Be kinder to everyone. You never know whatās going on behind doors. Love your family a little more everyday and spend the most time with your friends because you never know. When there is love there is no darkness. May these angels rest in peace.
Please remember that kpop idols are humans and they go through tribulations. Theyāre not just machines, every mean word you say about them they hear it one way or another. Treat them with kindness.
it makes me so mad people won't leave this poor kid alone but every single response he shoots off is funnier than if you gave me a week to think of one
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about now*:ć»ļ¾| chapter twenty seven ā ready to love
summary: a global pandemic paired with months of lockdown; you're pretty sure you're going stir-crazy. when you come across a viral chat-app, you don't even hesitate to join it. thus begin the chaos of meeting 14 random strangers and how they become a bigger part of your life than you thought they would.
alt: an au where you join an app that puts you into a groupchat of 15 people from different parts of the world
word count: 2.3k words
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a/n: AND IT IS HERE FOLKS !! sorry for the late-ish update lol this a big chonky oneš¤§but i hope the wait is worth it ?? (':
āHooold on a second, let me get the file up real quick,ā Jihoon softly mutters.
It had been mere moments since youāve finished calling the rest of the group for a celebratory Christmas call. Your small apartment suddenly feels even smaller as everything falls into silence and you were left alone. A bittersweet sigh escapes you as you stretch, but a notification popping up on your laptop sends you tumbling out of your seat in shock.
Ten minutes later, you sit face to face with the man who has been plaguing your mind and your everyday thoughts. The same man who you have been stressing over day and night and made you feel like a lovesick fool.
(Deep down you knew youĀ are, a lovesick fool; for him.)
He greets you with a stiff wave and despite the tension biting at your nerves, a giggle bubbles out of you in endearment. He rolls his eyes in mock annoyance, but the playful glint in his eyes erases any malice behind his muffled āshut up.ā The soft pads and swift clicks of a keyboard fill the air as silence falls upon the two of you. He dons an excitedāalbeit, shyāsmile that he inevitably fails to suppress every time he glances to the corner of the monitor where your figure sits in anticipation. You pretend not to notice that smile, despite how much it made your heart race.
Yet you canāt help but stare at him anywayāadmiring the way his lithe hand squishes against his cheek, how long his hair has notably grown as it falls over his eyesāa certain gentleness spreads warmth within your heart. You internally punch the air at how the universe has simultaneously graced you with his companionship but cursed you with the seemingly impossible circumstances to profess either of your feelings and take your friendship any further. However, tonight you were hell-bent on making things right.
As you let your thoughts trail, an air of nervousness renders you stiff. The reality suddenly dawns on you; the sheer magnitude of your feelings for him has lead you to personalise your very own gift packageāwith a written letter explaining said feelingsāthat is set to arrive at any given moment now. In this call. The comfortable stance youāve taken suddenly feels constricting and you reposition your limbs aimlessly. Your eyes flit around until youāre pretty sure youāve looked at every miscellaneous item on your desk three times already. How the hell did you usually act around him?
As the time ticks on, the jitters in your palms increases and you bite your inner cheek in silent distress.
However, as if he knew the state you were in, your earphones crackle to life with a soft hum of an unfamiliar, yet soothing melody. Instantly, as if it was muscle memory, your body calms down and your thoughts hush into a quiet lull. All you can hear and focus on is Jihoonās sweet voice washing over you peacefully.
āIs that the new song?ā You asked after he finishes humming a verse.
He shakes his head, a small pout forming on his lips and you bite your lip in hopes of repressing the smitten smile threatening to split your face at his cute expressions.
āIāve been kind of stuck on that one, so uh...ā he trails off, wordlessly. You were about to express words of encouragement before he quickly adds, āI made this one instead.ā
The small notification startles you as you slightly jump at the sound, fingers scrambling to open the song file Jihoon sent you.
On the other side of the screen, Jihoon quickly drops his head to hide his grin as he finds himself enamoured at all your little mannerisms. It does well in distracting him from the fact that he just sent you an entire song of him simply pouring all of his pent up feelings for youāorā¦actually not really.
Oh God, he thinks to himself, his nerves suddenly spiking when he hears your delighted cheer indicating that you finished downloading the file and is about to listen to it andĀ fuck, I want the ground to swallow me whole.
āWhatās the inspiration behind this one, āHoon?ā
He feels his world slow into a standstill. A beat passes. Jihoon releases a breath he subconsciously held as he frantically searches for an answer.
You, obviously, he thinks to himself again.Ā All my songs are all about you.
However his silence stretches on and he sees you tilt your head in question and he blurts out unthinkingly, āwhy donāt you listen to it first? I think youāll get where Iām coming from then.ā
You only nod enthusiastically before counting down in a soft voice, a distantĀ click!Ā of the keyboard is the last sound Jihoon heard before he sees you immersing yourself in the song. A surprised look flashes your eyes and he sees you flit your gaze towards the screen where he is, before immediately dropping to your fiddling hands. Even through the slightly blurry screen and your best efforts to hide your face, Jihoon notes your reddening ears and he can only assume which part of the song youāre in.
My feelings grew after I met you
JustĀ friendsĀ thatās not enough for me
As nonchalant as he acts, Jihoon is apt at picking up your feelings, or more importantly, hisĀ returnedĀ feelings. Heās not oblivious, nor stupid. After spending hours upon hours talking to you in video callsāwhether it was him asking you for company as he cooks dinner for himself, to you randomly calling during his shift at work just to show a quick cat you found at a random park, or your weekly watching parties. Jihoon has called you enough to know how you are at any time of day, to see you go through many ups and downs, and memorise every little habit you have.
Iām a fool of love for you
My heart by your side forever, by your side forever
Jihoon remembers it all, and he treasures it all. Often heād catch his own expression and how utterlyĀ in love, he looks. He would have cursed himself for falling for someone so deeply if not for the fact that one day, you started to mirror that same look to him. Whether you had realised it yourself or not, Jihoon was elated. So he stays by your side, lets your very presence carve itself a home in his heart and hopes that he has a place in yours, too.
Trust me now
To fill my heart to the top
Like youāre short of breath (let me)
You give me purpose
You hung your head and shut your eyes, heart tugging and you wonder to yourself whether it was in denial or hope. Is this truly real? As the last echoes of the beat ring in your ears, you heave a breath. Raising your head, you brave yourself to look into the screen and the moment you saw Jihoonās expectant face you part your lips, a response ready at the tip of your tongue.
āIāmāā
Ring. Ring.
Not expecting his doorbell to ring so late into the night, Jihoon flinches in surprise, eyes widening as he heaves an exasperated sigh. He mumbles a ābe right backā before his figure disappears off-camera, a string of curses leaving his lips before it fades into silence.
You let out an airy chuckle, a giddy smile threatening to break out after your jittery nerves start to settle after hearing the song. Who would have guessed that Jihoon would write an entire song dedicating his confession to you? You shake your head in disbelief, finding it funny at how similar the two of you think as your confessions were coincidentally set on the same day-
Hold on, you thought. Was the doorbell for theā
Before your thoughts could spiral even further, you see Jihoon fall back onto his chair, a wrapped gift in his hands. You see a glint in his eye as his lips stretch into a bashful grin, bringing out his red-dusted cheeks.
āDid you conspire with Seokmin to send me something?ā
The box was decked in horrendous wrapping paper, numerous thumbs with little Santa hats littered all overāa telltale sign of your own doing. Despite editing it yourself, you still snort at its tangible form, overly proud of yourself. You hear Jihoon break into a fit of gigglesāalbeit with half-hearted complaints in between of the stupid thumbsāand you were glad that you were the source of it.
āCan I open it now?ā Jihoon asked hurriedly, his excitement evident in the way his fingers tap rapidly on the box. In spite of the slight embarrassment of seeing him react to your gifts (and ultimately your confession letter), you nod, giving him the go-ahead.
Jihoon didnāt really know what to expect, the prospect of receiving a gift from you was enough to send his heart racing but as he carefully opened the package, he felt his breath knocked out of his lungs.
Little assorted gifts filled the box and scanning the notes stuck on them, he recognises some of them as things he mentioned wanting offhandedly in past calls and texts, whether they were your local snacks or certain knickknacks heās seen you have lying around your apartment. Jihoon feels ridiculous when he remembers how nervous he was a mere hour ago when now, he sits there with a box of, well, your feelings, essentially. So he cherishes it, softly tracing each note, as if in fear itād disappear if he wasnāt careful with it, with your hard work.
Jihoon delicately thumbs an envelope sealed with a heart sticker. He opens it before he heard your panicked yell.
āWait! Donāt open that yet, do it lastā¦Please?ā
Through its design, Jihoon inherently knew what was inside the envelope, and somehow it made the paper in his hand feel heavier, growing an itch to read its content. Seeing your distressed face, however, leads him to carefully place the envelope on the table; making sure not a single corner was wrinkled. He sees your shoulder sag, and he sends you a smile, āshould I check the rest, then?ā You nod hurriedly, and he holds back a comment. Cute, he thinks.
A throw blanket.Ā āNow you can stop complaining about using your heavy duvet when you get cold playing on the sofaāĀ Jihoon remembers that time he sulked about your handy throw blanket on your sofa and how he doesnāt have one, leading you to tease him the entire night when you snuggled your face into the said blanket. He remembers how his heart clenches at the sight of you half asleep under it and how he wishes he could revel in the sight with his own eyes instead of through the camera.
A red string bracelet with a bell pendant inside a black mug. āPlease stop drinking solely out of sport bottlesā Jihoon scoffs at the note before staring at the two items, wondering their significanceābreaking into a smile as he figures it out, recognising the familiar designs in a post you sent from Instagram.
āAre these matching items?ā
You look away from the screen before nodding ever so slowly. You can hear his airy giggle and even without seeing the screen, you can feel the unadulterated joy emanating from him.
āThe red string and bell are from āKimi no Na waā, soā¦ā Your voice started confidently before fading into silence as embarrassment overtakes you, letting out a groan at Jihoonās teasing.
A nightā¦lamp? Jihoon picks it up before holding it close to the camera. To his surprise, you let out a grumble before hiding your face behind your palms again. The man only raises an eyebrow and you wordlessly reach out to an identical looking lamp sitting on your desk, bringing it into the cameraās view. You touch the lamp softly as it glows a warm purple in response, and you can see the one Jihoonās holding react the same way. Realisation falls over Jihoonās face and a peal of uncontrollable laughter escapes him.
You whine out to him indignantly, āwhy are you laughing at me!ā
It takes Jihoon a few seconds to recuperate, traces of laughter evident in the chuckles under his breath as he puffs out a response.
āYouāre genuinely the cutest person ever, Yn.ā
The man only grins at the effect his statement has on you, as you curl into yourself again in embarrassment.
āYouāre the worst.ā
Jihoon snickers and the two of you fall into a comfortable silence. He giggles here and there, picking up graphic greeting cards you drew of his favourite characters, storing them safely on his table, next to the letter. You catch his longing eyes lingering on it for a few seconds, before diving back into the box. Something in you stirs as you see him immediately start to shoot off comments about some more snacks, so before you knew it, you cut him off without warning.
āIām in love with you.ā
Jihoonās words trail off into a stop. His hands that were busy with the boxās contents pause mid-air too, as if he was under a spell, which is true for the most part. His eyes trace yours for any sign of hesitation, yet what meets his gaze is one so full of love he thought he was dreaming, and he felt every nerve of his body tingle in adoration.
A beat passes. And another.
Tenderness blooms in Jihoonās features as his lips settle into a soft smile. He takes in your shy yet determined figure, eyes gazing at him in anticipation. He finds out right there and then that what he used to find difficult to admit in spoken words in lieu of a string of melody, somehow falls out of his lips with ease in the presence of you.
āIām in love with you too.ā
extra a/n: we fuckin did it y'all,,,,, it's been a long journeyš but here's a truckload of fluff for all of ya !! :D
One of my most favorite stories is coming to an end 𤧠𤧠š¤§
I really recommend this series to everyone, Seventeen stan and non stans!
It is so good and so well written <3
just to be clear, the fact that music was nominated for a golden globe is absolutely disgusting. every single (adult) involved in that gross, ableist movie should be sickened by themselves.
for those of you who don't know, music (2021) is a movie being directed by sia about a nonverable autistic girl. not only does it not include any actually autistic people in the movie itself but it also only took advice from autism speaks which is looked at as a hate group by the majority of the autistic community. leaked scenes have also shown the movie glorifying prone restraints which are incredibly dangerous and have resulted in major injuries and even death to disabled people as recently as last year.
autistic people just like me have been incredibly outspoken about how harmful this movie is but the allistic have been mostly silent. we are already seeing reviews calling this movie 'inspiring' and important' and it's absolutely horrific! we need your help calling this out. please stand with us and call out this disgusting display of disrespect to autistic folks.
š - your local actually autistic pal
p.s. please, please reblog if you aren't autistic.
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tagged by: @yangyangthegerman ! It is probably my first time being tagged in stuff like this x). Thank you for the tag! I am trying to remember when I even started to follow you (or you me) xD
(I have a hard time doing stuff like this but decided to go for it!
Donāt feel pressured to answered this, I just wanted to tag some blogs I have been following and wanted to message but was too shy to do so...:) )
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name: Oddný (means new weapon/arrow, old name)
pronouns: she/her
height: 170cm
sexuality: straight
nationality: Icelandic
favourite animal: Pandas! (big surprise right?)
favourite ice cream flavour: Anything caramel :3
favourite fictional universe: Uuuuuuuhhhhh Hogwarts I think
average hours of sleep: 4-6, depends on how my newborn is....
last song you listened to: According to Spotify, Fancy - Twice
last movie you watched: Been watching pretty much only shows and Youtube for months, but I think I watched Clueless in September?
last thing you searched up: Translation of the word ādrivenā to Icelandic because of a game x)
cats or dogs: I have had cats but I love dogs as well. But I am allergic to both...
dream job: No Idea (and I am already 30 years old...whoops)
when you made this blog: This blog was made in February 2012, but I did have one before in 2008/2009 when I was so much into dance crews
why you made this blog: Was originally an Arashi main blog to follow other Arashi blogs but then my kpop love grew more and it became multi fandom blog and now it is a hole of chaos!
reason for url: Ice - from Iceland, Panda - I love pandas, girl - I am a female.. xD
It was my handle for most games so I used it here as well.
It used to be longer, āicepandagirllovesasianidolsā, but it started to annoy me :3
i dont understand how i procrastinate everything i do like i even procrastinate watching tv shows? i feel like normally you would normally procrastinate doing things you dont enjoy like homework and cleaning and stuff but tv shows? who am i