Venus!

js the shit that I've now decided I'd rather not post on my main blog I guess. idk. probably gonna be me complaining abt shit, plus random cat pics 🏃‍♀️

[iluvoctavian]

Why make friends and talk 2 them when u can js imagine ur fave characters with u :3

Like so what if i can't actually see denki here w/ me he's here anyway c: i can complain abt things and stuff, and have silly conversations :>

[iluvoctavian]

I love denki smmm😭😭

He's js so wkwnsjoqnziwnshiqobs

I mean seriously js look at himm😭

I love him so muscjbshskqnaikw he looks so cute with his hair up😭 hesjwnsiqnahiw he's literally everything i swearrrrrr

Me and him are besties frrr inkwnsjanzbka

I js love like everything abt himmm

His hair is sonsksbsbj💥💥 i wanna js likebzjamzbja it's such a pretty colour and js looks so cool like manakzbbekrhej it's such a pretty yellow I actually love it so muchhhhh

And voice . Omwbzkqnhskwbsjwj it makes me so haooy💥💥 he's js sosbsjnanzhuqbs idkkk I js love listening 2 his vouceee sjbss

Literally js everything about him I cant😭

He's literally my best friend <3333

He is the coolest everajjabsbskzj

F u tumblr I hate u for the limit T-T

[iluvoctavian]

Me wondering why my storage is so fucked as if my gallery isn't slowly collecting a bunch of pics of denki and edits of him c:

[iluvoctavian]

I love denki smmm😭😭

He's js so wkwnsjoqnziwnshiqobs

I mean seriously js look at himm😭

I love him so muscjbshskqnaikw he looks so cute with his hair up😭 hesjwnsiqnahiw he's literally everything i swearrrrrr

Me and him are besties frrr inkwnsjanzbka

I js love like everything abt himmm

His hair is sonsksbsbj💥💥 i wanna js likebzjamzbja it's such a pretty colour and js looks so cool like manakzbbekrhej it's such a pretty yellow I actually love it so muchhhhh

And voice . Omwbzkqnhskwbsjwj it makes me so haooy💥💥 he's js sosbsjnanzhuqbs idkkk I js love listening 2 his vouceee sjbss

Literally js everything about him I cant😭

He's literally my best friend <3333

He is the coolest everajjabsbskzj

F u tumblr I hate u for the limit T-T

[iluvoctavian]

Nahhhh bc my mum was being so dramatic on christmas 😭 like... 😭 identify like to say that this is all over presents😭

(Simple/short version: bc of work we can't see her till the 28th, she had a break, decided 2 open presents we got her, and this is what happened😃)

[soonysy]

Day 265 is Grian but kinda fancy because of his bigger version on the background

I saw a lot of cool artists do this that's why I tried this effect :P

[soonysy]

Day 251 is Scar HC s7 be like

I like redrawing memes :D

[itsoddissey]

Your ghostly "angel"

my piece for the 5th @trafficzine edition!! ❤️💛💚

[soonysy]

TW: TRYPOPHOBIA

Day 292 — Mumbo the Bug

I got so exited about this idea :D

Inspirational tags from people reblogging Day 289:

[iluvoctavian]

Omw to eat this art rn

🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

[crisis-takesover]

Small intermission?break?i dunno

Heres some WhitePine sketches :D

Its REALLY good I recommend it if you're looking to watch some like mystery type minecraft series or I think its mystery?

Just realized I spelled Serapter wrong woops-

[suzie-bee]

what fishing can do to a man

[iluvoctavian]

OK why is talking to people so hard like

Or just answering questions?? Like I know full well that nobody's gonna make fun of me for not knowing the answer, or getting the answer wrong, but I just get scared of the possibility in the moment and don't say anything. Like, If I know the answer I'll have it in my head, but I just can't say it, its like I just kinda can't say anything like???

And thing is, there's certain things where I'm completely fine with it? I will say, i think I'm getting better when it comes to asking for help or similar things which is good because I used to be terrified of doing that😭 but if I'm starting the conversation I'm usually okay talking, or if it's something I find easy to talk about, or certain questions that don't specifically have a "right" or "wrong" answer them yeah I'll usually be fine. Unless it's about interests or hobbies.

I'm like, way too scared to talk about my interests to people 😭 doesn't help that I've only ever had like.. maybe one, maybe two friends who had at least one of the same interests as me😭😭

[iluvoctavian]

I feel like this is gonna sound rlly rude and if it does I'm really sorry but like, some people online need to realise that literally anybody can be insecure about their appearance. They could be the most beautiful person to live, but still believe they are ugly, or dislike things about their appearance. And I get it, it can be annoying when conventionally attractive ppl call themselves ugly, but people need to realise that some of them may genuinely think they're ugly?

It's the same type of stuff as saying someone must be fine mentally because the look fine, and act fine, in my opinion anyway, Because that's just not always the case.

You can't always tell how someone is doing mentally by judging their appearance, amd yes, their behaviour counts to this aswell. Some people probably learn to act fine, whether it's done intentionally or not. Some people are good at hiding how they're feeling, and just seem fine?

In simple words:

Anyone can be insecure, no matter their appearance.

[iluvoctavian]

Best thing abt having not rlly having friends is that they can't ignore you!!

I mean, they can't ignore you if they don't exist so that's one good thing.

[iluvoctavian]

Yk I say this righy

But sometimes I honestly would rather have friends who ignore me when I'm upset and don't rlly talk to me much than none at all. Idk anymore. It gets kinda boring not having someone to talk to outside of my family. But as soon as someone does try to be friends with me online I end up js ignoring them bc idk how to respond 2 their messages.

[iluvoctavian]

People are scary.

Especially talking to some people.

Like

Idk

I hate when people act shocked when I speak too

Even as a joke I don't like it

Like yeah I laugh but I still don't like it

And like. When I'm asked questions in class

I don't like that

It's not like I don't always know the answers to the questions either

I'll have an answer In my head but I still just stay quiet.

When I do answer I still say it quietly anyway.

Idk why

I js do

[iluvoctavian]

How do people make friends??

Like genuinely.

Both online and irl

Bc idk anymore 😭

Like, I can't just go up to someone and like

Idk

And with making friends online I just like

I already don't know what to say irl, I'm not gonna be any different online😭

If anything it feels even more awkward online because like, I feel bad if i don't respond but I literally do not know what to say.

[iluvoctavian]

My sister annoys me so much at times. I hate it honestly. All she ever does is sit in her room and talk to her friends. It's like there's nobody else in the house. If I ask her to do something 99% of the time she'll just complain. If I ask her to go downstairs with the dog she'll complain about it being "boring" because she either can't do her makeup or go on her xbox. And it pisses me off bc like, I'm basically always the one who stays downstairs with the dog during the day. I'm sat downstairs whenever she's at school, and my dad & his girlfriend are at work, and that's a lot of my day most the time. Even on weekend when they're out I'm the one made to stay downstairs with our dog. And don't get me wrong, I love the dog, she's adorable and I could never hate her, but it really does get boring when your sat downstairs all the time. And it just pisses me off how my sister will act like sitting downstairs for like, a few hours is gonna leave her to die of boredom.

And istg, sometimes it feels like she's js tryna make it obvious she as a shit ton of friends. I don't want to hear how many of her friends are in her class. I don't care about who she's always on call with. It just annoys me how she seems to always have to mention them when she gets the chance.

Idek hiw she can have so many friends. I had maybe, 5 ish people I sat with in secondary school, but I still think about whether any if them actually considered me to be their friend. I mean, some of them ignored me most the time, and honestly from what I can remember there was maybe like, one time any of them actually tried to make sure I was okay when I was crying once.

And I mean, yeah I cried over stupid stuff most the time, I can't remember most of the times I cried, but there was when they ignored me a few times, once in pe where they js left me to work with a girl I didn't like, there was when I had to resit a test during lunch ine time, pretty sure I once almost cried during christmas dinners at school bc I was sat alone since none of them were getting it, probably one time where the canteen ran out if the food I wanted, the times I had my phone taken off of me. This one was a long time before, but I once cried over having yo make a kind of bread that I didn't like (I ended up actually liking it ironically enough) and probably a lot more times that I can't remember.

And you wanna know smth? Out of all those times, I can only recall one time where any of them actually tried to make sure I was okay.

[iluvoctavian]

Pictures of my cat :)

I love him so much, he's so cute :>