IHaveADamProblem

she/her || bisexual || I have no idea what I'm doing

[iamadamproblem]

"Eddie started singing quietly, his low voice rough a little at the edges. One by one, everyone joined it. They were far from perfect and certainly not professional – Harry missed half the lyrics, and Chim sometimes came into early which made Hen laugh halfway through the verse. Ravi sang deliberately loud just to annoy them.

But, despite it all, they sang. Together. And for the first time since Bobby died, something in Buck’s chest loosened just a little."

-excerpt from chapter 3 of my 9-1-1 fic! check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"Buck didn’t answer. For a moment they just stood together in the cold morning air. The fake tranquillity now felt closer to something domestic, which was strange. He’d noticed that recently moments with Eddie had begun…lingering too long. Just little things. The way Eddie handed him coffee without asking whether he wanted one or how he took it; the way Buck automatically reached for Chris’ backpack when they all left Eddie’s house together. All the little things they’d picked up when living together. The ease of sharing space."

-excerpt from chapter two of my 9-1-1 work retreat fic! check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

“We’re all going on a work retreat,” Chim stepped in. “It’s just one week. The Chief is right, we’ve all been under some stress lately – we could use a break, even if it is technically work.”

“Chim –”

“I kind of like the idea,” Ravi agreed. “Team-building games with work friends?”

“That’s what you heard?” Harry asked.

“What did you hear?” He frowned.

“Not that,” Buck replied in Harry’s place. “Chim, you can’t be serious.”

He shrugged. “It’ll be good for us.”

“It doesn’t matter that we don’t want to?” Hen asked, her tone dangerously close to defiant anger.

“It does,” he said. “But I’m meant to do what’s best for this team. And this is what I think is best.” - excerpt from my new 9-1-1 fic! it's been a while, but I am back - for now. if you want to read it, you can find it here.

[iamadamproblem]

“I want to know what you’ve been carrying since the shooting.”

The question landed heavier than Dana expected. She covered it with a laugh. “Carrying? Please. I’m a champ at compartmentalizing. Shove it in a box, duct tape it shut, move on.”

“Boxes get heavy.”

“Not for me.”

-next chapter is here! Everyone is going to therapy

[iamadamproblem]

"The office was too quiet. That was Robby’s first thought as he stepped inside, hovering awkwardly just past the door. He wasn’t used to silence like this – no monitors beeping, no paramedics yelling vitals as they crashed through ambulance bay doors, no Dana shouting across the ER about someone who’d decided to swallow coins for attention.

The silence pressed in on him."

-new fic!! much to the dismay of my sibling, I am neglecting supernatural now to produce the sequel to my Pitt fanfic where they all have to go to therapy and not everyone likes it. check it out here!

[iamadamproblem]

"Dean tossed his bag down near the window and sat for a long moment, watching them all.

Jack had already dozed off, mouth open slightly, breathing steady. Cas sat cross-legged, watching the embers in the hearth like they might whisper something. Sam was flipping through a book by flashlight, pencil stuck behind one ear."

-excerpt from chapter 2 of my domestic supernatural fic! check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"It sat back a ways from the road, surrounded by tall grass and shade-heavy oaks that looked like they’d been there longer than the country. The place was squat, weathered, leaning slightly like it had once tried to run and thought better of it. Porch roof sagging. A boarded window or two. Chimney crumbled halfway up.

It looked forgotten. Like something left behind on purpose."

-first chapter of a new Supernatural fic; this one is specifically for anyone who's still not recovered from the s15 finale, just like @straightupgay13, so it's not as action-y or angsty as some of my other works. check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"Everything was happening too quickly; two more bullets fire, a woman on the brink of death, a man threatening the ER with a gun – yet all that Robby could think about was Jack Abbot. He didn’t know whether the man was alive, didn’t know whether he was dead, but what he did know was that he had to see him. That meant he had to get out of that room, and he could only do that if he fixed the woman laying in front of him. They needed an ER, desperately, but what they had would have to do – he was terrified of what might happen if he couldn’t make this work."

-excerpt from the last chapter of this fic! this comes out today specifically to celebrate my older siblings' birthday (as well as the end of my writer's block) thank you for all the support! check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"Abbot stayed still, silent. The guilt hidden in the lines of his face looked like something carved by hand – deliberate, like scars cut too deep to ever heal cleanly. Collins watched him for a moment, her heart breaking for him."

-chapter 3 is here!! check out my Pitt fanfic on ao3 here

[iamadamproblem]

"Robby could’ve cried; he’d spent the last twenty minutes trying to save Jack Abbot, tyring to keep him alive, and there were times when he didn’t think he would be able to. He kept envisioning the last breath that the doctor might take, kept hearing the flatline that would sound from the EKG machine – he couldn’t let that happen. He wouldn’t."

-chapter two!! check out my fic about The Pitt here

[iamadamproblem]

"As soon as he was in range, he pulled Abbot back by his scrubs, narrowly missing the patient that had been barrelling in his direction; Langdon made a comment about the doctor as he passed – simultaneously thanking Robby – and they both watched the stretcher continue hurriedly through the ER. Seconds passed before either of them realised just how close together they were. There was nothing separating them except for Abbot’s stupid little iPad that was stuck in the middle of their chests, both breathing just a little bit heavier as Abbot’s eyes widened with fear."

-new fic!! I finished watching the Pitt and decided I had to write something about it, so 911/Criminal Minds is being put on halt. check it out here

this scene was inspired by @abbotcoded!!

[iamadamproblem]

"When a stranger’s voice called up from the ground floor of the firehouse, everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at each other; Bobby was the first to stand and peer over the railing, and as soon as he started to move so did everyone else, except for Eddie who was still eating. They headed down the stairs together, watching three men wait for them; one looked like an actual FBI agent – an older man in a very nice suit -, but the other two weren’t exactly what Buck expected. The first was scrawny for a field agent, tall and in a white shirt with a satchel over his shoulder. The second seemed to be made entirely of muscle, a simple shirt and jeans; definitely not what Buck was expecting."

-excerpt from the first chapter of my new 9-1-1 x Criminal Minds crossover on ao3! check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

“Buck?”

Normally he would’ve turned and responded, would’ve offered any help that he could provide. Normally, he would’ve smiled and replied in some manner, would’ve engaged in conversation to no end. Normally. But this wasn’t normal. Eddie was at the door or beyond it, near to Buck but not near enough. He didn’t know what to say. What would he normally say? No response came his mind, and he didn’t know what to do. His thoughts spiralled. His words would not escape his lips. His body would not move. There was something wrong with him.

-excerpt from the fourth, and final, chapter of this 911xSupernatural crossover fic! been a long, long time, but hopefully I'll be back for at least a week. Any recommendations for the next fic is welcome! check out the fic here

[iamadamproblem]

"Walking out, he entered his room and threw himself onto the bed. He was reeling, regretting everything that had happened in the previous five minutes. If he really thought about it, then it was obvious to him that he’d been in love with Eddie almost since they’d met. But for years, he didn’t know it – if he did, then he denied it. He had also denied being bisexual, but he knew the truth now. He was discovering himself, and he had discovered he loved Eddie. He was in love with Eddie. Unfortunately, nothing was going to change that."

-chapter three!! excerpt from my supernatural x 911 crossover. check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"With that she continued out the door, but still Dean didn’t follow. He needed another moment to think, to understand something. There’s something about Eddie. He’d admitted to himself something similar the night previous, that he had a different relationship with Castiel. Was it the same? No, it couldn’t be. He didn’t even know what Buck and Eddie were to each other, and he certainly wasn’t about to ask. Sam had gotten into his head. Sam had told him that Buck reminded him of Dean, and now his mind was trying to make that true for some reason. They were not the same. They did not think the same, and they didn’t feel the same. It wasn’t the same. Was it?"

-excerpt from chapter 2 of my 911/Supernatural crossover. Check it out here!

[iamadamproblem]

"Dean chuckled a little at his question; they’d known the angel for some years now, and it was fair to say they made a rather good team. But when Castiel failed to recognise a number of social cues and misunderstood the fact that he technically wasn’t supposed to be there, it did make him smile – something about someone remaining untainted by humanity, like he was, seemed funny to him."

-excerpt from my new fic!! supernatural x 911 crossover, and I hope you enjoy. check it out here

[iamadamproblem]

"They continued to walk on towards the rising the sun, calling after Matt and Dean; they both stopped and waited for them to catch up so that they could trek forward together. Matt’s hand found his. Dean pulled Sam down by his neck and dug a fist into his head as they all laughed. Their lives may not have been perfect or even good , but there, in that moment, something was right. "

-excerpt from the fifth, and last, chapter of this crossover fic!! thank you to everyone who's been following it, I've really enjoyed writing it. hopefully I'll think of something new to write soon lol. Check it out here