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I would gladly relive every bad experience I've had for the last 20 years if I could see my cat one more time
Wish that the things I loved about myself weighed more than all the things that I hate about myself
the two wolves inside me agree that excessive caffeine intake is the answer
at work for the first time since what happened the other day and I was busy for awhile but now ive just been sitting alone and have to keep cutting myself off from bawling so instead I just feel nauseous very cool
i miss You, goodbye
At times like these, like these I lament my growing apathy My growing atrophy
No longer can I find the terms The notes to chirp To reassure Your restless heart
I hesitate to fill this page How could I ever put into words My love and regret and my fear and relief Begging you remember me in your next world
My eyes burn My stomach turns My appetite matches yours There’s truly too much I could never express But it’s late, it’s too late to confess
And so I have no Refined prose to show Nothing to share but a few broken fingers Stretching out to comfort you Or am I only comforting myself? Did I ever even help?
Could I have given you more When you gave me so much? My love, or my time, or my blood? Anything, please, I’m too fragile to handle Losing you now, I’ll do better I promise Please Don’t leave me
One could say that I’m being dramatic But that doesn’t stop the tears when they rise to my eyes I bite through my lip, holding back for awhile But I can’t really lie, I feel dead inside
You won’t come back to me tomorrow But why can’t I go to you To everyone, I’ve lied I am not alright
Pulled through twenty years before you died My own little angel for half of my life I don’t want to cry I don’t want to say goodbye Goodbye Goodbye
-for Engel
Randomly thinkin' about all the times I fell really hard for someone but worked myself up so much that I was too nervous to ever say anything, versus the times I did and they turned out to be an abusive or manipulative sociopath (or just basic cruddy person). Wondering if I were less of an anxiety disaster if any in the former category would have actually worked out nicely and I'd have at least gotten a brief experience of a halfway decent relationship lol
tfw you remember your login info
Tfw you see someone really cute and just wish you could hold hands 🙃
or like, they’ll just feel really bad and i don’t want them to just FEEL BAD bc the moment’s already passed, that doesn’t fix anything? i can’t change that they ruined this experience and will never get an opportunity to watch it for the first time again, so what does telling them i’m upset even do? nothing at all?? then it’s pointless.
i also hate that i am so upset over something like this and also hate that i won’t say anything about it bc while i am upset over it, it is something that i just inherently expect other people would not see as something worth getting so upset over and therefore won’t care i said so/would be confused i’m so upset in the first place
i just always feel like a prick pointing out things that are obvious to me like “maybe this tense, gripping scene is not the time to be asking a totally irrelevant question and i should just enjoy the moment unfolding or at least avoid ruining the experience for others”
so many things that i view as like a common courtesy that i do that other people seem to have never considered might be an issue for other people and ignore + trample over constantly
idk is it rude to tell your friends “hey maybe the movie would have made more sense to you if you didn’t talk over all of the important parts”?
i guess on top of what i was already frustrated with i’m frustrated when someone’s response to not understanding a plot element right away is to instantly go “this is bad, this is stupid, i disagree, etc. etc.”