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tw: suicide (advice post?)

I’m trying to clear my mind. My mind is constantly flooded with suicidal thoughts. When I’m driving down the road sometimes I think about just driving straight into something but then I think about the possibility of surviving, so I don’t. Sometimes when I’m taking my medicine or near pills, just taking more than I should but then I think about the person that would find my body so I don’t. Sometimes when I’m walking I think about walking in the street but I think about the person driving the car, so I don’t. I know that I’m sick and that my brain and my heart feel different things. I know that my family loves me, and my friends, my girlfriend, and my dog, so why do I always come back to this feeling. Everyone says it gets better and I truly believe that but when? When does it get better because I don’t know how much longer I can last. I want to hold on but sometimes it’s a lot. I know I have a following and I’m sorry if you look up to me and this hurts you. I really am not sure where to turn so I guess I’m asking for help here. For those who have experienced this, how do I get past this?

smokenny

Just a little update since this time in my life. I got help and went through therapy. I am doing so much better, the best that my mental health has ever been. My relationship is amazing and I feel amazing about myself. That being said, there are some bad days here and there but ultimately it does get better and 8 months later I feel like myself again. Thank you for all the kind words throughout my journey.

jewlsies

those little things on ur nose aren’t blackheads, don’t try and get rid of them they’re sebaceous filaments and they’re permanent and literally everyone has them

every girl has that little pouch of fat on her lower tummy, despite what magazines try n show u, you have important organs there that need to be protected don’t try and get rid of ur pouch

ur body is smarter than u think and it knows what to do when u eat more than normal. one bad day, or even week, of eating poorly isn’t gonna ruin anything at all I pinky promise

if u think u look good up until u try taking a selfie, it’s not ur fault - our faces are asymmetrical and when u see ur face flipped it will look unnatural to u, since u don’t see it that way when u look in the mirror. to everyone else it looks perfectly fine

no one’s stomach looks the same at 8pm as it does at 8am. no one has a chiseled six pack after a day of eating, not even the super fit people u see on tumblr, because ur stomach naturally expands after eating and expecting to have a flat tummy before bed is very unrealistic

no one notices if the bags under ur eyes are bad today. no one pays attention to the bump in ur nose or the zit on ur chin or the piece of hair that u missed when u were straightening. literally no one notices these things except you so stop worrying about it ur gonna be fine

sometimes u just gotta get over urself

atlasri3ing

this made me cry I needed it so bad

olearypoetry

liia144

novice-heartbreaker-deactivated

read this out loud:

• I am allowed to take a break today

• It’s not selfish to put my feelings and health first

• I need to remember to care for myself

• I should be allowed to express myself, I am lovely as I am

est-nord

xecarez

funkwme

“She picked up the pieces of her life and created something beautiful. From that day forth she shone like the sun and changed the definition of broken.”

— Randall M. Core (via naturaekos)