I can’t do this anymore. It’s not healthy and it’s not safe.
The past couple weeks my mental and physical health has severely dropped.
That’s pretty normal for me during this time of year. There’s multiple anniversaries of deaths of close friends this month and next month. Both online friends and offline friends.
But this has gone way beyond that.
“It’s okay to make mistakes” is not something that applies here. There is no room for error. No second chances. No explanations or rebuttals. One strike you’re out.
I can’t handle it.
I haven’t had as many panic attacks in years as I have in the past two weeks. I keep forgetting to do basic things to take care of myself because I’m too focused on stress. It’s bad to the point that my dizzy spells have made a reappearance. I’m constantly nauseous and my shaking has gotten bad.
It’s not healthy. I can’t stay here. I’m sorry
Edit: my queue will continue until it runs out. I can’t put in the energy to care
