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Sent an email to my GSI with questions he could have answered by email, but he said he wouldn’t mind answering them during his office hours. Why do I feel nervous. It’s nothing close to a date and yet I feel so !!!

He has a very calm manner. I like the slope of his forehead and his voice sort of carries that calmness as well. The attention he pays to people that speak in class and the way he nods his head as if digesting, considering carefully. Half hoping I’m not the only one at his office tomorrow lol so that the attention and the gaze isn’t squarely focused on me yikes.

Of course, this is also one of those situations where I start crushing on people there is never a chance of my pursuing in all seriousness. Would be cool to become friends after the semester or something. Or to make a contact I can turn to for advice about he department, higher education, and such.

Why does the Korean goalkeeper look like a hot lesbian and other useless things I’ve been thinking about

A nightmare (?) about being left on read

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Stills from Cha’s Permutations,1976,16 mins

“For this time, however, The pure, magical states (before any “making” even begins,) the artist, given the gift of Medium, partaking in transformation processes captures eternal wonder. I cannot help but to express the overwhelming sensation that almost resembles a returning, an abandon, a salvation from the struggle of being human, to only the purest of pure”

Paths, MFA Thesis, Theresa Hak Kyung Cha, May,1978. Berkeley Art Museum/Pacific Film Archive

To abandon ship? Or sink for loyalty’s sake?

@my will to live

...where are you....

get ready for heartache/break

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Opps by Vince Staples & Yugen Blakrok from Black Panther: The Album

#this goes hard

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Godard quoting Wittgenstein in Two or three things I know about her/ Deux ou trois choses que je sais d’elle (1967) (via nostalghia)

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Steven Yeun ©Ssam Kim // Glass Men

Oh boy. Oh no.

Am I setting myself up for disappointment/hurt?

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Deconstruction is not a skepticism or a nihilism. It is a form of critical intimacy–a kind of love rather than an act of destruction–for an enemy inside already. In deconstruction, the line between friend and enemy shifts.

Pheng Cheah lecturing to the undergrads on Derrida today and I can’t agree with/love this enough. (via rhizombie)

At some point in an English class in college or grad school, a professor said something like “Analyzing it to death? No, we’re analyzing it to life” and I think about that approximately every day

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wow i love this

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#he was teaching one of the courses i was trying to crash ;___;