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@vacantgodling (main/writeblr) -> i follow from that blog

18+ but i'm not your parent

i do commissions constantly. they are always pay what you want. it's linked in bio.

also obligatory anti ai don't feed my shit into it

also on bsky for dick out -> https://bsky.app/profile/hyacinthsballs.bsky.social

28 • black • queer • he/him writer + oc artist (comms open)

#intro post #that meet the artist will probably be updated in october when i turn 29 lmao

literally why haven't i made fairy magical girl ocs what is wrong with me

#aughhhhh #talking

vacantgodling

6 and 12 for the last character you drew?

ahhh that's kinda hard cuz my last art has been either fanart or commissions lol. BUT looking back i think the last time i drew an oc was itri so ig i can talk about him lmao hofjc

6. Is there any significance behind their eye color?

hm. technically no? i made his eyes purple kinda bc i thought it would be cute and i didn't really invest much thought in it after the fact odhsjcl. it kiiiinda goes along with the ghostly vibes i suppose?

12. What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?

aside from real life bullshit going on, its kind of been my own limitations when it comes to art. art is like 90% a hobby for me (and an income source in these desperate times) and in a way i haven't really wanted to try and hone my skills by doing any like actual research into color theory, anatomy, lighting, movement etc. i just kinda draw for fun.

but because i would Kinda want itri/bsi (and some of my other art ocs) to have their own webcomics or visual novels and the like, i realize just how limited i am in terms of what i'm able to do. i could Learn if i really wanted to but i also find the motivation to learn art in a studious fashion to be really lacking for me personally. for numerous reasons, but mostly because i'm stubborn.

maybe one day i'll get over it and start learning how to Actually art but until then i'll just be kinda mildly annoyed by it lmao

#onto this blog since its about itri #bsi

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i’m not done but tokyo mew mew x demon slayer crossover or something

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more thoughts

#too lazy to color #archive 2026

i’m not done but tokyo mew mew x demon slayer crossover or something

#archive 2026 #doobles #unfinished

if i were to try and make a story for xandu--it would be something where he absolutely wins. he's my horrible little sorcerer who gets everything he wants and he wins everything and he's a cruel and horrible pretty man.

wait is he just hya but an elf--

#honestly maybe pfft #i have a type etc etc #oc xandu moroquen

i wish that like it was easier to make extra money with art outside of me just doing comms but i’m just not good at social media like that

#it would help if i had shit i was into or good at that other people would like #but alas #talking

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more of my dork son

#perceive my trans son #it’s pride month

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gay princesses or something

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also have the blacks and whites of these bc i like all my sketches better 🤷🏽‍♂️

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happy pride look at my lesbeans

#self rb

vacantgodling

i hate to be the guy always begging for money on the internet but such is life right now

if you don't know me, i'm ren/vacant/fish and i'm a 28 year old transmasculine black queer autistic person who's currently a full time student while trying to balance delivery apps to make money. last year i was let go from my job because they were trying to push me out anyway and since then i've been a financial wreck. between unemployment not being nearly enough, nearly 900 job applications and the only job i got was immediately so toxic i had to quit within the first four days, and trump fucking with student loans and education (which i'd been using to try and get by while i hopefully get a degree to get a better job) i'm just at my wits end. my partner currently has a disability hearing on 5/20 to see if they're eligible for aid but even that should we get approved wouldn't be enough to cover all of our expenses. if they get denied again then they're probably going to see about going to school and see if the school will accommodate their disabilities. we'll see.

to cut to the chase, we're on the verge of homelessness (again) and i can't make money delivering fast enough to try and make ends meet. the main thing that i can't lose is my car because without said car i can't make money at all so that's the most pressing issue.

my car payment is due 5/17 for $497 dollars. right now i have about $200 but between now and then i doubt i'll be able to make nearly $300 bucks so as per usual i'm turning to you all for help.

if you can spare anything at all, it would be meaningful. i'm trying to build up other sources of money (including embarrassing myself on the internet but that's probably not gonna go anywhere anytime soon if at all) including art commissions, substack subscriptions, and any other side hustle that i can find that actually works (because many Do Not). if you aren't able to, that's totally fine i know we're all suffering rn so rbs help.

links below, take care of yourselves.

vacantgodling

an update:

thank you to everyone who's donated, i really really appreciate it.

i was thankfully able to make my car payment <3

unfortunately we're still not out of the woods. we're waiting to hear back about my partner's disability claim. if things are favorable, yay. if not then we're kind of back at square one again and they may have to try and get a job though with the market it's like oof.

the cheaper accommodations we were hoping to secure fell through. we're still probably not able to get an apartment based on my income alone (due to rental requirements for income). we may try and finesse a place but that's up in the air and i'm wary of spending money on an app fee to just get rejected.

still no word about if or when i'll get financial aid. that's cool.

if we do end up getting trapped at our current apartment to stave off homelessness, the new rental rate is 1851 alone. that wouldn't include internet, electric, our phones, etc. like literally almost 1900 for a cockroach infested apartment. i've tried arguing with them about the rate but they don't care.

donations are still super appreciated. i haven't set up a gofundme because i need money Now and i don't want to wait and deal with the site's fees.

i'm still offering commissions, doordashing/instacarting, applying to jobs with no luck, applied for other government resources to little success (they may potentially take our food stamps too so that's cool), and have been trying to find a will to live. i don't really have one these days to be honest.

next month will be a year since this bullshit started and i just feel even more helpless than before.

thanks for your time.

vacantgodling

sorry to be back again but shit’s still in the gutter.

we may be looking at homelessness. my partner has applied for university and i have applied for a scholarship as well but information on money is still up in the air. we just need enough to squeak by this month and i’m hoping that we will be able to get some type of good news in june.

the new rental amount is $1851 for month to month. i wish i could move too. right now i have $1226 thanks to door dashing and all of you all’s generosity. this means i still need $625 to stay in the place we’re at for now and fingers crossed that financial aid for both of us drops in june and we can use that to move somewhere else cheaper.

unfortunately my current complex is shit and won’t let me pay online due to a miscommunication on their part in december and i’ve had to take out money orders instead. this adds a $10 whenever i withdraw money from the bank so overall looking at $635 that i still need to raise.

if you don’t have anything to spare i totally understand. i wish i wasn’t in this position and i hope no one else ever is. reblogs help. i also offer art commissions, and i have a substack where i write about my projects and writing. i’m also willing to beta read anything you have written and i leave lots of comments though i don’t have a specific pay structure for that. thank you again for your time.

paypal info in the first post.

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vacantgodling

i hate to be the guy always begging for money on the internet but such is life right now

if you don't know me, i'm ren/vacant/fish and i'm a 28 year old transmasculine black queer autistic person who's currently a full time student while trying to balance delivery apps to make money. last year i was let go from my job because they were trying to push me out anyway and since then i've been a financial wreck. between unemployment not being nearly enough, nearly 900 job applications and the only job i got was immediately so toxic i had to quit within the first four days, and trump fucking with student loans and education (which i'd been using to try and get by while i hopefully get a degree to get a better job) i'm just at my wits end. my partner currently has a disability hearing on 5/20 to see if they're eligible for aid but even that should we get approved wouldn't be enough to cover all of our expenses. if they get denied again then they're probably going to see about going to school and see if the school will accommodate their disabilities. we'll see.

to cut to the chase, we're on the verge of homelessness (again) and i can't make money delivering fast enough to try and make ends meet. the main thing that i can't lose is my car because without said car i can't make money at all so that's the most pressing issue.

my car payment is due 5/17 for $497 dollars. right now i have about $200 but between now and then i doubt i'll be able to make nearly $300 bucks so as per usual i'm turning to you all for help.

if you can spare anything at all, it would be meaningful. i'm trying to build up other sources of money (including embarrassing myself on the internet but that's probably not gonna go anywhere anytime soon if at all) including art commissions, substack subscriptions, and any other side hustle that i can find that actually works (because many Do Not). if you aren't able to, that's totally fine i know we're all suffering rn so rbs help.

links below, take care of yourselves.

vacantgodling

an update:

thank you to everyone who's donated, i really really appreciate it.

i was thankfully able to make my car payment <3

unfortunately we're still not out of the woods. we're waiting to hear back about my partner's disability claim. if things are favorable, yay. if not then we're kind of back at square one again and they may have to try and get a job though with the market it's like oof.

the cheaper accommodations we were hoping to secure fell through. we're still probably not able to get an apartment based on my income alone (due to rental requirements for income). we may try and finesse a place but that's up in the air and i'm wary of spending money on an app fee to just get rejected.

still no word about if or when i'll get financial aid. that's cool.

if we do end up getting trapped at our current apartment to stave off homelessness, the new rental rate is 1851 alone. that wouldn't include internet, electric, our phones, etc. like literally almost 1900 for a cockroach infested apartment. i've tried arguing with them about the rate but they don't care.

donations are still super appreciated. i haven't set up a gofundme because i need money Now and i don't want to wait and deal with the site's fees.

i'm still offering commissions, doordashing/instacarting, applying to jobs with no luck, applied for other government resources to little success (they may potentially take our food stamps too so that's cool), and have been trying to find a will to live. i don't really have one these days to be honest.

next month will be a year since this bullshit started and i just feel even more helpless than before.

thanks for your time.

vacantgodling

sorry to be back again but shit’s still in the gutter.

we may be looking at homelessness. my partner has applied for university and i have applied for a scholarship as well but information on money is still up in the air. we just need enough to squeak by this month and i’m hoping that we will be able to get some type of good news in june.

the new rental amount is $1851 for month to month. i wish i could move too. right now i have $1226 thanks to door dashing and all of you all’s generosity. this means i still need $625 to stay in the place we’re at for now and fingers crossed that financial aid for both of us drops in june and we can use that to move somewhere else cheaper.

unfortunately my current complex is shit and won’t let me pay online due to a miscommunication on their part in december and i’ve had to take out money orders instead. this adds a $10 whenever i withdraw money from the bank so overall looking at $635 that i still need to raise.

if you don’t have anything to spare i totally understand. i wish i wasn’t in this position and i hope no one else ever is. reblogs help. i also offer art commissions, and i have a substack where i write about my projects and writing. i’m also willing to beta read anything you have written and i leave lots of comments though i don’t have a specific pay structure for that. thank you again for your time.

paypal info in the first post.

0/635

of all my art to get notes i think the sora roxas one is funny

#like im not surprised kh fans are Devoted #but i love how y'all looked at two guys doing sick tricks and said: yes #talking