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Big Sad again ☔ Arknights ID: Aixi#2036

[introvertfox]

[furryprovocateur]

mature content warnings on text posts of nothing but letters on a screen. . . remember when you were allowed to post like an adult and not be shamed or silenced for it

[furryprovocateur]

there is no acceptable explanation for this post being given a mature content warning outside of saying that you are an adult baby on the cyber nanny website!

[punkrock-bottom]

They hate me for being a horny pervert but I have warriors defending my honour across the globe

[introvertfox]

When in doubt, BOC skin Kal'tsit as assistant before pulling. Kal brings all EOs back to base

[introvertfox]

Found out recently that I used to be hit by a nanny when I was a kid pre-kindergarten, and little me reported to parents very animatedly and articulate ("■■■ pukul pukul pukul!"). I don't remember any of it, same as I don't remember being a talkative toddler, but my memories don't exist to me before my first cat so. imma choose to believe my mother on that having happened

Apparently I was also a snitch inadvertently, bc I couldn't stand strangers n would freak out around people I wasn't familiar with (namely non-family); I was calm around this guy (delivery person or some neighbour), and that's how mom figured out the nanny (idk if the same one who hit me or a different person) was dating him— When mom was recounting, I thought the no-dating rule for nanny was ridiculous as grounds for firing her (and other nannies we've had since), but in hindsight it's likely/definitely out of concern for my safety, given the cases/news of babysitters letting their partners abuse the kids under their care... The fact I was familiar enough with him meant the nanny had either brought me along with her to see him OR let him into the house when parents weren't home. Both possibilities bad

[introvertfox]

... Cat missing. Last seen when me and mother left to visit relative. Nearly a week ago. Father and sibling were home. I filled Abu's food bowl before we left around noon. Sib refilled it later that day. Food bowl untouched for days since... When we got back, not even half an hour after being told, mother's already bringing up taking in cats from aunt...

I suggested maybe waiting a month. Suggested getting tracker chips for the new cats, if we do end up taking them in. Sib against new cats, citing the cleanup work (cat pee, poo, vomit; bc new environment, marking territory, nervous/fear reaction). Sib also sat by me for the next couple hours, talking, joking, distracting me from being entirely numb. Maybe unintentional. Likely deliberate.

That was yesterday. No one's home now. No fur or purring to lay next to as I cry over loss this time. The third time

[introvertfox]

Any time I sleep over at a place that's not my own room, I get reminded of stories of people waking in a tub with their organs stolen or worse. Those stories were from language comprehension practice texts iirc... Based on true stories. So add that to the list of belated realisations about myself

[introvertfox]

Idc what the event is actually about this be fav medic event:

PERFUMER!!! 💚💛🧡

And whoever this is hi... Hello. I have way more guards than I ever use but uhhhh

[introvertfox]

Sometimes I think I'm being too closed off with family but they would have me burning at the stake if they knew so better be quiet and wait till I can leave without depending on them financially

[nooralanqar3]

Luxuries, the latest mobile devices, and all kinds of fruits and vegetables…

This is what the occupation allows to enter, to show the world carefully staged scenes, scenes aimed at polishing an image and distorting reality, convincing people that life in Gaza has returned to normal.

But the truth hidden behind all these images:

Building materials are banned.

Reconstruction tools are banned.

And everything we need to stand on our feet again… is forbidden.

What is the use of all these goods if we live in a tent torn by the wind?

What is the use of food, phones, and markets if my family has no warm shelter to protect them from the night’s cold?

What do luxuries mean if the basicsthe house, the roof, safety do not exist?

[nooralanqar3]

The war will end when I find a home that shelters me and my children, where I can feel warmth, and when I no longer have to move from one tent to another.

The remaining houses in Gaza are few, and their rental prices are very high

My hope of living in a home can only be realized through your donations and support, my friends.

[caffeinatedopossum]

"I'm still kicking" is such a funny way to say "I'm still alive". Like lol. I'm still thrashing. Flailing. Writhing even. The violence remains.

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

“Years ago a friend of mine had a dream about a strange invention; a staircase you could descend deep underground, in which you heard recordings of all the things anyone had ever said about you, both good and bad. The catch was, you had to pass through all the worst things people had said before you could get to the highest compliments at the very bottom. There is no way I would ever make it more than two and a half steps down such a staircase, but I understand its terrible logic: if we want the rewards of being loved we have to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known.”

— I Know What You Think of Me, Tim Kreider for the New York Times

[owlmylove]

after YEARS of seeing this quote online and finding it to be the most deeply and resoundingly profound writing i finally found the source article and absolutely nothing could prepare me for this opening paragraph

[bi-icon]

Okay but the whole article is really interesting and also contains this quote which I’ve never heard before but really like:

“Anyone worth knowing is inevitably also going to be exasperating”

[dogpuppy]

[psych-is-the-name]

Oh man I love this artist! Here's what that sculpture looked like before the feathers were added:

If you've seen any pictures of "real living dinosaurs" online in the last 5 years, there's like a 90% chance it was actually one of Archesuchus's works:

[sugar-grigri]

Another controversial take I would have is to say that Chainsaw Man is not a single being like Asa and Yoru. Pochita and Denji, Asa and Yoru must be understood as two beings who share a physical body and organs such as the heart and brain, but are indeed two individuals. All of this leads to a more metaphysical and philosophical question of individuality: even with the same body, the same memories, and shared emotions, humans and demons cannot be confused.

Above all, a devil will always bring a sense of danger around them : being CSM condemned Denji to be constantly approached, coveted, hunted. Becoming the demon of war condemned Asa to be the silent witness to mass killings.

If Pochita wanted a hug as a dream, it wasn't to be endearing, but because it's the most unattainable thing for demons who are always driven by the idea of destruction. Pochita only intervenes physically when it comes to revenge, Yoru takes over Asa's body, who is too frightened to regain control.

What does this mean? Why this distinction? It means that your demons, your dangerous, traumatic shadow side, do not define you. It invades you like Yoru or leads you to overcome it by opening yourself up to others like Pochita.

[bodhrancomedy]

Look, it’s a weird hill to die on, especially when I don’t really explain, but children deserve to experience fear, disgust, and discomfort in safe scenarios where they can process those sensations.

Media for children used to be scary and that’s important.

[feefal]

Copper evolution line! Your daily blend of educational and fictional art content

[feefal]

[cristalplanetheart]

[katieaki]

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