Sic Parvis Magna.

I'm Irene. Born and raised in Southern Cali. Filipino, ya know? Tae Kwon Do certified, a college student, and happily taken~ 8.12.2015

[hungwy]

gonna get buff n pick ppl up

[takaska]

You gonna do the good ghibli hugs where you pick up the other person?

[hungwy]

nah just gonna toss em as far as i can

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

I am who I am. Your approval isn’t needed.

Unknown (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[immatoughtootinbaby]

Feelings.

You know, sometimes it doesn’t feel right when I dance. My friend, who goes to the gym with me, dances with me just for fun towards the end of our workout. The music, I feel all the rhythms, beats, everything.. I just don’t- I don’t feel like I had that flare when I used to dance a lot in high school. My limbs are just moving, without feeling. At least, not anymore. If that feeling were to come back again with dancing, I’d be fired up with excitement. To me, it just feels super cool to see dancers on tv throwing out all these fierce emotions with their choreography and I’ve always thought to myself, I would love to perform and look so bad ass while dancing and feel bad ass, too. Thing is, I don’t have the time to due to my busy work schedule. More than anything... I would want to be part of a dance group. Not ballet, not jazz. A hip-hop group. Honestly, never in my life up until high school, I didn’t know how to dance, but I’m thankful for the ones who showed me some moves. I want to dance again with my burnt out flare. 

[dirtyhippiie]

[immatoughtootinbaby]

Update.

This past weekend, hubby and I played a good old game of Uno with his older sister. I also made PR on my squats, which was 8 for 70lbs. HELL YEAH. Time for the next goal! I am happy to spend time with his family and I’m happy that his family thinks of me as one of their own. Never really met my actual half-sisters in real life before, but his sisters are slowly, but surely becoming sisters to me. On another note, hubby’s birthday is coming next week!! I am real excited for that, especially the seating tickets for GOT7′s concert this Summer. This time, I got closer seats. The venue I will be going to is strict on cameras with detachable lenses, but my camera phone will do just fine. 

--Side note--

I want to erase my feeling of bitterness that still lingers every time I think about it. Just want to know how I can cope. I know I probably don’t need that bitterness there. I don’t want to be so negative, despite feeling this way for quite some time. I want to remember what it’s like to have more than one person that you’re close to. I crave to feel better emotionally. I haven’t done a decent job in doing so. I want to toss out the part of me that gets way too defensive and the part where I can’t seem to let it all go. I can’t seem to understand that that’s all. Like there should be more, but not really. Please, it’s painful. Go away, the reason I feel bitter. Just.. go.

[mysharona1987]

[8foldhero-deactivated20181214]

as a customer thats fair to be honest

[immatoughtootinbaby]

Progress.

Lately, I have been learning how to bench press, overhead press, barbell rows, and deadlifts. Deadlifts being the most technical out of them all, however, I did enjoy learning how to do bench presses as well as the others. My squat max increased to 60 pounds, now I’m just looking forward to lifting 65 pounds and so on. For the most part, I’m feeling better knowing that I can be stronger physically. Although, I do want to be stronger mentally because that part is still hard for me. I’m still bitter over certain things, but I hope I don’t continue to feed myself the bad parts. I really don’t want to be bitter. Over things. Over people. 

On the bright side, 2.9 with hubby is coming next weekend and we’ll be playing UNO & the 5 Second Rule game~ I hope I can play these two games with my friends as well. Question: HELLOOOOO FRIENNNDSSSS??? WHERE ARE YOUUUU? IRENE WANTS TO PLAY CARD GAMES!

[immatoughtootinbaby]

STOKED!

I AM REALLY EXCITED BECAUSE I NEVER BEEN TO ANY KPOP CONCERTS AND NOW I FINALLY GET THE CHANCE TO SEE MY FAVORITE BOY GROUP AKA GOT7 IN LA AND I JUST-- GAHHHH <3 I WANTED TO GET THE HI-TOUCH AND TOUR MERCH THING BUT ITS TOO EXPENSIVE. PEOPLE RESELL TICKETS TOO HIGH -- LIKE CHILL, I AIN’T RICH LOL. BUT YEAH I GET TO SEE GOT7 AND TBH I HAVE NO PARTICULAR BIAS IN THAT GROUP BUT I DO BELIEVE THEY’RE ALWAYS WORKING HARD TO MAKE AMAZING MUSIC! GONNA BE FANGIRLING SO HARD I COULD CRY LOL. AND I WISH MORE OF MY FRIENDS LISTENED TO KPOP TOO SO WE COULD ALL SHARE HOW AWESOME IT ALL SOUNDS, BUT HEY, EVERYONE LIKES SOMETHING DIFFERENT LOL.

[immatoughtootinbaby]

Something New.

Did something new recently. I began going to the gym to lift weights. Now, I just have to work on squatting 55lbs, but I do think I can do it. Hopefully, I won’t injure myself like a noob lol. 

[immatoughtootinbaby]

GOT7 Eyes On You Concert~

Gahh, this concert is going to take place in LA in the Summer and I would really love to go, but I don’t have friends that even listen to kpop... I just wonder if anyone would want to go with me.

[cobaltdays-deactivated20210208]

my pet: *does anything*

me:

[cartoonhangover]

[1000drawings]

by Giovanni Esposito

[great-tweets]

IT’S NAME IS FLOP

[jackhawksmoor]

that’s it, folks, we’ve reached peak cute

[doobler2]

MY FUCKING HEART

[petitcho]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BeeeYKbh9Kw

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

It’s OK to Say “No” …

1. If you don’t want to do it …

2. If you don’t like the people …

3. If you’d rather relax …

4. If you’re already overscheduled…

5. If you don’t have the time …

6. If it doesn’t fit your values …

7. If you feel forced to say “yes” …

[immatoughtootinbaby]

Thoughts.

It’s kind of difficult to “erase” a particular memory and everything in between that memory. Every person that comes by, every stranger that tries conversating with me, there is not much will to respond back to them. My social circle has drastically been cut short since high school, but that is to be expected. However, I wonder if it just feels right to be this.... alone? I want that “be-somewhere-where-I’m-needed” feeling. The only thing I’ve been juggling in my head is, “Who actually needs me?”...and why should I be here? Side note, this past St. Patrick’s Day weekend, I had a car accident(however, it was not my fault). I recall that past incident and last night, I thought,”If I drove any faster, if the impact was bigger...I would have died.” Last night, I also thought...and sadly felt, that.. “I probably would have wanted to die right then and there.” Next, came the water park in my eyes that night. Do I need to be here? Just to wake up each day, thinking I could be feeling better, but I’m just not? This memory... is weighing me down by a lot, that it is hard to let go of. It was there... for awhile, not anymore and it’s hurting me. I feel so empty.. but... should I be here? Who should I be with whenever this happens? Who do I talk to.. when there’s this whole mess up in my head? Who’s going to be here when it’s my turn to go...for good?