She refrained from insisting he get some rest. He seemed to retain his stubbornness, after all, so nothing she could say would be able to deter him from staying up, no matter how tired he looked. Instead, she pursed her lips and shook her head, shrugging. It was his decision, after all.
Pulling her legs closer to her, wrapping her arms around them, she gazed down at the snow that began to gently sway about her feet. âWe went ice skating,â she began, eyes seemingly becoming distant as she strayed into her memories. âYou and I, weâd done it a million times before. Mama even told us to be careful like sheâd always done. But it wasnât like all the times. The ice was thinner than it ever was. It started to crack under meâand I was so scared.â
Emma let out a small, pathetic bark of a laugh. âSo scared that I couldnât move. But somehow you were able to keep calm andâand you said we were gonna have a little fun instead. You did what you always did, putting a smile on my face, keeping me distracted from things that were hurt or scare me, and focus on the fun. I still donât know how you did it, but you did.
âYou told me to believe in you, Jack. So I did. I really did, and I always have. We played hopscotch, sort of, and you used that old shepherdâs staff we found to pull me onto thicker iceâŚbut in doing so, you got yourself onto where I stood.
ââAnd you fell in.â
Those few moments were forever embedded into her psyche, into her heart and would never fade, even if dulled over the years. Now, though, along with the physique of a child she once used to be, the mentality came with it, her memories as clear as they ever were now.
âIt tookâŚa long time, but I managed to live again, not exactly the same as when you were alive, but I was close.â She smiled. âThere was no way you wouldâve wanted to let me wallow in depression.â She glanced over at her brother, wondering if she was boring him yet. But considering he hadnât said anything about being such, it meant he wasnât, right?
âI grew up, got married to a man named Nathanial.â She didnât ask if he remembered the little boy that used to play with them; she already knew the answer. âThree children, you know. Named our first boy after you.â
It was the first time she had spoken of her children, thinking about them really, since she had become a spirit. Were they all right after her death? Did they have children of their own?
âBut as to how I diedâŚâ She paused tilting her head as she tried to remember what the town doctor had told her. âI hadâŚoh, pneumonia. Iâm still not sure why or how, but it happened. I think I was around my late twenties or early thirties by then. So how I ended up looking like this,â she gestured to herself now, âI have no idea.â
Icy blue irises trailed down to the staff in his hands. It looked a bit different, but she was sure it was the same staff that he used to help save her. âYou already saved me once,â she murmured, âOf courseâŚyou wouldnât be able to save me again.â Not that there wouldâve been anything he could have done regardless. There may be medicines nowadays to treat cases such a pneumonia, but back in colonial timesâŚit was a death sentence waiting to happen.