Good bye 2019!
Life doesn't really come with instructions. Everything is spontaneous with no hints and clues ahead. I started my 2019 with so much happiness in my heart as it unlocks one thing on my bucketlist. The year runs smoothly where I get to have more bondings with my cousins, went to siquijor with them, sleep overs and many more; and the highlight was when I marched down the aisle during my graduation day. It made conclude that this year is totally a blast, and it is not. The page where I wrote my blissful moments had reached its limit where the opposition had the chance to write with its claim. My so-called best year has changed abruptly, when my aunt who happened to be my look-out when I was a kid, died. It caused me so much pain, thinking that I haven't paid off yet to what she has done for me. I haven't told her that I am so thankful to have her; I haven't told her that without her, I may not be able to reached my first goal. Well, I know that she knew that I love her. After her death, I crawled myself and carry the heavy heart of mine to move on. I kept myself busy to escape sadness that chisels my heart and mind. Days have past and I managed to be okay though. On September 1st, another heartbreaking incident happende, Papa Sario died due to hypertension. Everyone in the family were shocked as we haven't moved on from the recent death of aunt and here comes Papa Sario lying on the coffin. It was a double shot to me. I was totally heartbroken. If my heart was a tile, It could have been powdered already. Papa Sario was not just a typical grandfather, why? Because he's extraordinary. He counsels, jokes, and many more with his versatile talents. I thank God for giving him to us. I thank Papa Sario for believing in me when the that time I had so much doubt to myself. I just love him, really. Well, so much for that. I am about to cry now. Hahahaha! By the way, still haven't moved on for the heartbreak. It is still hurting actually, that's why I am still so sad. People may haven't noticed it, as I need to conceal it. Above all, this pain taught me a lot, to be strong and independent. Thank you 2019 for the lesson. Bon Voyage!
