Words I Wish I Wrote

The only way to tame my mind, is by writing everything off. So that is what I will do from now on

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My drawer makes me so happy

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I would say AS IT IS is my all time favorite band. I relate to so many songs. They make me feeld heard and understood. These are two of my favorite lyrics. 

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I got the sadness

I just came out of a two and a half year relationship. My heart is broken and I am still trying to get the pieces back in place. 

I feel sad a lot, I remember that my boyfriend used to ask me what was wrong whenever I felt upset. Most of the times I didnt really know what was wrong so I told him I got the sadness. That was enough for him, I didnt need to explain, and he wouldn’t ask. He would just held me and told me he was there for me. We would take things slow on days like that, watch a movie, play a game and the sadness would go away.

Now my boyfriend is gone and the sadness remains. Turns out I can’t get the sadness out of my days my by myself. It was him who fixed me.

I like to believe that I am very strong and that I have been happy before I met him. I am only not that sure anymore. I feel overdramatic but I am so scared I will never be as okay as I used to be when I was with him. 

I got the sadness again, and I have to make it go away all by myself and everyday again. 

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I write because I don’t know what I think untill I read what I say

Flannery O’Connor

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Today was the first time in such a long time I was honestly happy. I am in my 3th internship of teaching primary school. Today was the first time I had to teach the entire day in my kindergarten class by myself. It was really challenging but everything went great. The kids were happy, I felt in control of the situation, I learned the kids something, and I learned stuff myself, I danced, I sang, I laughed I’m starting to believe I can become the person I want to be. I’m taking small steps, but I’m getting there

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I relate to this song so so much. I have been feeling incredibly lonely lately. It feels like all the friend groups has been formed, but they forgot to count me in. I don’t know how to catch up, and I don’t know how to go from here.

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I feel like autumn is slowly passing by, as I start whispering Christmas songs already. It’s been a rollercoaster of an autumn. Here are some random pictures I took this autumn

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