[inkstainedforest]

sorry for the sad posts. i have so many feelings always bottled up.

[inkstainedforest]

i have no interest in other people's lives, and that's why i don't like it when other people interfere in my life.

[inkstainedforest]

so much did happen, so much we passed through, but i can't do this anymore. my life feels like a movie which never has a happy ending. everyone, but me. everything, but not the love. it's over.

[inkstainedforest]

the disrespect at the end was so loud that it erased everything good that came before it. all the memories i once protected so carefully suddenly felt heavy and meaningless.

it's painful how one moment of disrespect can change the way you see an entire connection. you start replaying everything, questioning what was real and what was just convenient. i realized that respect is the bare minimum, not something you beg for or excuse.

no matter how long you've known someone or how many memories you share, none of it matters if they can't treat you with basic decency.

walking away hurts, but staying where you're constantly disrespected hurts more. sometimes letting go is the only way to protect your peace and self-worth.

[inkstainedforest]

men say they want a peaceful woman, but she WAS peaceful before you started stressing her out and disrespecting her.

[inkstainedforest]

i've opted out of dating, because my devotion really is unmatchable like actually none of you fools deserve me.

[inkstainedforest]

gatekeeping myself, cause i don't like how y'all make me feel fr.

[inkstainedforest]

weirdly enough, i feel like everything happened this year was meant to shape me.

[inkstainedforest]

treat them how they treat you, and watch how fast they play victim.

[inkstainedforest]

i'll never respect somebody who knew i was already going through a lot… and still did me wrong. you knew what i was dealing with. you knew what i was tryna heal from. and instead of being there, you played in my face and made it worse. that's the part i'll never forget. like dang… what if i ain't have nobody else? what if you was the only one i could count on? and that's exactly why i don't put my trust in nobody.

[inkstainedforest]

do you ever just think about the first time you met someone and compare it to where you guys are now & it's like wow, who knew this would happen?

[inkstainedforest]

ever lost interest in someone you really liked, because of bad communication and unmatched energy?

[inkstainedforest]

i can't control anyone's loyalty, i just know mine is genuine.

[inkstainedforest]

funny how the best treatment always comes from the guy you don't even want.

[inkstainedforest]

some people lie so comfortably. it makes you question everything they ever said. not just the lie, but the trust, the love, the entire foundation. they know they're lying. they know you know. and still, they do it... like honesty was never part of the relationship.

[inkstainedforest]

i'm not the kind of person who can just forget how you made me feel. i remember the way you talked to me like i didn't matter. i remember how you made me question my worth. i remember how you acted like my feelings were a joke.

i was kind. i gave you so many chances. i tried to understand you, but you didn't care. you kept crossing the line. you kept testing how much i could take. and now you want me to be the same? you want me to act like you didn't break my trust?

no, i'm not going to pretend like nothing happened. i'm not going to be the bigger person this time. i've done that too many times and all it did was hurt me. you disrespected me. so don't expect my kindness. don't expect my softness. don't expect me to show up for you like i used to. i've learned my lesson. i've realized that not everyone deserves access to me.

[inkstainedforest]

i paid in blood to be here. i paid with a childhood littered with bigger monsters than you. i've been beaten into a silence more times than i've been embraced on this earth. you haven't seen what i've seen. my rock bottom went so deep, i'm pretty sure it was hell. i spent a decade climbing out of it. my hands blistered. my feet swelled. my mind said, "i can't take it anymore." i told my mind you better get yourself together. we came here for joy and we are going to feel all of it. i've been hunted, killed, and walked back to earth. i snapped the neck off every beast that thought it could and you want to take my seat. the one i built with the story of my life, you won't fit. i have played, and slept, and danced with bigger devils.