almost thought about jumping off a roof somewhere
somewhere far
somewhere very far
where no one will know where i am
no one will know im gone
no one will know i was there
it wouldve been a perfect bliss
but now its not the time to leave
i havent explored love
i havent explored the world
i havent even explored myself
i’ve been trapped within these four walls for too long
it hurts being here
sometimes i cry at night knowing ive been trapped for too long
it hurts knowing i havent explored life
life to its fullest
i want to live
but i feel like im dying inside
its a struggle sometimes waking up knowing i have to follow rules
i have to follow a curfew
i have to follow a routine
a 23 yr old routine
school
work
go home
sleep
repeat.
this vicious cycle
wheres the fun in that