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[iamstoned420]

The day I die,do not weep for me,for my heart has already been buriedlong before my body.Do not shed tears upon my grave,for your coldness in lifewas the shroud that wrapped my soul,and your silence was my funeral song.I loved you in the shadows of despair,while you walked in the light of indifference.So when the earth claims what remains,know that you did not lose me today—you lost me every day you chose not to see me.

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When hope finally bled out, hatred became the only thing keeping me alive.

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There was a boy inside my soul,

With steady hands and a heart still whole.

He saw the good in every face,

And offered strangers warmth and grace.

He took the hits and bore the pain,

Convinced the sun would shine again.

He stitched the wounds that others made,

And carried burdens they delayed.

But years can turn the kindest cold,

When every lie begins to mold.

A heart once bright can slowly rust,

From broken faith and shattered trust.

So piece by piece, that boy grew thin,

Lost every fight he fought within.

His voice became a fading sound,

Until one day it wasn't found.

No bells were rung, no prayers were read,

No tears were shed when hope lay dead.

No crowd appeared, no flowers came,

Not one soul even knew his name.

Now all that's left is what remains,

A man composed of scars and chains.

Still standing tall, still drawing breath,

But carrying that quiet death.

Sometimes at night I think I hear

That younger voice I held so dear.

But echoes fade and memories bend,

And even ghosts must meet their end.

So if I seem a little far,

Or colder than I once by far,

Just know the sweetest part of me

Was buried where no eyes could see.

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Will you.... will you cry for me when I'm gone

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I don't think I'll ever understand

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Slowly beginning to hate everything

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Why try to communicate if nobody listens

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I have a way of breaking what I try to hold,

of turning something warm into something cold.

I don’t mean to fail, I don’t mean to fall,

but somehow I’m the damage after all.

My family smiles when I walk through the door,

the kind of smile they’ve practiced before.

They laugh too quick, they say I’m fine,

but I hear the ache between every line.

I feel their pain in the hush they keep,

in the words they swallow, the sleep they lose sleep.

They love me loud, but it costs them more

than they will ever admit out loud anymore.

And then there’s you—

the love of my life,

the one I swore I’d protect from this knife.

Yet somehow I cut you without even knowing,

leave wounds behind where love was growing.

I trip on my words, I stall when I should stay,

I choose the wrong silence, the wrong thing to say.

You forgive me fast, you always do,

and every forgiveness just proves it’s true—

That loving me hurts in a quiet way,

that I promise tomorrow and fail today.

I see it flash in your tired eyes,

that split second before the brave disguise.

I don’t wreck things fast, I wear them thin,

I drain the light without meaning to sin.

I turn devotion into endless strain,

and call it love while it looks like pain.

If effort was enough, I’d be whole by now,

if regret fixed damage, I’d know how.

But here I stand with words rehearsed,

loving you deeply—

and doing my worst.

-iamstoned420

You're doing your best, and im proud of you.

Keep trying

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There's no place here I belong. I'll never belong anywhere. What's the point

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