“It’s been about three years i wanna dedicate you something the day of your birthday, but i actually didn’t have enough time or just messed. Now I tried to be kind of aware and finally could make something for you.
I always say there’s no words that can explain how much you mean to me, how much you help me everyday, and how thanks to you I’m a better person. So then I try to show between my thoughts and my acts all those feelings. I’m lousy at talking about them so it’s even harder to me.”
So then I decided to do what I do best, drawing.
This is not a drawing like any other, it’s just, one of the pics for the comeback inspired me the moment it was released.
I thought about Jungkook’s. Not because I love him, but i could see the precious nature and he locked in it, but with dark wear, just if he didn’t belong to that place.
Immediately I could see the story.
Jeongguk, a boy, a prince of a fairy world, a magic world. The most beautiful place he’d ever seen, but he feels he doesn’t belong there. Cause he is full dark magic, and everything he touches becomes dark. Jeongguk is locked in his castle, his house, his home maybe. Because he doesnt wanna hurt any life. He keeps every night, every day looking through his window. Admiring the preciousness of that place he lives but can’t get closer.
One day the boy decides to explore. Even if he knows he will destroy everything he touches, he goes inside the forest, at night. Obviously carefully. And then is when he finally is able to admire the nature, the fairies. All the lights in the night, even from the plants. Everything was covered in magic. He loved that, just wanted to belong to that world but he knew he couldn’t. Frustration came back, even more. Then it happened. Jeongguk knew something was wrong in that place. He could feel the dark magic, like his own and started to feel attracted to it. It was a tree, a small tree. Dead. Covered in dark. Jeongguk felt he needed to get closer to it, even touch it. Sadness and pain came to his mind, he couldn’t stop staring at the tree. Suddenly something happened, his magic turned from dark to light. Jeongguk was not supprised, cause he just wanted to help that tree. And he did it. He bring the tree back to life.
Then is when I could realize jungkook made me live again. Now not just him, but his entire group bts, made me feel things that I had never felt before, made me have a reason to wake up everyday, gave me songs that i’d never stop listening to. They gave me reasons.
Of course I am not gonna write here all my deep thoughts, nor my real feelings for jungkook, that’s obviously private, but i wanted you all to know how is living for someone. Bad points and good points.
People would say dedicate your life to someone is kinda bad or just ignorance. It is a little bit. But It’s also happiness for me. I like him, I love him and I would not stop loving a person just cause some people tell me It’s not good for me. There are worse things for me and I do them (such as university, what gives me anxiety). When I come back from studying, or from a hard day, the act of looking at his pics, or his songs, his videos, his laugh, his smile, his voice, his beautiful personality, makes me happy and forget all bad things that happened that day. So just stop saying it’s bad for me, because it’s not.
(I’d maybe regret writing all this bc I know its not enough for all I feel for him but u know)
I think I’ll never write something similar in my life.
“I just wanted to give you my present and thank you for all you help me everyday.”
“Thank you for being yourself, and being an inspiration to me. Happiest birthday to you, my love.”
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