What mattered the most was remembered the least

[Independent A/U Roxas Rp blog.] [I track imonlyroxas. Feel free to tag your rp posts as such.]] Oh-Hello...I'm Roxas. I like sea-salt ice-cream and long strolls by the beach, I guess. I'm in first year of arts & crafts high school - and frankly speaking, I'm not the best at it. Feel free to trigger a chat-I don't mind, but keep in mind I'm a lil awkward.

[raineintoxic]

good morning beautiful.

S m i l e !

IT IS AKUROKU DAY!

[imonlyroxas]

@Fillthisemptiness

[imonlyroxas]

“Are you an arse all the time or is it only on Thursdays?” 

[fillthisemptiness]

“Who could say. Are you bitcy all the time or…. It is a Thursday!?”

[imonlyroxas]

"Asks the person who bumped on me with his stupid cart without so much of an apology!. It's a supermarket and an enormous one at that. Why'd you have to bump on me of all people?!"

[imonlyroxas]

@Fillthisemptiness

[imonlyroxas]

“C-Cow-lick?! I should let you know that my hair is all natural and I use no products on it, you hedgehog-looking man! And who the hell tattoos their own face?!”

[fillthisemptiness]

“Oh? In this case I am sorry. You can’t help it” chuckled the taller, eyeing the shorter’s hair “What is wrong with my tatoos?” he asked cheerfully “You should try them too, maybe they will take people’s attention from the cowlick… Or the moose lick…” he said, staring at the blonde’s hair in an almost concerned way.

[imonlyroxas]

"Are you an arse all the time or is it only on Thursdays?" 

[imonlyroxas]

@Fillthisemptiness

‘“You have the weirdest hair I have seen in my life…”

[fillthisemptiness]

“It’s called style, but it’s not like you are the one to talk. You have the most severe case of cowlick I have ever seen”

[imonlyroxas]

"C-Cow-lick?! I should let you know that my hair is all natural and I use no products on it, you hedgehog-looking man! And who the hell tattoos their own face?!"

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas sighed in defeat and regarded the sea of emerald in the man’s eyes. gods, damn it, blast everything, he was a man! A fully grown man! With muscles and a heavy jawline, long eyelashes, sure, but a man nonetheless! A man and Roxas was not even aware of his age yet something made it all okay.

“About…about what?” Managed to mutter the shorter one while battling hitched breaths.

[blazedaxel]

Axel maneuvered them both so they were sitting on the couch again with a little bit of space between them. He kept himself from touching Roxas, knowing that he’d loose control again if he did. 

“We need to talk about where we are now and where we’re going to take this…” Axel nearly hit himself for saying such girly words. He never dated before for this specific reason. He saw his friends get into relationships so fast and they burned so hot but went out too quickly as well. He had seen enough to know that they had to iron out the details first, before diving into other territory. 

He just really hoped Roxas would actually want to date a barely recovering anorexic ginger with a bad habit of skipping class. 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas opened his mouth to speak but no sounds came out, how could they anyway? This were Axel, of all people, Axel. Roxas realized swiftly he didn’t even know the man’s age, but with brief calculations, the tiny, still functioning part of his brain decided that the readhead should be around twenty-five.

His hand ruffled his own blonde spikes, soon reaching behind his neck and then biting the thumb worriedly. 

“L-Listen, Axel…This….you…me…w-we…” He choked at the last part but cleaned his throat and soon continued. “I don’t think…I am ready for any relationship-no matter how much I like you…we…we haven’t known each other for long and honestly, I…I suck at relationships…”

[imonlyroxas]

@Fillthisemptiness

'"You have the weirdest hair I have seen in my life..."

[raineintoxic]

☾

[angelsloveonlyinsecret]

Akuroku- My Dearest

[raineintoxic]

CAN WE TAKE A MOMENT TO APPRECIATE THIS FANART BECAUSE MY GIRLFRIEND DREW IT FOR ME AND I AM DYING RIGHT NOW PLEASE FORGIVE ME WHILE I FLY OFF TO THE MOON

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Axel’s hands threaded through Roxas’ blond hair and buried his face into the locks, savoring the sheer nearness of the other boy. “I’m perfectly okay with it…” he managed to say through his tears. 

The redhead took a moment to just feel the other boy before knowing he had to pull away. The entire situation was really surreal. For some reason, after kissing Roxas, he seemed to remember things that were not his memories to be had. Spinning fire and keys being used as swords… He shook the images out of his head. Now was not the time. 

“We… We need to talk, kiddo.” 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas sighed in defeat and regarded the sea of emerald in the man's eyes. gods, damn it, blast everything, he was a man! A fully grown man! With muscles and a heavy jawline, long eyelashes, sure, but a man nonetheless! A man and Roxas was not even aware of his age yet something made it all okay.

"About...about what?" Managed to mutter the shorter one while battling hitched breaths.

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Axel’s heart nearly broke as he glanced at Roxas. For some reason, he wasn’t cold anymore and a burning heat ran through his body. He literally threw his cigarette out the window and pulled the blond as close to his body as possible. “I feel it too, Roxas. A million times over…” Axel murmured into Roxas’ ear. 

Tears started streaming down his face as for some reason, he just felt… Complete. He pulled away a little and planted a hard kiss on his blond boyfriend’s, yes boyfriend (he was taking no substitutes now), forehead. He was not about to let go anytime soon. 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas shivered as he felt the warmth of Axel's pulsing lips against his forehead. This was...perfection. It was everything he ever needed. It was home. The boy rose to the ends of his toes and wrapped heavy arms around the redhead's neck, locking them in a very awkward but bittersweet embrace.

"Is it...okay then? This...is it okay...to need you?"

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Axel pulled a cigarette out of the half empty carton and lit up, blowing smoke angrily out the window. He watched as the rain kept pouring down, not helping his mood what so ever. Rain always managed to make him more aggravated than usual. 

“We did not completely loose it. Who the fuck says we have to be friends first, huh?” he took another drag. “Okay you and I…” he sighed angrily. Axel puffed down the rest of his cigarette and lit another one. “You and I is not a mistake. This was no chance meeting. I don’t even fucking believe in god or fate or past lives. But there is something about you…” He pulled at his hair, a grimace crossing his face. 

Axel’s body slumped over. “Please… Just come here…” he begged, hoping Roxas wouldn’t be too disgusted by the fact that he probably smelled like a chimney now. 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas locked his knees in a tighter hug and frowned as the rain did little to nothing to soothe his mood this time. There he was, the most gorgeous creature he'd ever seen, looking all agitated and worried and it didn't suit him at all. So Roxas stood, unconsciously dragging a cushion along in his arms as he stood right behind the enormous giant that loomed over his window. He smelled like Marlboros and shampoo, along with a soft cologne. Roxas closed his eyes and sighed to regain his composure before he lifted his chin to look up at the man once more.

"You...feel it too? This peculiar...sensation. It is tingling all over me, Axel...it's scaring me..." 

Then, everything was a blur. The image of Axel's perfect face dissolved behind a veil of tears that menacingly rolled down pale cheeks.

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Axel sighed and ran his hands through his hair. “Jesus, fuck Roxas. I know it wasn’t just me what felt like we’ve known each other for way fucking longer than a day…” he said. He got up and walked to his bag and pulled out a coin purse that did not contain coins, but an orange zippo lighter and a pack of Marlboro reds. 

He went and stood by the window and opened it, ready to light up. “And what the fuck is with calling that uncalled for? I highly doubt that is uncalled for,” he said defensively. 

[imonlyroxas]

"Aren't we supposed to become friends first? Of course it was uncalled for! W-we just... completely lost it, Axel..." Muttered the blond as he wrapped skinny arms around equally skinny legs in an attempt to shield from the sudden cold.

Roxas needed more. He needed to understand why the figure of this tall, anorexic looking man felt like...home.

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Once their lips touched, images of blazing hot fire and blue colored popsicles flashed across the back of his eyelids… But who the fuck cared, he was kissing Roxas. Finally. Though why he thought finally was a mystery. He had known the kid for less than twenty four hours. 

Axel pressed his lips harder against Roxas’ and pulled his right hand up from the couch, putting it on the blond’s neck pulling him even closer. Just as he was about to run his tongue across the pink lips he remembered… 

Roxas was a fifteen year old virgin. 

The redhead pulled away quickly, relinquishing all hold on his blond friend? boyfriend? “Jesus. SHIT. Roxas, I’m so sorry, that was really out of line.” 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas sat up to the speed of light and fixed his hair hurriedly, as if it was the only thing he cared about at the moment. Which, in turn, was a big fat lie. He was swimming in a multitude of emotions which all lined down to confusion.

"T-That...that was...u-uncalled for..W-We..." Stop stuttering. "We've merely known each other f-for a day...stupid carot top. And...And..." Roxas eyed the emerald eyes and another familiar sensation jerked through his body like electrocuting need. Roxas grabbed the taller man by the ends of his hair, climbed on his lap and locked their lips together once again.

What drove him was curiosity, simple and clean curiosity. He needed to know what that familiar feeling was, why Axel's lips felt like home, why this whole situation didn't seem as abrupt as it should.

[kh-art]

[raineintoxic]

[☂]

[raineintoxic]

[☂]

[imonlyroxas]

@8flamesilocks: Starter pt.2.

[blazedaxel]

Axel kept a smirk on his face, still very well away that Roxas was avoiding his question. “Well then kiddo, I’m still cold and my sweater is soaking wet.  What kind of host would you be if you let me freeze, huh?” he said, his tone sinking into the deep sultry tones that lead more than one unsuspecting victim into his bed. 

The redhead knew that what he was doing was wrong. Not only was the kid underage, but he was probably a virgin who had never been kissed. But, Axel got what Axel wanted. So, instead of waiting for Roxas to scoot closer, he put his mug down and crawled over to the blond. 

With their noses just an inch apart, Axel continued to say, “so are you going to disappoint me, Rox-as?” 

[imonlyroxas]

Roxas' breath caught into his throat. Then there was this tiny, whimpering sound and it took the boy a moment to realize it was his own voice reacting along with the heat of his cheeks. Roxas bit his lower lip as blue clashed with emerald, ears suddenly buzzing. And there was this sensation, this little voice that made everything alright. That this whole scene was familiar, that the minty scent of Axel's breath was something Roxas had known his whole life. And images flashed through his shut eyelids as their lips touched, experimentally at first. Images of black cloaks and weapons, castles flying in the skies and bitter goodbyes. And it drove Roxas insane.