kim

k, or kim.

[inkindigo]

the sea itself does not change.

i want more of what doesn’t change, what does not fade away for centuries.

that is what i don’t have inside of me. something strong.

[inkindigo]

a library opened where i live. i can't wait to visit there.

[inkindigo]

it’s really nice..

[inkindigo]

a library opened where i live. i can't wait to visit there.

[a-person-k]

The ghost and the sunlight

I cover my eyes with my hands,

As if I have forgotten that I am transparent.

It feels weird to have sunlight go through my nonexistent body.

Looking up at the blue sky makes my eyes sore, even after I died.

What have you done to me?

Unspeakable damage is done to my heart that is no longer in me.

I scream out, but it hurts that my voice is now permanently inaudible.

If this is love, why is it sharp as a weapon?

If this is hate, take me with you, beyond the vibrant horizon that is now a blur.

[a-person-k]

summer and the pseudo-ghost

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blue sky, clear air, i can feel every molecule of it

i could've stayed alive if i had a mic and an electric guitar to shout out the dizziness inside my head

sunlight goes through me, leaving no shadow behind

see, even science has forgotten that i am nothing more than a pseudo-ghost

i did not die,

if i remember myself before what happened, i can keep myself alive.

clear blue,

scattered youth, on the ground like it doesn’t matter

pseudo-science and a fake ghost,

half transparent mind with a blurred existence

i would’ve picked up the shattered blue one by one but i am barely able to grasp who i really am through this summer

[inkindigo]

the ghost inside me is not enough

[inkindigo]

when i become a ghost, i’m going to visit the sea i saw during high school. and remember the night. and the people there. and the salty air near the sea…. and the people i love.

[inkindigo]

maybe it will be alright.

[inkindigo]

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warm day, gentle wind, and cherry blossom trees and flowers all over the campus.

people under the trees with smiles on their faces, taking pictures of themselves, all gathered up..

that made me smile. it reminded me that there is still something warm in people's minds.

you see, there is a myth that, if you grab a cherry blossom petal that's falling down midair, your first love will come true.

who was my first love...

a lot of yorushika these days. listening to their music makes me realize that it really is spring. and summer is waiting for me, from a distance.

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i had ramen for lunch... it wasn't the best meal, but it was okay.

i've been trying to make friends with somebody. we have some things in common, so hopefully it works out well.

the lectures were so boring today…. and i’m trying to drink less coffee…. so hard not to fall asleep…