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Glad to find this post again on my "one day". It really does get better in time. 🤍

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Lost

48 hours of silence 

is approaching again

I have no more excuses

Simple "Hi", wouldn't suffice

Where do I find the strength?

Every where I see is you

Every where I see you gone

What do I do, when my heart

longs for your love?

What do I do,

I can't find you anymore?

How do I live with this pain?

Even "Friends" do no comfort

This emptiness after you left

drives me insane

drives me mad

could I just disappear?

I can hardly breathe

thru the weights on my chest

I'm being crushed

down to ground

you are nowhere to be found

you left me a hole

I cannot mend

My eyes only sees

ending my therefore I exist

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wth, woman up!

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crazy

Your eyes send me butterflies, makes my mind blank.

It renders me wordless.

I'd give up my knees for those stares

Your beautiful mind I'm trying to resist,

yet I see myself surrender.

I'd submit to those wits if it means forever

These lips that utter sincere sweet music,

even shattered the strongest walls.

I'd steal a kiss if it just ain't wrong

I kept asking for His plans

if this ain't part of it

I wasn't mine either but

I think I've fallen.

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THIS IS BEAUTIFUL! TAKE THE TIME TO READ IT ❤️

my brain and

heart divorced

a decade ago

over who was

to blame about

how big of a mess

I have become

eventually,

they couldn't be

in the same room

with each other

now my head and heart

share custody of me

I stay with my brain

during the week

and my heart

gets me on weekends

they never speak to one another

- instead, they give me

the same note to pass

to each other every week

and their notes they

send to one another always

says the same thing:

"This is all your fault"

on Sundays

my heart complains

about how my

head has let me down

in the past

and on Wednesday

my head lists all

of the times my

heart has screwed

things up for me

in the future

they blame each

other for the

state of my life

there's been a lot

of yelling - and crying

so,

lately, I've been

spending a lot of

time with my gut

who serves as my

unofficial therapist

most nights, I sneak out of the

window in my ribcage

and slide down my spine

and collapse on my

gut's plush leather chair

that's always open for me

~ and I just sit sit sit sit

until the sun comes up

last evening,

my gut asked me

if I was having a hard

time being caught

between my heart

and my head

I nodded

I said I didn't know

if I could live with

either of them anymore

"my heart is always sad about

something that happened yesterday

while my head is always worried

about something that may happen tomorrow,"

I lamented

my gut squeezed my hand

"I just can't live with

my mistakes of the past

or my anxiety about the future,"

I sighed

my gut smiled and said:

"in that case,

you should

go stay with your

lungs for a while,"

I was confused

- the look on my face gave it away

"if you are exhausted about

your heart's obsession with

the fixed past and your mind's focus

on the uncertain future

your lungs are the perfect place for you

there is no yesterday in your lungs

there is no tomorrow there either

there is only now

there is only inhale

there is only exhale

there is only this moment

there is only breath

and in that breath

you can rest while your

heart and head work

their relationship out."

this morning,

while my brain

was busy reading

tea leaves

and while my

heart was staring

at old photographs

I packed a little

bag and walked

to the door of

my lungs

before I could even knock

she opened the door

with a smile and as

a gust of air embraced me

she said

"what took you so long?"

~ John Roedel