Haunted House

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| No one | 18 | Somewhere in Neverland | To love me is to love a haunted house; it's fun to visit once a year but no one wants to live there. - Brenna Twohy

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dapat di na ko nag backread haha heto ako ngayon, umiiyak pucha??????

why is it so hard to live

i dont want to blog it out bec its not that big of a deal but i dont know i feel like I really need to vent it out and tumblr is the only thing i can count on right now since i dont want to share this with anyone bec they might misunderstand me. we were playing ros a while ago and i got knocked down bec we were running to the safe zone. i dont have any med kit or bandage with me so i got knocked down. and then there he was, again. i dont know if im just being sensitive or what but i really hate it when people blame me for anything. and thats what he always do. he always blames me. he always makes me feel like im a bad person. and i hate it bec i know that its not healthy for me. i tend to overthink things all the freaking time. damn it i really dont know. i love him but i hate it when hes like that.

youre stronger than this. you are stronger than this. you can do this. dont give up. youve come far enough. keep on holding on because the best is yet to come.

we made out. and i wish we didn't stop.

baka narealize na nya na di nya talaga ako mahal hahaha

Kaya ayoko. Kasi alam mo sa sarili ko na magdedepend ako masyado sayo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Kahit paulit ulit kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na i should not depend my happiness on other people, in the end, magdedepend at magdedepend parin ako sayo. And i hate it. Kaya ayoko ng ganito. Kasi takot ako, takot ako na madisappoint sayo kasi alam kong hindi mo kayang ibigay yung gusto ko. Ewan. Nalilito pa ko. Hindi pa ko sigurado sa nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam.

assurance lang naman eh. yun lang, yun lang yung kailangan ko. hays

last december 9, you kissed my lips. tangina gusto mo pa nga ata torrid but i didnt respond kasi alam kong mali. wala namang tayo. dapat nga di mo ginawa yon. di kasi tayo malinaw. tas ngayon ang dami ko pang nalaman about sa inyo. baka mamaya kiss and tell ka rin. baka mamaya pinaguusapan nyo kaming mga babae, baka mamaya pinaguusapan nyo rin ako. tangina red flag yon. tangina talaga lalong nawala tiwala ko sa mga lalaki punyeta. naiinis tuloy ako sa mga kagagahan ko. tangina nyo leche

"ilang beses mo na kong pinagtatabuyan. nakakasakit ka na. ayoko na, last na to"

okay so sinabi nya yan sakin kanina. tinanong nya ko kung baby ko raw ba sya. sabi ko "hindi" hahaha di ko alam kung bat ko sinabi yon. hindi ako sanay sa ganong klase ng atensyon. masyado ata akong nasanay na ako lang magisa, parang di ko matanggap sa sarili ko na masyado na kong nagrerely ng happiness sa kanya, na masyado na kong nasasanay sa presence nya. hays ewan. baka ganto nalang talaga, forever alone nalang ako. okay lang naman, sanay naman na ko hehehe

will you still love be even tho im unlovable?

"kinakahiya mo ba ko?"

ang sakit nung tanong mo pero hindi, hindi kita kinakahiya. ayoko lang na aakalain ng ibang tao na merong "tayo" pero malalaman nila na may iba ka ring babae. sabi mo gusto mo ko, pero may gusto ka ring iba. ayoko, ayoko ng ganon. kaya sorry kung minsan ayokong inaakbayan mo ko. sorry kung minsan ayokong hahawakan mo yung kamay ko. sorry kung minsan ayoko nang nagiging sweet ka sakin. ayoko lang na yung sweet ka sakin pero sweet ka rin sa iba. hindi kita kinakahiya, ikaw yung taong karapat dapat ipagmalaki. pero hindi ko kayang ipagmalaki kung anong meron satin ngayon kasi wala naman tayong kasiguraduhan.

im losing it. im losing my will and motivation to study. help me bring it back

you should clear yung intentions. narealize ko lang na sobrang hirap ng ganito. di natin alam kung san papunta. baka sinasayang ko lang oras ko, baka nagsasayangan lang tauo ng oras pareho. hehehe

i let you in and putangina, im regretting it right now

tumblr, youre the only one tjat can make me feel better. plese dont give up on me. thank you for being there through thick and thin. i love you ao much tumblr.

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