idiol🍚

profiction all the way //

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Intro post hello hallo many very hi

◤　I'm Idiol I lick shotas to bed every night im aroace irl and dgaf abt anything My only stance is dont hurt ppl irl

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u ok man

In my head youre kind of like a scientist and i like smart people so thinking abt u makes things ok

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wha do u think abt kazehiki my friend..

I first listen to music on youtube and then periodically download my yt playlists as mp3 on my phone . I think i have abt 20 kazehiki songs as mp3 files . And the character himself? I think he's an exemplar of ouji shota... I love him...

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friendly reminder that you deserve to be happy. please be happy.

Im always happy when i talk with my mutuals especially especially especially when on tumblr its like a switch is flipped when i get to exchange a few words with the kind freaky apes

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I HAVE ASKS FROM MOOTS IM SORRY I DIDNT NOTICE WTH WOOAAHHHHHH

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I was 52kg in the morning but i had chocolate mousse with sliced cheese and bread with tea for breakfast and then rice and beef and now yogurt and oats for lunch and there's still dinner left I will possibly not weigh where I was this morning in tomorrow's time

My bishonen prince oomf said it best though when he said it's weekend calories so it doesn't count (it's monday)

Im 5'3 btw so like a midget so 52kg isnt even enough god take me up

Shota x2

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50 grams of raw oatmeal with a teaspoon of sour yogurt . Same godforsaken entry for r slash kitchencels

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I feel ass this is all i drew the past month i hope my beautiful mutuals of tumblrland have been doing well i kept wondering what you guys might be up to to feel sane and happy i like you guys a lot

I feel so ass i feel lonelier than ever there is lightttt all around me i am just too selfish and spoiled and hoity toity to accept it i guess. i feel like if i suffer the rest of my life ill be relieved that i paid for my selfishness, the selfishness that makes me not pursue happiness despite being given so much, and then everything will be fine

Ive done nothing the past month my exams start in less than a week i cant wait to get the fact that i wasted my time bedrotting being a cringy crybaby emo presented in the form of a report card its such a great arbiter and itll be a tiny little foreshadower that i will waste every future hope and opportunity and chance as well

At least shotas are unchangingly cute. Theyre so dependable

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same person btw

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Dinner . Cupfoal of oats and one sip's worth of sugarless milk🍕🍜🍨🍣🍲

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Downloaded ikemen villains Lets hope i like it so that i can have many pretty boys to shotafy at my disposal

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Drew for a friend . Was meant to be a chubby shota but its a terrible fail in that regard so ill try again

Friend also asked me to draw him with the life leaving his eyes 🪾 i only love cute shotas so i dont believe i pulled it off well #not ensouled

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Cant even eat my emptiness away on this fine monday morning What is a ramadan

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Im so thirstsy 🌊💧💦🌊💧🌊🌊💧 waow....Watter..

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Cant even eat my emptiness away on this fine monday morning What is a ramadan

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Theres a pervading lack of satiety to my life it doesnt matter what the circumstances are i will never be able to extract happiness from it

Its not loneliness or insecurity or a lack of purpose, ive fixed all of those before and it gave me no contentment it gives nothing its just an empty hope to think that your issues will end if you just socialize properly if you perform properly if you live properly theres no reward in propriety people who behave normally, they do so because it just comes naturally to them, right? Tjats so fucking unfair its so unfair goooooodddddddddddddddddddd i wish i was normal with normal needs with normal desires why am i aroace i cant pull regardless but if i was allo and couldnt pull then id spend my days wallowing in self pity but i dont even get to feel that i just have to endure emptiness

Funniest thing would be if its just that being chronically online for a decade now has uh destroyed my dopamine receptors or whatver idk anyhing about brains and hormones so my issue is as easily fixable as a detox

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Little things

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date idea