Autumn

•30y•active June 2026• •SW200•CW113.7•UGW97• Minors DNI

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New pinned 📍 Hey! Call me Autumn. I’m 30 years old (MINORS DNI!!) and have had EDNOS/BED for 19 years. I like cosplay, going to conventions, comics, drawing, video games, knitting, sewing, and collecting plushies.

I’ve spent almost my entire adult life 0bese and am tired of it, this is my vent blog as I l0se w3ight the only way I know how to. Pro recovery, not pro unhealthy behavior. I know we’re all struggling and I appreciate having this space to feel less alone in this silent struggle.

Stats below:

HW: 200

SW: 200

CW: 113.4 (03/05/2026)

GW1: 170 (10/20/2024)

GW2: 150 (04/03/2025)

GW3: 140 (09/26/2025)

GW4: 130 (10/22/2025)

GW5: 120 (12/25/2025)

GW6: 110

UGW: 97

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I ate like fucking crazy today cuz bf and buddy came to town and im a fucking f@t stupid fuckin idiot and now I can’t stop thinking about how I looked a couple months ago in these pics. wtf why am I so fucking F@T NOW FUCKIN K1LL ME pls i need everyone to leave me alone so i can be good and st@rve in silence

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Only gained 0.4 after everything I @te yesterday. Not ideal but not as bad as I was thinking, so 119.8 today. I’m at the dentist for a wisdom tooth extraction consultation 😵‍💫 but then I’m going to Michael’s to buy fabric for my bokoblin mask cosplay :3

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Binge day 🥲 that’s all I got. Disappointed. Oh well.

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I fucked up and took the overnight lax at 1PM and now I’m just cramping like crazy and haven’t been able to conjure up anything lmao 🙃 idk what I was thinking, I def can’t fall asleep with these painful cramps. Hopefully something happens soon. I also have taken a couple oxys over the last 3 days so that’s definitely not helping

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gonna try to have this smoothie as my OMAD-

Frozen strawb & banana - 90

Fiber powder - 10

cocoa powder - 10

1TB peanut butter - 90

1/2 protein shake - 80

Total 280

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[anon-moonandstars2]

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I hate being a woman presenting person on the first story of an apartment. Just had a man knocking on my window and shining a light on his dick masturbating. And what sucks is it’s probably highly unlikely he’ll come back, but now I’m going to be super paranoid about having my blinds up at night and I love having my windows open in the summer. Fuck this.

Edit: the cops were out front talking to a woman who looked like she was probably living on the streets. They stayed talking to her for over 20 minutes, I suspect he did something to her too. The behavioral crisis response came out and wrapped her in those foil blanket things and seems like they’re taking her somewhere dry and warm for the night (it’s raining). I hate calling the cops but considering she could very likely not have even had a phone to call them herself, I’m glad that she was able to get some help.

[fairycosmos]

you literally have to unironically listen to some shit like party rock anthem so you don’t kill yourself

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Dinner-

Yogurt 150

Granola 147

Blueberries 23

Total 320

Daily total 350

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In other news I got a new shower curtain and liner!! I love see through curtains and got this cute pink see through liner and the cherry blossom one for the outside!!!

I also have some cosplay ideas in the works, one is a lazy Amazon haul cosplay that will have very little DIY for me to do, my friends are all doing a group Animal Crossing cosplay and I’m gonna be Ankha. The other project im gonna start designing and working on blueprints for today- the Bokoblin mask from Tears of the Kingdom! (And BotW but I think the designs are a little different)

I also tweaked some inspo designs and made myself a succubus tattoo design for when I lose more w3ight and get my succubus cosplay! I’ve thought getting a succubus tattoo would be cute for a while now and I’m excited 🖤🌸

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I fucked up and ate some food last night because I felt bad throwing it all out. But today I’m on track, probably will quit drinking for a while too. I threw out my junk food and some other stuff from my fridge and all I have left is a couple veggies, monsters, protein shakes, yogurt, granola, frozen strawberry and banana, blueberries, peanut butter, and honey. Technically I have bread and tortillas in my freezer but I’m not too worried about those.

I’m not gonna liquid diet like I’d initially planned since I’ve got veggies I don’t want to waste

w3ighed in at 123.0 as of this morning

Breakfast-

cucumber 20 c@ls

Monster 10 c@ls

[meanbuddhist]

the mind is uncomfortable and the body she is also uncomfortable

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lol google says the implants I got weigh 1.7lbs

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Okay, I’m 10lbs over my LW. Thats just (at least) 10 lbs to lose in 5 weeks!!! Easy!! I just need to lock the FUCK in like I used to. I’m gonna go on a liquid diet, smoothies are gonna be allowed but I’m weighing everything so I can track exactly how many c@ls.

I am however still gonna drink lol, imma make a drink with a monster ultra right now. I’ve been not drinking any caffeine so I’m gonna use the caffeine to help kick any hunger for the rest of the evening.