Charlie Stoll

Chaotic person who can’t consume any media normally

[i-will-pick-later]

Hi there! You can call me Charlie, my pronouns are they/them.

I’ll mostly be using this hellsite to post about my fanfiction and reblog my mutuals’ posts. (Check out i-will-pick-later-reblogs for anything other than that)

VERY anti-AI.

I am on AO3! (https://archiveofourown.org/users/I_will_pick_later) Feel free to check me out!

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Current interests consist of:

Deltarune / Undertale

The Magnus Archives / Protocol

Malevolent (podcast)

The Mechanisms

Malevolent (podcast)

Hazbin Hotel / Helluva Boss

Minecraft Story Mode (or Minecraft in general)

The Amazing Digital Circus

Knights of Guinevere

Murder Drones

Sfawtde / Dawtde

Howl’s Moving Castle (movie and book)

Breath of the Wild / Tears of the Kingdom

The Backrooms (both the movie and the original)

[aplatonicjacuzzi]

Not enough people are talking about how Clark Backrooms can’t make any decision by himself, not even to save his life. All his major life decisions, including the final one that determined his fate, were influenced by the women in his life. He started his own business to support his then-wife, who then had enough of his abusive behavior and divorced him. He discovered the Backrooms himself, but only decided to stay there because of the advice given to him via his therapist’s methods, to “find the window within”. And at the dinner scene, when Mary finally breaks down what’s wrong with him, Clark’s decision to not change was given to him by Mary.

From what we can gather in the movie, this man has gone through life by going with the flow and letting others make decisions for him, and hating himself for it every time. He didn’t want to run a furniture store, he didn’t want to divorce, and he didn’t want to change his ways. What he wanted was to chase his architect career, to not give up on that dream, and when he found the Backrooms, this desire warped with it. He wanted to stay and live in a facsimile of his old life, to become an architect of the Backrooms and continue to map it out.

But he needed someone to confirm that this was something he could do. He needed validation that this was the right choice for him, that he had always been right, because at the core of him he is a heavily insecure narcissist. The world and his ex-wife, he believed, was wrong not to conform to his worldview, but he never had the courage to speak against it. He impotently, begrudgingly accepted his circumstances and lashed out at every opportunity, and coped with his lack of power over his life thru drinking. The Backrooms became a way to assert the dominance he lacked in the real world.

Being hit by reality thru Mary’s final breakdown shook him up, and he regressed back to being an insecure and indecisive person. He knows what he wants but doesn’t know how to verbalize it. Mary had to outright tell him he doesn’t have to change. And being told what to do is such a relief for him, the burden of decision off his shoulders once again. But this time for something he wants.

I don’t know, I’m a bit all over the place here but he constantly wants to command power over his life and feels like he has none, when in reality he had every opportunity to change himself to improve his circumstances. The metaphor of being a failed architect yet clinging to the title. He’s trying to get out of his own messes but refuses to accept any responsibility for how he got into them, and doesn’t see why he should change.

It’s a tragic tale that you can see all the time in the real world.

[shadows-whisper-and-breathe]

I think he would be fun to listen to.

[i-will-pick-later]

AHHHH THIS IS PEAK!!! I also think Caine would be fun to listen to

I love how this looks, the colors go together so well and Caine’s design is just- 😍❤️🥰

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

YAYAYYAYAYA

Also the oc (in ref to your previous tag) is a not fully thought through self insert. Ill probably inspire her either off of willow trees or the concept of a shape shifter (two big motifs of mine) and figure that out later.

BUT HES SO CUTE AUHAJAJ

[i-will-pick-later]

Ohhhhhh, gotcha. That’s an awesome theme!

Bro how are you so creative 😭😭

[shadows-whisper-and-breathe]

I think he would be fun to listen to.

[i-will-pick-later]

AHHHH THIS IS PEAK!!! I also think Caine would be fun to listen to

I love how this looks, the colors go together so well and Caine’s design is just- 😍❤️🥰

[shadows-whisper-and-breathe]

Human caine doodle!

[i-will-pick-later]

OMG!!!!!! This is awesome!!! :D

I love the teeth around the collar, and his sharp teeth. I could definitely tell this was Human!Caine even if it was presented without context. Also, the white at the bottom of his beard and the white at the front of his hair look like teeth too, which is super cool. They add to the little bits of grey throughout, which definitely makes him look a little older (/pos. /super pos.)

I adore his earrings too, they give him so much personality!

This is gorgeous!!

[sexy-people-contests-2026]

Tumblr Sexyman Contest 2026 Round 2 Part 31

Caine (The Amazing Digital Circus)

Olruggio (Witch Hat Atelier)

Remaining time: 2 days 2 hours

[i-will-pick-later]

Come on guys I NEED Caine to win

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

His fucking dentures bro please

Anyway my current progress

[i-will-pick-later]

HOLY PEAK????? What the hell dude that’s gorgeous 😭😭

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I like the lil jaw thing going on at his neck. Im trying to find ways to incorporate more teeth elements since I cant draw the dentures lol

[i-will-pick-later]

Those are sick! Maybe you could give him like a tooth earring? The ones he already has look really good

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I didnt think of that!!! I was originally gonna make it jeffery then defaulted to an eyeball. But that is smart

[i-will-pick-later]

Make it…Jeffery? Am I out of the loop again what does that mean

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

Jeffery is the name of the lil eye star thingy he did. The person who animated that scene named the star jeffery.

This guy

[i-will-pick-later]

Oh! I had no idea, that’s adorable!! Maybe you could give him a little pin with that guy lmao

Your art is so cool!!

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

Ty!!!

Im considering that actually!

I'll @ u in the final verison if u want??? :D

[i-will-pick-later]

I would LOVE that!! :D

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

His fucking dentures bro please

Anyway my current progress

[i-will-pick-later]

HOLY PEAK????? What the hell dude that’s gorgeous 😭😭

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I like the lil jaw thing going on at his neck. Im trying to find ways to incorporate more teeth elements since I cant draw the dentures lol

[i-will-pick-later]

Those are sick! Maybe you could give him like a tooth earring? The ones he already has look really good

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I didnt think of that!!! I was originally gonna make it jeffery then defaulted to an eyeball. But that is smart

[i-will-pick-later]

Make it…Jeffery? Am I out of the loop again what does that mean

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

Jeffery is the name of the lil eye star thingy he did. The person who animated that scene named the star jeffery.

This guy

[i-will-pick-later]

Oh! I had no idea, that’s adorable!! Maybe you could give him a little pin with that guy lmao

Your art is so cool!!

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

His fucking dentures bro please

Anyway my current progress

[i-will-pick-later]

HOLY PEAK????? What the hell dude that’s gorgeous 😭😭

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I like the lil jaw thing going on at his neck. Im trying to find ways to incorporate more teeth elements since I cant draw the dentures lol

[i-will-pick-later]

Those are sick! Maybe you could give him like a tooth earring? The ones he already has look really good

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I didnt think of that!!! I was originally gonna make it jeffery then defaulted to an eyeball. But that is smart

[i-will-pick-later]

Make it…Jeffery? Am I out of the loop again what does that mean

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

His fucking dentures bro please

Anyway my current progress

[i-will-pick-later]

HOLY PEAK????? What the hell dude that’s gorgeous 😭😭

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I like the lil jaw thing going on at his neck. Im trying to find ways to incorporate more teeth elements since I cant draw the dentures lol

[i-will-pick-later]

Those are sick! Maybe you could give him like a tooth earring? The ones he already has look really good

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

His fucking dentures bro please

Anyway my current progress

[i-will-pick-later]

HOLY PEAK????? What the hell dude that’s gorgeous 😭😭

[toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen]

I wanna draw caine but teeth are literally the hardest thing for me. The curse of a blorbo

[i-will-pick-later]

I’m awful at drawing but I’ve tried just for him. The struggle is real :(

[demonic0angel]

Ten People You'd Like to Know Better

Ty to @meepmeepreblogthegeek for the tag!

Last song(s): Midnight Sun by Zara Larsson and Muni Long

Currently watching: Nothing, tbh. I haven’t been watching anything lately, but I am hoping to watch Batman: Under the Red Hood soon! :D

Current obsession: Currently obsessed with SVSSS again, so I’m screaming, “I’M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN!!” the entire time as I devour fics and art

Currently reading: Somehow, I’m reading Supernatural omegaverse fics again??

Currently working on: Some art and lowkey Anger Management smut that I want to post on my AO3… hopefully, I can actually post them??

Last Google search: An Etsy link for adult miniatures lmaooo

No pressure tags and anyone can join: @anonymous-existences @caleism-1 @pinklotushere @azadale @angyblobghost @vangreer @elizabethemerald @nina318 @gilbirda @alkallier

[nina318]

Tysm @demonic0angel for the tag!!

Last Songs: Kinda Crazy by Selena Gomez and Nobody by Mitski

Currently Watching: The Apothecary Diaries!! Love rewatching shoes and this one has been one mind again lol

Current Obsession: Project Hail Mary, but more specifically BloodyMary ship (about to watch Iron Lung just to understand all the fics and small comics I’ve read more!!) They been taking over my mind alongside Coltland twins 😭😭

Currently Reading: Some PHM fics with a side of DP x DC fics as well, currently reading every Ghostlight fic ever written

Currently Working On: A couple of decor and art projects, they’re not turning exactly as imagined but we’re getting somewhere!! I’m trying to trust the process and be patient with myself

Last Google Search: Red -Tailed Hawk images and quick/basic facts about them (I don’t remember what this was for exactly?? But last month, I was gifted one of their feathers found by a friend)

Feel no pressure to respond and anyone can join!! @aster-draws @alkallier @corkinavoid @clockwaysadmin @magicae-est-realis @mcgomega @chubby-p1nk @dcxdpdabbles @deadsetobsessions @veidara

[magicae-est-realis]

Thank you for the tag!!

Last Songs: Too Loud (Icon for Hire), LABOUR- the Cacophony (Paris Paloma)

Currently Watching: Long-standing Supernatural watch with my friend. We're currently halfway through season 10.

Current Obsession: Dungeon Crawler Carl and the BBC Merlin show

Currently Reading: Dungeon Crawler Carl and Merthur fics

Currently Working On: What I should be doing and am halfway through is creating a summary of some notes. What I'm actually currently doing is searching up a list of cat breeds to find a good list with photos for all recognised breeds. Tossing up which of the three lists I like best and will use for references.

Last Google Search: Google specifically? Other browsers to change to, the very final search was 'Ecosia', and I took spiteful glee in that. Last search in general? I literally just came my search for cat breeds.

@libraryjones, @moooooorning, @ace-of-hats, @wardofwinters, @inkshine, @tympanicpercussion, @poltergeist-in-the-water-heater, @ryderthequeerious, @megafaunaknight, @afraid-of-butterflies

[ryderthequeerious]

Thank you sm for the tag @magicae-est-realis

Last song/s: Gimme Gimme Gimme (a man after midnight by ABBA and Harlem Roulette by The Mountain Goats

Currently watching: I’m working my way slowly through breaking bad and rewatching Chernobyl, also creepcast bc I love them

Current Obsession: I’m between fixations right now but my most recent were Dan and Phil and a good omens resurgence and now I’m drifting against my will into being interested in bloodymary (my feed is flooded with they space yaoi 👍 good for them)

Currently Reading: GO fanfic and the 1818 text of Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein (the og basically)

Currently Working on: A GO season 3 fix-it fic of my own devising, and also irl room decorating/moving house

Last Google Search: I looked up “Enervating meaning” for writing and essay purposes, and I also looked up “McKamey manor” purely to make sure I was spelling it right, which is embarrassing but my truth 🫡

Absolutely no pressure tags to my wonderful moots:

@aplatonicjacuzzi @medoesnotknow @thetravelingfrogwizard @thicccatbutts @poorlyarticulated @wherewolfwerewolf and anyone else who wants to add on!! (I know it’s not ten people but hopefully I’ll get there one day 💪)

[aplatonicjacuzzi]

@ryderthequeerious tysm I’ve not done something like this in a long time

Last song/s: Chest Pain (I Love) by Malcolm Todd (current music obsession) and Warning Signs by Dorian Electra (we Stan a non-binary monarch)

Current obsession: Kane Parsons’ Backrooms and it’s not even close

Currently Reading: Hannelore’s 5th Year (spinoff/sequel to Ascendance of a Bookworm, my current book series obsession) and rereading The Locked Tomb series for the millionth time.

Currently working on: theories for the Backrooms movie, mourning the Locked Tomb series (tragic lesbians are my jam), catching up on Critical Role, trying to find inspiration for fanfic writing (sorely out of practice)

Last Google Search: monsterland because it showed up on YouTube shorts and seemed really interesting

Tagging the moots because they’re awesome:

@itsybitsylemonsqueezy @aethersea @clawdee @toby-werewolf @i-will-pick-later @madmanrambler @crustycantankerousgrownup @moth-ra @thesynysterunknown @ynheer

Anyone else is more than welcome to add on ❤️

[i-will-pick-later]

Ty @aplatonicjacuzzi for the tag, this seems fun!

Last song I listened to: A cover of The One Who’s Running the Show by Annapantsu last night at like midnight (and it was fire)

Watching: I’ve been re-watching The Amazing Digital Circus since I saw the finale on the 4th (don’t worry, spoiler free. Im not an asshole lol). But other than that, I haven’t been watching many shows. Do Game Changer clips count?

Obsession: There’s like four of them currently rattling around in my brain and I’m going to lose it. I just saw the Backrooms and that was genuinely a cinematic masterpiece. I’ve loved the backrooms ever since they got big, watched all the videos about the different levels and the found footage. So the movie scratched a part of my brain I really appreciated. However, TADC also just ended and oh boy has that rekindled my obsession with that. When the finale comes out on YouTube I’ll probably talk about it more. And, of course, MCSM is just waiting. Patiently. For me to return. As I always do, and always will.

Reading: Any and All Bloodymary fics I can get my hands on. I don’t need to explain myself to you, I’m allowed to enjoy a little space yaoi.

Working On: I have a Harpvor fic that I’ve totally abandoned. I swear I’m coming back to it and completing it. I didn’t forget I promise. Past that, I still have the Hadestown x MCSM AU fic kicking around in the back of my brain.

Last Google search: “opposite miku” …listen I was having a debate with someone

Tagging the mutuals (even though there’s not ten lol): @whentheresnojustagirl @loadbearing-jpeg @comet--storm @ghostys-graveyard @lonesome-canine @toomanyfandomstoomanyhotmen @fruitzzone @thefallenangel673

[aplatonicjacuzzi]

Side effects of movie pirating: within 48 hours of the backrooms movie being out people were uploading the full movie to YouTube, since then A24 has been trigger happy on copyright and flagging videos including ANY footage of the movie, including footage from trailers.

If you’re gonna pirate (which I get but for legal reasons I will point out it’s illegal) DON’T POST THAT SHIT ON YOUTUBE. You are harming creators who rely on fair use rights to make video essays and movie reviews. A24 has been incredible at changing the movie landscape but at the end of the day they’re a company that cares about their IP and like all companies, they will go overboard in punishing those who infringe on those IP rights.

Just be smart about it guys. Don’t hurt your fellow fans.

[i-will-pick-later]

What’s your favorite thing about Romeo? Mine is his relation with Xara. It makes my brain itch. Keeping your best friend locked up in a cage (and quite literally muzzling her like a dog) just because you couldn’t bring yourself to end her life like you did your other friend,, Romeo I need to study you under a microscope.

AHHH IM SO SORRY!!! I saw this and went “oh damn, I need to ponder this for a minute” and then IMMEDIATELY forget and I would like to express my deepest condolences for that.

Now moving on to the actual question. I’m putting a cut here because i realized I yapped a lot more than I thought I would .

I find Romeo and Xara’s relationship fascinating to say the least. Of course, I have a biased perspective since Romeo is one of my blorbos of all time so. I admit that. Additionally, I find Xara difficult to fully understand at times, and I fear I’m always doing her a little dirty. So sorry for that, too. I think, overall, it speaks to Romeo’s obsession. That’s how he shows his “love”, even though that is not what love is. Which actually transitions nicely into one of my favorite things about him, that being:

I love Romeo’s perfectionism. His desperate need for control, so he can make everything around him “perfect”. I think it’s such a wonderful trait, especially for a villain. It makes him fun to watch and fight against. He wants the world not necessarily in his image, but according to his standards. When given the power to control anything, he chose everything. And I love that. It makes his desire for a champion all the more intriguing as well. Why would a man who wants to (and practically can) control everything seek out someone who he cannot control? It’s because there is one singular thing he can’t control. People. He can’t control people. He can’t mind control them or force them to do his bidding. Sure he can bribe some of them, threaten others, do what works, but there’s always those who fall through the cracks. This man who wants to control everything cannot control these people, and it both infuriates and scares him. So he needs a champion, someone he can control, to control others. He needs a puppet, but a puppet that lives up to his standards.

And I think that’s kinda neat.

It’s why he killed Fred. He couldn’t control Fred, and Fred started to threaten his control. It’s why he imprisoned Xara. He can’t control Xara, and she is a constant threat to everything he’s done. It’s why he sent Jesse to the Sunshine Institute. Because Jesse is change. Jesse changed the Order of the Stone and everyone involved. Jesse changed everyone they met in the portals. If Jesse won’t submit to Romeo’s rein, they’ll change his perfect world. It’s just- *starts foaming at the mouth* AHSHJDHSISHW

So, overall, I love why Romeo does what he does. Because he needs control, because that’s all he has. He can’t have friends, because he can’t control them. Things he can’t control threaten him. And yet he continues his rein, despite the isolation, because being out of control scares him more than anything else.

Lmk what you think, because I love other people’s views and I genuinely want to expand my perspective. Also, if Xara is your special blorbo please drop any character insights below because I want to understand and appreciate her so badly guys you don’t understand-

[aplatonicjacuzzi]

Backrooms Spoilers under the cut because I don’t see enough people talking about Mary Kline’s arc (I just realized how much I wrote after I wrote it holy shit)

Mary is such a tragic figure; borne from a subconscious desire to save her mother, she went into psychology to help others and ultimately unlock those answers. “The Window Within” is such an amazing choice for her book name, referencing the window she’d try to look through as a child and was subsequently torn away from by her mom at the worst moments of her illness; she wants to see the world outside her trauma and help others do the same.

In many ways, Mary’s life is as empty as Clark’s; we see that, despite some minor success as a psychologist with her books and tapes, she has nothing else really going for her. House parties can’t fill that void, since when she saw a mother and child interacting, she quickly left to be alone (literally in her “back room”) to take anxiety medication in the midst of an episode.

She spends late nights on her couch eating dinner and staring at a TV playing her infomercial ad (and I believe her house doubles as a her office, so she, too, literally sleeps where she works), the same as Clarke in a bed inside his furniture store. Neither of them can escape their trauma (Clark’s drinking habits and Mary’s concrete handprint from her mother) or their workplace.

The difference with Mary is that she’s put herself in a position to help others, and needs to keep that facade up at all times. She’s unable to speak her true thoughts because that’s not what psychologists do; they’re supposed to guide others to find their own way out. But she herself is lost, like the blind leading the blind, and when she’s told by Clark that he “found his window”, it sets off alarms but it must’ve also piqued her curiosity; what answer did he find in those weird, endless rooms he was talking about?

Then she discovers that his answer, in fact, was to double down on his worst aspects, to embrace the trauma that’s trapped him. “I feel like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.” The kitchen facade of his Backrooms home, the Still Lifes he’s gathered around him, the fact that one of them is (heavily implied to be) a distorted version of his ex-wife; wallowing and ruminating on one’s trauma wasn’t the answer she was looking for.

The psychological exercise, the roleplay of Clark’s fateful night, is repeated. The first time they did this was on her terms, in the sterility of her office; safe and divorced from emotion, she spoke her lines and allowed Clark to express his misgivings, then commented neutrally. “How does this make you feel?” She can’t make her own feelings known on the situation, she is acting as a platform to give Clark a voice to his emotions.

Now, this roleplay is on Clark’s terms; trapped and restrained and forced to play the role of the wife wearing the scalp of his ex-wife’s Still Life (she cannot see them as he does, as husks of misremembered people, she sees the act as horrifying and deranged), she initially goes along with it, telling him what he wants to hear (fawning is one of the forms of survival response), until she can no longer remain passive. She breaks her typical routine and give Clark her honest opinion, something that could’ve reached him if only she’d been allowed to (Clark calling out her terrible poker face was illuminating, how long has he seen through her?):

He whines, he refuses to take responsibility for his own actions, he displaces blame on others, he copes with this through drinking, he refuses to be wrong. His response? “Are you saying this is my fault?” And she reaffirms this. Then, she tells him, “I can’t save you!” [only saw the film once, I’m probably forgetting stuff]

And through verbalizing this, she stares in shock, more so at herself; she found her answer. The truth at the heart of her trauma. She couldn’t save her mother. In fact, it wasn’t her job to save her mother; she was just a child. In that situation, her mother could only have saved herself and had an obligation to not let Mary be trapped in it.

Then Clark goes, “But I don’t think I want to change.” And she replies, “Then don’t. But let me go.” She speaks to her captor, both Clark and, subconsciously, her mother. She wants to move forward from her childhood trauma, she found her window and wishes to go through it. Clark, delighted at her permission to remain in his self-destruction, frees her.

Then, Pirate Clark walks in. It’s the manifestation of his trauma and anger and his worst aspects given form, the monster that’s been chasing him and the others through the backrooms, and we see how the other Still Life’s react to him. His ex-wife proxy tries to flee, runs to the corner screaming and ramming herself into the walls; the other two similarly flip out. Clark, with his new understanding of himself, and the revelation he received from Mary, tries to reason with Pirate Clark. “She said we don’t have to change! It’s okay!” He thinks he can have a life here, in the Backrooms, and tries to placate his own trauma.

But Pirate Clark, I believe, is not just his worst traits and trauma, but the innate desire to change and seek help. The look on his face is one of anguish and helplessness, he reflects Clark’s desire to find a way out. So when Pirate Clark is confronted with Clark’s decision, to stay the same, to stagnate, Pirate Clark consumes him, symbolizing Clark letting his trauma consume and kill him.

But Mary wants to escape, she found her window, now she needs to go through it. After a long chase and confrontation, she finds her salvation; she runs into Async and they extract her from the Backrooms.

What’s so interesting about the end scene is that in many ways, despite breaking the chains of her trauma (the concrete piece she used against Pirate Clark), she found herself back at the beginning; trapped in a room, looking at the windows like when she was a child. It reflects her last moments with her mom, who was committed to a psychiatric hospital and strapped to a chair with a dead stare on her face. She knows she won’t be free after what she went through. The scientists will scrutinize and interrogate her, with an unknown fate in the future. She couldn’t escape her childhood after all. These fears and this new trauma manifests in the Backrooms. Her demolished house, her neighborhood, and even the very room she’s in, appears, and with it her very own Still Life: a woman trapped in a chair.

I’m sure I’ve missed a whole bunch and I need to rewatch Backrooms again to see what I missed (memory is a tricky thing, you see), but I absolutely loved the movie and can’t wait until it’s out. Once everything improves, I’ll eventually buy a physical copy of the movie.

[i-will-pick-later]

I wrote my essay on the Backrooms, I loved Mary so much and felt so bad for both of them.

No HONESTLY. Spoilers for The Backrooms movie below the cut. And also?? An actual essay? My fellow yapper? I would love to see anything you’re willing to share.

OK SO. I’m definitely the therapist friend, so while I’m not legally a therapist I could definitely empathize with Mary’s position. You want to help people. You go through something so horrific and you don’t want anyone else to experience that, or feel that way. But at the end of the day, you have to take care of yourself too. You have to put yourself and your safety first. And if you don’t? If you follow someone you know needs help into an unknown place? You get hurt.

Also. Don’t even get me started on the ending. Again, SPOILERS!!! I know I put the cut but STILL.

Personally, I think they killed her. I think they wanted to study her brain and everything. Maybe that’s me being morbid, and I would very much like be open to other interpretations, but that’s what I think happened. And the scene of the Backroom’s memory version of her? Sent literal chills down my spine. I was frozen. I’m struggling to even formulate thoughts on it because it’s just so much “OMGOMGOMGOMG SKCNKSNFKSN”

Also also. I love the (admittedly short) scene where it shows her book in the level “The End”, or at least that’s what I thought it was. Because that’s a trap level. It’s a level that, to the best of my memory, lures wanderers into thinking they’ve finally escaped. For as much as Mary tries, she will never escape. Even if she, the real Mary, somehow managed to get back into the real world and try to live, the memory of her still exists there. And her memory of it will never go away. She will never be free of it. And she will always, always, be searching for that exit. She will never find it.