Where mind and matter sip on gin.

Ian / Michigan / Beer / Loud Music

[ianbrodude]

"Shoot your shot, what's the worst thing they could say?"

Nothing, they could say nothing

Indifference is the real killer

[ianbrodude]

Luckily it still exists so i can emotionally post without broadcasting it to the world.

[ianbrodude]

This site is so dead now Idk if anyone even sees my posts

[ianbrodude]

Ive become so emotionally detached from romance/relationships, that even being around people having sexual/flirty tension makes me uncomfortable.

[ianbrodude]

I'll never forget when I came back from Florida and my "best friend" borrowed my board and never gave it back. Claiming I'm leeching off his family and I wont get shit from him.

That's cool, man, totally didnt try to kill myself 2 months ago and am just trying to recover. You offered me the place to stay during recovery too.

We called each other brothers, and we havent spoken in over 5 years.

[ianbrodude]

Day 3 of sleep for dinner

[shikero]

[beat9rock]

頼む先生元気な姿を見せてくれ

[ianbrodude]

Every day I grow more and more bitter

What will be left of me?

[dohma]

good dog

[crouchingphoenix]

[ianbrodude]

One of the last people I expressed emotions for, took money from me while in a rough spot.

Now I dont even know if they are alive.

[ianbrodude]

Crawling back into my hole out of embarassment

[ianbrodude]

The reality of being alone has almost made the idea of connecting with someone a fantasy.

At the same time, there's someone id do anything for and adore. I just don't feel like I'm worth it if I was you.

I feel stupid and alone because of it constantly

[ianbrodude]

I no longer exist

[ianbrodude]

I'm like that shitty movie, "Good Luck Chuck".

But instead of falling in love, you just die.

[ianbrodude]

The last 3 times I tried to shoot my shot, ive been ignored. Not even shut down, just blantantly ignored, like I dont exist.

Indifference is the true killer