*the voice of a guy who has it all figured out* at this point, i'm not even trying to escape the torment nexus. even if i did somehow make it out of this oubliette, what's to stop someone from throwing me back in? at the end of the day, you'll never be in full control of the circumstances you find yourself in, which is why trying to change them is pointless. that's why my current goal is to become enough of a masochistic little freak that i am freed of the desire to escape entirely. the man who lives in a palace is not any more free than the man who lives in a prison—both are equally beholden to circumstance. but no chains will ever be able to hold the man who can see a palace in his prison– AAAAAAAUGGGGGGHHHHHHHH OHHH FUCK NOT THE BURNING OIL AGAIN




















