i am the face of love's rage.

⭐︎ || Irish || 20 || She/they || ⭐︎ minors dni! (I'm not comfortable sharing about this with you sorry♡) height: 5'7 ☆ hw: 215 ☆ cw: 183 ☆ cgw: 175 ☆ ugw: 115

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

okay i've been on and off this side of tumblr on 4 or 5 different accounts for ages now and i want to make one thing abundantly clear and im gonna pin this to the top of my account

I AM 1000% PRO RECOVERY AND DO NOT THINK ANYONE SHOULD ENGAGE IN ANY OF THESE BEHAVIOURS. THAT IS WHY I WILL NOT POST TIPS, CALORIE COUNTS, MEAL IDEAS, ETC. (not that I think everyone who does is pro, i just personally do not feel comfortable doing so) THAT IS WHY I HAVE MINORS DNI. PLS PLS PLS SEEK RECOVERY THE MOMENT YOU CAN. I VENT ABOUT MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS BUT I REALLY REALLY DO HOPE EVERYONE RECOVERS AND FINDS HAPPINESS AND HEALTH AND AM NOT PRO ANA.

just to be clear <3

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

Found out my mum has changed which recipe she uses to make my favourite soup and it no longer includes cream or milk but is straight up just broth and vegetables I could cry I'm gonna be eating that until I go back to uni

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

got a 1 hour 20 min bus journey to get to the location for the film im working on atm

time to listen to ocean blvd and think about my body while smelling the fancy perfume sample i got in a magazine yesterday maybe i love my life

(I don't)

(also i don't like Lana as a person her music is addicting af it's so good and i don't listen to her as much as i used to)

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

Y'ALL DO NOT LISTEN TO THIS SHIT IN PUBLIC I NEARLY STARTED CRYING HAHSHSHDHDH

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

got a 1 hour 20 min bus journey to get to the location for the film im working on atm

time to listen to ocean blvd and think about my body while smelling the fancy perfume sample i got in a magazine yesterday maybe i love my life

(I don't)

(also i don't like Lana as a person her music is addicting af it's so good and i don't listen to her as much as i used to)

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

sometimes i wonder where my problems come from and then i remember the doctor's face when my mum explained the diet my dad put me on when i was 10/11 and i stop wondering

[cozydiiary]

tumblr: *actively making me worse*

me: 😍🩷✨🥰💕😘

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

It fucking better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate everything rn 🥰😝🥳🤩😍😘

[tiny-sparrow-alpu]

gentle reminder that if you have an eating disorder, you probably also have body dysmorphia and your image of your body is skewed.

be nice to the girl/guy in the mirror 💜

[stvrlightttze]

Like a scratch record…

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

no you know what the actual worst feeling is?

doing skincare or make up or shaving or whatever just to still feel disgusting and unfeminine and like it was all pointless cause of how you feel about your body

it just all feels so pointless cause i feel like it all looks so stupid on me and like im doing a bad cosplay of a pretty person

[cozydiiary]

pretending i’m already sk!nny is so motivating. manifesting is key.

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

apps are so annoying i stg

"based on your height we recommend a goal of no fewer than..."☝️🤓

oh my godddd shut up

[jeepersimgay]

Shout out to the 4n4 girlies (and guys) who ARENT anywhere close to societally presentable as 4n4.

The ones who go to the doctor and get told to keep losing weight

The ones whose family hasn’t gotten worried yet

The ones who feel like they can’t mention 4n4 without being disbelieved/told they should starve more.

I see you and I hear you and you’re valid.

[ketamine-bunny]

found this somewhere, not mine

[bambitart]

LMFAO

[tinylilbunnie]

hey question, do any other ana people forget that like drinking exists lol, like my brain is so focused on food that i forget to drink anything 😭 im trying bro dehydration is no joke

[ihatethisbutihaveto]

i stg seeing the number on the scale go down when you're not expecting it to is like crack cocaine