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like yeah this shows writing was questionable but i loved it so much 😭
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im bouta nostalgia-check everyone with the mention of this show but do yall remember go! live your way??
like yeah this shows writing was questionable but i loved it so much 😭
#this was MY tsitp
Free's gauntlet was given to him by Kristina in order to conceal bite wounds on his arm, which were self-inflicted to make himself serious in battle.
this, among with so many other things, i deeply wish they had kept in the show. trying to make beyblade "kid friendly" was a mistake when the layers of depth written into the manga are what makes the show well written and beautiful in the first place. Free's character goes so much farther beyond "good blader who became obsessed with winning." evolution was NOT playing around.
Jax's gender dysphoria should have been in the background of his conflict, not the center - without overshadowing other, much heavier problems.
SENSITIVE TOPIC: Worrying about orientation and gender has become a cliché in modern "adult" cartoons. It’s a trend that desperately needs to change. The writers could have explored genuinely complex family issues and other morally ambiguous problems, but instead they spent time on a clichéd trope.
Okay, I can prove it. Just compare Jax from episodes 1–4 with the Jax after episode 4. These are literally two different characters. The consistency of the character was not maintained throughout the series. There were no hints about his orientation or deep traumas. Up until episode 5, he was a secondary comic relief character who didn’t need depth or backstory. And don’t justify it by saying it was "well-hidden subtext and well-masked personality". This is simply poor scripting and bad placement of accents and foreshadowing. Why in episode 1 does he show no reaction when his friend gets abstracted right in front of him? Why in episode 2 does he get in the car with a completely unchanged expression? But as soon as his friends are mentioned in episode 5, he immediately shows a fierce glare and his mask starts cracking. wth? how does it work? just because the plot demanded it idk? If he’s so good at suppressing his emotions and wearing masks, then why did he break exactly at that moment? Why not in episode 1, when his close friend "died" right in front of him? And don’t try to justify it with the scene from episode 9 where he cries in front of the mirror. It doesn’t work like revealing an intrigue that just wasn't there in the first 4 episodes. Now I ask. Did you REALLY watch this show or were you just based on your feelings and emotions when you wrote your indignation?
I’m not justifying abuse, but Jax’s mother might have genuinely loved him, even though she expressed that love through insults and yelling. We can’t fully trust Jax’s words, he’s an unreliable narrator. People tend to remember only the bad things and forget the good. Her final gesture - hugging him - shows that she did care about her son. Because of stress and possibly financial problems, she took it out on Jax, and that deeply affected him. But as soon as his mother showed empathy by hugging him, Jax immediately pulled away. After his parents’ divorce (and even before it), Jax was attached to his mother because his father didn’t pay any attention to him. The mother figure was all he had in life. His mother demanded that he act like his father so he wouldn’t grow up weak. She wanted the best for her son - she just expressed it in her own distorted way. Jax and his mother are both victims of circumstances. Their toxic mother-son bond could have been explored really well if the creators had spent the time in the right direction. Because of his mother’s actions, Jax hated her and didn’t appreciate her (In fact, this is probably not entirely true, as I will discuss later). This is proven by his inaction when she was lying on the floor. He didn’t call 911 and just ran away. He didn’t even check if she could be helped. He simply fled. In that moment, he didn’t care about his mother at all because Jax was overcome with fear.
The show could have deeply explored Jax’s misplaced, overwhelming guilt towards his mother. He couldn’t understand why she acted the way she did because inside him there was still a hurt inner child who desperately craved love and attention. It may sound selfish at first, but when you look at it from both perspectives, it’s a painful reality that tens of thousands of people actually live with. I’m just headcanoning here, but it feels like Gooseworx isn’t ready or willing to tackle such heavy, uncomfortable family issues. It’s much safer and more fashionable to lean into a trendy cliché than to dig into complex family problems and make every character genuinely morally gray.
Jax's mother could have manipulated and pressured him by using his gender dysphoria against his vulnerability. This would have only added to their toxic relationship, rather than making it the center of the entire conflict.
The mother's laughter after Jax opened up to her about something "personal and deep" can be interpreted in several ways. I see it as hysterical laughter, especially considering her mental state. She simply didn't know how to react to it all, so she responded that way - basically letting out all her accumulated emotions and negativity (I’m by no means justifying such relationships)
But ohhh... in the fandom, everyone believes she was specifically mocking Jax's gender dysphoria. Are there really no other interpretations? Is no one trying to understand even a secondary adult character, especially the mother figure?
I believe Jax was emotionally dependent on his mother and never fully understood his own attachment to her. Deep down, he still craved the love and attention his parents (the mother) failed to give him. That's why I find their relationship far more interesting than the direction the show ultimately chose to focus on.
Also, Jax didn’t try to become a better person - stop projecting your own feelings onto him and making things up. He was consumed by negative emotions at that moment, which ultimately led to his abstraction. In the end, he was only thinking about himself, "I don’t want to go". We were never shown a single moment where Jax genuinely revealed a better side of himself. The brief teamwork with Pomni in the gun episode wasn’t real character development, it was just temporary fun, even for Jax himself. In short, Jax didn’t change at all. His backstory reveal led to nothing. Saying 'I'm awful' is just a vague generalization and far too simplistic of a reflection from Jax. He never understood the root of his behavioral issues - what specific actions (or non-action) of his hurt not only his mother, but also the other characters. He never said sorry. He never apologized to Gangle. He never tried to understand others. He remained the same selfish person who ruined everyone else’s lives and didn't get his identity. The fact that he gave Pomni the key only proves once again that he didn’t care about others - he only wanted them to pity and love him. Ragatha is the only sane character who states a simple truth that Jax’s fans, for some reason, refuse to accept.
Bankruptcy, financial struggles, parents' divorce, toxic relationship with his mother, lack of attention and love, false guilt - why didn't all this develop in the show?
I won't accept arguments like "this is Gooseworx's self-insert, you just don't understand the character". It's a badly written self-insert that feels forced and doesn't serve the story well
you're saying a lot of things criticizing the writing of the show, but not making any actual points beyond a few opinions that have nothing to do with the quality of the writing itself. and im going to respond to all of them.
when you go to criticize the pacing of jax's character, you mention things like "oh why was he acting the way he was in the first few episodes when he was actually hurting blah blah blah." the show was paced in such a way where we were supposed to get a slow reveal of jax's character rather then an all-at-once "oh this is who he is" type of character establishment head on. this actually sort of goes for every single character in the show- some pacing is literally just faster then others as the writer is very evidently trying to space everything out in the way she wants to. everything set up in the first few episodes came full circle in the finale, including the moments, like you mentioned, where he completely ignored his friends abstraction and put on a "mask" of sorts. you ask "why is that mask suddenly breaking now? plot convenience?" since you seem to be approaching tadc from a character analyst standpoint solely based on opinions while making claims about the actual writing, lets sit here for a second and think about this. jax wants to be perceived as the "funny one", as explained by the episode 6 "archetypes" speech. this essentially reveals the mask we see him put up for most of the show, until that mask finally breaks. since this show is written in a way where we gain context the further the show goes on rather than building upon existing context, his behavior in the first few episodes is very clearly explained by, like you said, the "mask" he wants to use to hide his true feelings as best as he can. story structure and basic psychology suggests that the longer you try to put up a mask, it will eventually start to break, especially if your mind or circumstances have been under immense pressure for a long time. this show documents jax's journey towards the end of his life and his abstraction process throughout the 9 episodes. kaufmos death and pomnis arrival literally serves as the "final straw" for his descent into madness which eventually ends in abstracting. while it is true that we do not come to realize his "true colors" until later episodes, that is literally an intentional writing choice made to create a slow burn cracking of his mask that you say hes "supposed to be good at putting up." it seems YOU may have interpreted the story wrong if you think jax is actually supposed to be good at hiding his emotions. the whole point is that you CANT hide who you are because it first of all, can make you do some pretty bad things to the people you care about, and second of all, can destroy you from the inside out when you can no longer hide your feelings any longer.
in your second point, you provide an accurate analysis of the way jax ambiguously killing his mom affected both of them in the context of the situation. you ask why this wasn't explored deeper in the show, which on its own is a completely valid point. there was a lot of things that i wished, plotwise and character wise, were explored deeper in the show, and i agree that this for sure could have been one of them. but instead of simply commenting on that, you actually go to say that gooseworx was "scared" to explore family issues and instead wanted to make the show "trendy" by centering this scene around his identity and gender dysphoria? you then go to criticize the fandom for not having your exact interpretation of his mothers reaction, which by the way shouldn't concern you if you want to stick with your own interpretation because people can think whatever they want.
but above all else, when you say "It’s much safer and more fashionable to lean into a trendy cliché than to dig into complex family problems and make every character genuinely morally gray," what do you genuinely mean by this?? beyond the totally valid points you make about disagreeing with specific parts of the writing or wanting more out of certain lore revelations, you literally go to make a claim that an intentional, CENTRAL, writing choice for a self-insert of a REAL PERSON, was meant to "trend hop" or "cliche" the show so that the it got popular and never explored "real depth" that could've potentially been there. there is a VERY fine line between disagreeing with writing choices and crossing the boundary into bigotry. when people like you go out of their way to call explorations of sexuality or gender identity in popular media "trendy" or "woke" or "cliche", all you do is inadvertently state that you do not think that these are real-world, valid issues that need to be addressed, that btw actually lack in representation due to a very long history of homophobia, transphobia, and again, bigotry, preventing any real exploration of these things in ANYTHING for not just years, but decades. it is COMPLETELY okay to want to have had the relationship between jax and his mom and how that affected his character explored in more depth. nobody is saying that you cannot want that, because like i said, i actually think you make a solid point on that. HOWEVER. it is NOT okay to say that gooseworx making the choice to instead have jax's character exploration centered around their identity and gender dysphoria "trendy rather then meaningful." you are coming online and saying that you do not believe that this specific internal struggle is valid enough to be explored as a central plot point for one of the main characters. thats bigotry, not criticism. if it is not the struggle you can relate to or want to see, then watch a different show, its as simple as that. and by the way it is totally possible to express that you wanted more exploration of a topic WITHOUT invalidating another one. not the be the woker here but imagine if his relationship with his family WAS explored deeper in the show and instead people were coming online and saying "oh i wish more exploration of him being trans happened instead because family issues are TRENDY and MODERN and gooseworx didnt add ANYTHING to the story by doing this!" people would call you crazy! so i think its pretty insane that you have the nerve to say the opposite with such confidence thinking that nobody was going to call you out.
i truly do love your analysis on jax's relationship with his family and how that couldve gone deeper and made an interesting plot. and sure, maybe you would've found that plot more interesting then what actually happened. thats your opinion and you are entitled to it. and you do make a good last point that fans are saying that he got "redeemed" or tried to become a better person because i often find myself wondering the same thing: why can't people accept that jax was written to be irredeemable? im glad some people understand that he never became a better person and was never meant to. its simply that you only seem to be criticizing the parts of jax that were intentionally written that you yourself cannot relate to. and i guess thats fine, when you arn't going out of your way to call other struggles "trendy" or "fanservice" at the same time.
I miss clouds
I miss thinking I was going to see myself in a mainstream show
I miss thinking I wasn't going to have to search on specific queer media to see queer love
I miss all the analyzing thinking it would mean something
I miss seeing myself in Mike Wheeler (and having hope for him and me)
I miss Byler
mileven would’ve been a good ship if mike hadn’t kissed her in season 1, if it was a slow burn and jane got to learn who she was first, and if mike didn’t do all that gay shit with Will.
i hate that most milevens assume we hate that ship just because we like byler. we hate it because jane had no autonomy over her life when her and mike got together
id even go to say that if stranger things WAS written specifically with mileven in mind and not as a slowburn queerbait, it would easily solo every other ship and pairing in the entire show. because they DO have potential, and if it was a different story with different writing, then of course they'd be good for eachother!! they'd be amazing for eachother! unfortunately, the duffers didnt know what they were writing and changed their minds about literally everything at the last possible second. so uh.
(speaking as a byler btw.)
Katsuki and Toga pushed Deku and Ochako towards each other!
"...I hope you know that I love you, Ochako. That's why I wanna push you to love too!"
Toga knows that Ochako is in love with Deku, so she pushes her forward, past the guilt of asking for more than she has. Thus, Toga acknowledges that what Ochako already has isn't enough – her life isn't complete without that love - without Deku.
This episode title, 'More', is a double entendre — not only does it add 'more' context to the 8 yr time skip, but also reflects on Deku and Ochako's mutual wish to talk (and therefore be with each other) 'more' often.
The girl who lives off love helps the one she loves most to pursue her deeply buried love too. After all, true love isn't selfish. Toga tries to get Ochako to realise that taking steps towards the one she loves wouldn't forsake her duty as a hero, because love is exactly what saved both of them. Ochako was saved by Toga's love cos of the blood transfer, and Toga was saved by Ochako's love cos of complimenting her smile instead of questioning her for it. Being called cute instead of a monster. Now she lives happily as a vestige within Ochako, and she can smile as much as she wants without being shamed for it.
Now, Toga pushes Ochako towards her love, hoping that it will free her from her guilt. That it will keep her happy forever, the same way she is now that she's a part of Ochako.
That Deku's love will save her, just like Toga's did.
"What I'm saying is that if everyone's special to you, nobody is."
Deku is who he is cos he loves everyone and everything so unconditionally. But Katsuki gets him to realise something important - you can't love everyone the same. Sometimes you gotta put your own wants and needs first, and this is advice for Deku cos he struggles with that a LOT. As Katsuki said, if a selfless person doesn't put themselves first sometimes, they'll miss out on a lot, and they won't get to live their life to the fullest!
The way Deku looked at Ochako when he thought about what Katsuki said to him makes it clear that she is the person he wants to put forward. He won't be able to pursue his love and talk to her more if he doesn't start putting her above everyone else. Otherwise, she'll be just another person, and that's not the case in Deku's eyes.
I mean, look at those eyes. Whenever they look sparkly like this, I am officially gonna call it "the look of love".
He runs after Ochako with Katsuki's words in mind, and with that, the two hearts that beat for others...
...finally unite. 💚💕
this is like. the most insanely complex and tragically well written thing EVER oh my gosh. WHAT THE HECK. I CANT EVEN BE MAD ABOUT THIS BECAUSE LIKE. its not queerbaiting or bad writing, its just TRAGEDY. oh my god long rant incoming.
so yeah, the "straight couple" ends up endgame, the popular queer ships are kind of used as plot devices to get them together (well not really but for the sake of simplicity ill say this), WHATEVER. WHO CARES. because in this case, the implications/truths of how this happened ACTUALLY TEACHES A REALISTIC AND VALUABLE LESSON while staying narratively consistent and well written in relation to the 8 season plot that has ended well, surprisingly. like this person said, THE TWO PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT DEKU/OCHACO THE MOST end up pushing them together because they can never be with the person that they care about, and in the case that they could, it would just end up in tragedy because... well, lets think about it for a minute.
toga was a villain who spent her life chasing both ochaco and deku, pushing their boundaries as heroes to see how far they'd be willing to go to save even someone who was intentionally out to actively harm them, only really ever wanted love, and died saving the person she loved the most as a final act of redemption.
katsuki actively bullied deku his entire life, made just existing difficult for him because of his insanely fragile ego and internal struggle with masculinity as well as the fear of being embarassed or one-upped by the one person who essentially got everything he ever wanted. they eventually started to understand eachother, became rivals and then friends, but katsuki blamed himself for most of the bad stuff that happened to deku and the people deku cared about for like 99% of that time.
so even in the case that bkdk and togachaco WERE canon, OBVIOUSLY we are looking at terribly unhealthy, tragic dynamics unable to be saved by the narrative. the case here is actually "right person, wrong circumstances," because despite how much both of these people have been canonically shown to care about the other, it can never actually pay off in any other form except love that pushes them to become the absolute best version of themselves possible. while the idea of a canon lesbian and gay couple in this anime is obviously AWESOME, i cant really be upset at the writers choices because it actually makes perfect sense considering both arcs. while i dont think deku and ochaco NEEDED to end up in a relationship necessarily, i do think its a good thing that they did, because it means that toga and katsuki actually served a purpose and that the entire fandom isnt fucking crazy for clocking that the strong feelings both of them had (whether technically canon or not) were important to the story. i think its kind of beautiful how the two people who cared about them the most ended up encouraging them to pursue a shot at actual love because even if ochaco wakes up next to him in the middle of the night or deku's top song on his spotify wrapped is mr loverman at least they both used what they learned from the tragic, forbidden love they were given to build something real and possible.
and that, ladies and gentlemen, is how NOT to queerbait and upset your gay audience while including meaningful representation, following through on your writing, not having gay endgame ships and finalizing the main hetero couple, and making it satisfying to literally every viewer no matter which side they are on. hats off to the writers, im genuinely happy with the way this anime finished.
duffer brothers take notes. PLEASE.
Ochako and Toga's connection transcends life and death
I'm an anime only, but I think I realise why Ochako is seeing Toga here in this field.
I'm guessing this is her vestige. The last remaining parts of her are living inside of Ochako after giving her all of her blood.
She defo still remembers the day she lost Toga like it was yesterday.
As long as blood runs through Ochako's body, Toga's spirit resides within her - which is what I'd like to think - but, as the biology student that I am, I can't help but wonder that after 8 entire years, wouldn't the blood cells donated by Toga have all died and been replaced by Ochako's own blood cells? If so, then she's lost all physical aspects of Toga. Her vestige probably still remains cos it's separate from the physical body and she loves Ochako so much that she wouldn't wanna part with her.
Maybe her vestige remains as long as Ochako is still alive. And Ochako wouldn't be alive if it weren't for Toga giving up all her blood.
So, in a poetic way, this is an example of a symbiotic relationship - one so strong it transcends the living world - where they've both depended on each other to survive.
this is like when mileven was endgame in stranger things after the duffers fumbled byler and then they made the last scene of the show mike staring wistfully at wills dnd book while sobbing and putting it away on the shelf forever
oh how hate tragic queer love that gets implied confirmation during the final episodes
#wouldvecouldveshouldve 💔 (except this time it was actually well written)
they could’ve denied byler years ago btw ✌️😭💔
st5 was so genuinely harmful that i dont think you could pay me enough to ever rewatch that show ever again. it used to be my favourite show of all time and now its like an ex that i cant even think about with feeling physical pain. like you would have to lobotomize me to EVER get me to touch that show again. the first four seasons were so peak that they just had to ruin them with two absolutely BOOTYCHEEKS FINAL EPISODES like how can i ever enjoy even the THOUGHT of the show again knowing damn well whats coming?? the four month break i took from thinking about stranger things wasnt long enough. i need 80 more years.
suffering is poetic.
for it is beautiful to fall into the same unbreakable cycles, as the seasons too repeat themselves.
blissfully unaware of what is yet to come, but in that empty space the lingering memory of a thousand summers before never fails to show up in the evening sunset of may.
why is it that even nature cannot break free of the earth's endless rotation? why do we continue to lie to ourselves and promise the prosperity of change and growth when it only gets worse the more we know, the more we grow, and begin to see?
why is the fruit of our labour promised when we live in such an unpredictable universe? so much so that nothing is ever promised. not today, not tomorrow, not even yesterday. the human mind is even more incomprehensible then the universe itself.
because at least the universe repeats itself.
the same stars in our galaxy show up in the atoms that make up our skin, our cells, our hair and our eyes. rivers and lakes and ponds and oceans flow on our skin as we age, ripples turn into wrinkles, and even the light of our sun shines within our eyes when we are happy.
therefore, it truly is no surprise, as a being not of this world, but of this universe, when i catch myself falling the same way the seasons change four times a year. falling, alas, so much so that it doesnt feel like falling anymore. the crush of the landing attempts to replicate itself so many times over again that it is no longer truthful nor is it accurate to say that i am capable of falling.
no, i am no longer capable of falling.
i am capable of landing. of breaking every bone in my body and enduring the endless pain of my nerves lighting on fire as i watch my life go up in flames. and i am capable of survival, as death in a dimension of eternal torture is not possible.
i believe that it is a lie to say that those of a religious heart were the ones who said that being gay gets you sent straight to hell. not a single straight person could possibly understand that loving with the intensity of a million suns burning and shining for a single earth is an incomprehensible hell on its own. when i first discovered my capability to love only the gender that i am far too familiar with, i truly was damned for eternity.
because there is no escaping the most powerful essence in this universe. love is not beautiful. love is not kind. love is torturous. love is hell. love is suffering.
but suffering is poetic.
so i will endure for as long as the seasons change.
"Mike would've explored"
what do you personally think all the characters names would be in the real world? All ive heard is ragatha would be agatha and jax as jack but i think those are very basic ahem
I've known their real names from the beginning. Some people have figured out Kinger's real name. I think I've only seen one person guess Pomni's name, I think I saw someone guess Zooble's name for the wrong character, and I've seen one person guess Ragatha's name, but that's all so far.
i dont care you can pry Christine and Felix out of my cold dead hands
"doomed yuri is harmful because it isnt realisti-" okay you can shut up now. im a lesbian, proud wlw over here, and i am not here to speak on behalf of all wlws in the world, but merely myself, when i say that doomed yuri is 100% realistic and i have been SEARCHING for a tragic love story between two woman that isnt the entire plot but is significant nonetheless within the plot except the plot doesnt focus on being queer and rather normalizes it by incorporating it into an already complex story that explores many socio-political issues and develops audience attachment to several well written characters. trigger warning, this post is NOT about arcane. "b-b-but if you want that, you should watch arcane-" okay thats enough out of you I WILL WATCH ARCANE HOLD YOUR HORSES this post is about mha. *dramatic "aww" sound effect plays* oh no, did that scare some of you off? im sorry. i know the words "my hero acadamia" are basically slurs after what 2020 did to the world but heres an idea for you! if you dont wanna read a post about my hero acadamia, then dont read a post about my hero acadamia. but if you do want to read a post about doomed yuri, then keep reading, because thats what im going to be talking about. specifically, MY experiences with finding an incredible, beautiful, wonderful, tragic, not at all healthy doomed yuri incorporated into a plot dominated by implied, fanon doomed yaoi that never even ended up canon anyways. what a shame. i came to my hero acadamia for the yaoi in the first place knowing damn well it wasnt gonna be canon yet i still wish it was. came for the yaoi stayed for the yuri type shit. and okay, lets be honest for a second. it is SO incredibly ironic that a blatantly transphobic, sexist writer was somehow able to curate not only the most famous and iconic non-canon tragically doomed yaois of all time, but somehow one of the best written CANON yuris as well??? woah. dont get me wrong, i hate how this guy wrote the two transgender characters because obviously... well, their transphobic. and yeah all the woman are written in sexist ways (most, sorry. not all) but its not even all that bad for typical anime (not saying this is a good thing) and to say the yuri and yaoi makes up for it is well false. issues are issues nonetheless but BOY oh boy have i yearned for yearning like this for as long as i've been alive. to find a story that so perfectly captures the experience of growing up only craving one thing and that one thing is love from someone you will never get it from while metaphorically showing how the innate biological NEED for something that society deems as "wrong" destroys you because it internally isolates you which in turn actually isolates you from everyone else you care about... its genuinely an eye opening experience. toga's need for blood is obviously literal, but can be metaphorically interpreted as so many things. blood could be revenge or power. blood could be love. blood could be friendship. blood could be stability, or money, or fame, or glory, but do you want to know how i interpreted blood in her story? her biological need for blood translates with my need to receive love from somebody the same gender as me. did i just take a literal aspect of a queer characters story and turn it even more queer through symbolism and interpretation? hell yeah, because art is meant to be interpreted. and so many more apsects of what ive found in this story resonate with me even more. obsession. jealousy. infatuation. lust. everything that feels "dirty" or "wrong" that is so often villainized, it actually feels healing to see a mentally unwell character who has very blatantly obvious traits that are not meant to be portrayed in a positive way that deeply resonate with me written as a villain instead of a hero. to me, toga perfectly captures the honest desperation of being in love with a straight girl who doesn't return the feelings you hold in the same way. the pure, unfiltered, raw desperation. desperation to the extent where you would literally do anything to get her to prove that she cares.
the key word here is she.
there are so many toxic love stories about jealousy, obsession, love, desperation, and tragedy. but so very few of these stories are well written, and even fewer involve non-sexistly written female characters. and only a much smaller, much more impossible number of those stories involve both parties being woman. and this one is the only one ive found that feels real to me because its like watching an over-exagerated version of my life play out in real time. it is not beautiful to relate to the villain. it is not fun or edgy to relate to somebody crazy. it does not make me the alpha to see myself in somebody mentally unwell. and it does not make me different to relate to the heart wrenching attraction to woman who will never see me in the same way. all of these things are very common, very real experiences that should not ever be glorified or romanticized. its terrible, actually, the only thing i am romanticizing about this is how poetically beautiful it is that i finally found a piece of media that represents how i love and what i go through to try and feel loved. if anything, toga suffered a much happier fate then me, because at least dying actually did get uraraka to admit that she truly cared about her. she got her proof in the end, and even if it wasnt real, which we will never know if it was, she finally did get to experience real love in the last moments of her life. tragic queer love stories should not be the 'norm' as to what is experienced in real life, but seeing it in the media i come to love should be more normalized as it is not that difficult to accept that not everybody has positive or reciprocated experiences with love. every single one of my own personal love stories have ended in tragedy. its comforting to see myself in popular media. its why i as well as so many others became so attached to byler before it got nerfed in the last season. because i held on to will byers in hope that he would finally get to experience the love i never had. unfortunately, i learned that representation often comes in the most unexpected ways. dont go looking for exclusively queer media to find accurate representation, because chances are, if you are anything like me, you wont find solace in reciprocated teenage love stories.
local lesbian discovers canon yuri in mha??? (not clickbait??) (what happens next is shocking??)
HELP ME IM NEW TO THIS FANDOM AND IM ON SEASON THREE AND I JUST FOUND OUT THAT TOGA ACTUALLY CANONICALLY HAD A CRUSH ON URARAKA ALONG WITH DEKU OH MY GOD I DONT CARE IF SHES A VILLAIN OR THAT ITS ONE SIDED OH MY GOD CANON YURI IN A SHOW FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY OH MY GOD A GIRL WHO LIKES ANOTHER GIRL WHILE ALSO HAVING HER OWN COMPLEX DEVELOPED PERSONALITY AND BACKSTORY OUTSIDE OF ROMANTIC ATTRACTION TO A GIRL WHILE STILL ACKNOWLEDGING IT AS A MAJOR PLOTLINE DRIVEN BY COMPLEXITY THAT DOESN'T DEMAND RECIPROCATION OR FULL STORY ATTENTION
sorry i just came from stranger things a couple months ago im used to queerbait
BUT OH MY GOD AS A WLW IM SO HAPPY I WANNA CRY OH MY GOD SECRET YURI PLOTLINE FOUND IN NEW OBSESSION IM SO HAPPYYYYYY
#came for the yaoi stayed for the yuri
"tumblr is not a diary-"
idc. i miss my ex friend group a little more when i have time sit down and scroll through all the instagram dumps i shoulve been a part of but wasnt because the people i refuse to let go of finally have a reason to leave me out of things now that we arn't close anymore. i miss our little og group of four that i created in the fourth grade until i remember that its been 7 years now and i'll never be able to go back. if i had to go back in time and talk to my ten year old self, how could i tell her that we arn't friends anymore? that our dreams of growing up in high school together and being in the same class and hanging out would never come true because in growing up we lost our minds and let fear tear us apart? how could i tell my younger self that it was my fault? how could i look her in the eye and say that i hurt my friends because i was too focused on myself that i couldnt see what was going on with anybody else?
and i especially miss them a little more when i remember that the people i call my "opps" were actually just little kids at my birthday party once too. one in particular who i remember calling my friend. the 5th grade may have been some time ago, but i liked him a lot better when were friends working on some project together at eachothers houses and not ruining eachothers lives because of a misunderstanding. he was so sweet. and so funny. i miss when he was one of the kids in elementary school who i would always tell my mom was one of the "good ones." one of the nice, kind, responsible kids who i always wanted in my class because i wanted to be friends with him. fuck. it pains me. it actually pains me, to actually sit down and think about how we hate eachother now. well, i dont hate him. i dont think ill ever be able to hate him. or the girls he's friends with who hate me too. those nice, sweet, girls. who even my closest friend right now is friends with. how did we go from childhood friends to enemies with beef so horrific it's actually driving my oldest friendships apart? i wish i was different. so i couldve done things differently. and we couldve been friends instead of fighting over... nothing. anymore.
but looking at the photos with the girl who i want so badly to prove that she cares about me, in group photo dumps with the group of people i used to call home... it hurts. so badly. because i know me and her could've been best friends in another life if her loyalty didnt run with them deeper then it did with me. and i cant change that. it wasnt her fault she got involved with both sides before knowing the fight. i cant ask her to chose, and she never will. it doesnt even matter how many good times we have or how many friendship reels she sends me or how good it makes me feel when i do get a tiny, TINY little conformation that she cares.
i cant make her care enough.
i cant get my old life back.
ill never have a home like i did before.
and it doesnt even matter how free i am now. how many real friends i have, who i deeply love and apreciate. at the end of the day, this isnt my home. this isnt where i came from. this isnt how it should be.
things are always gonna be a little off because we all ended up on the wrong path somehow.
unless the universe proves me wrong, i guess. but if i havnt stopped missing them after all this time, who knows if it really ever will.
EPISODE 44. SEASON THREE. IM SOBBING. IM SO GLAD I STARTED WATCHING THIS SHOW.
ive made a couple posts already updating my super late-to-the-party mha viewing and i will continue to do so because its genuinely so amazing. i see a lot of posts, especially on reddit, and other areas of the internet clowning on the show and the fandom because of well the fandom and the "surface level writing" but i would like to take this moment to strongly disagree with those two points making it a "bad show." first of all, surface level writing doesnt have to be a bad thing, ever. if the writing is genuinely good and explores deep, complex, and important topics, WHO CARES how surface level it is? a show doesnt need 2000 metaphors and similes within the span of 20 very slowly paced, vague episodes to be considered good writing. as long as a piece of writing knows what it wants to be and follows through on it, its usually good. sure, nothing in mha is written in code. and thats honestly kind of refreshing (i say as an AP english student).
(yo that line sounds so much like chat gpt im gonna cry)
ANYWAYS. spoilers ahead
guys i just watched episode 24 of mha and holy moly how have i NOT been watching this show for this many years???
i know i missed peak 2020 tiktok era where everyone shipped bakugo, deku, and todoroki with eachother and had really sick cosplays and the bakudeku slime incident and the cringe audios and peak edits and i deeply regret that but GUYS lemme be late to the party okay 😭
i just needed to come on here and say HOW DEEPLY SORRY I AM for holding out on watching this show because tell me WHY we are barely one and half seasons in and todoroki already surpasses 99% of the filler characters, npcs, and even maybe the main characters themselves in terms of writing. like GUYS its not even funny. the writers are trying to hype deku up SO MUCH and make him seem like he's this super incredible, fascinating guy with so much potential which like, i was definitely buying in season one and the start of season two, but then they kinda screwed themselves over and wrote todoroki in who would arguably make TEN TIMES BETTER of a main character then deku would. because okay, maybe deku has ambition and drive and hes a chronically good person (most of the time) which is like, fine, i guess. hes a lesson in motivation and hard work for sure, but the main thing the writers really seem to be emphasizing here is how he has like. no motivation outside of "i just want to become a hero because its my dream and im a good person and i wanna surpass all might" which is like okay fine, but COME ON. i would much rather have a main character who is actually trying to accomplish something meaningful by becoming a hero, like hmm. TODOROKI?? lets see. we have "i wanna do this for the sake of doing this and also become better then all might cause uh idk he saw potential in me?" vs "i wanna do this to break out of my family's abusive lineage of forced marriages for quirk breeding, assault, and mental health issues driven by a genuinely selfish and evil guys desire for power by proving to not only myself but my evil dad and the world that i can break this traumatic cycle of abuse and power farming by rewriting my own sense of self and using my overwhelming and arguably coolest power in the show for the better." not to diss deku, hes one of the few underdog main characters in anime i dont hate with a burning passion, but COME ON. i mean, the only other thing that really adds to deku's interest as a character is freaking bakugo, who like. is already way better written just on his own anyways. not to be a d1 hater but is it crazy to say that the concept of platonic/romantic bakudeku literally makes the show like ten times more emotionally complex and interesting to invest yourself in. for a character driven story, there are for SURE weak spots in mha. but overall, my point currently stands that todoroki is THE BEST character, coolest design, coolest power, coolest backstory, and the BEST character motivation out of anyone! also ive decided im willing to ignore some of the sexist writing choices when it comes to writing and designing the woman because ochaco is just that goated of a female deuteragonist (im a woman, so dont slime me in the comments for talking about sexism or overlooking it. im also familiar with how woman are usually written in anime so. like. the bar wasnt that high to begin with). also for once, the slow burn straight romance might not make me wanna pull my hair out cause i actually LIKE her and deku's friendship 😭 i think bakudeku, like, the concept of bakudeku cause thats really all it ends up being, is arguably way more complex and well written, and its a shame they didnt chose to explore that in later seasons cause the potential is kinda crazy, but alas, i dont wanna get slimed out so yes i know its slightly problematic blah blah blah not everything needs to be gay blah blah blah character development whatever guys can be friends without yaoi shippers ruining it blah blah ive heard it all. that being said, i highly recommend you read "the way you used to do" on ao3 if you do enjoy the concept of bakudeku, because i read it recently, and despite the fact that its a SLOW slow burn, it kept me up late at night and is beautifully well written. one of my all time faves on that website for sure. fixes literally everything wrong with the pairing but doesnt change the tension and dynamic. nobody is written OOC, but like. there is a lot of cringe swearing from bakugo.