with you, cursed or not

im rae (any pronouns are okay with me) and i frequently cry over supernatural. i even write fics when im not procrastinating || sideblog || header by @hallowedbecastiel

[deanwinchesters]

Dang. Damn it. Damn it!! Language, my ass.

DEAN WINCHESTER | 15x14 - “Last Holiday”

[spnwhenever]

[goindowninablazeofglory]

Literally the entire subtext in season eleven is that Dean won’t let himself be with Amara because he’s in love with somebody else, and he spends the entire season looking for Cas, and people really still say we’re making things up about Destiel.

[my-wayward-son-carry-on]

cas’ best qualities…

His Squints 

[thiscastielhasflown]

this is my official submission for the dean and castiel love song theme, (self titled by me)—‘a profound bond’

[good-things-do-happen-dean]

here u go

[thiscastielhasflown]

you are LITERALLY AMAZING!! this is totally more than i ever dreamed of!!

i searched so hard to find the name/real title of this on so many websites and even shazam-ed it. only found one place that listed an instrumental song (a way of life by hans zimmer from this website: https://www.tunefind.com/show/supernatural/season-15/94399 - could not find mention to this anywhere else)

i listened to the “original” song and truthfully to me, it did not sound exactly it is from the same arrangement. the fact that you transcribed makes me SO INCREDIBLY happy and give life to this somewhat unknown little beautiful ditty

Music from Supernatural S15E09

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[sonofagif]

Let’s Fall in Love for the Night by FINNEAS requested by anonymous

[notahammer]

[destielette]

notahammer:

 #TWO TIMES CAS NOT JUST CONFESSED HIS DEEPEST SECRETS TO DEAN #BUT IN DOING SO ALMOST PLACED HIS LIFE IN HIS HANDS #DO YOU REALIZE THE SHEER AMOUNT OF TRUST IT TAKES #FOR AN ANGEL TO CONFESS TO HAVING DOUBTS AND QUESTIONS #OR FOR A BROKEN DEPRESSED INDIVIDUAL TO ADMIT TO FEELING SUICIDAL #CASTIEL HAS ONLY EVER REACHED OUT TO ONE PERSON LIKE THIS #AND THAT’S DEAN #SO YEAH MAYBE DEAN GOT TO REALIZING AND VOCALIZING I NEED YOU BEFORE CAS DID #BUT THE FEELING IS MUTUAL AND RECIPROCAL #HAS ALWAYS BEEN #LIFE RUINERS OF THE HIGHEST CALIBER™ 

notahammer:

 #TWO TIMES CAS NOT JUST CONFESSED HIS DEEPEST SECRETS TO DEAN #BUT IN DOING SO ALMOST PLACED HIS LIFE IN HIS HANDS #DO YOU REALIZE THE SHEER AMOUNT OF TRUST IT TAKES #FOR AN ANGEL TO CONFESS TO HAVING DOUBTS AND QUESTIONS #OR FOR A BROKEN DEPRESSED INDIVIDUAL TO ADMIT TO FEELING SUICIDAL #CASTIEL HAS ONLY EVER REACHED OUT TO ONE PERSON LIKE THIS #AND THAT’S DEAN #SO YEAH MAYBE DEAN GOT TO REALIZING AND VOCALIZING I NEED YOU BEFORE CAS DID #BUT THE FEELING IS MUTUAL AND RECIPROCAL #HAS ALWAYS BEEN #LIFE RUINERS OF THE HIGHEST CALIBER™ 

[aaronpaauls-deactivated20141206]

[pathsofpassion]

#unbelievable castiel says to himself #unbefuckinlievable #i coulda been stationed in france he thinks #i coulda been stationed on the fuckin moon but instead #here i am in a shitty motel with these two knuckleheads #and everything’s blowing up again and i’m angry but i also kinda have an erection for the shorter one #oh my dad what a mess #next time he brings me back i’m just gonna pretend to be dead for like a month #in cancun on angel vacation (tags via robotmango)

[some-people-call-it-tragic]

Castiel’s handprint on Dean’s shoulder

[sunforgrace]

@huckleberryhusbands​ #ugh the possessiveness of it tho#the physical manifestation of their bond tho#listen he never lost it they just stopped putting it on jensen#dean had the handprint throughout s6 and he’d absently touch it whenever arguing with sam & bobby abt castiel’s loyalty#dean had the handprint throughout s7 and gripped it every time he woke up from another nightmare abt leviathan!cas walking into that river#dean had the handprint in purgatory and brushed his fingers over it every night as he prayed to castiel#dean had the handprint in s8 and he buried his face into his shoulder every night he woke up from a nightmare about losing cas in purgatory#dean had the handprint in s9 and he stared at it between gulps of whiskey thinking about cas being human - alone & helpless bc of him#dean had the handprint in s10 and the grace of it burned his demon soul - dean scratched at it when the mark made his thoughts go crazy#it burned on his shoulder something awful when he fought castiel in the bunker - until he stabbed the book and everything went numb#dean had the handprint in s11 - it itched in amara’s presence: the only thing that could distract him from her creepy pull on him#dean had the handprint in s12 and during his fight with cas abt billie and then abt kelly whenever he was alone he’d give it a good glare#dean had the handprint in s13 and couldn’t bear to look at it. he averted his eyes every time he had to change his shirt or take a shower#not that changing his clothes or taking showers or hell even brushing his teeth were on the list of things he felt capable of doing#but he did them anyway#when he got too many glasses of whiskey in him he’d ignore his rule & ruck up his left sleeve to numbly trace the ridges of the finger marks#he knew that he’d carry the handprint and the grief for the rest of his (hopefully not too long) life#except - miraculously - dean’s everything returned to him and the hole in his chest filled back up#cue some lucifer bullshit…#dean had the handprint in s14 and it recoiled from the curious touch of michael’s grace. it helped ground him when he fought for control.#it didn’t help ground him when mary was killed.#after he lashed out it seemed to look at him accusingly. like it remembered all the times castiel was dead or lost.#like it remembered all the times it was his last source of comfort. his last reminder of his lost angel.#his angel who would never be truly dead to him as long as he was alive.#he held onto his anger as stubbornly as he could. ignoring the pulse underneath the handprint that reminded him of the bond that was forever#dean had the handprint in s15. in purgatory the second time around.#it reminded him of all the months he spent searching for his angel. all the nights he held his own shoulder as he prayed#prayed for his lost angel. who would always be his everything. until the end of the universe. until the end of time.#at the last minute he found cas & the relief washed over him; he wouldn’t be left alone again with nothing but a handprint burn for company#because the handprint had become a part of him - but so had castiel

[destielette]

Your tags are fucking cruel and Im in love with them , thank you

[inacatastrophicmind]

[kimalydraws]

Love of My Life, Don’t Leave Me

(If you had not fallen, then I would not have found you, angel flying too close to the ground.)

- drawn & painted in Photoshop

[thekingslover]

It’s no big moment. No wordy declarations of love.

Instead, they are sitting side by side at the table in the kitchen, having a couple beers. Dean just made a joke that Cas didn’t understand, so Dean had to explain it. Cas nods, but doesn’t say anything. He certainly doesn’t laugh.

Still Dean knows him too well to be frustrated anymore, so he shakes his head and takes a drink of his beer.

The silence is lengthy but comfortable. Cas frowns at the table, brow drawn together, like he’s still trying to piece together the joke. It’s adorable, in that Cas kind of way.

Cas’s hands are on flat on the table, framing his beer bottle. Dean reaches out and takes one in his. He doesn’t even have to think about it. And then its no big deal, just Cas’s hand in his, fingers lacing together.

Cas’s features smooth over. His frown softens. He leans forward. “I still don’t understand the joke.”

“Yeah, I know, Cas. It’s okay.”

Cas hums. Dean squeezes his hand and Cas starts to smile.

When the night wears on and they’ve finished their beers, they leave them on the table and walk down the hall together. Dean’s bedroom is closest, and they stop just outside, still holding hands.

Dean hitches his thumb towards his door. “You wanna?”

“Yes.”

“Yeah?”

Cas nods.

“Okay. Okay, good.” Dean leads Cas into his bedroom, closes the door behind them.

And that is that.

[some-people-call-it-tragic]

And why would an angel rescue me from Hell? Good things do happen, Dean. Not in my experience. You guys aren’t supposed to be there. You’re not in this story. Yeah, well… We’re making it up as we go. I’m hunted. I rebelled. And I did it, all of it, for you. What happened to you, Cas? You used to be human, or at least like one. Look, next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest things I have to family – that you are like a brother to me. I’m doing this for you, Dean. I’m doing this because of you. But we were family once. I’d have died for you. I almost did a few times. Don’t make me lose you too. You used to fight together. Bestest of friends, actually. When Castiel first laid a hand on you in Hell, he was lost. Sorry, but I’d rather have you, cursed or not. I prayed to you, Cas, every night. Cas, buddy, I need you. I know you’re in there. I know you can hear me. Cas, we’re family. We need you. I need you. You gave us order, Castiel, and we gave you our trust. Don’t lose it over one man. No. I can’t. His true weakness is revealed. He’s in love with humanity. Everyone you know, everyone you love… they could be long dead. Everyone except me. But you’re always there, you know? You’re the best friend we’ve ever had. You mean too much to me. To everything. You’re my family. I love you. I love all of you. It’s a gift. You keep those. We’ve lost everything. And now you’re gonna bring him back. It’s good to have you back. Just don’t get dead again.  But I swear, if he did something to her, if she is – Then you’re dead to me. Dean, you asked, what about all of this is real? We are. You used to trust me, give me the benefit of the doubt. Now you can barely look at me. I know you’re sorry, Cas. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it. I left, but you didn’t stop me. Cas? Cas, I hope you can hear me… that wherever you are, it’s not too late. I should’ve stopped you. You’re my best friend, but I just let you go. Cause it was easier than admitting I was wrong. And I forgive you. Of course I forgive you. I’m sorry it took me so long. I’m sorry it took me till now to say it. Cas, I’m – I’m so sorry. I hope you can hear me. I hope you can hear me.

SUPERNATURAL: Dean and Castiel (2008-2020)

[angeltiddies]

when dean falls in love with castiel, he’s bracing himself for the heartbreak. he’s bracing himself for the ‘goodbye’, for the ‘fuck off’, for the end.

it never comes and, eventually, that fear fades away.

it fades with every morning he wakes to see castiel’s sleeping form beside him. it fades with every kiss to the temple with no motive other than reverance. it fades with every smile and every fight and every year.

he’s never been so comfortable, but castiel makes it easy.

he doesn’t feel guilty or hurt or empty.

he feels safe. he feels warm. he feels loved.

when dean falls in love with castiel, the angel doesn’t let them hit the ground.

[thiscastielhasflown]

reblog if you’re still going to remain active in the spn fandom after the finale of the show

[kazifer]

In which Sam “Pre-Law” Winchester saves the day.  Inspo

[petrichoravellichor]

Y E S 👏🙌

[godshipsit]

#NOBIGGIE