two of you were interrupted when Kay walked in with the towel wrapped around her small frame. You gave her a soft smile as she smiled back at you, but when your eyes managed to travel lower and noticed how good the black bikini looked at her and how the material clung to her form, you began to feel self-conscious. Bikinis had always been your weak spot. You hated being in one, and a one-piece didn’t even make you feel better about yourself. You always thought your stomach stuck out way too far to be considered attractive and you always knew that your thighs - and the dimples on them, drew attention to those who even wanted to glance your way.

“You coming?” You heard Kay ask, causing you to snap out of your stare and find her eyes. She was looking at as she waited by the back door, Ashton slipping behind her to make his way out to the pool. You glanced toward the movement of Sierra and Crystal, immediately taking notice to how they were both in two pieces as well. You also noticed how each boy had their shirt off, all four of them showing off their toned physiques. You felt your skin crawl at the idea of going out there almost bare for them to see.

“I think I’ll stay in here,” you mumbled and turned your attention back to Kay. “Maybe later though.”

“You sure?” She asked, and you could tell she had sensed that something was wrong. You nodded firmly and she gave another soft smile, taking that as he cue to exit before she pushed the topic any further. You went back to fixing the last platter of assorted vegetables, taking your sweet time in an effort to prolong the action of switching into a swimswuit and joining them. But what you didn’t know was the Kay had told Calum that she thinks you’ve been working too hard and need to relax with the rest of them, prompting your sweet boyfriend to immediately hand the spatula over to Michael and head toward the door to the kitchen.

“Hey,” he said, getting your attention. “How about you go put on a swimsuit and join us and I’ll take this stuff out.”

“Oh, I’m fine Cal.” You said and were about to start rearranging the carrots when he gently grabbed your wrist to stop you.

“I wasn’t asking,” his voice was gentle as he softly brought your hand up to kiss your knuckles. “Go change and catch some sun. You’ve done enough.”

And here you were: standing in front of the bathroom mirror silently hyping yourself up before you went downstairs. You put on the off the shoulder pink top and opted to wear white bottoms with black stripes, the material fitting over your tummy and the color matching your skin tone so perfectly that you began to adore the pink peach color. You admired how it accentuated your curves and you loved how beautiful you felt standing in it. You fixed the curls in your hair before giving your ass a quick slap (a/n: listen ladies I do this and it really helps my confidence like who doesn’t love a thick ass??) and making your way down the stairs, swaying your hips a little as you made your way to the door. You flipped your hair over your shoulder, adding to your confident state before opening the glass door and finding the seven people all surrounded in a group by the grill. The girls had their towels wrapped around them, and the boys were currently putting sunscreen on their others as Calum was talking to them about something that you couldn’t make out. You tried to be as quiet as you could when shutting the door, but the sound of Duke barking at you out of excited caused everyone to look your way. You eyes immediately landed on the skinnier forms of the three girls that were currently staring at you with blank faces. You felt your skin crawl with unease when you registered the way the other three guys were also looking at you with blank faces. The blush rushed to your cheeks and you felt like running back inside to change and never come out again, but you forced yourself to walked toward them. You felt so disgusting just being next to them, your bigger frame immediately making you stick out from the group. You blinked back the tears as you finally approached them, standing between Michael and Crystal as there was a space for you. You could feel everyone’s eyes on your and your figure as you waited for someone to do something or say anything to take the attention off you. You clasped your hands in front of you stomach, using your arms to cover your body as you stared at one spot on the ground. You tightened up your shoulders, and Calum could easily tell that you had become insecure with the way you looked. He felt his heart sink at the thought of you not seeing how beautiful you are, but he felt even worse when he realized that he practically forced you to do something that - now that he sees the effect - you didn’t want to do. You looked absolutely stunning to him, more beautiful than any goddess and he felt terrible that you didn’t see that. 

“Luke,” Sierra said suddenly, causing everyone’s attention to snap to her. “You obviously lied when I said I looked amazing in my swimsuit. Look at Y/N!”

“Honestly,” Kay said, giving you a smile before letting out a laugh. “We all look atrocious compared to you.”

You felt your eyebrows pull together as confusion swept over your body. Was this rehearsed? It all seemed too stiff to you.

“I honestly don’t even look that good in a swimsuit. You look stunning.” Crystal said, but all you could focus on was the first part of her comment. She looked gorgeous in a swimsuit. What was she talking about? 

“Can we please just change the subject?” You asked, Calum immediately picking up on how small your voice was. And he wanted to change that.

“No,” he said firmly, causing you to look right at him. He felt his heart flutter at the sight of your eyes being lit up by the sun. “We’re giving you a photoshoot. Get in front of door.” 

“No, Cal. We don’t have to.”

“Ah, but we’re going to.”

“Let’s go mamas!” Kay shouted, beginning to walk over to you and lead you toward the glass door. 

“Look at that ass though,” You heard Sierra comment when you positioned yourself in front of the door. “I’d hit it.”

Luke and Calum both scoffed at her while you blushed and tried to stop the smile from appearing on your face.

“What am I to you? Chopped liver?” Luke asked as he feigned hurt.

“Yeah and she’s already taken might I add.” Calum said, jokingly shaking his head at his best friend’s girl before turning his attention on you. He felt his heart stop when you gave him a soft smile, but he could still tell that you were self-conscious. Yet, he didn’t understand how you could be. The swimsuit you had one did your curvaceous body so much wonder; the color making your skin pop and the bottoms only making your plump and beautifully thick thighs stand out to him much like they had stood out to you when you felt confident enough to realize it.

“Now look sexy for me.” He said, sending you a wink that made you blush.

“And me!” Crystal shouted, the others whooping and shouting words of encouragement as you continued to pose. All of them were being extra supportive, causing you to start laughing as you felt your confidence grow back. Calum watched as your smile permanently stayed on your face throughout the rest of the day, his heart fluttering when he heard you laugh at something someone said. 

And when the day was over and everyone was inside getting settled to watch a movie, you decided to stay outside and swim around in the pool. You were resting your elbows on the edge of the pool as you stared up at the sky. You were upset that you couldn’t see the stars due to the constant smog that had covered them, but nonetheless, you still enjoyed staring up into the sky to enjoy the peace and quiet of the night. You felt so calm staring at them, the insides of your body practically melting by how serene everything seemed in the moment. The fairy lights that you had insisted on putting up a few nights ago twinkled brightly against their dark setting, your skin feeling warm by the light that they brought.

“Boo.” You jumped slightly when you felt hands wrap around your waist after Calum had softly said the word to you. You felt goosebumps quickly appear then disappear as you settled into his arms, watching as he set the plate of chocolate-covered strawberries on the edge of the pool before pulling your body closer to his.

“Why hello there handsome.” You grinned and reached down to play with his hand, bringing it from out underneath the water to gently play with his fingers. He responded to you by pushing back on your own fingers, causing the two of you to eventually begin a thumb war. You giggled as Calum actively tried to use his thumb to pin yours down.

“You’re terrible at this.” You laughed out, watching him struggle some more before finally letting him win. “You couldn’t even pin my thumb down.”

Calum let out a soft laugh before reaching forward and grabbing a strawberry from the plate. He spun you around so that your back was now against the pool and that you were facing him. He smiled at you before holding the strawberry to your lips, causing you to roll your eyes before taking a bite out of it. He pressed a soft kiss to your lips as you chewed, sighing softly at the divine taste of the strawberry and chocolate before pulling away and finishing the rest of the fruit.

“Well gorgeous,” he said and brought his thumb up to wipe at the juice on your lower lip. “I can easily pin you down so I think I win.”

You blushed at his words, knowing fully well how true they were, but decided that you were going to tease him a little. Taking advantage of the placement of his thumb, you sucked it into your mouth as you made eye contact with him, making sure to swirl your tongue on his pad before popping your lips off of his thumb. You took notice of how dark his eye had gotten, you when you turned to grab about her strawberry, you could feel him hardening in his swimtrunks.

“Thank you, by the way.” You mumbled as you held a strawberry out for him to take a bite of. He complied and leaned forward to take a bit, he eyebrows furrowing as he chewed quickly.

“For what?”

“The photo shoot thing earlier. You didn’t have to do that.” Calum felt a frown overtake his lips when he heard you mumble out the last part. He reached forward to move the plate to the side before reaching down and grabbing the back of your thighs. He hoisted you up onto the edge of the pool, his hands staying on your thighs as he leaned forward and kissed the soft skin that was there.

“Yes I did,” he mumbled and continued to pepper your thighs with soft and sweet kisses. “You deserve all the praise my gorgeous girl. And I need some photos of you for when I’m away. I miss these thighs too much. And your stomach? Don’t even get me started. It’s so soft and full of superwoman stripes that it makes me go crazy when I see you own it. Your confidence is so amazing, and if I have help you in moment where you don’t feel the best, then you can bet that I will. You’ve gone through so much just to be confident with yourself, and I’m not going to let you slip back into your old ways my love. Never doubt your worth and never doubt how beautiful you look. I know that you are the most amazing, sweet, exquisite, and sexy woman on the planet, inside and out.”

You felt your heart flutter against your chest as his words and the breath in your lungs had suddenly escaped into the night. You couldn’t stop the smile that was forming on your lips, and you felt the blush rush to your cheeks as you leaned forward to kiss him with so much passion that you were sure you stole the air right out of his lungs.

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Feel My Love | c.t.h.

calum hood x plus size!reader

word count: 5.8k+

warnings: harsh and fat-shaming comments towards the reader, self-deprecation, fluff, angst(?), and probably some typos lol y’all know me

this imagine is highly based off my own experiences as a plus size women and the reader has a background that is very similar to mine. i did this mainly because i didn’t know how else to write the reader, so y’all are about to get a very not-needed glimpse into my life and what people have said to me so enjoy

But also please remember to love yourself and your body; flaws and all. Every body type is beautiful, but love yours for how unique it is, and how unique you are. Self-love is so liberating.

Also, stop hating on women’s bodies - or anyone’s body in general goddammit. It’s 2020 y’all. Get with it, or get the fuck out.

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