And suddenly I realize why they looked at me that way, with fear and disgust, like I am a monster. I never comprehended what made me a monster until now. It's because I tear down mentality when I'm hurt, all in efforts to protect myself. Without realizing it I had been manipulative and overbearing, stealing life. All of a sudden I realize what's wrong with me and it's hard to bear. It's not like I was always this way, overtime I learned how to protect myself using what was done to me. How could I be so blind to ignore the destruction I'd create? How did it take me this long to figure out I've become the villian of my story? I always knew something was wrong with me but couldn't quite put my finger on it, and now that I know I'm horrified. I want to die.
















