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hi can i req an enemies to lovers type of situation with mature era (professor au) and like the reader is also a worker there and they CANTTTT stand each other but all the students love them and ship them tgt #Tension ORRRR they're both in the industry and people keep comparing them to each other which causes them to get off on the wrong foot but they eventually come to realize they're more similar than they think (like maybe he sudd watches an interview of her n he's like wait.....) (any era) teehee
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pairing: matureeraprof!michael jackson x professor!female reader
synopsis: a traditionalist professor loses his legendary restraint to the one colleague who has challenged his curriculum for two years—proving that the most vicious academic warfare makes for the most devastatingly uninhibited surrender.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, age gap (reader is 30 / michael is 42), enemies to lovers (?), colleagues who hate each other, heavy tension, oral sex (f and m receiving), p in v sex, riding, missionary, finger sucking, kissing, fluff, mentions of insecurity, inaccurate (?) literature debates
word count: 12.6k (phew...)
an: thank you sm for this request anon! i've actually been thinking of a professor!mj smut and this was a perfect opportunity. this is too long but i wanted to establish their dynamic!
The department budget meetings were universally acknowledged as a form of torture–two hours of huge numbers and discussions on the allocations and procurements. But when it came to you and Michael, the rest of the faculty treated the meetings as their very own source of entertainment.
“I am simply suggesting,” Michael said, controlling his expressions beneath his silver reading glasses. “that allocating thirty percent of our elective funding to contemporary fiction is a disservice to our students’ analytical and holistic development.”
You kept your eyes fixed on the columnar pad, aggressively drawing a thick red line through the notes. “And I am simply suggesting, Professor Jackson, that if you actually listened to anyone under the age of forty, you’d realize that cultural relevance drives passion and eagerness to learn. But I suppose it’s easier to sit in your chair with a silver spoon up your mouth reading nineteenth-century prose while the rest of us actually try to keep students interested.”
Across the long mahogany table, the Dean of Arts let out a heavy sigh–rubbing the bridge of his nose, while two assistant lecturers exchanged a thrilled look.
Michael leaned back on his leather chair. He didn’t snap. He never did. Instead, his lips turned up into that irritating, polite smile that made her want to hurl her coffee mug across the room. “Your…enthusiasm is admirable.”
“Meeting adjourned,” the Dean announced quickly, practically not giving you space to react to Michael’s remark.
The room cleared out in a matter of seconds, the other professors murmuring to each other as they hurried down the hallway. You stayed behind, taking your time to stack your manila folders.
“You do that on purpose,” you muttered into the soft hum of the air conditioning unit.
Michael didn’t look up from his leather briefcase, his long, slender fingers neatly organizing his grading sheets. “Do what?”
“Condescend. You talk to me like I’m a graduate TA who accidentally entered the wrong room.”
Michael paused. He closed his briefcase with a loud snap, then slowly stood up, pulling the lapels of his navy blue blazer. He walked down the table, stopping just a few feet away, his gaze unreadable as he looked down at you.
Without the audience of the faculty, the polite mask dropped, revealing the competitive streak he kept under wraps.
“I don’t condescend,” he said softly, his voice dropping to that velvety register that always made your chest tighten. “I challenge you. Because frankly? You’re the only person in this entire department who refuses to compromise, and it’s exhausting.”
“Then stop pushing my buttons.”
“Stop giving me buttons to push,” he countered, a dangerous glint in his dark eyes.
You rolled your eyes, grabbing your bag and turning on your brown penny loafers. “Try not to sabotage my curriculum while I’m gone.”
The problem with hating Michael Jackson was that the entire student body was actively working against you.
By mid-semester, the university’s anonymous online student forum practically turned the two of you into a spectator sport. It started with an anonymous student posting about the two of you arguing in the cafeteria about the definition of post-modernism. Then came the students posting real time updates on the two of you.
You found out about the reality of the situation on a rainy Thursday evening when a sophomore named Nicole walked into your office for an essay feedback.
“So, for the thesis statement, I wanted to focus on the underlying yearning between the main characters,” Nicole explained, pointing to her draft, before giving a suspicious grin. “You know…that simmering energy where two people claim they vex each other but everyone else is waiting for them to let everything go?”
You blinked. “Nicole, this is an essay on Wuthering Heights,” you paused–a headache forming behind your eyes.
“Right, obviously,” Nicole giggled. “Oh, the whole block is talking about the panel next week. We’ve already made a betting pool on who cracks first during the Q&A,” she changes the subject.
“A betting pool?” you repeated, dread pooling in your stomach.
“Totally. It’s the most active board on the university server right now,” Nicole leaned in, her face bright with excitement. “The consensus is that you two argue way too intensely for it to just be about books.”
You spent the rest of the night staring at your computer screen, your cheeks burning with a mix of mortification and a weird, heavy flutter in your chest that you absolutely refused to acknowledge.
The night of the Faculty Panel, the auditorium was completely packed. Undergraduates were sitting on the steps, the energy in the room buzzing like a wrestling match rather than a literary debate.
You sat at the long table on the stage–dressed in a striped button up shirt, black tie, khaki-colored pencil skirt, and your usual brown penny loafers. A microphone was in front of you as you looked out at the crowd–frowning as you see students from the Science department.
What in the world? You thought.
Two seats down sat Michael. He looked frustratingly perfect— structured caramel brown blazer, his hair framing his face beautifully. He hadn’t looked at you once since you walked on stage.
For the first forty five minutes, the debate was civil. But as the moderator opened up to student questions, the atmosphere shifted.
“The question is for Professor Jackson and Miss –,” a junior from the back row announced, holding the microphone. “In regards to your conflicting views on emotional vulnerability in literature…Professor Jackson, you argue for total restraint and the traditionalist views, while Miss – advocated for raw honesty and welcoming the contemporary perspective. Don’t you think true passion requires breaking those boundaries and finding a balance?”
A collective ‘ooooh’ echoed through the auditorium. The other professors exchanged knowing glances, already adjusting in their seats.
Michael leaned into his microphone. "Restraint is not the absence of passion," he murmured, his voice echoing smoothly through the speakers. "Traditional structure exists to give passion a vessel. When you abandon all boundaries in favor of immediate expression, you don't get depth, you get chaos. True literary endurance relies on the agony of what is not said. The tension of holding back is where the real power lives."
He turned his head slowly, his dark eyes locking onto yours across the table. For the first time all semester, he wasn't looking at you with annoyance. The gaze was heavy and dripping with a sudden gravity.
Your breath caught. You pulled your microphone closer, your pulse suddenly racing against your ribs.
"Holding back isn't always the best literary choice, Professor," you countered, your voice steady despite the rapid drumming against your ribs. "Sometimes it's just an excuse to stay safe. You call it traditionalist restraint, but it looks a lot like fear. Fear that if you actually welcome the contemporary perspective, if you let your guard down and allow yourself to be raw, the passion will be too heavy for you to control. True balance means having the courage to let the boundaries break."
The auditorium went dead silent. The faint hum of the building's old ventilation system was the only sound left in the room. The students sat completely frozen, watching the two of you stare each other down, the unspoken, two-year-old friction between you finally laid bare under the stage lights.
Michael didn't blink. A small, subtle muscle twitched in his jaw, his eyes darkening behind his lenses as he took in your defiance, his mind clearly running a mile a minute behind that perfectly composed expression.
"Well," the moderator choked out, hurriedly shuffling her note cards to break the suffocating tension. "Thank you both. Let's...let's move on to the next question from the floor."
An hour later, you were back in the faculty lounge–waiting for the light drizzle of rain outside the glass panes of the building to pass.
The heavy door swung open, and the scent of rain, bergamot, musk, and sandalwood flooded the room.
You didn’t turn around. “If you came in here to tell me my argument was unprofessional, Michael, save your breath. The student asked a question, and I–”
“I don’t care about the argument,” Michael interrupted.
His voice wasn't soft anymore–devoid of the restraint he always prided himself on. It was low, rough, and standing right behind you.
You spun around, your back pressing against the low locker cabinets. Michael had thrown his blazer onto a chair. His glasses were gone, his eyes completely unshielded as he stepped into your space, shutting the distance between you until you could feel the heat radiating off his chest.
"Two years," Michael breathed, his long fingers reaching out, resting flat on the counter on either side of your hips, effectively trapping you. He leaned down, his face inches from yours, his breath hot against your lips. "Two years of you fighting me on every syllabus, every grade, every single sentence I speak."
"Professor," you whispered, though you didn't move an inch to escape. Your heart was hammering a frantic, deafening rhythm against your ribs.
"They have a betting pool," Michael murmured, a slow, wicked smile tugging at the corner of his lips, though his eyes remained intensely dark. "They think I hate you."
"Don't you?"
Michael leaned in a fraction closer, his nose brushing against yours, the agonizing slowburn of the entire semester collapsing into a single, breathless point of gravity. "I've spent two years trying to convince myself I did," he whispered against your lips before stepping back, handing you a small black umbrella–he knew you didn’t bring one.
Your eyelids flutter.
“W–What?” you meekly squeak out.
But Michael did not react or reply to you. He simply grabbed his blazer, turned on his heels and left the room–leaving you in a flustered mess of confusion and a warmth spreading up your neck.
The next week, the building felt entirely too small.
You had spent nights tossing and turning, the phantom scent of his perfume practically embedded in your nostrils, your mind looping over his whispered confession like a broken record. By the time you arrived on campus, you were running entirely on pure adrenaline, and a desperate, clawing need to reset the boundary line between you. You needed the friction back. You needed him to be the infuriating, traditionalist Professor Jackson again, because whatever happened in the lounge last night was something you aren’t ready to face.
Stepping into the cramped copier room to prep your Monday handouts, you slammed the paper tray open with a little too much force.
"The machine didn't do anything to offend you," a low, smooth voice murmured from the doorway.
Your heart violently leaped into your throat. You spun around, your back hitting the edge of the industrial copier.
Michael stood in the threshold, looking entirely too collected for a man who had completely disoriented your sanity just two days prior. He was wearing a stark, crisp white button-down, the top two buttons undone, his silver-rimmed reading glasses were back on, perched firmly on his nose as he flipped through a grading rubric.
"I am fine, Professor," you said, your voice coming out sharper and faster than you intended. "I am just trying to fix this tray. Which wouldn't be broken if certain faculty members didn't abuse the machine for their ninety-page reading packets."
Michael raised an eyebrow, slowly stepping into the room. The space was tiny, barely enough for two people to pass each other–and as he closed the distance, the warmth radiating off him instantly made the air feel thick and suffocating.
"Is that a critique of my curriculum, or are you just looking for a reason to argue?" he asked softly, a tiny, infuriating hint of amusement tugging at the corner of his lips. He stopped just a foot away, reaching past your shoulder to grab a stack of collated sheets from the output tray.
Your breath hitched. Your eyes locked onto his long fingers, then involuntarily drifted up the smooth skin of his forearm where his sleeves were rolled up. The memory of those exact fingers resting flat against the counter on either side of your hips last Friday flashed so vividly in your mind that you squeezed your eyes for a moment to collect yourself.
"I don't need a reason to argue with you," you muttered, desperately trying to keep your voice steady as you fumbled with a ream of paper. "You provide plenty of material on your own."
"Do I?" Michael murmured. He didn't step back. In fact, he shifted just an inch closer, his shoulder nearly brushing yours. He lowered his head slightly, looking at you over the rims of his glasses, his dark eyes intensely focused on your face. "You seem rattled today. Did you not sleep well?"
"I slept perfectly," you lied, your voice dropping an octave as you tried to glare at him, trying to summon every ounce of the academic rivalry that had kept you safe for two years. "I was just...thinking about how flawed your argument was. It's completely outdated."
Michael let out that soft, breathy chuckle, but it felt different today–heavier, slower. He took a single, deliberate step, his chest practically crowding you against the plastic frame of the copier. He reached out, his hand resting on the machine right next to your hand, his knuckles brushing against your pinky finger. The sliver of contact was dizzying.
"Outdated," he repeated, his voice dropping into that quiet, velvety register that made your knees feel violently weak. He leaned down a fraction, his gaze dropping to your lips for a split second before rising back to your eyes. "If it’s so outdated, why are you trembling?"
"It's the coffee," you squeaked out, your carefully constructed facade completely crumbling under the gravity of his proximity. You pressed yourself harder against the machine, your face burning, your breath coming in shallow, uneven intervals. "I really should switch to decaf you know–"
His lips twisted into a slow, devastatingly handsome smile that told you he knew what he was doing to you. He tapped his long fingers against the paper stack, finally straightening up and stepping back, breaking the spell just enough for the cool air of the room to rush back between you. "Have a good lecture. Try not to let my outdated perspective distract you too much."
He turned on his heel and slipped out of the room, leaving you gripping the edge of the copier tray, your chest heaving in the quiet room as you tried to remember how to breathe.
The relentless, rhythmic thump-thump of the department’s old radiator felt like a physical stab driving directly into your temple.
It was now mid-November, the sky outside the high faculty lounge windows a miserable gray. You sat hunched over your desk, one hand pressed firmly against your forehead, your eyes squeezed shut against the harsh glare of the fluorescent lights. Before you sat a towering mountain of midterm essays—unopened, unread, and due by tomorrow morning.
Your stomach let out a low, hollow growl, reminding you that your last meal had been a stale granola bar at six o'clock this morning. But the mere thought of navigating the noisy campus cafeteria made the nausea behind your eyes flare up with violent intensity. You couldn't move. You just stayed there, paralyzed in your swivel chair, letting the quiet misery of the migraine wash over you.
The heavy oak door swung open with a soft, familiar creak.
You didn't look up. You didn't have the strength to put up your usual defensive walls, even though the faint, unmistakable scent of sandalwood immediately told your brain exactly who had walked in. You just tightened your grip on your forehead, waiting for the inevitable sharp jab about your disorganized desk or your sluggish grading pace.
Instead, the soft patter of his loafers stopped a respectful distance away. The room went completely silent for a long moment.
"You look dead," Michael said softly.
His voice wasn't laced with the usual competitive edge, nor was it the breathy, dangerous whisper from the copier room. It was quiet. Carefully measured. Almost clinical in its gentleness.
"Gee, way to compliment a woman," you muttered into the palm of your hand, your voice sounding thick and strained even to your own ears. "Just...reviewing the contemporary prose you despise so much."
A subtle rustle of fabric followed. When you tentatively opened one eye, tilting your head up just a fraction, you saw that Michael had already set his leather briefcase down. He had taken off his glasses, folding them neatly into his breast pocket. He was looking down at you, his dark eyes narrowed in a focused, evaluating squint.
"You haven't touched your tea," he noted, gesturing to the entirely cold, untouched mug sitting at the edge of your desk. "Is it a migraine?"
"I'm fine," you whispered, the pitch of your own voice making your temple throb.
Michael didn't argue. He didn't offer an annoying counter-point. Instead, he smoothly turned on his heel and walked across the lounge. You closed your eyes again, expecting him to sit at his own desk and leave you to your self-inflicted misery.
A sharp click echoed through the room.
Suddenly, the harsh, aggressive buzz of the fluorescent lights vanished, plunging the faculty lounge into a soft, dim glow, illuminated only by the gray afternoon light filtering through the rain-streaked windows. The instant relief was so great you let out a long, involuntary sigh, your shoulders dropping an inch.
Before you could process the gesture, the soft sound of his footsteps returned.
"Lean back," Michael commanded quietly.
You opened your eyes. He was standing right beside your swivel chair. In his hand, he held a pristine, folded white handkerchief that smelled faintly of lavender.
"Michael, I have sixty essays to–"
"They can wait an hour," he interrupted, his voice dropping into a firm tone that brooked absolutely no argument. "And your students would prefer a coherent grade over one crammed as you sit here like a zombie. Now, please. Lean back."
Too exhausted to fight him, you let your head fall against the high back of the swivel chair, staring up at him through a blurred, painful haze.
Michael moved with an incredible, deliberate slowness. He leaned down, his large, beautiful hands reached out, and for a terrifying second, you thought he was going to touch your face—your heart did a frantic, ridiculous leap despite the pain.
"Close your eyes," he murmured.
You complied, shutting your eyes in the dim room. A moment later, the cool, damp weight of the handkerchief was gently laid across your forehead and eyes. The soothing, icy scent of peppermint and lavender immediately cut through the stale air of the lounge, numbing the sharp ache in your temples.
Then came the rustle of a brown paper bag being placed on your desk, right next to your keyboard.
"I bought a chicken salad sandwich from the cafeteria earlier," Michael’s voice drifted down, sounding closer than before. "I haven't touched it. You need to eat something."
You lay there under the cloth, a completely different kind of flush spreading up your neck. The hostility that had defined the last two years felt incredibly distant, melting away into the quiet, dim room.
"Thank you, Michael," you whispered meekly from beneath the handkerchief.
There was a long, heavy pause. For a second, you wondered if he had already stood up to leave. But then, you felt the incredibly light, ghost-like brush of his long fingers against the side of your hair, tucked carefully behind your ear, ensuring the fabric wouldn't slip.
"You're very welcome," Michael murmured, his voice incredibly soft, devoid of any restraint or games. "Eat the sandwich. I'll take the top twenty essays from your pile to my desk."
"Michael, no, with your bias, you'll fail them–”
A soft, breathy, genuine chuckle echoed beside your ear, warming the chilled air of the lounge. "I will be very fair. Now be quiet and rest."
The morning sun was surprisingly bright the next day as you walked down the corridor with a distinct, uncharacteristic spring in your step, your head completely clear of the violent throbbing that had ruined you the day before. In your hands, you carefully balanced a cardboard drink carrier holding a hot cup of decaf coffee and a small, grease-stained paper bag from the bakery down the street.
Your heart was doing acrobatics against your ribs—not from the usual defensive irritation, but from a genuine nervousness. You had spent the entire morning convincing yourself that this was a strictly professional transaction. A simple, polite way to thank him. He took twenty of your essays, you brought him breakfast. Restoring the balance.
Stopping outside the heavy door of the faculty lounge, you took a deep breath, adjusted your grip on the carrier, and pushed it open with your elbow.
The lounge was quiet, bathed in the soft morning light. Michael was already there, sitting at his large desk near the window. He looked entirely too elegant for a school morning, dressed in a crisp, blue button-down shirt with a subtle satin sheen, his reading glasses perched neatly on the bridge of his nose. Spread out across his desk were your students' contemporary essays, each one marked with his distinct handwriting in blue ink.
At the sound of the door, his dark eyes lifted from the pages, tracking you as you walked into the room.
"Good morning," Michael murmured, his voice quiet in the half empty lounge. He smoothly pulled his glasses down an inch, looking at you over the rims. "You look...significantly more alive today."
"The migraine is gone, thank you," you said, your voice coming out a little stiffer than you intended as you marched over to his desk. You carefully set the drink carrier down on an empty space on the wood of his desk, right next to his pens, before sliding the paper bag beside it. "This is for you. As a... professional courtesy. To balance the ledger."
Michael looked down at the offering, a subtle, intrigued lift to his eyebrows. He reached out, his long fingers wrapping around the hot paper cup, lifting it to read the handwritten marker on the lid.
"Decaf?" he noted, a soft, breathy hint of amusement coloring his voice.
"I remember you mentioned in the department meeting last month that regular caffeine disrupts your sleep schedule when you’re grading late," you muttered, suddenly looking anywhere but at his face, your cheeks warming slightly. "And there's a glazed donut in the bag. It's from the bakery near the train station."
Michael didn't answer right away. The silence stretched for a long, heavy moment, filled only by the distant sound of students chattering in the courtyard below.
Slowly, he leaned back in his leather chair, setting the coffee down. He pulled his reading glasses off completely, folding them and sliding them into his pocket, his dark eyes locked onto you with an intense, unshielded focus that made the safe facade feel impossible to maintain. The playful, wicked smirk from the copier room wasn't there. Instead, his expression was soft, a gentle, genuine warmth radiating from him that completely disarmed you.
"A donut," Michael repeated softly, his voice dropping into that low, velvety register. A beautiful, quiet smile broke across his face, tilting the corners of his lips in a way that made your breath catch. "That is thoughtful of you. Thank you."
"It's just a donut, Michael," you whispered meekly, your fingers instinctively gripping the edge of your clipboard like a shield. "Don't look too deeply into the subtext."
Michael let out a low, melodic chuckle, the sound rich and warm in the quiet lounge. He reached over, his long fingers gently tapping the stack of graded essays on his desk, sliding them toward you.
"The subtext is entirely clear," he murmured, his gaze rising to meet yours, dripping with the heat that had been building between you. He leaned forward just a fraction, his voice dropping an octave. "And for the record...your contemporary students aren't entirely devoid of merit. I only gave four of them a rewrite."
You let out a small, involuntary laugh, the last remnants of your defensive walls completely melting away in the morning light. "Quite the compliment from the traditionalist."
"I am capable of finding a balance," Michael whispered, his eyes holding yours with a heavy, deliberate certainty that told you he wasn't talking about the essays anymore. "When the perspective is right."
You took a step back, clutching the stack of graded essays to your chest like a shield, though the warmth radiating from the pages—or perhaps just from his proximity—was doing nothing to cool the flush on your cheeks.
"I have a 10:00 AM class," you stammered, clearing your throat in a desperate bid to reclaim a shred of your usual professional authority. "I should...I need to hand these back."
Michael’s smile lingered, small and knowing, as he picked up the paper bag. "Of course. Don't let me keep you from your duties."
Two days later, the shift between the two of you had become an anomaly in the humanities and arts department. The storm had cleared, replaced by a strange, heavy tension that everyone seemed to notice.
You were standing by the faculty mailboxes, sorting through a pile of publisher catalogs, when Professor Anderson from the Philosophy department wandered over. He leaned against the counter, holding a reheated slice of pepperoni pizza, and gave you a highly analytical look.
"You and Jackson didn't yell at each other once during the curriculum meeting yesterday," he noted, narrowing his eyes. "In fact, when you suggested adding the contemporary feminist anthology, he simply nodded and agreed. Are the two of you feeling alright?"
"We are just practicing proper manners, Arthur," you said, keeping your eyes trained on a catalog.
"It’s unsettling," Anderson muttered. "The TAs are very intrigued. The online forum has gone quiet because there's no new material to post. They think the two of you have reached a stalemate."
You forced a polite smile, grabbed your mail, and hurried down the hall before he could dissect you any further. But as you passed the classroom Michael is currently lecturing in, you could hear the faint, muffled sound of his voice slipping through the heavy wood.
Your eyes trailed near the doorknob for a fraction of a second before you shook yourself out of it and walked away.
The true test came on Friday evening.
The department was hosting its annual end-of-semester mixer in the library room. By 8:00 PM, the room was buzzing with faculty and graduate students, everyone nursing glasses of cheap white wine. You were trapped near the window–dressed in a casual black knitted form fitting dress, politely listening to the Dean talk about university parking adjustments, when you felt a sudden, familiar shift in the air.
The scent of that specific perfume you’ve grown to dread cut through the musty room.
"Good evening, Dean. Miss —," Michael’s smooth voice interrupted.
You looked up. He was wearing a structured black blazer over a dark silk button-down, his hair softly framing his face, his reading glasses tucked neatly into his breast pocket. He held two glasses of wine, smoothly extending one toward you.
"Michael," the Dean beamed. "We were just discussing the budget for the parking expansion."
Michael hummed, though his dark eyes didn't look at the Dean at all. They were fixed entirely on you, tracking the way the soft lamplight caught the line of your throat. "But if you'll excuse us, sir, I actually need to consult Miss – on a matter regarding the upcoming Marxist seminar."
"Ah," the Dean chuckled, completely oblivious to the sudden, suffocating gravity that had just draped over you. "Carry on, then."
The moment the Dean wandered off, Michael stepped into the empty space he left behind, effectively cutting you off from the rest of the crowded room. The soft murmur of faculty chatter faded into background noise.
"You've been avoiding me," Michael said softly, taking a sip of his wine. His voice was incredibly low, meant for your ears alone.
"I haven't been avoiding you, Professor," you whispered, holding the wine glass tightly to keep your fingers from trembling. "I've just been busy."
"Is that so?" Michael leaned in a fraction closer, his chest nearly brushing your shoulder. He set his wine glass down on a nearby display case, his long fingers resting flat on the polished wood, just inches from your hip. "Busy avoiding the faculty lounge? The classrooms I am lecturing at?"
Your breath caught. You looked up, meeting his gaze. The playful, competitive look he usually wore was completely gone, replaced by a raw, heavy intensity that made the entire room feel like it was spinning.
"Michael," you breathed, your voice barely audible over the clinking of glasses around you. "The students...everyone is watching."
"Let’s get out of here," he whispered against your ear, his breath hot and tingly on your skin. He tilted his head slightly, his dark eyes locking onto your lips before rising back to yours with a quiet, unyielding certainty.
Before you could formulate a sharp remark, Michael’s long fingers gently but firmly wrapped around your wrist. The heat of his bare skin against your pulse point sent a violent jolt straight up your spine.
Without a word, he guided you away from the velvet drapes and the soft glow of the library, navigating the crowded edges of the library with an effortless, quiet authority. You followed him blindly, your fingers instinctively tightening around the stem of your wine glass to keep the liquid from sloshing over the edge.
He pushed through a heavy gray door at the end of the corridor, leading you into a secluded, concrete stairwell. The door clicked shut behind you, instantly cutting off the ambient chatter of the mixer. The air out here was cool, smelling faintly of old dust, damp rain from the ventilation shaft, and the sudden, overwhelming rush of his cologne.
Michael didn’t stop until he had guided you down the first small flight of stairs, tucked neatly beneath the shadow of the concrete landing, completely hidden from the view of the door’s small glass window.
You backed up until the cool, rough surface of the concrete wall pressed against your shoulder blades. Michael stepped directly into your space, shutting down the distance so completely that your chest brushed against the soft fabric of his blazer with every ragged breath you took. He didn't trap you with his hands this time–he simply stood there, his tall frame looming over you, his eyes dark and entirely unshielded in the dim, amber safety light of the stairwell.
"Michael," you breathed, your voice echoing softly against the concrete. You lifted the wine glass, holding it between your chests like a pathetic barrier. "What are you doing? If anyone comes out here–"
"No one is coming out here," Michael interrupted, his voice a low, rough murmur that was entirely devoid of his usual academic poise. He reached out, his fingers gently wrapping around the mouth of your wine glass. Slowly, he took it from your trembling grip and set it down on the concrete step behind him, never once breaking eye contact.
When he turned back to you, the sheer gravity of his focus made your knees feel weak.
You swallowed.
"Two years," you whispered. "Two years of you tearing apart my curriculum, judging my choices, fighting me on every single thing I brought to the table. If you didn't hate me...why were you always fighting me, Michael?"
Michael let out a soft, ragged breath, his chest heaving under his dark silk shirt. He stepped even closer, his thighs brushing against yours, the heat radiating off his body completely obliterating the chill of the stairwell.
"Because it was the only way I could handle being in the same room as you," he confessed softly, his voice dropping into a raw, velvety register that vibrated straight through you. He reached up, his large hand cradling the side of your neck, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw with a sudden, fierce tenderness. "Every time you argued with me, every time you showed us how intelligent you are, every time you looked at me with that stubborn defiance...all I wanted to do was pull you out of those meetings and do exactly what I’m about to do right now."
Your breath caught in your throat. "Michael–"
"I was terrified," he whispered against your lips, his dark eyes burning into yours. "Terrified of how much control you had over me without even trying. The restraint wasn't because I hated you. It was because I was trying to save myself from losing my mind."
"You've lost it now," you murmured, your hands finally reaching out, your fingers tangling into the soft velvet of his lapels, pulling him down.
"You’ll be correct," Michael breathed.
And then, the two years of that agonizing burn collapsed completely.
Michael leaned down and captured your lips in a kiss that was entirely unprofessorial—deep, bruising, and heavy with a frantic hunger that had been suppressed for far too long. A low, breathless sound escaped your throat as his hand slid down to your neck, his long fingers wrapping around you with a delicious pressure, pinning you firmly against the concrete wall.
The cool stone at your back contrasted sharply with the intoxicating, suffocating heat of his body. His tongue parted your lips with a smooth, demanding certainty, tasting faintly of the white wine and something so distinctly him.
Michael shifted closer, his knee sliding between your thighs, anchoring you to him as his kisses turned deeper, trailing a burning path from your lips down to the sensitive skin of your jawline, his damp hair brushing against your cheek. He let out a low, rough growl against your neck, his grip tightening slightly on your jaw, his thumb drawing circles on your skin, pulling you so flush against him that you could feel the frantic, erratic thumping of his heart beating in perfect synchronization with your own.
"Tell me to stop," Michael murmured against your skin, his voice thick and breathless, his fingers sliding on top of the strap of your dress. "Tell me to be the traditional schmuck you hate...tell me right now."
You pulled him back up by his lapels, your eyes half-lidded and dark with the same craving, looking directly into the face of the man who had been your rival and your most agonizing obsession.
"Don't you dare stop, Professor," you whispered.
Michael’s lips curved into a handsome, entirely undone smile before he crushed his mouth back against yours, completely shattering the last remaining boundaries between the two of you.
You pull your mouth back slightly, his wet lips seeking you out as you did.
“We shouldn’t do this here. We might get fired,” you breathed out, trying to gain back a semblance of dignity you’ve lost in this fire exit.
He ran his thumb on the dampness of your swollen lower lip. “I thought you were the modern one?” he smirks.
You roll your eyes before grabbing his arm. “Let’s just go, old man.”
Michael let out a soft, melodic chuckle, the sound vibrating deep in his chest as he watched you roll your eyes. Even in this moment—disheveled, breathless, and caught in the heat of a two year tension finally snapping he couldn't help but find you endearing.
"Old man?" he repeated, his voice still low and husky, though a glimmer of his usual playful charm had returned to his eyes. "Careful. You keep calling me that, and you might find out exactly how much energy this 'old man' still has."
As you began to lead him down the remaining flight of stairs of the fire exit, his hand slid down to catch yours, his long fingers interlacing with yours in a grip that was firm and certain.
As you stepped out of the dim light of the stairwell and toward the well lit university parking lot, you turned to look at him–making him slightly stumble from the sudden pause.
"Is your place around? My apartment is two train stations away," your eyes catch on the cool night air blowing his hair.
He hummed thoughtfully, a low sound in the back of his throat. "My place is much closer," he said, his voice regaining that smooth authority. "And much warmer."
The moment the heavy door to his house clicked shut behind you, Michael didn't even give you a chance to kick off your heels or take the foyer in—he had you backed against the wall, his body a sudden weight that demanded your entire attention.
The kiss wasn't like the one in the stairwell. This was deep, possessive, and hungry. It was the kiss of a man who was finally home, and you were the prize he had been chasing for two years.
His hands were everywhere at once—one palm flat against the wall beside your head, anchoring you, while the other slid into your hair, his fingers tangling in the strands to tilt your head back, exposing the line of your throat to his lips.
"Finally," he groaned against your mouth, the sound muffled and raw.
He broke the kiss just long enough to press his forehead against yours, both of you breathing as if you’d just run a marathon. His eyes were dark and burning with an intensity that made the air in the hallway feel thick and heavy.
"No more games," he whispered, his voice dropping to that low, commanding register that always made your heart skip. "No more pretending we want to tear each other apart."
“At least not in the way we were doing,” he added.
He trailed his lips down to the sensitive dip of your collarbone, his teeth grazing your skin just enough to make you gasp.
"You're mine tonight," he murmured, his breath hot against your skin. "Do you understand?."
He pulled back just an inch, his gaze searching yours to see if you were ready to let go of that last shred of professional dignity.
"Tell me you're ready," he challenged softly, a small, lopsided smirk playing on his lips. "Tell me you're done playing games."
You didn’t succumb yet. You let your eyes wander down his handsome face and into the pale expanse of his neck.
“The traditional Professor Jackson, crumbling in front of me,” you challenged him, a dark glint in your eyes. “Guess I won in the students’ betting pool huh, you were the first to crumble.”
Michael froze for a split second, his eyes widening in surprise before a genuine laugh erupted from his throat.
He shook his head, an uncharacteristic boyish grin breaking through his features.
“Oh really?” he leans in closer. “Then why does it feel like I am the one who won.”
At that, you were lost for words. You swallowed hard as you felt yourself being unraveled by him.
“But if you want to talk about winning,” he whispered, his voice dropping into that smooth, authoritative tone, “then I’ll show you just how happy I lost to you.”
Without giving you a chance to retort, he captured your lips again, but this time there was no hesitation. He swept you up into his arms, his strength effortless as he began to carry you toward his bedroom, his kisses never breaking, blindly navigating his house, leaving you breathless and completely at his mercy.
When he finally reached his bedroom, he lowered you onto the soft, silk sheets with a gentleness that contrasted sharply with the hunger in his eyes.
Before you could even catch your breath, he was over you, bracing himself on his forearms so he could look down at you. The moonlight filtered through the large windows, casting long, elegant shadows across his face, highlighting the sharp line of his jaw and the sheer intensity of his gaze.
“Beautiful,” he choked out as if he’s being tortured. He descended and planted a string of wet, languid kisses on your throat. His hands traveled down to slowly bunch up the hem of your dress, and efficiently peel it off you.
You were left in your unassuming pair of nude strapless bra and nude panties.
Suddenly, a wave of intense self-consciousness crashed through the haze of desire. The confident, argumentative facade you had worn for two years evaporated in an instant. Your arms instinctively moved up to cover your chest.
Michael felt the shift in your energy immediately. He was a man who lived by observation, he noticed the way your breath hitched, the way your eyes darted away, and most tellingly, the way your hands flew up to shield your chest, trying to hide yourself from his gaze.
He stopped his descent, his lips hovering just inches from your skin, and looked up.
"Hey," he murmured, his voice dropping into an incredibly gentle, quiet register that made your chest ache. He pulled away slightly to search your eyes, trying to meet your downcast gaze. "What is it? Did I...did I go too fast? I can stop."
"No, it's not...it's not that," you whispered, your face burning a mortified crimson in the dim light of his room. You tightened your arms around yourself, your voice cracking with a sudden, raw vulnerability. "It's just...I'm small, Michael."
Michael blinked, his brow furrowing behind a stray, damp curl that had fallen across his forehead. "I don't understand."
You swallowed hard, looking anywhere but at his face. "I've seen the types of women who usually try to get your attention at the university galas. The visiting lecturers...they're all so...voluptuous. I just assumed you liked your women big and full."
As the words left your mouth, you felt stupid as you heard yourself.
A heavy, profound silence fell over the both of you.
Michael hovered completely still, letting your words hang in the cool air. Then, a slow, incredibly tender expression softened his sharp features. He didn't make a witty jab, and he didn't use his sophisticated, professorial vocabulary to dissect your insecurity.
Instead, he simply reached out. His large, beautiful hands were warm and completely steady as they gently took hold of your wrists, gently but firmly coaxing your arms away from your chest and held them loosely, pinning them to the bed beside your head so you had no choice but to be seen.
"You think I care about the textbook definition of beauty?" Michael whispered, his voice incredibly low, vibrating with a fierce, quiet intensity.
He shifted, propping himself up on one elbow so he could truly take you in. His eyes traveled over you not with the clinical eye of a professor, but with the reverence of a man looking at a masterpiece. He lingered on the curve of your waist, the slope of your hips, and finally, the soft swell of your breasts.
"Look at me," he commanded softly.
You lifted your eyes to meet his. His dark eyes were burning, entirely unshielded, looking at you with a heavy, intoxicating hunger that made your breath hitch.
"I have spent two years looking at you across meeting tables, completely losing my train of thought because of the way you tilt your head when you're angry," Michael murmured, his thumb tracing your collarbone with a devastating, slow certainty. "I didn't fall for an abstract concept or a physical archetype. I fell for you. Every single inch of you is exactly what I've been starving for."
He leaned in, his nose brushing against yours, his breath hot and sweet against your lips. "You are more than enough. You are everything."
"You are perfection, the woman I’ve been craving for years," he whispered against your skin, his voice thick with conviction. "And if you ever try to hide from me again, I might just have to find a way to make sure you never want to cover up in my presence ever again."
Your face flushed red. “Y–You really are a literature professor.”
Michael bit his lower lip as he smiled. “I’m not just charming you with my words. When I speak, I mean them.”
The sound of your bra clasp clicking open was loud in the quiet of the room. Michael didn't rush. He was a man who understood the power of anticipation, and he knew that the most beautiful things in life were meant to be savored, not devoured. As the fabric fell away, he didn't immediately move to touch you. Instead, he stayed exactly where he was, hovering over you, his eyes drinking in the sight of you completely unburdened.
The moonlight seemed to cling to your skin, making you glow against the dark silk of his sheets. He looked at you with such profound, quiet intensity that it felt more intimate than the kiss had been. There was no judgment in his gaze, no comparison to some imaginary standard–only a deep, simmering hunger and a reverence that made your heart ache.
"God," he breathed, the word barely a whisper.
He reached out, his long, slender fingers tracing the softness of your waist before sliding upward. He was so careful, so incredibly gentle, as if he were afraid that a single heavy touch might shatter the moment. His fingertips grazed the underside of your breasts, a light, teasing pressure that sent a jolt of electricity straight to your core.
He watched your reaction closely, his eyes tracking the way your breath hitched and the way your skin pebbled under his touch. He saw the way your eyes fluttered shut, and a low, satisfied hum vibrated in his chest.
"See?" he murmured, his voice a velvet caress as he leaned down, his lips hovering just a fraction of an inch from your skin. "You don't need to hide. Not from me. Never from me."
He lowered his head, his mouth finally making contact. He didn't go for a deep, demanding kiss this time. Instead, he began to pepper light, feather soft kisses across your chest, his tongue tracing the swell of your breasts with agonizing slowness. He was worshiping you, treating every inch of your skin as if it were sacred ground.
As he moved, his hands wandered, one cupping you firmly while the other slid down to the waistband of your panties, his thumb hooking into the fabric. He looked up at you through his lashes, his dark eyes hooded and heavy with desire.
"You have no idea," he whispered, his voice thick and husky, "how many nights I spent imagining exactly how you would feel under my hands. How you would taste."
He leaned in, his lips brushing against your nipple, a soft, teasing graze that made you arch your back instinctively toward him.
"Now," he commanded softly, his gaze locking onto yours, "let me see my winner."
The sensation of his mouth warm, wet, and incredibly focused sent waves of heat crashing through you, making your head toss back against the pillows. Every time his tongue swirled around the peak of your breast, a fresh jolt of electricity raced down your spine, pooling heavily in your pelvis.
But as the cotton of your panties was peeled away, the cool air hit your damp skin, and the sudden vulnerability made you gasp.
Michael didn't look away. He didn't even pause his worship of your breasts. Instead, he shifted his weight, sliding down the bed with a predatory grace until he was positioned between your thighs. He looked up at you, his dark hair slightly mussed, his eyes dark and heavy with a hunger that was almost frightening in its intensity.
He saw the way you were glistening, the way your body was practically humming with the need he had awakened.
"Look at you," he murmured, his voice a low, gravelly vibration that seemed to resonate in your very bones. "So ready for me."
He reached out, his long, elegant fingers spreading your damp folds as his face hovered just above you. He watched your hips lift instinctively toward him, a silent, desperate plea for contact.
"You're so beautiful when you're like this," he whispered, his gaze dropping to where you were most aroused. "No more sarcasm. No more rolling your eyes. Just this."
He leaned forward, his breath hot and teasing against your desire, making you tremble uncontrollably. He was being deliberate, agonizingly slow, savoring the way your body reacted to the mere promise of his touch.
"Do you want me?" he asked, his voice dropping to a commanding, velvet rasp. He looked up, his eyes locking onto yours, demanding an answer, demanding your honesty. "Tell me. Tell me exactly what you want me to do to you."
He didn't move to satisfy you just yet. He waited, his thumb finally making a slow, torturous circle on your inner thigh, watching your eyes cloud with hunger, waiting for you to break and admit just how much power he truly had over you.
“Please, Michael. I want you,” you choked out.
The moment the words left your lips, a low, guttural sound escaped his throat a mix of a groan and a triumphant laugh. He loved the way your voice broke, the way the poised, intellectual woman he had debated for two years had finally dissolved into a woman who was simply, desperately, needing him.
But he didn't move to enter you. Not yet.
"Please?" he repeated, his voice a dark, velvet caress. He let the word hang in the air between you, thick with tension. "That's a start, baby. But you know me. I don't like vague answers."
He leaned down, his lips brushing against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, his breath hitching as he felt the heat radiating from you. He looked up at you through his lashes, his eyes hooded and predatory.
"Don't just tell me you want me," he whispered, his thumb applying a slow, rhythmic pressure that made your hips jerk upward. "Tell me how you want me. Do you want me to be gentle? Do you want me to take control?"
He leaned in closer, his tongue darting out to give a kitten lick directly on your swollen nub.
"Do you want to feel me everywhere?" He paused, his fingers teasing the very center of your arousal, watching your eyes blow wide with pleasure. "Be specific, baby. Tell me exactly how you want me to please you."
He was testing you, pushing you to strip away the last of your inhibitions. He wanted to hear the raw, unadulterated truth of your hunger, because he knew that once you gave it to him, he wouldn't stop until he had satisfied every single craving you possessed.
"Want your tongue on me. P–Please,” tears practically pricked your eyes in your arousal.
The sight of those tears–the sheer, unadulterated vulnerability in your eyes was the final thread to snap his legendary self control. To see the woman who had spent years standing toe to toe with him, challenging his intellect and defying his authority, reduced to this beautiful, trembling state of need...it was more intoxicating than any wine.
"Oh, baby..." he breathed, his voice cracking with a sudden, fierce tenderness.
He didn't just go for you–he made good on his promise.
His tongue, warm and incredibly skilled, made its first, sweeping contact. He didn't start with a light tease, he went straight to your clitoris, a firm, rhythmic stroke that was so sudden and so intense it forced a sharp, broken cry from your throat.
"Is that what you want?" he murmured against your skin, his voice a low, vibrating rumble that you felt as much as heard. He pulled back just enough to look up at you, his face flushed, his eyes dark with a primal hunger. "Is this what you've been dreaming about when you challenge me?"
He didn't wait for an answer. He knew.
He dove back in, his movements becoming more frantic, more demanding. He used his tongue with a devastating precision, swirling, flicking, and applying a pressure that was perfectly calibrated to drive you to the brink. He was relentless, his head moving in a steady, hypnotic rhythm that made the world outside the bedroom disappear.
He listened to you. He listened to the way your breath hitched, the way your voice rose in pitch, and the way you called his name like a prayer. Every time you arched your back or your fingers tangled desperately in his hair, he adjusted, pushing you harder, faster, deeper into the fray.
"That's it," he groaned against you, his voice muffled by your skin. "Give it to me. Let go. Just let go..."
He could feel the tension building in your thighs, the way your entire body was coiling like a spring, ready to snap. He sensed the exact moment the waves began to crash, and he didn't let up. He increased the pace, his tongue working with a fierce, focused intensity, determined to carry you all the way to the edge and hold you there until you were nothing but pure, unadulterated sensation.
Embarrassing wet sounds echoed in the room–syncopated with your sharp mewls.
The moment the wave crashed over you, the world seemed to tilt on its axis. Your entire body jolted, a silent, breathless gasp escaping your lips as the intense, rhythmic pressure of his tongue sent you spiraling into a blinding, white hot crescendo. Your thighs tightened instinctively, your muscles clenching around him in a desperate, involuntary rhythm as you rode the peak of the sensation.
Michael didn't pull away. He felt every tremor of your muscles against his face, and he leaned into it. He stayed right there, his tongue continuing its steady, grounding work even as you shook, helping you ride out the aftershocks, ensuring that the pleasure didn't just peak, but lingered, melting into your marrow.
When he finally felt your muscles begin to relax, he slowly pulled back, his breathing heavy and ragged. He didn't immediately move up the bed. Instead, he stayed there for a moment, looking up at you from between your knees.
His face was flushed, his dark hair a mess, and his eyes were filled with satisfaction.
Slowly, he crawled up the bed, his movements fluid and predatory once more, until he was hovering over you. He braced himself on his elbows, his chest heaving as he fought to catch his breath, his gaze searching yours.
"There she is," he whispered, his voice a low, gravelly caress. He reached up, his thumb gently brushing away one of the stray tears that had escaped your eyes, his touch incredibly tender. "There's my girl."
He leaned down, pressing a long, slow, lingering kiss to your forehead, then your eyelids, and finally your lips. It wasn't a kiss of hunger this time, but one of deep, soul stirring intimacy.
"You were incredible, baby," he murmured against your mouth, a small, satisfied smirk playing on his lips. "Absolutely incredible."
He shifted his weight, his body pressing firmly against yours, the heat between you still simmering. His eyes darkened again, the playful smirk fading into something much more serious, much more commanding.
In a sudden surge of confidence, you sit up and push him down on the bed. Kissing his earlobe as you move to shred his blazer off him, unbuttoning his shirt with a frantic desperation.
Michael let out a startled, breathless laugh as you flipped the script, the sudden strength in your movements catching him completely off guard. He fell back onto the silk sheets, his head lolling back as you descended upon him like a beautiful storm.
He was a man used to being the one in control, the one who set the pace and dictated the rhythm, but as your lips grazed his earlobe and your hands worked with a desperate, uncoordinated hunger, he found himself loving the loss of it. He watched you through hooded eyes, a look of pure, unadulterated fascination on his face.
When your tongue swirled against the pulse point of his throat, a sharp, involuntary gasp escaped him, his back arching slightly off the bed. His hands came up to rest on your hips, not to push you away, but to steady himself as your touch sent jolts of electricity through his entire frame.
As you fumbled with the buttons of his slacks, your fingers trembling with the same urgency he had felt moments ago, he reached down. He didn't let you struggle–he didn't want you to feel clumsy, even if he found the desperation incredibly endearing.
His long fingers covered yours, guiding them with practiced ease. He worked the fastening of his slacks with a smooth, decisive grace. He kicked them off, leaving him in just his boxers, though the tent you had noticed was impossible to ignore, straining against the fabric.
He reached up, his hands sliding into your hair, pulling your head back just enough so he could look you dead in the eyes. His gaze was dark, heavy with a hunger that was no longer just about pleasure, but about a deep, possessive need to claim you.
"Careful, baby,” he says.
You reached down to peel his boxers off. The moment the fabric gave way, Michael let out a long, shaky exhale, his head falling back against the pillows as he surrendered himself to your gaze.
As you stared at him, he could see the exact moment your breath hitched. He saw the way your pupils dilated, the way your gaze traced the length of him, lingering on the glistening beads of his arousal that caught the moonlight. He felt a surge of intense, masculine pride, but more than that, he felt a deep, primal connection to the way you were looking at him as if he were the only thing in the world that mattered.
When your tongue finally made contact, a single, sharp sound halfway between a gasp and a groan tore from his throat.
Your fingers reached up to gently pull his foreskin down, revealing the mauve of his swollen head. The sensation of your flat, warm tongue sliding from the very base of him all the way to the sensitive, swollen tip was almost too much to bear. It was a deliberate stroke that seemed to pull the very soul out of him. His hips bucked instinctively, a reflexive movement toward the heat of your mouth, and his hands flew to the sheets, his knuckles turning white as he gripped the fabric to keep from losing himself entirely.
"God, baby..." he choked out, his voice a wrecked, gravelly whisper.
He reached down, his fingers trembling as they found their way into your hair, not to pull you away, but to guide you, to urge you closer. He watched you through heavy, hooded lids, his eyes filled with a mixture of reverence and raw, unbridled lust. He watched the way your cheeks hollowed as you worked, the way your eyes never left his, challenging him even in the height of his pleasure.
"Don't stop," he commanded, his voice dropping to a low, authoritative rasp that vibrated through his entire body. "Don't you dare stop. Use that mouth. That mouth that drove me insane."
He arched his back, his muscles tensing, his entire being focused on the exquisite, sliding friction of your mouth. He was a man of immense self control, but as you continued that long, slow, devastating stroke, he knew he was teetering on the very edge of a precipice, and he was more than ready to fall.
Michael was lost. There was only the sensation of you–the heat of your mouth, the velvet pressure of your tongue, and the way you seemed to worship him with a ferocity that left him breathless.
When the climax finally hit him, it was violent and all consuming. He let out a low, guttural roar, his hips thrusting upward as he surrendered everything to you. He felt the rhythmic, powerful pulses of his release, the warmth of him filling your mouth, a primal exchange that felt more intimate than any words they had ever spoken.
As he slumped back against the pillows, his chest heaving, his eyes squeezed shut in a moment of pure bliss, he felt the teasing sensation of you pulling away.
He opened his eyes, his vision slightly blurred, to find you sitting back on your heels, looking up at him with a look of pure, unadulterated mischief. You were a vision of beautiful, delicious defiance.
He watched, mesmerized and completely undone, as you made a show of it. You held the weight of his release in your mouth, a silent, provocative display of your devotion, before slowly, deliberately, swallowing every last drop. When you finally opened your mouth, showing him the emptiness, a lopsided, stunned grin spread across his face.
"You...you are a menace," he rasped, his voice sounding like it had been dragged through gravel. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he cupped your jaw, his thumb tracing the curve of your lower lip. His eyes were dark, burning with a new kind of intensity.
He reaches out to squeeze your jaw firmly–not enough to hurt, but just enough to make your lips pucker and open slightly ajar.
Michael let out a soft, breathless chuckle at the sight of your lips, his fingers clutching on the soft curves of your cheeks. He was still reeling, his heart hammering a frantic rhythm against his ribs, but the sheer audacity of your spirit was the most intoxicating thing he had ever experienced.
As he leaned in to taste the remnants of himself on your lips, his movements were slow, deliberate, and incredibly sensual. He traced the line of your chin, the edge of your teeth, and finally your lips, his tongue sweeping over you as he tasted his essence. Feeling a primal sort of hunger as he tasted himself on your skin.
When he finally pulled back, he saw the way your eyes were clouded with a beautiful, hazy daze–the look of a woman who had been thoroughly, wonderfully undone.
Then you spoke. "Can I ride you, professor?"
Michael froze for a fraction of a second, his dark eyes widening slightly before they darkened into something much more intense, much more predatory.
He didn't answer with words immediately. Instead, he reached down, his hands sliding firmly under your thighs, and with a single, powerful movement, he lifted you and swung your legs over his hips. He settled you directly on top of him, the friction of your heat meeting his arousal making him hiss through his teeth.
He gripped your waist, his fingers digging in just enough to let you know he was holding on, his gaze locked onto yours with an unwavering, authoritative heat.
"You're so hungry for me," he murmured, his eyes searching yours, demanding you meet his intensity. "Want to ride the man you loathed, huh?"
He gave your hips a firm, guiding nudge, a silent command to begin, his eyes never leaving yours as he waited to see just how much more of your composure you were willing to lose.
You bit your lower lip as you sank down, your hands coming up to clutch his shoulders, The girth of his length stretching you deliciously–the pain becoming something you’re seeking.
Michael’s breath hitched, a sharp, jagged sound that caught in the back of his throat as he felt you begin to descend. He watched you with an intensity that was almost overwhelming, his eyes tracking every micro expression on your face, every flicker of sensation that crossed your features.
As you sank down, he felt the incredible, tight friction of you stretching to accommodate him. He could feel the way your internal muscles pulsed and gripped him, a sensation so intense it made his entire body tremble.
“Y–You’re too big,” you whimpered as you stilled.
"Shhh, easy, baby... easy," he murmured, his voice a low, soothing rumble, though his own eyes were burning with a fierce, hungry light.
He didn't let you struggle, he reached up, his large, warm hands sliding from your waist to the base of your skull, his fingers digging slightly into your skin to give you something to anchor yourself to. He watched your face, his gaze incredibly observant, reading the way your brow furrowed and the way your eyes squeezed shut.
"Look at me," he commanded softly, not because he wanted to distract you, but because he wanted to be the only thing you saw in the midst of that delicious pain. "Don't close your eyes. Stay with me."
As you struggled to take the full length of him, he leaned forward, pressing his chest against yours to provide a sense of stability. He began to move his hips in a tiny, microscopic upward tilt, a subtle, rhythmic nudge meant to help you find your rhythm, to help your body learn to accept him.
"You're doing so well," he whispered, his voice thick with pride and desire. "Just breathe. Slow, deep breaths for me, sweetheart. Let it happen. Let me in."
His thumb stroked the sensitive skin just below your ear. He was being patient, being the anchor you needed, but the way his hips were twitching, the way his breath was coming in short, heavy gasps, betrayed how much he was fighting to remain composed.
"You're so tight f’ me, so perfect," he groaned, his head falling back for a second as the sensation of you enveloping him reached a fever pitch. "Take it all. Take all of me. You were made for me."
He waited, his eyes locked onto yours, watching with a predator's patience.
The moment you finally bottomed out, sinking all the way down until there was no space left between your bodies, Michael let out a sound that was pure, unadulterated animalism. It was a low, guttural roar of triumph and sheer, overwhelming sensation.
You let out a loud, uninhibited groan, the sound of your pleasure electrifying the very air in the room. He felt the exact moment your clitoris made contact with the soft, warm thatch of hair at the base of his pelvis, the friction of the movement sending a jolt of lightning straight to his core.
"Yes," he gasped. His hands, which had been steadying you on your nape, slid down, his fingers digging into the flesh of your hips with a possessive, bruising intensity. He needed to hold you there–he needed to feel the weight of you, the heat of you, the way you were perfectly, impossibly molded to him.
"That's it, baby...just like that," he groaned, his voice a wrecked, velvet rasp.
He began to move. He took control of the tempo, his hips rising to meet yours in a slow, grinding rhythm. He wasn't just thrusting, he was rotating his pelvis, a calculated, torturous movement designed to ensure that every single time you moved, you were being rubbed against that sensitive spot.
He watched your face with a beautiful focus. He saw the way your head tossed back, the way your lips were parted in a constant, breathless gasp, and the way your eyes were rolled back in pure, unadulterated ecstasy.
"Look at you," he whispered, his voice trembling with the effort of his own restraint. "Look at how you take me. So beautiful...so greedy for it."
He leaned up, his mouth finding yours in a kiss that was frantic and hungry, tasting the salt of your skin and the sweetness of your moans. He was driving you toward the edge, his movements becoming more deliberate, more powerful, as he felt your internal muscles beginning to quiver and tighten around him once more.
"Don't hold back," he commanded, his hips hitting yours with a firm, rhythmic thud that echoed the pounding of your hearts.
You looked down at him, your mouth dropping open in short ragged gasps as your hips struggled to grind down at him.
Michael was in a trance, a state of pure, sensory overload where the only thing that existed was the friction of your body against his and the rhythmic, grinding heat of your hips. He was watching you with a gaze so intense it felt like he was trying to memorize the very soul of you, his breathing coming in heavy, jagged lunges that mirrored your own.
Your eyes travel on his face, taking in his damp eyebrows, his wide eyes, and his swollen, pink lips. You can’t help but reach down, your finger breaking the trance of his gaze to slide into his mouth, he didn't flinch. Instead, his eyes widened a fraction more, a flash of dark, delighted surprise crossing his features.
He let out a muffled, vibrating hum against your finger, the sound resonating deep in his chest. He didn't try to pull away, he leaned into the sensation, his lips parting wider to accommodate you. His tongue instinctively swirled around your fingertip, tasting the salt of your skin and the lingering heat of your touch. He provided a suction around your fingertips, the sound echoing a loud squelch.
He looked up at you through his lashes, his expression a heady mix of submission and command. He was letting you play with him, letting you assert this small, beautiful dominance, but the way his hands tightened on your hips told a different story.
"Is this how contemporary girls fuck?" he asks, the words vibrating against your skin as he pulls back just enough to speak, his voice a wrecked, velvet rasp. His lips were indeed swollen, a deep, bruised pink, and they looked incredibly inviting.
He suddenly gripped your wrist, his fingers firm but gentle, and slowly, deliberately, guided your finger out of his mouth. He didn't let go of your hand, instead, he licked up your palm, his eyes never leaving yours.
"You want to play, baby?" he whispered, a dangerous, beautiful glint returning to his eyes. "You want to see how much you can get away with?"
In one fluid, powerful motion, he gripped your waist and surged upward, maneuvering both of you so he is now on top of you–his hips meeting yours with a sudden, forceful thrust that sent a shockwave of sensation through both of you. He caught your mouth in a bruising, hungry kiss, his tongue demanding entry as he increased the tempo of his grinding.
"Fuck," he growled against your lips, his movements becoming more frantic, more primal. "You're mine. Every inch of you is mine."
You twist and thrash under him, the sensation of his dick hammering inside you becoming too much.
“Kiss me,” you plead, desperate for an anchor.
The sound of your plea, so soft amidst the heavy, rhythmic sound of your bodies colliding, shattered whatever remaining composure Michael had left. He saw the tears shimmering in your eyes, the way they caught the dim light, and the sheer, desperate hunger in your gaze. It wasn't just about the physical sensation anymore–it was about the connection, the soul deep need to be consumed by him.
"Anything," he rasped, his voice breaking. "Anything you want, baby."
He devoured you. He surged downward, his hands sliding from your hips to cup your face, his fingers tangling in your hair to tilt your head back perfectly. His mouth crashed against yours with a ferocity that was almost overwhelming, a desperate, starving collision of lips and tongues. It was a kiss that tasted of sweat, salt, and an almost painful level of devotion.
As he kissed you, he didn't slow down. If anything, the plea seemed to possess him. He drove into you with a renewed, frantic energy, his hips hammering against yours in a relentless, driving rhythm. He wanted to drown out the world, to drown out the very concept of thought, leaving nothing behind but the sensation of being one single, pulsing entity.
He felt the tension in your body reaching a breaking point, the way your fingers dug into his shoulders, the way your breath hitched in a way that signaled the end was near. He could feel the tremors starting in your thighs, the way your internal muscles were beginning to spasm around him in a frantic, rhythmic dance.
"That's it...that's it," he urged, his voice a low, vibrating command. He increased the pace, his movements becoming shorter, harder, more urgent. "Don't hold back. Give it all to me. Give me everything!"
He was right there with you, teetering on the edge of the same precipice, his own climax building like a tidal wave, ready to crash over both of you and sweep everything else away.
He reached down, swiping his thumb rapidly on your clitoris–hungry for your release.
Michael saw the exact moment the world broke for you.
As his thumb made that final, violent, and perfectly placed stroke against your clitoris, he felt the shift in your body. He felt your entire frame go rigid, your muscles coiling like a spring before snapping into a state of pure, electric tension. When your thighs locked around his waist, clamping him tight against your heat, it was as if you were trying to fuse your soul to his.
The sound you made that high, broken cry as your neck surged upward and your eyes rolled back was the most beautiful thing he had ever heard. It was the sound of total surrender.
"There she is!" he moaned, the sound torn from the depths of his lungs.
The sheer intensity of your climax, the way your internal walls began to spasm in a frantic, rhythmic milking of him, was the final trigger. Michael’s own control, which he had fought so hard to maintain, disintegrated completely.
He let out a choked, guttural groan, his head snapping into the mattress beside your head as his body shook violently. He thrust one last time, burying himself as deep as humanly possible inside you, his entire being focused on the sensation of your pulsing heat. He came with a force that felt like it was tearing the soul right out of his chest, his hips shuddering in a series of powerful, unrelenting pulses that seemed to go on forever.
For a long, long time, the only sound in the room was the frantic, ragged symphony of your breathing and the heavy, rhythmic thud of two hearts trying to find their way back to a normal tempo.
Slowly, the tremors began to fade. Michael didn't pull away. He stayed buried deep inside you, his body heavy and warm, his forehead resting against yours as he fought to catch his breath. His skin was slick with sweat, and his chest was heaving against yours in a desperate, synchronized rhythm.
He eventually pulled back just enough to look at you. His eyes were dark and heavy lidded. He reached up, his trembling fingers gently brushing the damp hair away from your face, his touch incredibly light, as if he were afraid you might shatter if he pressed too hard.
"Baby..." he whispered, his voice a broken, beautiful wreck of a sound. He leaned in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the corner of your mouth, then to your temple.
He let out a long, shaky exhale, a small, exhausted, but deeply satisfied smile tugging at his lips. He embraced you, tucking your head into the crook of his neck, his arms wrapping around you with a protective, possessive strength.
"So about that Marxist seminar…” he broke the silence with a lopsided grin.
“You fucker,” you laughed out as you pinched his cheek.
an: what do you guys think? my head hurt writing this omg i'm not used to writing so muchhh... divider credits to @pixopix
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hear me out otw! michael x reader. he’s a virgin, a church boy. very spiritual and deep. then there’s reader, complete opposite but opposite attract. and he’s so whiny and submissive
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pairing: offthewallera!michael jackson x groupie!female reader
synopsis: bound by strict devotion offstage but consumed by a dangerous presence in the crowd, michael jackson collapses under the weight of his restraint when a forbidden gift forces him to choose between his faith and his desires.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, religious guilt, religious conflict, manipulation, masturbation, praise kink, sub!michael, oral (m receiving), spitting, panty sniffing, angst, creep behavior (f), religious themes (don't read if it makes you uncomfy!)
word count: 7.5k
an: thank you so much for this!! this might go a different route than the way you requested (& darker) but i hope you like this nonetheless! :))
The backstage corridors of the Triumph Tour always smelled of the toxic scent of hairspray, and the humid, suffocating fusion of sweat and deodorant.
It was 1981, and twenty-two year old Michael was living in a state of constant, surprising duality. On stage, under the blinding spotlights, he was a kinetic force in bedazzled costumes, driving thousands of screaming girls into a frenzy. But the second he stepped off the stage, the weight of his upbringing settled back onto his shoulders.
He was raised as a devout Jehovah’s Witness. In his tour bag, there still laid his Bible. He still spent his mornings knocking on strangers’ doors in disguise to spread the holy word, and still prayed on his knees until they ached.
His faith was often challenged. Most especially when his dickhead group of brothers brought their one night stands into their shared, cramped hotel rooms. Michael grew accustomed to the nights where his head was covered by his stiff pillows–blocking out the obscene, borderline pornographic moans of the girls bouncing on his brothers’ dicks.
He thought that was the best the devil could do to sway his faith. Oh, he thought so wrong.
Because of her.
She had been there in Memphis, then in Atlanta. Now, between the damp bodies of the audience in the Madison Square Garden, she was there again. She was always close to the front, hovering near the metal barriers.
She was beautiful–not with the eager excitement his usual fans had, but with a heavy, intoxicating presence that felt dangerous. She always wore dark form fitting clothes that defied the standards his mother always blew his ear off on reminding him.
Michael knew he shouldn’t look. He knew that even a passing thought about a woman like that was a sin. But every time he hit a sharp, synchronized pop with his brothers, his eyes were instinctively drawn to her like a magnet.
It was a cloudy Wednesday night when the tension finally reached a major breakthrough.
The show had ended–the backstage area was a blur of roadies rolling flight cases, security guards checking the perimeter, and family members congratulating him for a show well done. Michael was walking back to his private dressing room, his chest heaving under his damp, glittery stage shirt, a towel draped over his nape.
Suddenly, she stepped out from the shadow of a stage curtain, blocking his path.
Michael froze, his heart instantly speeding up against his ribs. With wide eyes, he took her in. Up close, without the barrier of the stage, she was the personification of temptation.
Lilith. He thought.
Her perfume–something of saffron, dripping with musk, flooded his senses, completely erasing the nose scrunching smell of the stadium.
She didn’t ask for an autograph. She stepped into his space, her eyes locking onto his startled gaze with a slow smile.
“You were incredible tonight, Michael,” she murmured, her voice a smooth purr that sent a shiver straight down his spine.
“T–Thank you,” Michael stammered, his voice cracking–devoid of the charisma he donned on stage. He instinctively clutched his towel a little tighter, his throat tightening as sweat dripped down his brow.
He knew he should walk away. He should call for his brothers. Marlon–anyone.
Before he could stammer a polite excuse, she reached out–her fingers holding out a small white envelope.
“A little light reading,” she whispered as she pushed the envelope closer to his chest. “On just how amazing I think you are.”
He swallowed, his eyes frozen on the dark plum of her fingernails. The contrast of it against the ivory envelope sending a lump in his throat.
Michael shakily accepted the envelope, her fingers lightly brushing on his.
With a final, lingering look that felt like a physical weight, she turned on her heel and disappeared into the backstage crowd, leaving him standing there like a statue.
Michael practically sprinted the rest of the way to his dressing room. He burst through the door, slamming it shut behind him and locking it with a sharp, decisive click. He dropped his towel onto the clutter of his stage make-up, his breath coming in short, panicked gasps as he stared at the white envelope in his hand.
It’s just a letter, he told himself, his deeply ingrained conscience wrestling violently with his curiosity. It’s just a fan letter.
Holding his breath, Michael carefully tore the top of the envelope open.
He didn't find paper.
His brows furrowed in confusion as his fingers brushed against something incredibly soft, light, and fluid. He reached inside and pulled the material out into the harsh, bright light of the dressing room bulbs.
The breath completely vanished from Michael's lungs.
It was a pair of red panties—tiny, trimmed with delicate lace, and entirely translucent. As he held them up in his trembling fingers, the unmistakable, intoxicating scent of her musk and perfume bloomed into the quiet room, completely suffocating his senses.
Michael’s face burned a dark, furious crimson. His hands shook so violently he almost dropped the fabric, his mind instantly descending into a violent storm of guilt and raw, unadulterated shock. He had never seen anything like this in his life.
His mother didn’t even let him and his brothers see their laundry. He had spent his entire existence under strict, absolute discipline, shielding his eyes from the worldly flesh, and now, the most intimate, dangerous piece of a woman's desire was resting in the palm of his hand.
Oh, Jehovah, Michael thought, his chest heaving as a terrifyingly hot wave of pure, carnal desire pooled in his stomach. Please. Save me from this. Cleanse my mind.
He wanted to throw them in the trash. He wanted to drop down on his knees and pray for forgiveness just for looking at them. But as he stood there in the quiet dressing room, the clamor of staff outside rattling the door, Michael couldn't bring himself to drop the fabric.
Instead, he slowly brought the fabric closer to his face, his eyes squeezing shut in an agonizing, beautiful despair as he inhaled the wicked, forbidden sweetness she had left behind.
He pressed the center of the fabric deeper into his nose–his eyes threatening to roll back at the slight dampness. She smelled like heaven and sin at the same exact time. The fabric felt like his salvation and his misery.
Michael jolted awake as if he was electrocuted. His breath was ragged as he realized what he had just done. He hurriedly stuffed the fabric back to the envelope, closing it clumsily as he inserted it to his back pocket.
Michael didn’t sleep a wink. The envelope now tucked underneath his suitcase burned into his nostrils.
Now, it was the second night of the New York set, and the arena was alive. The bass vibrated so violently through the floorboards that it rattled Michael’s teeth.
But on stage, Michael wasn’t just performing. He was a man possessed.
During ‘Can You Feel It,’ he hit his spins with a terrifying, neck-snapping velocity that his costume blurred into streaks of pure starlight. He wasn’t just dancing. He was performing an exorcism.
Every sharp pop of his chest, every high falsetto, and every stomp of his loafers felt like an attempt to cleanse the carnal, suffocating scent of her that plagued the night.
Stage left, Marlon and Jackie exchanged a brief worried glance as they kept up with the choreography. Michael’s skin was slick with an alarming amount of sweat, his chest heaving so hard they could see the frantic movement of his ribs from five feet away. He was overexerting himself. They thought he was just giving the crowd his best.
They had no idea he was performing for his spirit.
As the final chords of the encore echoed and the massive, blinding house lights began to slowly lift, Michael stood dead center at the stage. He was gasping for air, the microphone trembling slightly as he bowed, a towel immediately thrust into his hand by a stagehand.
I survived it, he thought, his conscience offering a faint sigh of relief as he began to walk toward the wings. The show is over. I didn't look for her. I kept my eyes on the upper balcony.
But as he reached the edge of the stage, right where the security barricades met the shadows of the arena's support beams, his gaze was helplessly, magnetically pulled toward the side exits.
The breath completely died in his throat.
She was there.
She wasn't in her usual spot in the front row. She was leaning casually against the cold iron railing near the dimly lit exit doors, completely detached from the cheering crowd around her. She wore a tight, cropped leather jacket that rode up just enough to expose the smooth skin of her waist, her hair tumbling over her shoulders in wild waves.
But it was her face that made Michael's heart violently leap into his throat.
Slowly, deliberately, she was sucking on a bright, glistening red lollipop. Her eyes were locked entirely onto his wide, sweat-slicked face, tracking the rise and fall of his chest with a slow, wicked intensity. As Michael froze in the wings, her lips wrapped around the candy, her tongue tracing the bright red edge with an agonizing slowness that was completely, unmistakably meant for him. She didn't wave. She didn't scream his name. She just watched him swallow her appearance, her gaze promising a kind of damnation that made the heat in Michael's stomach tighten up.
Michael’s face burned under his makeup. He gripped the handrail of the stage stairs so tightly his knuckles turned white, his knees suddenly trembling violently beneath his sequined trousers.
"Michael? Hey, Mike, come on, we gotta get to the cars before the crowd spills out," Randy muttered, placing a firm, sweaty hand on his shoulder to nudge him forward.
Michael didn't look back at his brother. He couldn't. With a sudden, panicked breath, he tore his eyes away from her, stumbling down the stairs into the dark backstage corridor like a man fleeing a burning building—completely aware that no matter how hard he danced, or how deeply he prayed, the red of that lollipop was burned into his eyelids, and the devil had never looked more beautiful.
The Joe Louis Arena in Detroit was a cavernous vault of steel and screaming fans, but to Michael, the entire venue felt completely hollow.
The date was August 21, and the stage lights were so hot they felt like a physical weight on his shoulders as he hit the final breakdown for ‘Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough.’ He spun, he let out his signature high-pitched cries—but his eyes were entirely disconnected from his choreography. Automatically, helplessly, his gaze scanned the side exits. Then the front row. Then the dark corners near the soundboard.
Nothing. Just a sea of unfamiliar faces waving signs and screaming his name.
When the house lights came up and the stage hands threw the towel over his sweat-slicked neck, Michael stayed frozen at the edge of the stage for a fraction of a second longer than usual, his large, dark eyes desperately searching the crowd. The heavy, sweet scent of musk and the flash of a bright red lollipop were entirely missing from the air. She wasn't there.
A strange, hollow ache settled deep in his chest—a feeling he immediately tried to choke out with a wave of intense guilt. This is an answer to your prayers, Michael, he told himself fiercely as he sat in the back of the darkened limousine. Jehovah is protecting you. He removed the temptation from your path.
But the relief felt entirely fake like a piece of plastic.
By the time the tour buses rolled into Market Square Arena in Indianapolis, the quiet anxiety in his stomach had turned into a low, constant hum. During the soundcheck, he found himself walking the perimeter of the empty floor, looking at the security barricades, wondering if she would suddenly materialize from the shadows of the wings. But when the curtains opened that night, the side exits remained completely empty.
Trotwood, Ohio was a blur. Michael performed with his usual precision, but the frantic, possessed energy from Madison Square Garden was gone, replaced by a tense, hyper-focused vigilance. He scanned the crowds until his vision blurred under the spotlight glare.
Still, nothing.
By the time they hit the MECCA Arena in Milwaukee, the silence from her side had become agonizing. It had been just three days but he felt like was suffocating.
Now, sitting in their dimly lit hotel room in Milwaukee, Michael let out a ragged breath, his long fingers resting on the edge of his Bible. He had spent the previous days begging for the strength to resist worldly temptations, but as he stared into the quiet room, the horrifying truth began to dawn on him.
He didn't feel protected. He felt entirely abandoned by the only sin he had ever desperately wanted to commit.
“Hey Mike, we’re about to have drinks in the club down the street. Wanna come?” he heard Randy call out to him.
Michael looked briefly at his brothers. His chest tightening at their attire and the suffocating musk of their masculine perfume. Obviously, they were about to fish for women to lay with for the night.
“N–No. I’m okay, I feel tired,” he swallowed as he kept himself glued to his bed.
“If you say so Mike,” Marlon clapped his shoulder briefly before grinning with his brothers, rushing out of the stuffy hotel room.
When Michael heard the doorknob click into a lock. He blinked.
Now, he was completely alone.
He walked slowly across the plush carpet, the room lit only by the glow of the bedside lamp. His chest felt tight, a heavy, restless energy vibrating beneath his skin that the stage hadn't been able to wash away.
He stopped in front of his suitcase resting on the luggage rack.
His long, slender fingers hesitated over the zipper, his knuckles turning white as the angel on his left shoulder violently wrestled with his body's desperate, unyielding curiosity. Don't do it, Michael, the quiet, authoritative voices of his upbringing whispered in his mind. Walk away. Drop to your knees and pray.
But the memory of her—the raw, heavy intensity of her gaze at the Garden, the slow, devastating curve of her lips around that red lollipop—was a fire that had been smoldering in his belly for days. The fact that she had vanished, leaving him to starve for her presence, only made the craving sharper, more agonizing.
With a sudden, ragged breath, Michael unzipped the bag.
He reached past his neatly pressed shirts, past his stack of magazines, until his fingers brushed the very bottom of the trunk. He pulled out the plain white envelope, his heart instantly launching into a frantic, deafening rhythm against his ribs.
He slid the red panties out into the amber light.
The movement instantly released the lingering, intoxicating scent of her musk and heavy perfume into the quiet hotel room. Michael’s eyes squeezed shut as he inhaled, a low, helpless groan escaping his throat as his face burned. It was the scent of pure, unadulterated temptation.
Slowly, his trembling fingers traced the delicate lace edges of the miniscule fabric. The silk was unbelievably fluid. It felt dangerously soft against his calloused skin.
Guided by a reckless, overwhelming impulse he could no longer suppress, Michael sat heavily on the edge of the mattress. He brought the silk directly to his face, burying his nose and mouth into the delicate center of the fabric, inhaling her essence so deeply his lungs burned with it.
The sheer intimacy of it sent a violent, electric shiver straight down his spine.
His breathing turned shallow and ragged in the quiet room. With his eyes shut tight against the amber light, his mind conjured her vivid image—the wild waves of her hair, the smooth skin of her exposed waist, the heavy-lidded glare that stripped him of all his saintly defenses. His hand slid down the front of his soft cotton trousers, his long fingers trembling violently as he pressed the smooth, perfume-laced fabric directly against his nostrils, his palm pressing into the embarrassing tent in his pants.
He can’t stop himself. He clumsily pushed his pants down, revealing his erect length. He stared at himself–humiliated and turned on at how hard he was. Beads of his arousal catching the light of the room.
With shaky fingers, he brought the fabric down to his aching length. The first contact was electrifying–his hips buckling as he hissed. He pressed the center of the panties directly onto his swollen head.
“A-Ahh…” he choked out, his eyes crossing.
He didn’t bother to cover up his groans and moans at the quiet of the hotel room. He felt his leaky pre-cum drip to her panties. He went faster…his fingers and her underwear slicking along his length.
Michael leaned back into his pillows, thrusting into his hand even faster. He felt possessed. Like the possessed herd of swine in the New Testament.
“God,” he squeaked out as he felt the coil in his stomach began to tighten.
Michael’s eyes rolled back into his head, his breath hitching into a series of sharp, staccato gasps as he neared the edge. The image of her mouth, wrapping around that lollipop ingrained into his eyelids.
His hand became a blur of motion, the friction of the fabric against his sensitive skin pushing him over the precipice. With one final, violent thrust of his hips, his body stiffened. He let out a high, helpless whine as he came, the heat of his release pulsing heavily into the fabric of her panties. The red of the underwear quickly darkened, soaked through by his thick, hot essence, while the rest of it splattered across his thighs and the bedsheets.
He slumped back against the pillows, his chest heaving, sweat glistening on his skin under the bedroom lights.
When he recovered, he winced. He felt so dirty, worse than a man who stole. Even worse than a man who killed–though he knew that was an exaggeration. He licked his lips as he stared at the state of himself–his length softening and resting on the sticky fabric.
With heavy limbs, he put the damp fabric back into the envelope, and tucked it back underneath his clothes. It was filthy, he should throw it away, but he still can’t bring himself to do it.
As he wiped his thighs with a wad of tissues, his guilt clouded his senses. He needed to repent. He just succumbed to the devil.
The roar inside Chicago Stadium on September 5th was deafening as Michael stood completely frozen in the dark, the opening stage formation locked into his muscles. The stadium lights were still down. He was focused. He had spent the previous days praying for a reset, trying to cleanse his mind of the hotel room, the lace, and the lingering, sweet torment of her memory.
Seventeen days. It had been exactly seventeen days since he last saw her in New York, and he had convinced himself that the trial was over. He was a professional. He was here to do the work.
Then, the massive, explosive opening beats of ‘Can You Feel It’ detonated through the stadium speakers.
The blinding white spotlights slammed onto the stage, illuminating the arena in a sharp glare. Michael’s head snapped up on cue, his body instantly ready to spring into the sharp, kinetic choreography. But as his eyes locked onto the dead-center section of the floor—right past the front row of security barricades—the breath was violently ripped from his lungs.
She was back.
She was standing right there, completely dominating the center of his field of vision. She wasn't hiding in the side exits tonight. She was front and center, a bold challenge to his newly recovered focus. She wore a sleek, black-and-gold deep v-neck top that exposed the expanse of her smooth skin, her hair tumbling wildly around her shoulders as the stadium lights caught the metallic gold of her shirt.
Her heavy-lidded eyes were fixed entirely on him, a slow, knowing smirk playing on her lips, as if she knew exactly what he had done with her ‘letter.’
Michael's heart violently slammed against his ribs like a trapped bird. For a fraction of a second, his timing faltered—a split-second freeze that only his brothers would notice—before the shock of her presence surged straight through his veins.
The spiritual armor he had spent days rebuilding shattered into a million pieces under her gaze. He exploded into the opening number like a volcano. The red of his shirt blurred as he hit his pops with heavy precision, his eyes locked entirely onto her black-and-gold silhouette, completely helpless against the gravity of her return.
The heavy backstage door slammed shut behind Michael, but it did nothing to dull the chaos inside his own head.
He was completely delirious. His vision was blurry around the edges, his chest heaving so violently beneath his sweat-slicked shirt that he could barely draw a full breath. He felt insane—his veins pumping with a dangerous mix of post-show adrenaline, physical exhaustion, and the terrifying, ungodly heat that had been building in his stomach since the opening act.
"Mike! Hey, Mike, hold up man!" Marlon’s voice boomed down the hallway, heavy footsteps rushing to catch up with him.
"Michael, what the hell was that out there?" Jackie demanded, pulling his own stage towel off his neck, his face etched with deep worry. "You missed two transitions in the medley, you were completely out of sync with the cues—you looked like you were about to faint, man."
"I'm fine!" Michael suddenly snapped, his voice cracking, sharper and louder than any of them had ever heard it. He spun around for a fraction of a second, his dark eyes wide, wild, and entirely unhinged under his stage makeup. "I just...I need to be alone. Don't come in. Just give me some air!"
Before his brothers could say another word, Michael bolted down the remaining stretch of the corridor. He burst into his private dressing room, threw his weight against the heavy door, and twisted the lock.
He dropped his head against the wood, his breath coming in short, panicked gasps. He was trembling so hard his knees nearly gave out beneath his sequined trousers. He staggered over to the vanity mirror, his long, slender fingers gripping the edge of the table as he stared at his own reflection. His curls were damp, clinging to his forehead, and his chest was heaving. He looked like a man who had seen a ghost. Or a demon.
What is happening to me? he thought desperately, his deeply ingrained religious conscience screaming at him from the dark corners of his mind. Jehovah, please. Please give me strength. I’m losing my mind.
He grabbed a towel, frantically wiping at the sweat on his neck, trying to force his heart to slow down. He needed to find his Bible. He needed to get the panties out of his suitcase and throw them away. He needed to—
A firm, distinct knock rattled the dressing room door.
Michael stiffened, his entire body going rigid. "I said I need to be alone!" he called out, his voice tight and breathless.
"Michael? It’s Bill," the muffled voice of the man he trusted called through the wood. "Sorry to bother you, man, but we’ve got a situation out here. Someone from the promoter's office cleared a visitor. She's got a legitimate pass."
Michael’s throat went completely dry. A strange, heavy electricity seemed to instantly charge the air in the room, smelling faintly of the musk and heavy perfume that had haunted him for seventeen days.
Slowly, like a man walking toward his own execution, Michael stepped across the plush carpet. His trembling fingers reached out, unlocked the door, and pulled it open.
Bill was standing there, his massive frame blocking most of the hallway. But right beside him, leaning casually against the doorframe, was her.
Up close, the sheer physical impact of her presence made Michael's breath catch completely in his throat. She was still wearing that cursed top, the metallic threads shimmering under the hallway bulbs, her smooth skin glistening with a faint sheen of sweat from the crowded stadium floor. Hanging around her neck was a thick, black ID lanyard, and resting right against the swell of her chest was a laminated card that read ‘GUEST’ in bold, black letters.
"She was in the VIP section, Mike," Bill explained, completely oblivious to the silent, suffocating gravity dropping over the doorway. "Says she’s a fan who was incredibly eager to meet you personally tonight. Since the promoter cleared her ID, I figured I’d bring her back before the press gets to the tunnel."
She didn't say a word. She just stood there, her heavy-lidded eyes locking onto Michael’s wide, terrified gaze. A slow, wicked, entirely knowing smile curled the corners of her lips, her eyes tracking the way his chest was still heaving, checking out every single inch of his sweat-slicked shirt. She looked like she owned the room. She looked like she owned him.
"Thanks, Bill," Michael whispered, his voice barely a breath, entirely stripped of his strength.
"You need me to stay outside, Mike?" Bill asked.
"No," Michael murmured as he swallowed. “It’s fine, I–I’ll call for you later.”
The moment Bill’s heavy footsteps faded down the concrete corridor and the dressing room door clicked shut, the silence in the room became absolute, thick with the intoxicating scent of her musk and the sharp tang of his own nervous sweat.
Michael immediately backed away from her. His shiny loafers scrambled against the plush carpet until his shoulder blades slammed hard against the wood-paneled wall. He pressed himself as flat against the wall as he could, his long, slender fingers splaying against the wallpaper on either side of his hips as if he were trying to merge with the structure itself.
She stayed exactly where she was, a few feet away from him. She leaned her hip casually against the edge of his vanity table. Her eyes tracked his frantic retreat with a predatory gaze. A small amused smile tugged at the corner of her lips, her chest rising and falling beneath the plunge of her top as she tilted her head, watching him tremble.
To her, his terror was beautiful. It was an offering.
"Why are you looking at me like that, Michael?" she asked softly, her voice a low, smooth purr that vibrated straight through the quiet room. "You looked so brave on stage."
"S-Stop it," Michael choked out, his voice a tight, breathless whisper that completely betrayed his twenty-two years. His heart was hammering a deafening, erratic rhythm against his ribs, his knuckles turning white as he gripped the wall. The strict, absolute discipline of his entire life was screaming in his ears, warning him of the ‘apple’ standing right in front of him.
He swallowed hard, his eyes wide and wild under his damp curls as he looked at her glistening collarbone, then at the laminated pass resting against her chest, before finally forcing his gaze up to her dark, predatory eyes.
"I know what you are," Michael spat out suddenly, the words bursting from his chest in a desperate, defensive rush. His face burned a dark, furious crimson under his makeup, his chin trembling with a volatile mix of carnal desire and deep spiritual terror. "You...you think you can just follow me? You think you can gift...gift me that and ruin my mind?"
Her brows raise as her fingers slowly tracing the black lanyard around her neck, entirely enjoying the way he was unraveling.
"You're the devil," Michael whispered fiercely, his voice cracking with a raw, agonizing vulnerability as he pressed his back even harder against the wall, trying to escape her gravity.
Her mouth drops open in a patronizing gasp, her hand coming up to clutch her chest as she walks slowly towards him.
“Who?” her wide eyes stare at his face. “Who is the devil?”
Michael’s eyes flutter as she closes the distance–the intoxicating scent of her enveloping his senses, stopping his train of thought.
“Y–You’re Satan incarnate, sent here to trap me,” he stammered as he leaned his head back to try and create distance.
She stops a few inches away from him–her chest brushing the dampness of his shirt. Her eyes wandered down his fingers clutching the wall desperately.
“Do I really scare you this much?”
He swallowed hard, his throat working visibly as he stared up at her. His eyes were glassy, reflecting the dim light of the room and the terrifying, beautiful reality of the woman standing over him. He looked completely undone, his usual poise replaced by a raw, trembling vulnerability.
“I don't think it's the devil you're afraid of, Michael. I think you're afraid of how much you want to fall,” she steps away, giving him space.
Michael felt the sudden absence of her warmth like a physical blow. The space she left behind felt cold and terrifyingly empty. He let out a long, shaky exhale, his shoulders slumping as the tension in his body shifted from frantic panic to a heavy, aching sort of longing.
He stood there for a moment, staring at the spot where she had just been, his chest still heaving. Her words echoed in the quiet of the room, ringing louder than any applause he had ever heard.
She grabbed a plush white face towel from the messy vanity table and gently, but with a firm, deliberate weight, thrusted it right against his chest.
Michael flinched slightly at the sudden movement, his eyes snapping open as the soft cloth pressed against his shirt. He didn't take it from her at first, his hands still paralyzed against the wall, so she kept her palm resting over the towel, pinning it right over his erratic, hammering heartbeat.
"Wipe your face, Michael," she murmured, her voice losing a bit of its malice, replacing it with a low, grounding intimacy that was somehow even more dangerous. "You're burning up."
He looked down at her hand against his chest, then up at her face, his breathing still shallow and ragged. The contrast between her calm, seductive control and his volatile, trembling panic was absolute. Slowly, reluctantly, his long, slender fingers slid off the wallpaper and wrapped around the edges of the towel, his skin brushing against hers for a fleeting, electric second.
He didn't wipe the sweat away. He just held the cloth tightly against his chest like a shield, staring at her through his damp curls, entirely aware that even with a barrier between them, he was completely trapped in her space.
Slowly, her face started to soften. She looked down at the laminated pass resting against her chest, then back up at his glassy, wide eyes. For the first time since she had first seen him, the dangerous aura around her cracked, revealing something remarkably human underneath.
She took another step back, giving him just an inch of breathing room.
"I didn't mean to make you feel like you're losing your mind, Michael," she said softly. Her voice wasn't a low, seductive purr anymore, it was quiet and grounded. "The envelope...the panties. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have given you those."
Michael blinked, a sudden flash of profound confusion crossing his sweat-slicked features. He stayed pressed against the wall, but his chest stopped heaving quite so violently. He didn't know how to process this sudden shift—he had built her up in his mind as a literal demon sent from hell to destroy his faith, and now she was standing there, looking remarkably vulnerable herself.
"You...you're sorry?" he whispered, his voice cracking slightly, entirely stripped of its defensive anger.
"Yes," she murmured, looking down at her boots before meeting his gaze again. "On stage, you're this untouchable force. You drive everyone crazy, and I wanted to see if I could drive you crazy. It was a stupid idea. I wanted to see if I could get under your skin. But I didn't realize...I didn't think about what it would actually do to you. I didn't mean to make you feel unsafe."
Michael stared at her, his throat working visibly as he swallowed down the residual panic. The guilt didn't vanish, but the sharp, terrifying edge of his fear began to melt away, replaced by a strange, dizzying wave of reality. She wasn't an abstract spiritual test or a demented creature. She was just a girl. A breathtakingly beautiful, dangerous girl who had looked at him and wanted him so badly she had crossed every boundary to get to him.
Slowly, Michael lowered the towel from his chest. His long, slender fingers trembled slightly as he set it down on the edge of the vanity. He didn't run for the door, and he didn't call for Bill.
Instead, he looked at her face in the honest, bright light of the dressing room bulbs, his large, dark eyes tracking the soft curve of her mouth.
"You did," Michael murmured, his voice incredibly low, almost a secret between the two of them.
She blinked. "Did what?"
"You did get under my skin," he confessed softly, his face flushing a deep, genuine crimson beneath his stage makeup. He took his back off the wall, standing at his full height for the first time since she entered, though his knees still felt weak. "For seventeen days...I couldn't stop thinking about it. I couldn't stop thinking about you."
The admission hung in the warm, humid air of the dressing room, thick and heavy. She didn't step back this time. Her eyes darkened, her gaze dropping to his lips before locking back onto his wide, glassy eyes.
"Seventeen days?" she whispered, her voice falling back into that low, intoxicating register. She took a slow step forward, closing the small distance. "And what exactly were you thinking about, Michael?"
Michael’s breath hitched. He was standing away from the wall now, completely exposed to her. The honesty of his own confession seemed to have stripped him of his armor entirely. He looked down at her collarbone, tracing the sharp, elegant line where her skin met the fabric of her top.
"I was thinking about how unfair it was," Michael murmured, his voice trembling but carrying a sudden, desperate gravity. He didn't pull away when she reached out.
Her fingers, cool against his feverish skin, lightly brushed the edge of his jawline, tracing down to the damp collar of his shirt. Michael shuddered at the touch, his eyes fluttering closed for a brief second as a sharp, intense wave of heat pooled deep in his stomach. The memory of the hotel room, of the smooth red lace pressed against his skin, flashed behind his eyelids with a beautiful clarity.
"Unfair?" she prompted softly, her breath fanning against his lips now, so close he could taste the faint, sweet memory of the red lollipop.
"You threw me into the dark," Michael whispered, his large, dark eyes snapping open, glittering with a raw, unbridled hunger that was no longer afraid of damnation. "And then you left me there."
Before she could answer, the final threads of his restraint snapped. Guided by the primal urge he had fought across states, Michael reached out. His long, slender fingers wrapped firmly around her waist, the metallic threads of her top scratching against his palms as he pulled her flush against his chest.
She let out a soft, surprised gasp as she collided with him.
"Michael—"
He didn't let her finish. Bending his head, Michael closed the final inch between them, his lips crashing onto hers in a deep, desperate, and entirely uninhibited kiss. It wasn't the kiss of the gentle, soft-spoken boy everyone knew–it was demanding, heavy with weeks of repressed desire, spiritual torment, and agonizing anticipation. His mouth moved against hers with a fierce yet awkward rhythm, his inexperience bleeding through his desire.
She tangled her fingers in his damp curls, pulling him closer.
In this moment, Jehovah felt even closer, the feeling of her soft frame against his felt like the gates of heaven.
He pulled away, his eyes lidded with a desire that would have rendered his mother unconscious.
"Take me," he whispered, his voice a velvet rasp, his hands sliding down from her waist to pull her hips even closer to his, his touch becoming bolder, more intimate. "Don't just leave me in the dark...please. Make me yours."
He looked up at her then, his face flushed, his curls a wild halo around his head, his eyes searching hers with a terrifying, beautiful devotion. He was offering her everything–his heart, his very life on a silver platter, a willing sacrifice to the temptation who had dared to drive him mad.
"I don't care if it's a sin," he breathed, his eyes tracing the curve of her lower lip. "If being with you is a sin...then let me be a sinner."
She takes a deep breath before pulling him–her hands gently but firmly clasping around his wrist as she pushes him down on the worn leather sofa of the dressing room.
Michael let out a sharp, startled gasp as his back met the cool, worn leather of the sofa. The sensation of her hands–those cool, predatory hands moving over him with such urgency sent a jolt of pure electricity through his entire frame. He felt completely undone, stripped of his sequins, his fame, and his dignity, left only as a raw, pulsing nerve of sensation.
As she pulled his pants down, revealing his half hard length, Michael’s breath hitched in his throat, a tiny, embarrassed sound escaping him. His face was a deep, burning crimson, and he instinctively reached down to try and cover himself, his long fingers trembling violently. He felt so exposed under her intense, dark gaze.
“Don’t hide from me, sweet boy,” she smooths her hands down his thighs to calm him.
He let his hands fall away from his waist, surrendering his modesty to her. He was a man offering himself up to a queen, a willing sacrifice at an altar of leather. He watched her, mesmerized by the sight of her leaning over him.
His hips gave a small, involuntary twitch toward her touch, a silent, desperate plea for more. The sheer heat radiating from his body seemed to clash with the coolness of the room, making him feel as though he were melting into the sofa.
"Please..." he whimpered, the word a soft, melodic plea that cracked in the middle. He reached up, his slender hands grasping her wrists, not to pull her away, but to guide her, to urge her closer. "Don't be gentle...not tonight. I've spent so long being...being careful. Being good."
A dark, beautiful glint appeared in her eyes as she watched him arched his back slightly, his chest heaving as he looked at her with a gaze that was both worshipful and hungry.
Her fingers toyed with the underside of his length, watching as it slowly grew to its full length. "Yeah? You're my good boy?"
The phrase hit him like a physical weight, sending a wave of heat so intense it felt like he was burning from the inside out. A pathetic whimper escaped him, a sound of pure, unadulterated surrender. His head fell back against the sofa, his throat arching, exposing the vulnerable line of his neck to her. His eyes were glazed, half lidded and swimming with a mixture of profound embarrassment and a terrifying, beautiful need to obey.
"Y–Yes..." he gasped. He looked up at her, his eyes wide and searching hers with a devotion that was almost frightening in its intensity. He looked like a man who had found his religion, and his goddess was standing right over him, playing with his very soul.
She kept her eyes on his as she descended, taking in his length inside her awaiting mouth. She hollowed her cheeks, her hands pumping the rest of him she can't accommodate.
"Oh! Oh, God!" A broken, melodic cry escaped him, his head tossing back as his eyes flew wide, staring up at the ceiling as if searching for the heavens he had so long feared. The sensation was unlike anything he had ever experienced–the intense, velvet warmth of her mouth, the rhythmic, suctioning pressure that seemed to draw the very soul out of his body.
His hips began to move in a desperate, uncoordinated rhythm, seeking more of her, pushing himself deeper into the warmth of her mouth. He was a man possessed, his eyes fluttering shut as he lost the battle with his own composure.
"You're...you're so...amazing..." he gasped, his voice dropping to a low, needy moan. He was trembling so violently now that the leather of the sofa creaked beneath him. His chest heaved, his heart hammering a frantic beat against his ribs.
"Please...don't...don't stop..." he let out a soft, pathetic whimper, his eyes opening just enough to catch a glimpse of her through his lashes, his gaze heavy with a worshipful, almost spiritual adoration.
Michael’s world exploded. As he reached the peak, his entire body arched off the leather sofa, his muscles tensing so violently he thought he might shatter. A long, high, broken cry half sob erupted from his throat as he surrendered everything. He felt the intense, rhythmic pulsing of his release, and as he felt her swallow every single drop, a sensation of profound, spiritual completion washed over him, as if she were literally drinking his very essence.
He collapsed back into the sofa, his chest heaving in frantic, shallow gasps. His eyes were squeezed shut, his face a mask of pure, exhausted bliss, his curls plastered to his forehead with sweat. For a long moment, the only sound in the room was the ragged, uneven rhythm of his breathing and the quiet hum of the distant city outside.
Slowly, his eyes fluttered open, heavy lidded and dazed. He watched, mesmerized and utterly breathless, as she withdrew. He saw the way she licked her lips, the dark, predatory grace of her tongue cleaning away the evidence of his surrender, and the way she licked her fingers with a slow, deliberate nonchalance that made his heart skip a beat.
A deep, burning blush flooded his cheeks, spreading all the way down to his chest. He felt incredibly exposed, yet he had never felt more seen. He looked up at her, his gaze wide and shimmering with a mixture of awe, lingering shock, and a devotion so deep it was almost frightening.
"You..." he whispered, his voice a mere thread of sound, trembling and thick with emotion. "You didn’t have t–to swallow it…"
A shy, breathless laugh escaped him a tiny, embarrassed sound that was quickly swallowed by the intensity of the moment. He reached up, covering his burning face with his large hands. His spent length twitched heavily on his inner thigh.
She tutted as she gently moved his hands away from his face.
Michael’s eyes widened, his breath hitching in his throat as her fingers applied that gentle, commanding pressure to his jaw. He obeyed her without a second thought. He opened his mouth, his lips parting in a silent, vulnerable invitation, his gaze locked onto hers with an intensity that bordered on worship.
When she spat into his mouth, he didn't flinch. He didn't pull away in embarrassment or recoil from the primal nature of the act. Instead, he closed his eyes, his long lashes fluttering against his flushed cheeks as he tasted the alchemy of it–the sweet saltiness of his own essence mingling with the unique taste of her. It was heavenly–even better than the red wine he tasted during communion.
A soft, low moan, almost a purr, vibrated deep in his chest as he swallowed. The sensation sent a fresh wave of heat through him, a lingering aftershock of the pleasure he had just experienced. He felt a profound sense of intimacy, a connection so deep and so dark that it transcended anything he had ever known in the bright, artificial lights of the stage.
When he finally opened his eyes again, they were dark, shimmering with a liquid, soulful devotion. He looked up at her, his expression one of pure, unadulterated adoration, his face still burning with a beautiful, lingering blush.
"Thank you," he whispered, his eyes searching hers, his voice cracking with emotion.
Let the elders pray for his soul tomorrow, tonight, Michael knew he would never look for the light again—not when damnation tasted this sweet.
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hi can i req an enemies to lovers type of situation with mature era (professor au) and like the reader is also a worker there and they CANTTTT stand each other but all the students love them and ship them tgt #Tension ORRRR they're both in the industry and people keep comparing them to each other which causes them to get off on the wrong foot but they eventually come to realize they're more similar than they think (like maybe he sudd watches an interview of her n he's like wait.....) (any era) teehee
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pairing: matureeraprof!michael jackson x professor!female reader
synopsis: a traditionalist professor loses his legendary restraint to the one colleague who has challenged his curriculum for two years—proving that the most vicious academic warfare makes for the most devastatingly uninhibited surrender.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, age gap (reader is 30 / michael is 42), enemies to lovers (?), colleagues who hate each other, heavy tension, oral sex (f and m receiving), p in v sex, riding, missionary, finger sucking, kissing, fluff, mentions of insecurity, inaccurate (?) literature debates
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The department budget meetings were universally acknowledged as a form of torture–two hours of huge numbers and discussions on the allocations and procurements. But when it came to you and Michael, the rest of the faculty treated the meetings as their very own source of entertainment.
“I am simply suggesting,” Michael said, controlling his expressions beneath his silver reading glasses. “that allocating thirty percent of our elective funding to contemporary fiction is a disservice to our students’ analytical and holistic development.”
You kept your eyes fixed on the columnar pad, aggressively drawing a thick red line through the notes. “And I am simply suggesting, Professor Jackson, that if you actually listened to anyone under the age of forty, you’d realize that cultural relevance drives passion and eagerness to learn. But I suppose it’s easier to sit in your chair with a silver spoon up your mouth reading nineteenth-century prose while the rest of us actually try to keep students interested.”
Across the long mahogany table, the Dean of Arts let out a heavy sigh–rubbing the bridge of his nose, while two assistant lecturers exchanged a thrilled look.
Michael leaned back on his leather chair. He didn’t snap. He never did. Instead, his lips turned up into that irritating, polite smile that made her want to hurl her coffee mug across the room. “Your…enthusiasm is admirable.”
“Meeting adjourned,” the Dean announced quickly, practically not giving you space to react to Michael’s remark.
The room cleared out in a matter of seconds, the other professors murmuring to each other as they hurried down the hallway. You stayed behind, taking your time to stack your manila folders.
“You do that on purpose,” you muttered into the soft hum of the air conditioning unit.
Michael didn’t look up from his leather briefcase, his long, slender fingers neatly organizing his grading sheets. “Do what?”
“Condescend. You talk to me like I’m a graduate TA who accidentally entered the wrong room.”
Michael paused. He closed his briefcase with a loud snap, then slowly stood up, pulling the lapels of his navy blue blazer. He walked down the table, stopping just a few feet away, his gaze unreadable as he looked down at you.
Without the audience of the faculty, the polite mask dropped, revealing the competitive streak he kept under wraps.
“I don’t condescend,” he said softly, his voice dropping to that velvety register that always made your chest tighten. “I challenge you. Because frankly? You’re the only person in this entire department who refuses to compromise, and it’s exhausting.”
“Then stop pushing my buttons.”
“Stop giving me buttons to push,” he countered, a dangerous glint in his dark eyes.
You rolled your eyes, grabbing your bag and turning on your brown penny loafers. “Try not to sabotage my curriculum while I’m gone.”
The problem with hating Michael Jackson was that the entire student body was actively working against you.
By mid-semester, the university’s anonymous online student forum practically turned the two of you into a spectator sport. It started with an anonymous student posting about the two of you arguing in the cafeteria about the definition of post-modernism. Then came the students posting real time updates on the two of you.
You found out about the reality of the situation on a rainy Thursday evening when a sophomore named Nicole walked into your office for an essay feedback.
“So, for the thesis statement, I wanted to focus on the underlying yearning between the main characters,” Nicole explained, pointing to her draft, before giving a suspicious grin. “You know…that simmering energy where two people claim they vex each other but everyone else is waiting for them to let everything go?”
You blinked. “Nicole, this is an essay on Wuthering Heights,” you paused–a headache forming behind your eyes.
“Right, obviously,” Nicole giggled. “Oh, the whole block is talking about the panel next week. We’ve already made a betting pool on who cracks first during the Q&A,” she changes the subject.
“A betting pool?” you repeated, dread pooling in your stomach.
“Totally. It’s the most active board on the university server right now,” Nicole leaned in, her face bright with excitement. “The consensus is that you two argue way too intensely for it to just be about books.”
You spent the rest of the night staring at your computer screen, your cheeks burning with a mix of mortification and a weird, heavy flutter in your chest that you absolutely refused to acknowledge.
The night of the Faculty Panel, the auditorium was completely packed. Undergraduates were sitting on the steps, the energy in the room buzzing like a wrestling match rather than a literary debate.
You sat at the long table on the stage–dressed in a striped button up shirt, black tie, khaki-colored pencil skirt, and your usual brown penny loafers. A microphone was in front of you as you looked out at the crowd–frowning as you see students from the Science department.
What in the world? You thought.
Two seats down sat Michael. He looked frustratingly perfect— structured caramel brown blazer, his hair framing his face beautifully. He hadn’t looked at you once since you walked on stage.
For the first forty five minutes, the debate was civil. But as the moderator opened up to student questions, the atmosphere shifted.
“The question is for Professor Jackson and Miss –,” a junior from the back row announced, holding the microphone. “In regards to your conflicting views on emotional vulnerability in literature…Professor Jackson, you argue for total restraint and the traditionalist views, while Miss – advocated for raw honesty and welcoming the contemporary perspective. Don’t you think true passion requires breaking those boundaries and finding a balance?”
A collective ‘ooooh’ echoed through the auditorium. The other professors exchanged knowing glances, already adjusting in their seats.
Michael leaned into his microphone. "Restraint is not the absence of passion," he murmured, his voice echoing smoothly through the speakers. "Traditional structure exists to give passion a vessel. When you abandon all boundaries in favor of immediate expression, you don't get depth, you get chaos. True literary endurance relies on the agony of what is not said. The tension of holding back is where the real power lives."
He turned his head slowly, his dark eyes locking onto yours across the table. For the first time all semester, he wasn't looking at you with annoyance. The gaze was heavy and dripping with a sudden gravity.
Your breath caught. You pulled your microphone closer, your pulse suddenly racing against your ribs.
"Holding back isn't always the best literary choice, Professor," you countered, your voice steady despite the rapid drumming against your ribs. "Sometimes it's just an excuse to stay safe. You call it traditionalist restraint, but it looks a lot like fear. Fear that if you actually welcome the contemporary perspective, if you let your guard down and allow yourself to be raw, the passion will be too heavy for you to control. True balance means having the courage to let the boundaries break."
The auditorium went dead silent. The faint hum of the building's old ventilation system was the only sound left in the room. The students sat completely frozen, watching the two of you stare each other down, the unspoken, two-year-old friction between you finally laid bare under the stage lights.
Michael didn't blink. A small, subtle muscle twitched in his jaw, his eyes darkening behind his lenses as he took in your defiance, his mind clearly running a mile a minute behind that perfectly composed expression.
"Well," the moderator choked out, hurriedly shuffling her note cards to break the suffocating tension. "Thank you both. Let's...let's move on to the next question from the floor."
An hour later, you were back in the faculty lounge–waiting for the light drizzle of rain outside the glass panes of the building to pass.
The heavy door swung open, and the scent of rain, bergamot, musk, and sandalwood flooded the room.
You didn’t turn around. “If you came in here to tell me my argument was unprofessional, Michael, save your breath. The student asked a question, and I–”
“I don’t care about the argument,” Michael interrupted.
His voice wasn't soft anymore–devoid of the restraint he always prided himself on. It was low, rough, and standing right behind you.
You spun around, your back pressing against the low locker cabinets. Michael had thrown his blazer onto a chair. His glasses were gone, his eyes completely unshielded as he stepped into your space, shutting the distance between you until you could feel the heat radiating off his chest.
"Two years," Michael breathed, his long fingers reaching out, resting flat on the counter on either side of your hips, effectively trapping you. He leaned down, his face inches from yours, his breath hot against your lips. "Two years of you fighting me on every syllabus, every grade, every single sentence I speak."
"Professor," you whispered, though you didn't move an inch to escape. Your heart was hammering a frantic, deafening rhythm against your ribs.
"They have a betting pool," Michael murmured, a slow, wicked smile tugging at the corner of his lips, though his eyes remained intensely dark. "They think I hate you."
"Don't you?"
Michael leaned in a fraction closer, his nose brushing against yours, the agonizing slowburn of the entire semester collapsing into a single, breathless point of gravity. "I've spent two years trying to convince myself I did," he whispered against your lips before stepping back, handing you a small black umbrella–he knew you didn’t bring one.
Your eyelids flutter.
“W–What?” you meekly squeak out.
But Michael did not react or reply to you. He simply grabbed his blazer, turned on his heels and left the room–leaving you in a flustered mess of confusion and a warmth spreading up your neck.
The next week, the building felt entirely too small.
You had spent nights tossing and turning, the phantom scent of his perfume practically embedded in your nostrils, your mind looping over his whispered confession like a broken record. By the time you arrived on campus, you were running entirely on pure adrenaline, and a desperate, clawing need to reset the boundary line between you. You needed the friction back. You needed him to be the infuriating, traditionalist Professor Jackson again, because whatever happened in the lounge last night was something you aren’t ready to face.
Stepping into the cramped copier room to prep your Monday handouts, you slammed the paper tray open with a little too much force.
"The machine didn't do anything to offend you," a low, smooth voice murmured from the doorway.
Your heart violently leaped into your throat. You spun around, your back hitting the edge of the industrial copier.
Michael stood in the threshold, looking entirely too collected for a man who had completely disoriented your sanity just two days prior. He was wearing a stark, crisp white button-down, the top two buttons undone, his silver-rimmed reading glasses were back on, perched firmly on his nose as he flipped through a grading rubric.
"I am fine, Professor," you said, your voice coming out sharper and faster than you intended. "I am just trying to fix this tray. Which wouldn't be broken if certain faculty members didn't abuse the machine for their ninety-page reading packets."
Michael raised an eyebrow, slowly stepping into the room. The space was tiny, barely enough for two people to pass each other–and as he closed the distance, the warmth radiating off him instantly made the air feel thick and suffocating.
"Is that a critique of my curriculum, or are you just looking for a reason to argue?" he asked softly, a tiny, infuriating hint of amusement tugging at the corner of his lips. He stopped just a foot away, reaching past your shoulder to grab a stack of collated sheets from the output tray.
Your breath hitched. Your eyes locked onto his long fingers, then involuntarily drifted up the smooth skin of his forearm where his sleeves were rolled up. The memory of those exact fingers resting flat against the counter on either side of your hips last Friday flashed so vividly in your mind that you squeezed your eyes for a moment to collect yourself.
"I don't need a reason to argue with you," you muttered, desperately trying to keep your voice steady as you fumbled with a ream of paper. "You provide plenty of material on your own."
"Do I?" Michael murmured. He didn't step back. In fact, he shifted just an inch closer, his shoulder nearly brushing yours. He lowered his head slightly, looking at you over the rims of his glasses, his dark eyes intensely focused on your face. "You seem rattled today. Did you not sleep well?"
"I slept perfectly," you lied, your voice dropping an octave as you tried to glare at him, trying to summon every ounce of the academic rivalry that had kept you safe for two years. "I was just...thinking about how flawed your argument was. It's completely outdated."
Michael let out that soft, breathy chuckle, but it felt different today–heavier, slower. He took a single, deliberate step, his chest practically crowding you against the plastic frame of the copier. He reached out, his hand resting on the machine right next to your hand, his knuckles brushing against your pinky finger. The sliver of contact was dizzying.
"Outdated," he repeated, his voice dropping into that quiet, velvety register that made your knees feel violently weak. He leaned down a fraction, his gaze dropping to your lips for a split second before rising back to your eyes. "If it’s so outdated, why are you trembling?"
"It's the coffee," you squeaked out, your carefully constructed facade completely crumbling under the gravity of his proximity. You pressed yourself harder against the machine, your face burning, your breath coming in shallow, uneven intervals. "I really should switch to decaf you know–"
His lips twisted into a slow, devastatingly handsome smile that told you he knew what he was doing to you. He tapped his long fingers against the paper stack, finally straightening up and stepping back, breaking the spell just enough for the cool air of the room to rush back between you. "Have a good lecture. Try not to let my outdated perspective distract you too much."
He turned on his heel and slipped out of the room, leaving you gripping the edge of the copier tray, your chest heaving in the quiet room as you tried to remember how to breathe.
The relentless, rhythmic thump-thump of the department’s old radiator felt like a physical stab driving directly into your temple.
It was now mid-November, the sky outside the high faculty lounge windows a miserable gray. You sat hunched over your desk, one hand pressed firmly against your forehead, your eyes squeezed shut against the harsh glare of the fluorescent lights. Before you sat a towering mountain of midterm essays—unopened, unread, and due by tomorrow morning.
Your stomach let out a low, hollow growl, reminding you that your last meal had been a stale granola bar at six o'clock this morning. But the mere thought of navigating the noisy campus cafeteria made the nausea behind your eyes flare up with violent intensity. You couldn't move. You just stayed there, paralyzed in your swivel chair, letting the quiet misery of the migraine wash over you.
The heavy oak door swung open with a soft, familiar creak.
You didn't look up. You didn't have the strength to put up your usual defensive walls, even though the faint, unmistakable scent of sandalwood immediately told your brain exactly who had walked in. You just tightened your grip on your forehead, waiting for the inevitable sharp jab about your disorganized desk or your sluggish grading pace.
Instead, the soft patter of his loafers stopped a respectful distance away. The room went completely silent for a long moment.
"You look dead," Michael said softly.
His voice wasn't laced with the usual competitive edge, nor was it the breathy, dangerous whisper from the copier room. It was quiet. Carefully measured. Almost clinical in its gentleness.
"Gee, way to compliment a woman," you muttered into the palm of your hand, your voice sounding thick and strained even to your own ears. "Just...reviewing the contemporary prose you despise so much."
A subtle rustle of fabric followed. When you tentatively opened one eye, tilting your head up just a fraction, you saw that Michael had already set his leather briefcase down. He had taken off his glasses, folding them neatly into his breast pocket. He was looking down at you, his dark eyes narrowed in a focused, evaluating squint.
"You haven't touched your tea," he noted, gesturing to the entirely cold, untouched mug sitting at the edge of your desk. "Is it a migraine?"
"I'm fine," you whispered, the pitch of your own voice making your temple throb.
Michael didn't argue. He didn't offer an annoying counter-point. Instead, he smoothly turned on his heel and walked across the lounge. You closed your eyes again, expecting him to sit at his own desk and leave you to your self-inflicted misery.
A sharp click echoed through the room.
Suddenly, the harsh, aggressive buzz of the fluorescent lights vanished, plunging the faculty lounge into a soft, dim glow, illuminated only by the gray afternoon light filtering through the rain-streaked windows. The instant relief was so great you let out a long, involuntary sigh, your shoulders dropping an inch.
Before you could process the gesture, the soft sound of his footsteps returned.
"Lean back," Michael commanded quietly.
You opened your eyes. He was standing right beside your swivel chair. In his hand, he held a pristine, folded white handkerchief that smelled faintly of lavender.
"Michael, I have sixty essays to–"
"They can wait an hour," he interrupted, his voice dropping into a firm tone that brooked absolutely no argument. "And your students would prefer a coherent grade over one crammed as you sit here like a zombie. Now, please. Lean back."
Too exhausted to fight him, you let your head fall against the high back of the swivel chair, staring up at him through a blurred, painful haze.
Michael moved with an incredible, deliberate slowness. He leaned down, his large, beautiful hands reached out, and for a terrifying second, you thought he was going to touch your face—your heart did a frantic, ridiculous leap despite the pain.
"Close your eyes," he murmured.
You complied, shutting your eyes in the dim room. A moment later, the cool, damp weight of the handkerchief was gently laid across your forehead and eyes. The soothing, icy scent of peppermint and lavender immediately cut through the stale air of the lounge, numbing the sharp ache in your temples.
Then came the rustle of a brown paper bag being placed on your desk, right next to your keyboard.
"I bought a chicken salad sandwich from the cafeteria earlier," Michael’s voice drifted down, sounding closer than before. "I haven't touched it. You need to eat something."
You lay there under the cloth, a completely different kind of flush spreading up your neck. The hostility that had defined the last two years felt incredibly distant, melting away into the quiet, dim room.
"Thank you, Michael," you whispered meekly from beneath the handkerchief.
There was a long, heavy pause. For a second, you wondered if he had already stood up to leave. But then, you felt the incredibly light, ghost-like brush of his long fingers against the side of your hair, tucked carefully behind your ear, ensuring the fabric wouldn't slip.
"You're very welcome," Michael murmured, his voice incredibly soft, devoid of any restraint or games. "Eat the sandwich. I'll take the top twenty essays from your pile to my desk."
"Michael, no, with your bias, you'll fail them–”
A soft, breathy, genuine chuckle echoed beside your ear, warming the chilled air of the lounge. "I will be very fair. Now be quiet and rest."
The morning sun was surprisingly bright the next day as you walked down the corridor with a distinct, uncharacteristic spring in your step, your head completely clear of the violent throbbing that had ruined you the day before. In your hands, you carefully balanced a cardboard drink carrier holding a hot cup of decaf coffee and a small, grease-stained paper bag from the bakery down the street.
Your heart was doing acrobatics against your ribs—not from the usual defensive irritation, but from a genuine nervousness. You had spent the entire morning convincing yourself that this was a strictly professional transaction. A simple, polite way to thank him. He took twenty of your essays, you brought him breakfast. Restoring the balance.
Stopping outside the heavy door of the faculty lounge, you took a deep breath, adjusted your grip on the carrier, and pushed it open with your elbow.
The lounge was quiet, bathed in the soft morning light. Michael was already there, sitting at his large desk near the window. He looked entirely too elegant for a school morning, dressed in a crisp, blue button-down shirt with a subtle satin sheen, his reading glasses perched neatly on the bridge of his nose. Spread out across his desk were your students' contemporary essays, each one marked with his distinct handwriting in blue ink.
At the sound of the door, his dark eyes lifted from the pages, tracking you as you walked into the room.
"Good morning," Michael murmured, his voice quiet in the half empty lounge. He smoothly pulled his glasses down an inch, looking at you over the rims. "You look...significantly more alive today."
"The migraine is gone, thank you," you said, your voice coming out a little stiffer than you intended as you marched over to his desk. You carefully set the drink carrier down on an empty space on the wood of his desk, right next to his pens, before sliding the paper bag beside it. "This is for you. As a... professional courtesy. To balance the ledger."
Michael looked down at the offering, a subtle, intrigued lift to his eyebrows. He reached out, his long fingers wrapping around the hot paper cup, lifting it to read the handwritten marker on the lid.
"Decaf?" he noted, a soft, breathy hint of amusement coloring his voice.
"I remember you mentioned in the department meeting last month that regular caffeine disrupts your sleep schedule when you’re grading late," you muttered, suddenly looking anywhere but at his face, your cheeks warming slightly. "And there's a glazed donut in the bag. It's from the bakery near the train station."
Michael didn't answer right away. The silence stretched for a long, heavy moment, filled only by the distant sound of students chattering in the courtyard below.
Slowly, he leaned back in his leather chair, setting the coffee down. He pulled his reading glasses off completely, folding them and sliding them into his pocket, his dark eyes locked onto you with an intense, unshielded focus that made the safe facade feel impossible to maintain. The playful, wicked smirk from the copier room wasn't there. Instead, his expression was soft, a gentle, genuine warmth radiating from him that completely disarmed you.
"A donut," Michael repeated softly, his voice dropping into that low, velvety register. A beautiful, quiet smile broke across his face, tilting the corners of his lips in a way that made your breath catch. "That is thoughtful of you. Thank you."
"It's just a donut, Michael," you whispered meekly, your fingers instinctively gripping the edge of your clipboard like a shield. "Don't look too deeply into the subtext."
Michael let out a low, melodic chuckle, the sound rich and warm in the quiet lounge. He reached over, his long fingers gently tapping the stack of graded essays on his desk, sliding them toward you.
"The subtext is entirely clear," he murmured, his gaze rising to meet yours, dripping with the heat that had been building between you. He leaned forward just a fraction, his voice dropping an octave. "And for the record...your contemporary students aren't entirely devoid of merit. I only gave four of them a rewrite."
You let out a small, involuntary laugh, the last remnants of your defensive walls completely melting away in the morning light. "Quite the compliment from the traditionalist."
"I am capable of finding a balance," Michael whispered, his eyes holding yours with a heavy, deliberate certainty that told you he wasn't talking about the essays anymore. "When the perspective is right."
You took a step back, clutching the stack of graded essays to your chest like a shield, though the warmth radiating from the pages—or perhaps just from his proximity—was doing nothing to cool the flush on your cheeks.
"I have a 10:00 AM class," you stammered, clearing your throat in a desperate bid to reclaim a shred of your usual professional authority. "I should...I need to hand these back."
Michael’s smile lingered, small and knowing, as he picked up the paper bag. "Of course. Don't let me keep you from your duties."
Two days later, the shift between the two of you had become an anomaly in the humanities and arts department. The storm had cleared, replaced by a strange, heavy tension that everyone seemed to notice.
You were standing by the faculty mailboxes, sorting through a pile of publisher catalogs, when Professor Anderson from the Philosophy department wandered over. He leaned against the counter, holding a reheated slice of pepperoni pizza, and gave you a highly analytical look.
"You and Jackson didn't yell at each other once during the curriculum meeting yesterday," he noted, narrowing his eyes. "In fact, when you suggested adding the contemporary feminist anthology, he simply nodded and agreed. Are the two of you feeling alright?"
"We are just practicing proper manners, Arthur," you said, keeping your eyes trained on a catalog.
"It’s unsettling," Anderson muttered. "The TAs are very intrigued. The online forum has gone quiet because there's no new material to post. They think the two of you have reached a stalemate."
You forced a polite smile, grabbed your mail, and hurried down the hall before he could dissect you any further. But as you passed the classroom Michael is currently lecturing in, you could hear the faint, muffled sound of his voice slipping through the heavy wood.
Your eyes trailed near the doorknob for a fraction of a second before you shook yourself out of it and walked away.
The true test came on Friday evening.
The department was hosting its annual end-of-semester mixer in the library room. By 8:00 PM, the room was buzzing with faculty and graduate students, everyone nursing glasses of cheap white wine. You were trapped near the window–dressed in a casual black knitted form fitting dress, politely listening to the Dean talk about university parking adjustments, when you felt a sudden, familiar shift in the air.
The scent of that specific perfume you’ve grown to dread cut through the musty room.
"Good evening, Dean. Miss —," Michael’s smooth voice interrupted.
You looked up. He was wearing a structured black blazer over a dark silk button-down, his hair softly framing his face, his reading glasses tucked neatly into his breast pocket. He held two glasses of wine, smoothly extending one toward you.
"Michael," the Dean beamed. "We were just discussing the budget for the parking expansion."
Michael hummed, though his dark eyes didn't look at the Dean at all. They were fixed entirely on you, tracking the way the soft lamplight caught the line of your throat. "But if you'll excuse us, sir, I actually need to consult Miss – on a matter regarding the upcoming Marxist seminar."
"Ah," the Dean chuckled, completely oblivious to the sudden, suffocating gravity that had just draped over you. "Carry on, then."
The moment the Dean wandered off, Michael stepped into the empty space he left behind, effectively cutting you off from the rest of the crowded room. The soft murmur of faculty chatter faded into background noise.
"You've been avoiding me," Michael said softly, taking a sip of his wine. His voice was incredibly low, meant for your ears alone.
"I haven't been avoiding you, Professor," you whispered, holding the wine glass tightly to keep your fingers from trembling. "I've just been busy."
"Is that so?" Michael leaned in a fraction closer, his chest nearly brushing your shoulder. He set his wine glass down on a nearby display case, his long fingers resting flat on the polished wood, just inches from your hip. "Busy avoiding the faculty lounge? The classrooms I am lecturing at?"
Your breath caught. You looked up, meeting his gaze. The playful, competitive look he usually wore was completely gone, replaced by a raw, heavy intensity that made the entire room feel like it was spinning.
"Michael," you breathed, your voice barely audible over the clinking of glasses around you. "The students...everyone is watching."
"Let’s get out of here," he whispered against your ear, his breath hot and tingly on your skin. He tilted his head slightly, his dark eyes locking onto your lips before rising back to yours with a quiet, unyielding certainty.
Before you could formulate a sharp remark, Michael’s long fingers gently but firmly wrapped around your wrist. The heat of his bare skin against your pulse point sent a violent jolt straight up your spine.
Without a word, he guided you away from the velvet drapes and the soft glow of the library, navigating the crowded edges of the library with an effortless, quiet authority. You followed him blindly, your fingers instinctively tightening around the stem of your wine glass to keep the liquid from sloshing over the edge.
He pushed through a heavy gray door at the end of the corridor, leading you into a secluded, concrete stairwell. The door clicked shut behind you, instantly cutting off the ambient chatter of the mixer. The air out here was cool, smelling faintly of old dust, damp rain from the ventilation shaft, and the sudden, overwhelming rush of his cologne.
Michael didn’t stop until he had guided you down the first small flight of stairs, tucked neatly beneath the shadow of the concrete landing, completely hidden from the view of the door’s small glass window.
You backed up until the cool, rough surface of the concrete wall pressed against your shoulder blades. Michael stepped directly into your space, shutting down the distance so completely that your chest brushed against the soft fabric of his blazer with every ragged breath you took. He didn't trap you with his hands this time–he simply stood there, his tall frame looming over you, his eyes dark and entirely unshielded in the dim, amber safety light of the stairwell.
"Michael," you breathed, your voice echoing softly against the concrete. You lifted the wine glass, holding it between your chests like a pathetic barrier. "What are you doing? If anyone comes out here–"
"No one is coming out here," Michael interrupted, his voice a low, rough murmur that was entirely devoid of his usual academic poise. He reached out, his fingers gently wrapping around the mouth of your wine glass. Slowly, he took it from your trembling grip and set it down on the concrete step behind him, never once breaking eye contact.
When he turned back to you, the sheer gravity of his focus made your knees feel weak.
You swallowed.
"Two years," you whispered. "Two years of you tearing apart my curriculum, judging my choices, fighting me on every single thing I brought to the table. If you didn't hate me...why were you always fighting me, Michael?"
Michael let out a soft, ragged breath, his chest heaving under his dark silk shirt. He stepped even closer, his thighs brushing against yours, the heat radiating off his body completely obliterating the chill of the stairwell.
"Because it was the only way I could handle being in the same room as you," he confessed softly, his voice dropping into a raw, velvety register that vibrated straight through you. He reached up, his large hand cradling the side of your neck, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw with a sudden, fierce tenderness. "Every time you argued with me, every time you showed us how intelligent you are, every time you looked at me with that stubborn defiance...all I wanted to do was pull you out of those meetings and do exactly what I’m about to do right now."
Your breath caught in your throat. "Michael–"
"I was terrified," he whispered against your lips, his dark eyes burning into yours. "Terrified of how much control you had over me without even trying. The restraint wasn't because I hated you. It was because I was trying to save myself from losing my mind."
"You've lost it now," you murmured, your hands finally reaching out, your fingers tangling into the soft velvet of his lapels, pulling him down.
"You’ll be correct," Michael breathed.
And then, the two years of that agonizing burn collapsed completely.
Michael leaned down and captured your lips in a kiss that was entirely unprofessorial—deep, bruising, and heavy with a frantic hunger that had been suppressed for far too long. A low, breathless sound escaped your throat as his hand slid down to your neck, his long fingers wrapping around you with a delicious pressure, pinning you firmly against the concrete wall.
The cool stone at your back contrasted sharply with the intoxicating, suffocating heat of his body. His tongue parted your lips with a smooth, demanding certainty, tasting faintly of the white wine and something so distinctly him.
Michael shifted closer, his knee sliding between your thighs, anchoring you to him as his kisses turned deeper, trailing a burning path from your lips down to the sensitive skin of your jawline, his damp hair brushing against your cheek. He let out a low, rough growl against your neck, his grip tightening slightly on your jaw, his thumb drawing circles on your skin, pulling you so flush against him that you could feel the frantic, erratic thumping of his heart beating in perfect synchronization with your own.
"Tell me to stop," Michael murmured against your skin, his voice thick and breathless, his fingers sliding on top of the strap of your dress. "Tell me to be the traditional schmuck you hate...tell me right now."
You pulled him back up by his lapels, your eyes half-lidded and dark with the same craving, looking directly into the face of the man who had been your rival and your most agonizing obsession.
"Don't you dare stop, Professor," you whispered.
Michael’s lips curved into a handsome, entirely undone smile before he crushed his mouth back against yours, completely shattering the last remaining boundaries between the two of you.
You pull your mouth back slightly, his wet lips seeking you out as you did.
“We shouldn’t do this here. We might get fired,” you breathed out, trying to gain back a semblance of dignity you’ve lost in this fire exit.
He ran his thumb on the dampness of your swollen lower lip. “I thought you were the modern one?” he smirks.
You roll your eyes before grabbing his arm. “Let’s just go, old man.”
Michael let out a soft, melodic chuckle, the sound vibrating deep in his chest as he watched you roll your eyes. Even in this moment—disheveled, breathless, and caught in the heat of a two year tension finally snapping he couldn't help but find you endearing.
"Old man?" he repeated, his voice still low and husky, though a glimmer of his usual playful charm had returned to his eyes. "Careful. You keep calling me that, and you might find out exactly how much energy this 'old man' still has."
As you began to lead him down the remaining flight of stairs of the fire exit, his hand slid down to catch yours, his long fingers interlacing with yours in a grip that was firm and certain.
As you stepped out of the dim light of the stairwell and toward the well lit university parking lot, you turned to look at him–making him slightly stumble from the sudden pause.
"Is your place around? My apartment is two train stations away," your eyes catch on the cool night air blowing his hair.
He hummed thoughtfully, a low sound in the back of his throat. "My place is much closer," he said, his voice regaining that smooth authority. "And much warmer."
The moment the heavy door to his house clicked shut behind you, Michael didn't even give you a chance to kick off your heels or take the foyer in—he had you backed against the wall, his body a sudden weight that demanded your entire attention.
The kiss wasn't like the one in the stairwell. This was deep, possessive, and hungry. It was the kiss of a man who was finally home, and you were the prize he had been chasing for two years.
His hands were everywhere at once—one palm flat against the wall beside your head, anchoring you, while the other slid into your hair, his fingers tangling in the strands to tilt your head back, exposing the line of your throat to his lips.
"Finally," he groaned against your mouth, the sound muffled and raw.
He broke the kiss just long enough to press his forehead against yours, both of you breathing as if you’d just run a marathon. His eyes were dark and burning with an intensity that made the air in the hallway feel thick and heavy.
"No more games," he whispered, his voice dropping to that low, commanding register that always made your heart skip. "No more pretending we want to tear each other apart."
“At least not in the way we were doing,” he added.
He trailed his lips down to the sensitive dip of your collarbone, his teeth grazing your skin just enough to make you gasp.
"You're mine tonight," he murmured, his breath hot against your skin. "Do you understand?."
He pulled back just an inch, his gaze searching yours to see if you were ready to let go of that last shred of professional dignity.
"Tell me you're ready," he challenged softly, a small, lopsided smirk playing on his lips. "Tell me you're done playing games."
You didn’t succumb yet. You let your eyes wander down his handsome face and into the pale expanse of his neck.
“The traditional Professor Jackson, crumbling in front of me,” you challenged him, a dark glint in your eyes. “Guess I won in the students’ betting pool huh, you were the first to crumble.”
Michael froze for a split second, his eyes widening in surprise before a genuine laugh erupted from his throat.
He shook his head, an uncharacteristic boyish grin breaking through his features.
“Oh really?” he leans in closer. “Then why does it feel like I am the one who won.”
At that, you were lost for words. You swallowed hard as you felt yourself being unraveled by him.
“But if you want to talk about winning,” he whispered, his voice dropping into that smooth, authoritative tone, “then I’ll show you just how happy I lost to you.”
Without giving you a chance to retort, he captured your lips again, but this time there was no hesitation. He swept you up into his arms, his strength effortless as he began to carry you toward his bedroom, his kisses never breaking, blindly navigating his house, leaving you breathless and completely at his mercy.
When he finally reached his bedroom, he lowered you onto the soft, silk sheets with a gentleness that contrasted sharply with the hunger in his eyes.
Before you could even catch your breath, he was over you, bracing himself on his forearms so he could look down at you. The moonlight filtered through the large windows, casting long, elegant shadows across his face, highlighting the sharp line of his jaw and the sheer intensity of his gaze.
“Beautiful,” he choked out as if he’s being tortured. He descended and planted a string of wet, languid kisses on your throat. His hands traveled down to slowly bunch up the hem of your dress, and efficiently peel it off you.
You were left in your unassuming pair of nude strapless bra and nude panties.
Suddenly, a wave of intense self-consciousness crashed through the haze of desire. The confident, argumentative facade you had worn for two years evaporated in an instant. Your arms instinctively moved up to cover your chest.
Michael felt the shift in your energy immediately. He was a man who lived by observation, he noticed the way your breath hitched, the way your eyes darted away, and most tellingly, the way your hands flew up to shield your chest, trying to hide yourself from his gaze.
He stopped his descent, his lips hovering just inches from your skin, and looked up.
"Hey," he murmured, his voice dropping into an incredibly gentle, quiet register that made your chest ache. He pulled away slightly to search your eyes, trying to meet your downcast gaze. "What is it? Did I...did I go too fast? I can stop."
"No, it's not...it's not that," you whispered, your face burning a mortified crimson in the dim light of his room. You tightened your arms around yourself, your voice cracking with a sudden, raw vulnerability. "It's just...I'm small, Michael."
Michael blinked, his brow furrowing behind a stray, damp curl that had fallen across his forehead. "I don't understand."
You swallowed hard, looking anywhere but at his face. "I've seen the types of women who usually try to get your attention at the university galas. The visiting lecturers...they're all so...voluptuous. I just assumed you liked your women big and full."
As the words left your mouth, you felt stupid as you heard yourself.
A heavy, profound silence fell over the both of you.
Michael hovered completely still, letting your words hang in the cool air. Then, a slow, incredibly tender expression softened his sharp features. He didn't make a witty jab, and he didn't use his sophisticated, professorial vocabulary to dissect your insecurity.
Instead, he simply reached out. His large, beautiful hands were warm and completely steady as they gently took hold of your wrists, gently but firmly coaxing your arms away from your chest and held them loosely, pinning them to the bed beside your head so you had no choice but to be seen.
"You think I care about the textbook definition of beauty?" Michael whispered, his voice incredibly low, vibrating with a fierce, quiet intensity.
He shifted, propping himself up on one elbow so he could truly take you in. His eyes traveled over you not with the clinical eye of a professor, but with the reverence of a man looking at a masterpiece. He lingered on the curve of your waist, the slope of your hips, and finally, the soft swell of your breasts.
"Look at me," he commanded softly.
You lifted your eyes to meet his. His dark eyes were burning, entirely unshielded, looking at you with a heavy, intoxicating hunger that made your breath hitch.
"I have spent two years looking at you across meeting tables, completely losing my train of thought because of the way you tilt your head when you're angry," Michael murmured, his thumb tracing your collarbone with a devastating, slow certainty. "I didn't fall for an abstract concept or a physical archetype. I fell for you. Every single inch of you is exactly what I've been starving for."
He leaned in, his nose brushing against yours, his breath hot and sweet against your lips. "You are more than enough. You are everything."
"You are perfection, the woman I’ve been craving for years," he whispered against your skin, his voice thick with conviction. "And if you ever try to hide from me again, I might just have to find a way to make sure you never want to cover up in my presence ever again."
Your face flushed red. “Y–You really are a literature professor.”
Michael bit his lower lip as he smiled. “I’m not just charming you with my words. When I speak, I mean them.”
The sound of your bra clasp clicking open was loud in the quiet of the room. Michael didn't rush. He was a man who understood the power of anticipation, and he knew that the most beautiful things in life were meant to be savored, not devoured. As the fabric fell away, he didn't immediately move to touch you. Instead, he stayed exactly where he was, hovering over you, his eyes drinking in the sight of you completely unburdened.
The moonlight seemed to cling to your skin, making you glow against the dark silk of his sheets. He looked at you with such profound, quiet intensity that it felt more intimate than the kiss had been. There was no judgment in his gaze, no comparison to some imaginary standard–only a deep, simmering hunger and a reverence that made your heart ache.
"God," he breathed, the word barely a whisper.
He reached out, his long, slender fingers tracing the softness of your waist before sliding upward. He was so careful, so incredibly gentle, as if he were afraid that a single heavy touch might shatter the moment. His fingertips grazed the underside of your breasts, a light, teasing pressure that sent a jolt of electricity straight to your core.
He watched your reaction closely, his eyes tracking the way your breath hitched and the way your skin pebbled under his touch. He saw the way your eyes fluttered shut, and a low, satisfied hum vibrated in his chest.
"See?" he murmured, his voice a velvet caress as he leaned down, his lips hovering just a fraction of an inch from your skin. "You don't need to hide. Not from me. Never from me."
He lowered his head, his mouth finally making contact. He didn't go for a deep, demanding kiss this time. Instead, he began to pepper light, feather soft kisses across your chest, his tongue tracing the swell of your breasts with agonizing slowness. He was worshiping you, treating every inch of your skin as if it were sacred ground.
As he moved, his hands wandered, one cupping you firmly while the other slid down to the waistband of your panties, his thumb hooking into the fabric. He looked up at you through his lashes, his dark eyes hooded and heavy with desire.
"You have no idea," he whispered, his voice thick and husky, "how many nights I spent imagining exactly how you would feel under my hands. How you would taste."
He leaned in, his lips brushing against your nipple, a soft, teasing graze that made you arch your back instinctively toward him.
"Now," he commanded softly, his gaze locking onto yours, "let me see my winner."
The sensation of his mouth warm, wet, and incredibly focused sent waves of heat crashing through you, making your head toss back against the pillows. Every time his tongue swirled around the peak of your breast, a fresh jolt of electricity raced down your spine, pooling heavily in your pelvis.
But as the cotton of your panties was peeled away, the cool air hit your damp skin, and the sudden vulnerability made you gasp.
Michael didn't look away. He didn't even pause his worship of your breasts. Instead, he shifted his weight, sliding down the bed with a predatory grace until he was positioned between your thighs. He looked up at you, his dark hair slightly mussed, his eyes dark and heavy with a hunger that was almost frightening in its intensity.
He saw the way you were glistening, the way your body was practically humming with the need he had awakened.
"Look at you," he murmured, his voice a low, gravelly vibration that seemed to resonate in your very bones. "So ready for me."
He reached out, his long, elegant fingers spreading your damp folds as his face hovered just above you. He watched your hips lift instinctively toward him, a silent, desperate plea for contact.
"You're so beautiful when you're like this," he whispered, his gaze dropping to where you were most aroused. "No more sarcasm. No more rolling your eyes. Just this."
He leaned forward, his breath hot and teasing against your desire, making you tremble uncontrollably. He was being deliberate, agonizingly slow, savoring the way your body reacted to the mere promise of his touch.
"Do you want me?" he asked, his voice dropping to a commanding, velvet rasp. He looked up, his eyes locking onto yours, demanding an answer, demanding your honesty. "Tell me. Tell me exactly what you want me to do to you."
He didn't move to satisfy you just yet. He waited, his thumb finally making a slow, torturous circle on your inner thigh, watching your eyes cloud with hunger, waiting for you to break and admit just how much power he truly had over you.
“Please, Michael. I want you,” you choked out.
The moment the words left your lips, a low, guttural sound escaped his throat a mix of a groan and a triumphant laugh. He loved the way your voice broke, the way the poised, intellectual woman he had debated for two years had finally dissolved into a woman who was simply, desperately, needing him.
But he didn't move to enter you. Not yet.
"Please?" he repeated, his voice a dark, velvet caress. He let the word hang in the air between you, thick with tension. "That's a start, baby. But you know me. I don't like vague answers."
He leaned down, his lips brushing against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, his breath hitching as he felt the heat radiating from you. He looked up at you through his lashes, his eyes hooded and predatory.
"Don't just tell me you want me," he whispered, his thumb applying a slow, rhythmic pressure that made your hips jerk upward. "Tell me how you want me. Do you want me to be gentle? Do you want me to take control?"
He leaned in closer, his tongue darting out to give a kitten lick directly on your swollen nub.
"Do you want to feel me everywhere?" He paused, his fingers teasing the very center of your arousal, watching your eyes blow wide with pleasure. "Be specific, baby. Tell me exactly how you want me to please you."
He was testing you, pushing you to strip away the last of your inhibitions. He wanted to hear the raw, unadulterated truth of your hunger, because he knew that once you gave it to him, he wouldn't stop until he had satisfied every single craving you possessed.
"Want your tongue on me. P–Please,” tears practically pricked your eyes in your arousal.
The sight of those tears–the sheer, unadulterated vulnerability in your eyes was the final thread to snap his legendary self control. To see the woman who had spent years standing toe to toe with him, challenging his intellect and defying his authority, reduced to this beautiful, trembling state of need...it was more intoxicating than any wine.
"Oh, baby..." he breathed, his voice cracking with a sudden, fierce tenderness.
He didn't just go for you–he made good on his promise.
His tongue, warm and incredibly skilled, made its first, sweeping contact. He didn't start with a light tease, he went straight to your clitoris, a firm, rhythmic stroke that was so sudden and so intense it forced a sharp, broken cry from your throat.
"Is that what you want?" he murmured against your skin, his voice a low, vibrating rumble that you felt as much as heard. He pulled back just enough to look up at you, his face flushed, his eyes dark with a primal hunger. "Is this what you've been dreaming about when you challenge me?"
He didn't wait for an answer. He knew.
He dove back in, his movements becoming more frantic, more demanding. He used his tongue with a devastating precision, swirling, flicking, and applying a pressure that was perfectly calibrated to drive you to the brink. He was relentless, his head moving in a steady, hypnotic rhythm that made the world outside the bedroom disappear.
He listened to you. He listened to the way your breath hitched, the way your voice rose in pitch, and the way you called his name like a prayer. Every time you arched your back or your fingers tangled desperately in his hair, he adjusted, pushing you harder, faster, deeper into the fray.
"That's it," he groaned against you, his voice muffled by your skin. "Give it to me. Let go. Just let go..."
He could feel the tension building in your thighs, the way your entire body was coiling like a spring, ready to snap. He sensed the exact moment the waves began to crash, and he didn't let up. He increased the pace, his tongue working with a fierce, focused intensity, determined to carry you all the way to the edge and hold you there until you were nothing but pure, unadulterated sensation.
Embarrassing wet sounds echoed in the room–syncopated with your sharp mewls.
The moment the wave crashed over you, the world seemed to tilt on its axis. Your entire body jolted, a silent, breathless gasp escaping your lips as the intense, rhythmic pressure of his tongue sent you spiraling into a blinding, white hot crescendo. Your thighs tightened instinctively, your muscles clenching around him in a desperate, involuntary rhythm as you rode the peak of the sensation.
Michael didn't pull away. He felt every tremor of your muscles against his face, and he leaned into it. He stayed right there, his tongue continuing its steady, grounding work even as you shook, helping you ride out the aftershocks, ensuring that the pleasure didn't just peak, but lingered, melting into your marrow.
When he finally felt your muscles begin to relax, he slowly pulled back, his breathing heavy and ragged. He didn't immediately move up the bed. Instead, he stayed there for a moment, looking up at you from between your knees.
His face was flushed, his dark hair a mess, and his eyes were filled with satisfaction.
Slowly, he crawled up the bed, his movements fluid and predatory once more, until he was hovering over you. He braced himself on his elbows, his chest heaving as he fought to catch his breath, his gaze searching yours.
"There she is," he whispered, his voice a low, gravelly caress. He reached up, his thumb gently brushing away one of the stray tears that had escaped your eyes, his touch incredibly tender. "There's my girl."
He leaned down, pressing a long, slow, lingering kiss to your forehead, then your eyelids, and finally your lips. It wasn't a kiss of hunger this time, but one of deep, soul stirring intimacy.
"You were incredible, baby," he murmured against your mouth, a small, satisfied smirk playing on his lips. "Absolutely incredible."
He shifted his weight, his body pressing firmly against yours, the heat between you still simmering. His eyes darkened again, the playful smirk fading into something much more serious, much more commanding.
In a sudden surge of confidence, you sit up and push him down on the bed. Kissing his earlobe as you move to shred his blazer off him, unbuttoning his shirt with a frantic desperation.
Michael let out a startled, breathless laugh as you flipped the script, the sudden strength in your movements catching him completely off guard. He fell back onto the silk sheets, his head lolling back as you descended upon him like a beautiful storm.
He was a man used to being the one in control, the one who set the pace and dictated the rhythm, but as your lips grazed his earlobe and your hands worked with a desperate, uncoordinated hunger, he found himself loving the loss of it. He watched you through hooded eyes, a look of pure, unadulterated fascination on his face.
When your tongue swirled against the pulse point of his throat, a sharp, involuntary gasp escaped him, his back arching slightly off the bed. His hands came up to rest on your hips, not to push you away, but to steady himself as your touch sent jolts of electricity through his entire frame.
As you fumbled with the buttons of his slacks, your fingers trembling with the same urgency he had felt moments ago, he reached down. He didn't let you struggle–he didn't want you to feel clumsy, even if he found the desperation incredibly endearing.
His long fingers covered yours, guiding them with practiced ease. He worked the fastening of his slacks with a smooth, decisive grace. He kicked them off, leaving him in just his boxers, though the tent you had noticed was impossible to ignore, straining against the fabric.
He reached up, his hands sliding into your hair, pulling your head back just enough so he could look you dead in the eyes. His gaze was dark, heavy with a hunger that was no longer just about pleasure, but about a deep, possessive need to claim you.
"Careful, baby,” he says.
You reached down to peel his boxers off. The moment the fabric gave way, Michael let out a long, shaky exhale, his head falling back against the pillows as he surrendered himself to your gaze.
As you stared at him, he could see the exact moment your breath hitched. He saw the way your pupils dilated, the way your gaze traced the length of him, lingering on the glistening beads of his arousal that caught the moonlight. He felt a surge of intense, masculine pride, but more than that, he felt a deep, primal connection to the way you were looking at him as if he were the only thing in the world that mattered.
When your tongue finally made contact, a single, sharp sound halfway between a gasp and a groan tore from his throat.
Your fingers reached up to gently pull his foreskin down, revealing the mauve of his swollen head. The sensation of your flat, warm tongue sliding from the very base of him all the way to the sensitive, swollen tip was almost too much to bear. It was a deliberate stroke that seemed to pull the very soul out of him. His hips bucked instinctively, a reflexive movement toward the heat of your mouth, and his hands flew to the sheets, his knuckles turning white as he gripped the fabric to keep from losing himself entirely.
"God, baby..." he choked out, his voice a wrecked, gravelly whisper.
He reached down, his fingers trembling as they found their way into your hair, not to pull you away, but to guide you, to urge you closer. He watched you through heavy, hooded lids, his eyes filled with a mixture of reverence and raw, unbridled lust. He watched the way your cheeks hollowed as you worked, the way your eyes never left his, challenging him even in the height of his pleasure.
"Don't stop," he commanded, his voice dropping to a low, authoritative rasp that vibrated through his entire body. "Don't you dare stop. Use that mouth. That mouth that drove me insane."
He arched his back, his muscles tensing, his entire being focused on the exquisite, sliding friction of your mouth. He was a man of immense self control, but as you continued that long, slow, devastating stroke, he knew he was teetering on the very edge of a precipice, and he was more than ready to fall.
Michael was lost. There was only the sensation of you–the heat of your mouth, the velvet pressure of your tongue, and the way you seemed to worship him with a ferocity that left him breathless.
When the climax finally hit him, it was violent and all consuming. He let out a low, guttural roar, his hips thrusting upward as he surrendered everything to you. He felt the rhythmic, powerful pulses of his release, the warmth of him filling your mouth, a primal exchange that felt more intimate than any words they had ever spoken.
As he slumped back against the pillows, his chest heaving, his eyes squeezed shut in a moment of pure bliss, he felt the teasing sensation of you pulling away.
He opened his eyes, his vision slightly blurred, to find you sitting back on your heels, looking up at him with a look of pure, unadulterated mischief. You were a vision of beautiful, delicious defiance.
He watched, mesmerized and completely undone, as you made a show of it. You held the weight of his release in your mouth, a silent, provocative display of your devotion, before slowly, deliberately, swallowing every last drop. When you finally opened your mouth, showing him the emptiness, a lopsided, stunned grin spread across his face.
"You...you are a menace," he rasped, his voice sounding like it had been dragged through gravel. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he cupped your jaw, his thumb tracing the curve of your lower lip. His eyes were dark, burning with a new kind of intensity.
He reaches out to squeeze your jaw firmly–not enough to hurt, but just enough to make your lips pucker and open slightly ajar.
Michael let out a soft, breathless chuckle at the sight of your lips, his fingers clutching on the soft curves of your cheeks. He was still reeling, his heart hammering a frantic rhythm against his ribs, but the sheer audacity of your spirit was the most intoxicating thing he had ever experienced.
As he leaned in to taste the remnants of himself on your lips, his movements were slow, deliberate, and incredibly sensual. He traced the line of your chin, the edge of your teeth, and finally your lips, his tongue sweeping over you as he tasted his essence. Feeling a primal sort of hunger as he tasted himself on your skin.
When he finally pulled back, he saw the way your eyes were clouded with a beautiful, hazy daze–the look of a woman who had been thoroughly, wonderfully undone.
Then you spoke. "Can I ride you, professor?"
Michael froze for a fraction of a second, his dark eyes widening slightly before they darkened into something much more intense, much more predatory.
He didn't answer with words immediately. Instead, he reached down, his hands sliding firmly under your thighs, and with a single, powerful movement, he lifted you and swung your legs over his hips. He settled you directly on top of him, the friction of your heat meeting his arousal making him hiss through his teeth.
He gripped your waist, his fingers digging in just enough to let you know he was holding on, his gaze locked onto yours with an unwavering, authoritative heat.
"You're so hungry for me," he murmured, his eyes searching yours, demanding you meet his intensity. "Want to ride the man you loathed, huh?"
He gave your hips a firm, guiding nudge, a silent command to begin, his eyes never leaving yours as he waited to see just how much more of your composure you were willing to lose.
You bit your lower lip as you sank down, your hands coming up to clutch his shoulders, The girth of his length stretching you deliciously–the pain becoming something you’re seeking.
Michael’s breath hitched, a sharp, jagged sound that caught in the back of his throat as he felt you begin to descend. He watched you with an intensity that was almost overwhelming, his eyes tracking every micro expression on your face, every flicker of sensation that crossed your features.
As you sank down, he felt the incredible, tight friction of you stretching to accommodate him. He could feel the way your internal muscles pulsed and gripped him, a sensation so intense it made his entire body tremble.
“Y–You’re too big,” you whimpered as you stilled.
"Shhh, easy, baby... easy," he murmured, his voice a low, soothing rumble, though his own eyes were burning with a fierce, hungry light.
He didn't let you struggle, he reached up, his large, warm hands sliding from your waist to the base of your skull, his fingers digging slightly into your skin to give you something to anchor yourself to. He watched your face, his gaze incredibly observant, reading the way your brow furrowed and the way your eyes squeezed shut.
"Look at me," he commanded softly, not because he wanted to distract you, but because he wanted to be the only thing you saw in the midst of that delicious pain. "Don't close your eyes. Stay with me."
As you struggled to take the full length of him, he leaned forward, pressing his chest against yours to provide a sense of stability. He began to move his hips in a tiny, microscopic upward tilt, a subtle, rhythmic nudge meant to help you find your rhythm, to help your body learn to accept him.
"You're doing so well," he whispered, his voice thick with pride and desire. "Just breathe. Slow, deep breaths for me, sweetheart. Let it happen. Let me in."
His thumb stroked the sensitive skin just below your ear. He was being patient, being the anchor you needed, but the way his hips were twitching, the way his breath was coming in short, heavy gasps, betrayed how much he was fighting to remain composed.
"You're so tight f’ me, so perfect," he groaned, his head falling back for a second as the sensation of you enveloping him reached a fever pitch. "Take it all. Take all of me. You were made for me."
He waited, his eyes locked onto yours, watching with a predator's patience.
The moment you finally bottomed out, sinking all the way down until there was no space left between your bodies, Michael let out a sound that was pure, unadulterated animalism. It was a low, guttural roar of triumph and sheer, overwhelming sensation.
You let out a loud, uninhibited groan, the sound of your pleasure electrifying the very air in the room. He felt the exact moment your clitoris made contact with the soft, warm thatch of hair at the base of his pelvis, the friction of the movement sending a jolt of lightning straight to his core.
"Yes," he gasped. His hands, which had been steadying you on your nape, slid down, his fingers digging into the flesh of your hips with a possessive, bruising intensity. He needed to hold you there–he needed to feel the weight of you, the heat of you, the way you were perfectly, impossibly molded to him.
"That's it, baby...just like that," he groaned, his voice a wrecked, velvet rasp.
He began to move. He took control of the tempo, his hips rising to meet yours in a slow, grinding rhythm. He wasn't just thrusting, he was rotating his pelvis, a calculated, torturous movement designed to ensure that every single time you moved, you were being rubbed against that sensitive spot.
He watched your face with a beautiful focus. He saw the way your head tossed back, the way your lips were parted in a constant, breathless gasp, and the way your eyes were rolled back in pure, unadulterated ecstasy.
"Look at you," he whispered, his voice trembling with the effort of his own restraint. "Look at how you take me. So beautiful...so greedy for it."
He leaned up, his mouth finding yours in a kiss that was frantic and hungry, tasting the salt of your skin and the sweetness of your moans. He was driving you toward the edge, his movements becoming more deliberate, more powerful, as he felt your internal muscles beginning to quiver and tighten around him once more.
"Don't hold back," he commanded, his hips hitting yours with a firm, rhythmic thud that echoed the pounding of your hearts.
You looked down at him, your mouth dropping open in short ragged gasps as your hips struggled to grind down at him.
Michael was in a trance, a state of pure, sensory overload where the only thing that existed was the friction of your body against his and the rhythmic, grinding heat of your hips. He was watching you with a gaze so intense it felt like he was trying to memorize the very soul of you, his breathing coming in heavy, jagged lunges that mirrored your own.
Your eyes travel on his face, taking in his damp eyebrows, his wide eyes, and his swollen, pink lips. You can’t help but reach down, your finger breaking the trance of his gaze to slide into his mouth, he didn't flinch. Instead, his eyes widened a fraction more, a flash of dark, delighted surprise crossing his features.
He let out a muffled, vibrating hum against your finger, the sound resonating deep in his chest. He didn't try to pull away, he leaned into the sensation, his lips parting wider to accommodate you. His tongue instinctively swirled around your fingertip, tasting the salt of your skin and the lingering heat of your touch. He provided a suction around your fingertips, the sound echoing a loud squelch.
He looked up at you through his lashes, his expression a heady mix of submission and command. He was letting you play with him, letting you assert this small, beautiful dominance, but the way his hands tightened on your hips told a different story.
"Is this how contemporary girls fuck?" he asks, the words vibrating against your skin as he pulls back just enough to speak, his voice a wrecked, velvet rasp. His lips were indeed swollen, a deep, bruised pink, and they looked incredibly inviting.
He suddenly gripped your wrist, his fingers firm but gentle, and slowly, deliberately, guided your finger out of his mouth. He didn't let go of your hand, instead, he licked up your palm, his eyes never leaving yours.
"You want to play, baby?" he whispered, a dangerous, beautiful glint returning to his eyes. "You want to see how much you can get away with?"
In one fluid, powerful motion, he gripped your waist and surged upward, maneuvering both of you so he is now on top of you–his hips meeting yours with a sudden, forceful thrust that sent a shockwave of sensation through both of you. He caught your mouth in a bruising, hungry kiss, his tongue demanding entry as he increased the tempo of his grinding.
"Fuck," he growled against your lips, his movements becoming more frantic, more primal. "You're mine. Every inch of you is mine."
You twist and thrash under him, the sensation of his dick hammering inside you becoming too much.
“Kiss me,” you plead, desperate for an anchor.
The sound of your plea, so soft amidst the heavy, rhythmic sound of your bodies colliding, shattered whatever remaining composure Michael had left. He saw the tears shimmering in your eyes, the way they caught the dim light, and the sheer, desperate hunger in your gaze. It wasn't just about the physical sensation anymore–it was about the connection, the soul deep need to be consumed by him.
"Anything," he rasped, his voice breaking. "Anything you want, baby."
He devoured you. He surged downward, his hands sliding from your hips to cup your face, his fingers tangling in your hair to tilt your head back perfectly. His mouth crashed against yours with a ferocity that was almost overwhelming, a desperate, starving collision of lips and tongues. It was a kiss that tasted of sweat, salt, and an almost painful level of devotion.
As he kissed you, he didn't slow down. If anything, the plea seemed to possess him. He drove into you with a renewed, frantic energy, his hips hammering against yours in a relentless, driving rhythm. He wanted to drown out the world, to drown out the very concept of thought, leaving nothing behind but the sensation of being one single, pulsing entity.
He felt the tension in your body reaching a breaking point, the way your fingers dug into his shoulders, the way your breath hitched in a way that signaled the end was near. He could feel the tremors starting in your thighs, the way your internal muscles were beginning to spasm around him in a frantic, rhythmic dance.
"That's it...that's it," he urged, his voice a low, vibrating command. He increased the pace, his movements becoming shorter, harder, more urgent. "Don't hold back. Give it all to me. Give me everything!"
He was right there with you, teetering on the edge of the same precipice, his own climax building like a tidal wave, ready to crash over both of you and sweep everything else away.
He reached down, swiping his thumb rapidly on your clitoris–hungry for your release.
Michael saw the exact moment the world broke for you.
As his thumb made that final, violent, and perfectly placed stroke against your clitoris, he felt the shift in your body. He felt your entire frame go rigid, your muscles coiling like a spring before snapping into a state of pure, electric tension. When your thighs locked around his waist, clamping him tight against your heat, it was as if you were trying to fuse your soul to his.
The sound you made that high, broken cry as your neck surged upward and your eyes rolled back was the most beautiful thing he had ever heard. It was the sound of total surrender.
"There she is!" he moaned, the sound torn from the depths of his lungs.
The sheer intensity of your climax, the way your internal walls began to spasm in a frantic, rhythmic milking of him, was the final trigger. Michael’s own control, which he had fought so hard to maintain, disintegrated completely.
He let out a choked, guttural groan, his head snapping into the mattress beside your head as his body shook violently. He thrust one last time, burying himself as deep as humanly possible inside you, his entire being focused on the sensation of your pulsing heat. He came with a force that felt like it was tearing the soul right out of his chest, his hips shuddering in a series of powerful, unrelenting pulses that seemed to go on forever.
For a long, long time, the only sound in the room was the frantic, ragged symphony of your breathing and the heavy, rhythmic thud of two hearts trying to find their way back to a normal tempo.
Slowly, the tremors began to fade. Michael didn't pull away. He stayed buried deep inside you, his body heavy and warm, his forehead resting against yours as he fought to catch his breath. His skin was slick with sweat, and his chest was heaving against yours in a desperate, synchronized rhythm.
He eventually pulled back just enough to look at you. His eyes were dark and heavy lidded. He reached up, his trembling fingers gently brushing the damp hair away from your face, his touch incredibly light, as if he were afraid you might shatter if he pressed too hard.
"Baby..." he whispered, his voice a broken, beautiful wreck of a sound. He leaned in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the corner of your mouth, then to your temple.
He let out a long, shaky exhale, a small, exhausted, but deeply satisfied smile tugging at his lips. He embraced you, tucking your head into the crook of his neck, his arms wrapping around you with a protective, possessive strength.
"So about that Marxist seminar…” he broke the silence with a lopsided grin.
“You fucker,” you laughed out as you pinched his cheek.
an: what do you guys think? my head hurt writing this omg i'm not used to writing so muchhh... divider credits to @pixopix
taglist: @nata-de-coconuts
i suck so bad at writing fluff :’) i’ll get back to writing some plot heavy smut soon !!
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tags: none, fluff, mentions of kitten injury, michael is a sweetie! bubbles and louie mentioned, unexpected meet cute
word count: 1.9k
an: offthewallera!mj fluff won my poll last time! i tried my best to make the locations geographically correct. also, this is so short and i’m not very satisfied with how this turned out but i really wanted to write and post this! i hope you guys like this :)
The scent of plastic and cardboard faded the moment she pushed through the employee exit of the Toys “R” Us on Sherman Way.
It had been a brutal shift at the cash register. Between the running kids, the endless lines of parents buying Atari cartridges, and the dreaded critique for her advanced painting project at California State University tomorrow morning, she was running on pure existential crisis.
She walked over to the concrete cub near the trash cans, desperately needing at least ten minutes of peace. She unrolled her crumpled brown paper lunch bag, her mind already drifting back to the unfinished canvas waiting in her cramped dormitory.
She was about to bite into her egg salad sandwich when a tiny, sharp cry cut through the hum of the traffic.
She froze, setting her sandwich back in the paper bag. She followed the sound to a discarded box pushed against the dumpster.
There, shivering in the dirt, was a scruffy little black kitten. When the tiny thing tried to crawl toward her, its front right arm buckled at a sickening angle. It let out a high-pitched meow of pure agony.
“Oh, no…Oh, sweet baby. What happened to you?” she whispered, her throat constricting as she carefully scooped the fragile, dirt-covered ball of fur into her lap.
Tears of absolute panic and frustration pricked her eyes as she pulled her wallet from the back pocket of her flared jeans. She didn’t even need to peek inside–inside sat just enough crumpled bills for groceries and refills for her cyan paint tube.
She was a broke art student. An emergency vet clinic in Encino might as well have sent her to Mars. She pressed the crying kitten against chest, uncaring how the dirt from the kitten transferred into her blue turtle neck sweater–shaking as she felt completely helpless.
The giant glass doors of the toy store slid open.
Michael walked out into the orange sun, a small plastic bag carrying a 1979 Darth Vader TIE fighter swinging gently from his fingers. He had his large aviator sunglasses on, his afro catching the golden glare of the sun. He loved coming to this specific location just north of his family’s Hayvenhurst estate. It was close enough to slip away when the discussions for the second leg of the Destiny tour became too much.
He was about to head towards Bill and his Blue Rolls-Royce when his peripheral vision caught sight of a girl sitting on the curb.
Michael stopped in his tracks. He slid his aviators down the bridge of his nose, hooking it onto his black shirt. His eyes softened immediately. He saw a girl of his own age, fiercely cradling a tiny, broken animal against her chest while tears streamed down her crimson cheeks. The raw display of empathy struck him straight in the heart.
He did not care about his fame, nor Bill standing near the car. Michael immediately walked over, dropping down onto his knees on the concrete next to her–the plastic bag containing his new TIE fighter abandoned on the dirt. His large hands hovered over her arms with a frantic gentleness.
“Oh…please don’t cry,” Michael murmured, his voice soft and high-pitched, laced with immediate sympathy both for the girl and the injured animal.
He looked down at the kitten, his chest aching at the sight of the mangled paw. He lifted his gentle eyes back to hers, offering a reassuring smile.
“Hey, it’s okay. What happened to our little friend?”
She wiped her cheek with her sleeve, too overwhelmed by the crisis at hand to even process the beautiful, young man in front of her. “I–I just found her by the trash. Her arm is broken, I think,” she sniffled–adjusting the kitten in her arms.
“I want to save her so badly, but I don’t have enough money for a vet.”
Michael’s heart broke in half. He reached down, grabbing a clean handkerchief from his pocket and draping it over the trembling kitten in her arms.
“Hey…look at me,” Michael said with a protective softness that made her mind clear instantly. “You don’t worry about that for a single second. My car is right about the corner. I can have Bill drive us to a clinic down in Encino, and I’m handling everything for her. Okay? We’ll make sure she’s okay.”
She stared at him–dumbfounded by the presence of this guardian angel. “Are…are you sure? I don’t even know how I could ever repay you.”
Michael let out a soft giggle, his cheeks flushing a beautiful shade of red as his fingers adjusted the handkerchief on the kitten. “You caring this much for her…that’s payment enough for me.”
Three hours later, the fluorescent overhead lights of the vet clinic hummed over them. The kitten was officially out of danger, sleeping soundly in her very own plastic kennel with a neon-pink cast wrapped around her tiny arm.
“The doctor says she’s a fighter,” she said, turning to Michael. She felt a wave of warmth wash over her heart. This handsome stranger just sat with her in the waiting room for hours, even buying her a Sunkist from the vending machine.
"Thank you again. Really. You're like an angel sent to save animals."
Michael let out a breathless giggle, his long fingers drumming a playful, rhythmic beat against his knees. His dark eyes sparkling with a warm, mischievous light.
"Oh, you’re too sweet," he said, his voice dropping into that animated, enthusiastic register he used whenever he was genuinely excited. "You should meet Louie. He’s my llama. He is so smart. One afternoon, I was trying to have a serious meeting in the dining room, and Louie just walked right through the doors, took an apple straight off the centerpiece table, and walked back out."
She burst out laughing, the sudden image of a llama crashing a meeting instantly shattering all the lingering stress from her shift. "No way! Does your mom mind?"
"Oh, Joseph was furious, but Mother just laughs," Michael grinned, his face completely lighting up, totally unbothered by his own fame as he shared his private world. "And Bubbles! Bubbles is my chimpanzee, and he is a total pro at Twister. He’s like a little human toddler, but with way more energy."
"He sounds so cool," she smiled, completely captivated by the animated way his hands flew through the air as he described his friends. Her eyes accidentally drifted down to the plastic bag sitting between them. "So…is that what you were doing at my store before you found us?"
Michael gasped softly, a look of pure, boyish excitement washing over his face as he reached for the bag. With careful, almost reverent hands, he pulled out a large, brightly illustrated box–revealing the Star Wars Darth Vader TIE Fighter, complete with the battery-operated laser features.
"I’ve been looking for this specific one for weeks," Michael whispered, his eyes wide as he pointed at the box art. "I love Star Wars so much. George Lucas is a genius. The way he creates these whole new worlds out of nothing but imagination…it makes me feel like a kid again. I have a whole shelf for these in my room."
She grinned, deeply charmed by how a man her age could be so unashamedly enthusiastic about a plastic spaceship. "I actually remember stocking those on the shelf yesterday morning. Darth Vader is a hit in the shelves, kids practically wrestle each other to get one."
"Yes!" Michael nodded eagerly, tracing the cardboard edge with his taped fingers. "He's the ultimate villain, but his ship is so cool." He paused, as he carefully set the toy box back into the bag
Michael’s grin softened, his eyes locking onto her face with a quiet curiosity. He leaned sideways in the plastic waiting room chair, resting his chin in his hand. "But what about you, what do you do when you're not at the toy store?"
A sudden wave of self-consciousness hit her. She looked down at her faded denim pants, which were lightly splattered with dried titanium white and burnt sienna acrylics from her class. "Oh…it’s nothing as exciting as having a llama and a chimpanzee as best friends. I do have an advanced painting critique tomorrow. I’ve been working on this massive canvas for three weeks, and my professor is incredibly brutal."
"Tell me more," Michael prompted, his voice laced with genuine interest. He shifted closer on the row of connected chairs, his fingers gently brushing against the edge of her sleeve. "I adore artists. To take something from your mind and make it real with your hands…that’s magic. What does your piece look like?"
Seeing the pure admiration in his eyes, her shyness began to melt. Her voice picked up a passionate cadence as she began to describe her project right there in the sterile clinic lobby.
"It's a large-scale piece about motherhood," she explained softly, her hands unconsciously shaping the air to describe the dimensions. "The piece is painted in deep hues of blue. It shows a mother breastfeeding her child while her eyes are downcast due to her bills scattered in the background."
She took a breath, looking down at her fingers. "My professor says my brushwork is too aggressive, too heavy for the subject. But I want it to feel heavy. Motherhood is fierce. Being completely drained by the world and still using the last bits of energy to feed your baby...I want people to feel the motherly care and love radiating off the canvas."
Michael didn't interrupt her once. He sat completely still, utterly amazed, the harsh fluorescent lights of the waiting room reflecting in his wide, dark eyes. He was a boy who loved his own mother fiercely, a young man who grew up in the harsh spotlight, and recognizing that profound, protective depth inside her art—combined with the raw fire of her creative hunger—completely struck him.
"Wow," Michael breathed. He looked at her as if she had just hung the stars herself, his chest aching with a deep affection. "That…that is so beautiful. Don't you dare listen to that professor about your brushwork being too aggressive. If you paint it soft, you lose the truth of the sacrifice. You're doing it perfectly."
He leaned in just a fraction closer, his dark eyes melting with a sweet, undeniable tenderness that made her pulse skip a beat.
"I want to see it," Michael murmured softly, a hopeful, boyish smile tugging at his lips as toyed with the plastic holder on the pet carrier next to him.
The waiting room was silent for a moment.
“I think I’m going to bring her home to my dorm,” she changes the topic. “I think I’ll name her Vader. You know? and because she’s a fighter,” she smiles shyly at the explanation.
Michael smiled at her as she referenced his toy–the confident savior from the toy store, and the enthusiastic boy a few seconds ago suddenly reverted back into the incredibly shy, blushing boy. He looked down at his loafers, a nervous grin tugging at his lips as he looked at her.
“I’m Michael, by the way,” he offered his hand–realizing he hadn't even introduced himself the whole time–being too focused on saving the tiny feline.
She shakes his hand, offering her name too with a bright blush on her cheeks.
“Well…” he started, leaning a bit closer to her space. “Since she’s going to be healing for a few weeks, and since I am technically her sponsor…do you think maybe it’d be alright if I got your landline? Just–Just so you know, I can drive up past Sherman Way and check on her? Make sure she’s taking her medicine?” he stammers.
“…And I also want to see you paint. Maybe,” he shyly adds.
She bit her lips as the sweet realization that he wasn’t just driving up for the kitten.
“I think Vader would love a follow-up visit, Michael.”
an: i know the title is so corny :')
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pairing: matureera!michael jackson x s3xtherapist!female reader
synopsis: michael jackson is the world’s biggest superstar, but behind closed doors, his prescription drugs leave him entirely numb—so after humiliating himself with twenty-something models, he resorts to clicking a borderline sketchy ad on a sex therapist.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, age gap (reader is 27 / michael is 42), handjob, blowjob, fingering, p in v sex, missionary, creampie, switch!michael, switch!fem reader, crying during sex, michael can't get it up!, mentions of medications, hints of suppressed libido and erectile dysfunction, angst, comfort
word count: 9.3k (i know i got carried away)
an: this is kinda crazyyy! excuse the poorly designed windows layout below. also, first time using animated dividers :p the credits goes to @pixopix @cafekitsune @graphicdesignevident !
Click clack.
In front of the massive, heavy desktop computer in the Neverland Ranch private study, Michael sat with his silver prescription eyeglasses–surfing the web for God knows what.
As the pixelated pointer wandered over the screen, a sketchy, flashing banner ad promising “Discreet, Absolute Healing for Men’s Private Needs” pops up.
Michael’s brows shot up, his posture straightening in the squeaky office chair.
The ad was borderline sketchy. It was unpolished–only consisting of texts and that purple font. “House Calls Only,” the ad read.
He bit his lower lip, the hours of mindless scrolling suddenly had a point.
He remembered the time when he discreetly arranged encounters with the women he found attractive during fan meetings and autograph signing events. Those twenty-something slender models who looked picture perfect in photos. But behind closed doors, those encounters had turned into a recurring nightmare.
Michael remembered the look of polite confusion shifting to an uncomfortable, subtle patronizing pity on a beautiful brunette’s face when his body simply refused to respond to her touch. That quiet humiliation of sitting on the edge of a hotel bed, his head in his hands, his belt unbuckled, while he listens to the rustle of fabric as the girl dressed herself in silence, offering an empty reassurance before slipping out the door.
To them, he was a myth–and finding out he’s a broken piece of a man who couldn’t perform under the weight of his painkillers was a disappointment they couldn’t hide.
He must’ve been the talk of the town among those kinds of girls, he thought.
So he stopped trying to meet women and retreated into the dark, using his desktop computer and dial-up internet to search for a solution. Anything.
Now, as the ad flashed across his crest fallen eyes, his heart hammered against his ribs as he clicked it, hiding behind an encrypted email and a fake name.
Truthfully, he did not expect anyone to really come to the ranch. It might’ve been a scam. Or worse, it is a plot made by the tabloids to get him.
But now, twenty four hours later, the reality of that desperate click sat directly across him.
Michael had expected a ‘doctor’ his age, or perhaps a senile old man to enter his house. But no. Across his mahogany desk, a woman much younger than him sat in that armchair, looking impeccably professional in a white tailored blazer, cream colored pencil skirt that stopped above her knee, a pair of black pantyhose and those cream colored stilettos that made his breath hitch.
He felt out of place in his own space as he watched her balance a clipboard on her knee, her expression neutral–clinical, focused, and devoid of that wide-eyed eagerness Michael usually saw.
To her, he wasn’t the biggest, most hunted man on the planet. Tonight, he was just ‘Peter,’ a client who had paid a massive sum for a private house call.
Michael was a nervous wreck. He isn’t familiar with how any of these sex therapies go. He is tucked into his swivel chair, wearing a pair of black silk pajamas, his long, slender fingers tightly laced together between his knees.
“Alright, Peter,” she began, her voice smooth and businesslike as she tapped her pen against the clipboard. “Let’s establish the baseline. I’ve read the file you gave me, and it notes a persistent inability to achieve or maintain an erection, correlating with your long-term medical regimen.”
She looks up, her long eyelashes fluttering as she stares at his face.
“I need you to be precise and discuss what you feel when intimacy is initiated.”
Michael flinched, a deep crimson blush instantly rushing up his neck. He lets out a mortified gasp as he looks down on his lap.
“I…I don’t know if I can say it out loud, it’s…it’s embarrassing.”
She sets her pen down. “Peter,” she said, her tone tightening with that clinical authority that made his pulse spike. “If you wanted a yes man, you should have stayed with those girls who walked away. You paid for a clinical intervention. If we are going to understand the side effects of your medications, you have to strip away the shame. Now, answer the question. What happens when you are touched?”
The demanding edge in her voice did something dangerous to Michael’s heart. For years everyone coddled him, speaking in hushed voices afraid to disagree with him. Being spoken to with an unapologetic dominance left him completely bare.
He swallowed hard, his large eyes vulnerable as he looked up. “I–It starts out okay,” he shyly smiled. “I feel the heat of it. In my mind. I want it so badly I can’t breathe. But then, it’s like I am drowning. I feel like my body is miles away. I go numb, and then…I see the disappointment on their faces, and the panic paralyzes me.
She did not speak to offer empty comfort. She simply nodded, jotting down a quick note on her clipboard before setting it firmly on the mahogany table. She stood up, her movements deliberate as she circled the table and stopped directly in front of him.
“The physical numbness is amplified by acute performance trauma,” she murmurs, stepping directly into his personal space. “We need to re-establish a tactile baseline. Can you unbutton your shirt?”
Michael froze, his eyes drifting from the curve of her hips up to her eyes.
“Here?”
“Right now,” she commanded softly, her eyes with absolute certainty. “Let me see what we’re working with.”
With shaking fingers, Michael reached up and slowly unbuttoned his shirt, the fabric parting to reveal the pale expanse of his chest.
She did not hesitate. She leant down, her steady hand reaching over, her palm flattening against his chest. The contrast of her cold skin against the feverish heat of his torso made him let out a ragged gasp.
“Your heart is racing,” she notes, her thumb tracing a soft firm line on his ribs, applying a calculated pressure that made his head loll back against the backrest of his chair. “Close your eyes. Block out every memory of your ‘failure.’ Focus on where my hands are moving. Tell me what you feel.”
“I feel…pressure,” Michael choked out, his eyes squeezing shut as his hands gripped the worn leather of his chair. “I feel your fingers. It’s…It’s hot.”
“Good. Your neural pathways are awake. They’re just blocked by your anxiety,” she whispered. Her hands slowly moved downwards, sliding over his lean stomach, her fingers trailing with a deliberate friction that stopped just at the waistband of his pants.
She leaned down, her eyes watching his reaction as her lips brushed the sensitive skin right below his ear, her voice losing a fraction of its clinical chill. “Now, do you want to proceed and test our hypothesis?”
Michael’s breath hitched, a shallow, uneven sound in the study. His eyes remained squeezed shut, his lashes trembling against his cheekbones. He was terrified that if he opened them, the illusion would shatter that she would suddenly realize he wasn't 'Peter,' that she would see the myth and lose that clinical, commanding edge that was currently keeping him tethered to the chair.
But the heat of her hand at the waistband of his silk pants was too real to be a dream. It was a grounding sensation that made the rest of the room fade into a blur.
"Yes," he whispered, the word barely a sound. He swallowed, his throat tight. "Please."
He didn't move to help her, he was too paralyzed by the intensity of the sensation, his body waiting for her to take the lead as she had been doing. He felt a strange, dizzying sense of relief in her dominance. For once, he didn't have to be the one in control. He didn't have to be the one who provided, who performed, who led. He could just... receive.
Her fingers applied a steady, deliberate pressure against where his flaccid length rested, Michael’s head lolled back further, exposing the long, vulnerable line of his throat. A soft, involuntary groan escaped him not of pleasure yet, but of a deep, aching tension finally finding a place to land.
"Is this..." He paused, his voice straining as he tried to maintain some semblance of his usual composure, though it was failing him miserably. "Is this part of the...the clinical process?"
Even in his vulnerability, his mind tried to retreat into the safety of her professional jargon, a desperate attempt to rationalize the way his blood was beginning to thrum in his veins.
He felt her move closer, her presence enveloping him, the scent of her–smelling of vanilla and a hint of sanitizing alcohol filling his senses. He was hyper aware of the distance between his skin and hers, the way the air seemed to hum where they almost touched.
"Just focus on the feeling. Tell me how it feels."
Michael nodded weakly, his fingers digging into the leather of the chair so hard his knuckles turned white.
Her palms flattened against his flaccid length, moving in slow circles as her scrutinizing eyes watched his face.
Michael’s eyes flew open at the sensation, his pupils blown wide. A sharp, jagged gasp escaped him, his chest heaving as the sudden, direct contact sent a jolt through his entire nervous system.
He felt the familiar, terrifying tug of war in his gut. His mind was screaming, yes, more, don't stop, but his lower half felt sluggish as if veiled by an unknown presence.
"It's... it's doing it," he managed to choke out, his voice trembling with a mix of frustration and arousal. He looked down, his gaze flickering toward where her hands were working, before he quickly looked back up at her, his expression desperate. "The heat. It's there. But it's... it's like it's stuck."
He let out a frustrated, shaky breath, his hips giving a small, involuntary twitch upward, seeking more of that friction. He was mortified by how much he wanted it, by how much he was leaning into her touch like a starving man.
"Am I...am I doing it wrong?" he asked, his voice dropping to a quiet, vulnerable pitch. He sounded less like the man on the stage and more like a boy seeking approval. "The numbness...it's trying to come back. Every time I think it's working, it pulls me away."
He reached out, his long, slender fingers hovering near her wrists, not quite daring to touch her yet, as if he were afraid he might break the spell if he moved too fast. He was watching her face intensely, searching for any sign of that disappointment he had feared so much the subtle shift in a woman's eyes when his dick failed to respond.
"Don't stop," he whispered, a command wrapped in a plea. "Please. Just... keep going. Tell me what to do."
She hummed, her lips slightly grazing the skin under his ear. "Don't think. Feel." She seemed unbothered that his body wasn't responding, like this is completely normal. Her focus set on making sure he feels.
The sound of her hum–a low, vibration directly into his skin made Michael’s toes curl against the floor. It was the most grounding thing he had ever felt.
Most women, when they felt the stagnation, would hesitate. They would soften their touch, or worse, they would pull back slightly, their eyes searching his for a sign of apology. That hesitation was like a death warrant for him, it was the moment the shame would flood in and drown the sensation.
But she didn't hesitate. She didn't even blink.
She treated his body like a painting she was admiring, a territory she was reclaiming from the fog of his medication. Her lack of reaction to his lack of response was the most intoxicating part. It stripped away the pressure to perform. For the first time in years, he wasn't a man trying to prove his masculinity, he was just a man trying to feel.
"Don't think..." he repeated her words, the words a ragged breath.
He closed his eyes again, trying to obey her. He tried to let the analytical part of his brain–the part that calculated choreography to simply shut down.
He focused entirely on the friction of her palms. He focused on the weight of her, the scent of her, and the rhythmic, relentless way she moved. He stopped trying to force a reaction and instead tried to simply exist within the sensation.
A slow, heavy warmth began to spread from his groin, moving up his abdomen and settling deep in his pelvis. It wasn't the sudden, sharp spike he was used to chasing, it was a slow, creeping tide.
"It's...it's different," he murmured, his voice thickening. He leaned his head back, his throat exposed and pulsing.
She feels his length start to harden against her palm very slightly. "You're doing well, Peter." She pauses her movement. "Do you want me to take your pants off? Feel me directly on your skin?"
He looked down at her hands, seeing the subtle change in himself, the slight, tentative thickening of his length beneath her palms. To him, it felt like a miracle.
"Yes," he said, the word coming out more forcefully than he intended. He cleared his throat, trying to regain a sliver of the dignity he usually wore like armor, but his eyes betrayed him. They were wide, shimmering with a raw, unadulterated need.
"Please," he whispered, his voice dropping into that low, velvety register that usually commanded stadiums, but here, it was stripped of all bravado. "No more barriers. Just...you. Directly."
She watches him peel his pants and boxers off. His hands trembling slightly as he pulled the waistband of his silk pants–revealing his pale length, barely half-hard, his length mostly flaccid but the arousal is there.
She reached into her medical bag, grabbing a small bottle of water based lube, spurting a generous amount on her palm before gripping his length firmly.
The cool, slick sensation of the lubricant was a shock to his system, a sudden, sliding glide that made his entire body arch off the leather chair. As her hand closed around him, firm and unapologetic, Michael let out a sound that was halfway between a gasp and a sob.
The directness of it was overwhelming. Without his pants to buffer the sensation, every ridge of her palm, every subtle movement of her fingers, felt magnified a hundred times. He felt the slickness coating him, the warmth of her hand mixing with the artificial coolness of the lube, creating a sensory overload that made his head swim.
"Oh..." he breathed, his eyes lidding shut as he surrendered to the feeling.
He felt so high.
Michael was acutely aware of how he looked–how much of him was still soft, how much of him was still struggling to rise to the occasion. He felt the old, familiar prickle of shame at the back of his neck, the instinct to cover himself, to hide the failure of his body. But then her grip tightened, her thumb tracing a slow, deliberate path along the underside of his length, and the shame was forcibly pushed aside by a wave of pure, unadulterated sensation.
"It's...it's so much," he choked out, his hands finding the armrests of the chair and gripping them until his knuckles were white. "The sensation...I–It's everywhere."
He was beginning to feel it–the blood rushing, the heaviness in his groin shifting from a dull ache to a pulsing, insistent throb. The numbness he had feared so much was being pushed back by the tactile reality of her hand.
He began to move with her, a slow, rhythmic tilt of his hips that was almost entirely involuntary. He was chasing the friction, desperate to see just how much more of this contact his body could take before it finally, truly woke up.
"Don't be gentle," he whispered, his voice cracking, his eyes opening to find hers with a look of raw, hungry intensity.
Her pupils dilated as she saw his length coming to life, now standing tall inside her palm as she pumped him slowly.
The moment he felt himself fully harden, a surge of triumph rushed through him. The blood was there, the tension was there, the connection was there.
He let out a long, shuddering breath, his head falling back against the chair, a small, satisfied smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. He felt invincible. He felt like he had finally cracked the fucking code.
"Yes," he groaned, his voice a low rumble of satisfaction. "Yes, right there. That's it."
He began to move more rhythmically, his hips meeting her hand with an increasing, desperate urgency. The sensation was incredible–the slick glide of the lube, the firm, steady pressure of her grip, and the overwhelming heat of her proximity. He felt alive, more alive than he had in months.
But then, the familiar, dreaded sensation began to creep back in.
It wasn't a sudden crash, but a subtle, insidious softening. The intense, pulsing pressure began to ebb, the rigid strength in his length slowly, agonizingly giving way to a familiar, heavy lethargy.
Panic, sharp and cold, flared in his chest.
"No," he whispered, his eyes snapping open, searching her face with a sudden, frantic vulnerability. He tried to tighten his muscles, to force the blood to stay, to fight the inevitable retreat.
He looked down, his heart hammering a frantic rhythm against his ribs as he watched the very thing he had just achieved begin to wilt under her hand. The triumph was being replaced by a crushing sense of déjà vu.
"It's happening again," he choked out, his voice thick with a sudden, desperate frustration. He gripped her wrist, his fingers trembling, not to pull her away, but to hold her there, to anchor him to this moment before it slipped through his fingers like sand. "Please, what should I do?"
She stilled her hand. "Interesting. The erection lasted for more than three seconds before turning flaccid." She pulls back, her eyes staring into his. "Don't try to force it. Don't chase it. Just feel." She gently murmured before leaning down, uncaring of the taste of the water based vanilla lubricant as she licked his flaccid length, straight from balls to the foreskin covered head.
The moment her tongue made contact, Michael’s entire body jolted as if he’d been struck by lightning. A sharp, strangled cry escaped his throat–a sound of pure, unadulterated shock.
He had expected her to pull back, to look at him with that clinical, disappointed scrutiny when he softened. He had expected her to reach for her clipboard to record his failure. But she hadn't. She had leaned in. She had gone even lower.
The sensation was unlike anything he had ever experienced. It was a sensory explosion–the vanilla scent, the heat of her mouth, the wet, sliding friction, it was too much and yet, not fucking enough.
His hands flew to her hair, his long fingers tangling in the strands, not to push her away, but to steady himself as the world began to tilt.
He forced himself to breathe. He just let himself be a man being worshipped.
"Oh God," he whimpered, his eyes rolling back, his head thumping against the leather of the chair. "It's...it's not going away. It's different this time."
He felt the blood returning, not as a sudden rush, but as a steady, pulsing tide, driven by the relentless, wet heat of her mouth. He was beginning to realize that she wasn't just treating a symptom; she was rewiring him.
"Don't stop," he pleaded, his voice a low, guttural rasp, his fingers tightening in her hair. "Please...don't stop. Just keep doing that."
She stares into his eyes as she takes all of his hardening length into her mouth, humming softly as she feels him slowly grow inside.
The sensation of her taking him fully into her mouth–the warmth, the tight, velvet pressure, and the rhythmic hum of her throat against him sent a shockwave through Michael that felt like it might actually shatter his ribs.
As he felt himself growing inside her, the slow, steady expansion of his length against the heat of her mouth, a low, guttural groan vibrated deep in his chest. It was a sound of pure surrender.
"Ahh..." he choked out.
He felt the numbness retreating, the failure he had feared was being replaced by a sensation so profound it was almost overwhelming. He wasn't just getting hard, he was becoming alive.
His hands, which had been gripping her hair, slid down to her cheeks, his thumbs tracing the line of her jaw as he looked down at her. His eyes were dark, glazed with a mixture of arousal and awe. He saw the focus in her eyes, the unwavering professionality that made this feel so much more intimate than a mere sexual encounter.
"It's...it's coming back," he whispered, his voice thick and heavy.
He began to thrust, his movements no longer tentative or desperate, but slow, deep, and rhythmic. He was finding his own tempo, a steady, pulsing drive that matched the incredible sensation of her mouth.
"Don't let go," he commanded, his voice dropping to a low, commanding rasp, his eyes locking onto hers with a sudden, intense clarity. "Don't you dare let go."
She gripped his thighs as she began to create a suction–sucking his length as she bobbed her head.
The sudden, intense pressure of the suction was the breaking point. It was as if she had found the exact frequency required to shatter the last of his defenses. Michael’s back arched violently, his spine curving like a bow as a sharp, high pitched gasp was torn from his lungs.
"God!" he choked out, his hands sliding from her face to her hair, his fingers digging into her scalp with a strength he didn't know he possessed.
He was no longer in control. His hips began to move with a frantic, uncoordinated urgency, his body trying to meet the incredible suction, trying to push deeper, to find more of that overwhelming pressure. Every time she bobbed her head, a new wave of electricity surged through him, making his toes curl and his vision blur into a haze of white light.
"Please," he gasped, his voice a broken, desperate thread. He was hovering on the precipice, the tension in his body reaching a fever pitch that felt like it might snap him in two. "It's too much..."
But even as he said it, he was leaning into it, his head lolling back as he surrendered to the exquisite torment. He could feel the climax building, not as a sudden explosion, but as a massive swell of energy, a tidal wave that was about to crash over him.
He squeezed his eyes shut, his breath coming in ragged, sobbing hitches. He was terrified of the loss of control, of the sheer vulnerability of the moment, but he was even more terrified of her stopping.
"Don't stop," he groaned, his voice a low, guttural command that was more of a plea.
As she moved to move her focus on sucking his swollen head, her eyes gazed at his like an apex predator. Waiting for the exact moment her prey surrenders.
The vacuum-like pressure to the very tip of his dick made Michael felt like his consciousness was fracturing. He felt like she was pulling his life source directly out of his marrow.
But…it was her eyes that truly undid him.
She wasn’t looking at him like a doctor, or even a lover. There was a terrifying dominance–that he was hers to dismantle, hers to study, and hers to break.
“You’re doing this on purpose,” he choked out.
He wasn't even sure if he was accusing her or thanking her. The tension in his lower abdomen was a coiled spring, wound so tight it felt as though his very skin might tear.
"Look at me," he commanded, though it sounded more like a desperate prayer. He needed to see her, to anchor himself to the woman who was currently unmaking him. "Don't... don't look away. Watch me."
He was begging for the humiliation of being seen in his most undone state, because the alternative the thought of her losing that predatory focus was more terrifying than the pleasure itself. He was on the absolute edge, the tidal wave of his climax looming large and heavy, and he wanted her to witness every second of his collapse.
When he exploded, she groaned against his length as he came inside her mouth–painting her throat a pearlescent white.
To Michael, the world fucking shattered. His entire body went rigid, his spine arching so sharply it felt as though he might snap. A long, broken sound halfway between a sob and a roar tore from his lungs.
This was violent. This was raw. It was a visceral, pulsing outpouring of everything he had been holding back the exhaustion, the loneliness, the pressure, and the sheer, overwhelming need to be known.
He felt the rhythmic, heavy pulses of his climax, the sensation of himself being emptied into her warmth, and for a moment, he felt as though he were floating, untethered from the earth, drifting in a void of pure, white light.
His hands, which had been gripping her shoulders, slowly lost their strength, his fingers sliding down her skin as his muscles began to quiver with the aftershocks. His head fell back against the leather, his eyes lidded and glazed, staring up at the ceiling as he struggled to find his breath.
The silence that followed was heavy, thick with the scent of vanilla lubricant and the musk of their shared heat.
He slowly lowered his gaze to her, his eyes searching hers through the haze of his exhaustion. He looked at her with a quiet, intense reverence, a look that went far beyond the clinical boundaries of their "session."
"Did you..." He swallowed hard, a small, dazed smirk flickering on his lips, though his eyes remained deeply serious. "Did you get the data you needed?"
The vulnerability of being so completely undone was terrifying, yet it left him with a hunger that the release hadn't satisfied. He felt the phantom sensation of her mouth, the way she had looked at him like a prize she had successfully claimed, and it ignited a new, different kind of desperation.
He wasn't satisfied with just being the subject. He needed to be the force.
As the tremors in his limbs began to subside, a quiet, intense resolve settled over him. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he cupped her cheek, his thumb tracing the line of her lower lip, still glistening from him.
"It wasn't enough," he murmured, his voice a low, gravelly rasp that vibrated between them.
He wasn't talking about the climax. He was talking about the connection, the sheer, unadulterated power of what had just happened. He felt the heavy, pulsing ache in his groin beginning to stir again not the frantic, panicked need from before, but a slow, deliberate rebuilding of strength.
"I need to feel you," he whispered, his eyes searching hers with a sudden, piercing intensity. He wasn't asking as a patient anymore. He was asking as a man. "Not just...not just like that. I want to feel you against me."
He was watching her every expression, looking for that clinical detachment to crack, for the predator to show a hint of the woman underneath.
"I want to see if it works," he said, his voice dropping to a deadpan whisper, though the heat in his eyes betrayed the seriousness of his mission. "If I can do that to you. If I can make you lose that...that control."
He moved his hand from her cheek down to her waist, his fingers splaying against her skin, pulling her just an inch closer, enough to feel the heat radiating from her body.
"Tell me you want to see if I can handle you. If I can please you."
She blinks. Her hands suddenly clammy as she holds onto his shoulders.
"I don't usually hook up with my patients," she teases though her voice is starting to get rid of that clinical tone.
Michael didn't laugh, but the corner of his mouth twitched a tiny, almost imperceptible smirk.
"Then don't think of it as a hookup," he murmured, his voice dropping into that low, velvet register that carried a weight of quiet authority. "Think of it as...making sure your patient is a hundred percent recovered."
He didn't let her pull away. Instead, he gently pulled her until she was draped across him, her skin meeting his in a way that made his breath hitch. He was acutely aware of the way his body was responding to her proximity–the slow, steady rebuild of his arousal, a heavy, pulsing heat that felt much more stable than the frantic spike from before.
He watched her closely, his observant eyes noting the slight change in her breathing, the way her pupils were still wide, the way the clinical coolness in her gaze was being replaced by something much more dangerous.
He shifted beneath her, a slow, grounding movement that allowed him to feel the weight of her against his growing hardness. He wasn't rushing. He was being patient, a man who knew that the best performances and the best sensations came from a controlled, steady build.
"So," he whispered, his eyes locking onto hers, intense and unblinking. "Are we going to keep talking about your professional ethics...or are you going to let me see if you can keep that composure when it's my turn to lead?"
The silence in the room was heavy, broken only by the sound of their synchronized, slightly uneven breathing. Michael didn't look away from her face. He kept his gaze locked on hers, observant and intense, as if he were trying to memorize every flicker of emotion that crossed her features.
He stood up from the swivel chair, carrying her body with him as he set her down to sit on the mahogany table.
His movements were slow, almost agonizingly so. He wasn't in a rush to reach the goal, he was savoring the tension, the anticipation that sat between them like a physical weight. His fingers, long and steady, reached under her skirt and hooked into the waistband of her pantyhose. He felt the slight resistance of the fabric, the delicate texture against his skin, but he didn't let his focus waver from her eyes.
He watched her pupils dilate. He watched the way her jaw tightened ever so slightly as he began to peel the sheer material down her thighs.
"You're being very quiet," he murmured, his voice a low, dry vibration. It was a tease, a way to acknowledge the tension without breaking it.
He continued the descent, his hands working with a calm, controlled precision. He moved the fabric past her knees, then her thighs, his touch light but intentional, ensuring she felt every inch of his progress.
As the fabric cleared the curve of her hips, he finally allowed his gaze to drop, just for a second, to the skin he had revealed, before snapping back up to her eyes to demand her attention.
"There," he said softly, his voice dropping an octave. "No more barriers."
He let the pantyhose pool around her ankles, leaving her exposed to his gaze and his touch. He wanted her to feel the heat of his attention, the way he was looking at her not as a therapist, but as a man who was very much aware of exactly what he wanted to do to her.
He leaned forward, his movements fluid and graceful, and pressed a soft, lingering kiss to the curve of her ankle. The sound of her heels hitting the carpet was a dull, heavy thud that seemed to echo the sudden pounding of his own heart. He stayed there for a moment, his forehead resting against her skin, simply breathing her in.
Then, he began to move.
He started at her ankles, his lips tracing the delicate bone, his tongue sweeping in slow, wet strokes that sent shivers racing up her legs. He moved with a quiet, intense focus, his eyes occasionally lifting to catch her expression, watching for the slightest tremor of pleasure.
His mouth traveled up the length of her calves, his kisses becoming more fervent, more demanding. He used his hands to hold her legs steady, his fingers spreading wide against her skin to anchor her as he worked his way upward. Every inch of her skin felt like a new territory to be explored, a new sensation to be mastered.
He reached her knees, his tongue swirling around the kneecaps as he bunched her skirt up her hips before his lips moved to the soft, sensitive skin of her inner thighs. He could feel the heat radiating from her, the subtle, involuntary twitch of her muscles as his mouth neared the most intimate parts of her.
He slowed down even more, his breath hot and damp against her skin. He was being meticulous, almost surgical, in the way he teased the sensitive skin of her upper thighs, his lips grazing the edges of her heat without quite touching it.
He wanted her to ache. He wanted the anticipation to become a physical weight, a pressure that she couldn't ignore.
"Tell me," he whispered, his voice a dark, velvet rasp as he pressed his face into the crook of her thigh, his breath hitching. "Tell me if you're still just 'observing' me."
He looked up then, his eyes dark and heavy with a quiet, predatory hunger, his face inches from her, his lips still wet from her skin.
"You paid me to make sure you feel good. My pleasure is out of the question," her voice losing all of the clinical tone. Her posture suddenly shy and uncertain.
He stopped his movement, his lips still hovering just inches from her inner thigh. Then, he slowly sat up, his movements graceful but heavy with intent. He didn't look at her with the eyes of a patient anymore. He looked at her with the eyes of a man who had just been given the keys to a kingdom.
Michael stood up, his hands sliding under her thighs to hook beneath her, lifting her slightly so he could settle himself more firmly between her legs. He wanted her to feel the sheer, unyielding reality of him. He was finally fully hard.
He leaned in, his face inches from hers, his dark eyes searching her face with an intensity that was almost overwhelming. He saw the way her breath was coming in shallow, uneven hitches. He saw the way she was looking at him not as a subject, but as her master.
"You're wrong," he whispered, his thumb catching her bottom lip and pulling it down just enough to expose the wetness of her mouth. "Your pleasure isn't out of the question. It’s the entire point."
He shifted his weight, his hips pressing firmly against her, making sure she felt every inch of his length against her most sensitive skin. He was being direct, his touch possessive and steady.
He moved one hand to the back of her head, his fingers tangling in her hair, not to pull, but to guide. He leaned forward, his lips brushing against the shell of her ear, his voice dropping to a command that was both a promise and a decree.
"Now," he breathed, his teeth grazing her earlobe. "Let me try and worship you."
His thumb moved, pressing firmly into the center of her panties, Michael felt the truth of her words. The fabric was heavy, saturated with a warmth that told him everything his eyes already suspected. She wasn't just submissive; she was desperate.
He didn't pull away. He didn't move to strip the last of her clothing immediately. Instead, he stayed there, his thumb moving in a slow, deliberate circle, grinding the damp silk against her most sensitive point. He wanted to feel the exact rhythm of her arousal, the way the moisture pooled and shifted under his pressure.
A low, dark sound halfway between a growl and a sigh vibrated in his chest. The control he usually prided himself on was fraying at the edges, replaced by a heavy, pulsing need to bridge the gap between the fabric and her skin.
"You're a terrible liar," he murmured, his voice a thick, honeyed rasp. He didn't look up, his eyes were fixed on the way her hips instinctively hitched upward, seeking the very pressure he was providing. "You said your pleasure was out of the question...but you're soaking."
He increased the pressure, his thumb pressing harder, more insistent, feeling the slick heat through the thin barrier. He was being clinical in his observation, but the intent was entirely carnal.
"Don't try to hold it back," he commanded, his voice dropping to a quiet, intense whisper as he hovered just above the damp fabric. "Let me feel how much you want this."
He slid her panties aside. He felt the slick heat of her, a directness that made his heart hammer a frantic rhythm against his ribs. He was driven by a singular, focused intent, his hips moving with a slow, heavy determination as he notched himself against her entrance.
He began to rub the swollen head of his dick against her dampness. He wanted to feel every nuance of her friction, the way she pulsed against his hardness.
And then, as if the world had suddenly lost its gravity, the tension snapped.
It wasn't a sudden drop, but a slow, embarrassing receding of the tide. The hard, pulsing strength began to soften, the heavy throb in his veins turning into a dull, heavy ache. The sensation of her heat suddenly felt distant, as if a layer of thick glass had been placed between them.
Michael froze.
He didn't move for a long time. He stayed positioned against her, his weight still pressing into her, but the commanding presence was gone. He felt a sudden, sharp pang of frustration, followed by a wave of quiet, stinging vulnerability. The man who was always in control, the man who managed every rehearsal and every public moment with precision, had just lost his grip on the most important thing in the room.
He didn't look up at her immediately. He couldn't. He stared down at where they were joined, his jaw tightening, a muscle leaping in his cheek.
"Damn it," he whispered, the words barely audible, a dry, self deprecating rasp.
He didn't sound angry at her, he sounded frustrated with himself. He felt the urge to pull away, to hide, but he forced himself to stay. He wouldn't give her the satisfaction of seeing him flustered, even if his heart was currently a chaotic mess.
But Michael can’t help the frustrated tears from escaping his eyes.
He had spent his entire life learning how to hold his face still, how to be the calm center of every storm. But here, stripped of his clothes and his pretenses, the frustration of his own body betrayed him. It wasn't just the physical loss of his arousal, it was the overwhelming weight of the vulnerability he had allowed himself to feel. He had let her see him undone, and then, in the most crucial moment, he had failed to be the man he wanted to be for her.
The tears were silent, hot, and unbidden, tracing stinging paths through the sweat on his cheeks. He felt a deep, hollow ache in his chest that was a humiliation he wasn't prepared for.
When he felt her lean in, he instinctively braced himself for a clinical observation, or worse the silent, polite pity of a doctor.
But instead, he felt the incredible softness of her lips against his skin.
She wasn't judging him. She was kissing the salt from his cheeks, her touch so tender that it felt like a benediction. The warmth of her mouth against his damp skin acted like a balm, soothing the jagged edges of his frustration.
Michael let out a long, shuddering breath, his eyes closing tightly as he finally allowed his muscles to go limp. The tension that had been coiled in his shoulders for hours perhaps even years began to bleed out of him. He didn't feel the need to be the performer anymore.
He reached up, his hands trembling as he cupped her face, his fingers sliding into her hair to pull her even closer. He buried his face in the crook of her neck, breathing in the scent of her skin, his forehead resting against her shoulder.
"Don't," he whispered into her skin, his voice a wrecked, vulnerable thread of sound. "Don't be kind to me because you feel bad for me."
He pulled back just enough to look at her, his eyes red rimmed and raw, but the intense, observant light was returning to them.
"Don't feel bad Peter. You're just starting to get back on track." she smiles softly before rubbing his cheek.
Michael let out a breath that was half laugh, half sigh. He leaned into her hand as she rubbed his cheek, his eyes fluttering closed for a moment as he savored the simple, grounding sensation of her touch.
He didn't pull away. Instead, he shifted his weight, moving his body closer to hers until there was no space left between them. He reached down, his hand finding hers where it rested on his cheek, and he pressed her palm more firmly against his skin, as if he were trying to absorb her warmth.
"Back on track," he repeated, the words a low, dark vibration. He let his gaze drop to her lips, then back to her eyes, his expression turning serious, almost predatory in its quietness.
He moved his hand from hers, sliding it down her neck to the nape of her hair, his fingers tangling in the dark strands to tilt her head back just a fraction. He wasn't rushing this time.
He leaned in, his lips brushing hers in a tease of a kiss, a slow, testing contact that was meant to reignite the fire he had felt slipping away. He was watching her, observing the way her breath caught, the way her eyes darkened, waiting for the moment he could prove to her and to himself that he could handle everything she was.
He decided. If he can’t please her with his damned dick, he will do everything to make her feel good.
Michael’s eyes never left hers. He was watching the way her expression shifted, the way her pupils swallowed the iris as he moved his hand lower.
His fingers were steady, despite the lingering tremor in his heart. He moved with a calm, surgical focus, his touch light and teasing at first as he circled her clit. He was exploring, feeling the way the heat intensified under his touch, the way she began to arch her hips instinctively toward his hand.
He increased the pressure, his movements becoming more rhythmic and deliberate. He used the pad of his thumb to apply a firm, consistent pressure, circling the sensitive peak with a slow, agonizing precision. He watched her face with a quiet, intense hunger, noting every hitch in her breath, every small, involuntary gasp that escaped her lips. He was looking for the exact frequency of her pleasure, the exact moment where her control would finally, irrevocably shatter.
He wasn't just trying to please her, he was trying to reclaim himself through her. Every tremor in her thighs, every soft moan she let out, was a testament to his power over her, even when his own body felt momentarily out of sync.
"There," he whispered, his voice dropping to a dark, velvet rasp as he felt her muscles tighten, her breathing becoming shallow and frantic. He leaned in closer, his face inches from hers, his eyes dark and heavy with a quiet, commanding intensity. "Don't hold back. Give me everything."
He shifted his hand, his fingers sliding a little deeper, providing a different kind of friction that made her entire body shudder.
"Show me," he commanded, his gaze locking onto hers, unyielding and profound. "Show me exactly how much you need this."
Then, the sound of her gasp loud, uninhibited, and completely devoid of that clinical composure was the most beautiful thing Michael had heard all day. It was the sound of a total surrender.
As she shuddered, her body arching violently against his hand, he felt the hot pulse of her release flooding over his fingers. He didn't pull back. He didn't even flinch. Instead, he leaned into it, his hand remaining steady and firm, his fingers moving with a slow, grounding rhythm to ride out the waves of her climax. He wanted to catch every single sensation, to feel the very moment her muscles clamped around his hand in the peak of her pleasure.
He watched her eyes roll back, his own gaze intense and unblinking, absorbing the sight of her undone. He felt a profound sense of triumph, he was able to make her feel good.
As the intensity of her orgasm began to ebb into long, shaky aftershocks, Michael didn't immediately move to reclaim himself. He stayed right there, his hand still cradling her, his thumb continuing to trace slow, soothing circles over her sensitive skin to soothe the ache of the climax.
He waited until her breathing began to level out, until the frantic tension in her thighs softened into a heavy, relaxed warmth. Only then did he lift his hand, his fingers glistening and wet, and he brought them up to his own mouth, tasting her with a slow, deliberate movement of his tongue.
He looked at her then, his expression calm and composed once more, though his eyes were still dark with a lingering, quiet heat. The vulnerability from before hadn't vanished; it had simply transformed into a deep, grounded connection.
"Did the patient exceed the doctor’s expectations?" he murmured, his voice a low, dry rasp, a tiny, satisfied smirk playing at the corner of his mouth.
He leaned forward, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to her forehead, his touch incredibly gentle. He stayed close, his body still pressed against hers, refusing to leave the space she had just created.
He shifted, his weight settling more firmly between her legs, and as he did, he felt the familiar, heavy throb returning to his own body. The frustration was gone, replaced by a singular, focused purpose.
"Now," he said, his voice a quiet, commanding velvet. "Let's see if I can finish what I started."
As he felt his length rise fully, he guided himself to her entrance.
As he sank into her, the sensation was overwhelming a tight, searing heat that felt like coming home. He let out a long, low exhale, his eyes closing for a fraction of a second as he felt the friction of her dampness welcoming him.
But he didn't lose himself in the sensation. Instead, he forced himself to stay present, to stay observant. He opened his eyes and locked them onto hers, his gaze intense and unwavering. He wanted to see the exact moment the pleasure hit her, the way her expression would shift from the soft afterglow of her climax to the sharp, focused intensity of his presence.
He began to move, but it wasn't the frantic pace of someone trying to prove something. It was slow. Deliberate. Heavy. Each thrust was a long, dragging motion, designed to maximize the contact between them, to make sure she felt every inch of him stretching her, filling her.
"Look at me," he commanded, his voice a low, dark vibration. He wanted her eyes on him, wanted to be the only thing she could see, the only thing she could feel.
He watched the way her pupils dilated, the way her breath hitched in her throat as he hit a particularly sensitive spot. He saw the slight tremor in her hands as she gripped the sheets, and the way her head fell back, only for him to catch her chin with his hand, pulling her gaze back to his.
"Don't close your eyes," he murmured, a hint of his usual dry, teasing tone returning, though it was weighted with a heavy, primal hunger. "You wouldn't want to miss your patient recovering, would you?"
He increased the depth of his strokes, his movements becoming more purposeful, more rhythmic. He was no longer the frustrated man from moments ago; he was a man in total control of his rhythm, using the slow, grinding pace to build a new, much more dangerous kind of tension.
"There," he whispered, his voice a velvet rasp as he felt her body begin to tighten around him again. "That's it. Just like that."
"Peter!" she moans as she holds onto his shoulder, her eyes growing heavy lidded as sweat dribbled down inside her blazer.
The sound of his alias ripped through the heavy, erotic air like a discord in a perfect melody. It was a name for a man who was a patient, a man who was not the one currently driving her to the brink of madness.
Michael’s rhythm didn't falter, but his expression sharpened. The slow, grinding motion of his hips became a little more insistent, a little more demanding, as he felt her fingers dig into the muscle of his shoulder. He leaned down, his hands moving to unbutton her blazer–freeing the tank top underneath soaked by her sweat.
"No," he murmured, his voice a low, velvet growl.
He paused for a heartbeat, his length still deep inside her, the sudden stillness making the sensation of him even more overwhelming. He waited until she was looking at him, until he had her full, breathless attention.
"Not Peter," he commanded softly, his thumb tracing the line of her jaw with a firm, possessive pressure. "He’s not the one in here."
He gave a slow, heavy thrust, a deliberate movement designed to remind her exactly who was currently claiming her body. He watched her eyes, waiting for the realization to sink in.
"Call me Michael," he whispered, his breath hot against her skin. "I want to hear my name when you lose your mind."
He didn't wait for her to answer. He resumed the slow, torturous rhythm, his gaze never wavering from hers, his eyes challenging her to drop the last of her pretenses and give him the truth.
She licks her lips. "You feel so good. I can see why those girls were disappointed when you couldn't get it up." she moans out as her eyes rolled back
A sharp, short exhale escaped him a sound that was half laugh and half growl. Most men would have been insulted, but Michael simply felt a surge of dark, amused energy.
He didn't slow down. If anything, the jab seemed to fuel him, the slight sting of her sarcasm acting like a catalyst for the tension building in his gut.
"Is that so?" he murmured, his voice dropping into a dangerously low, velvety register.
He leaned down, his chest pressing firmly against hers as he drove a deeper, more forceful thrust into her. He watched her eyes roll back, the sight of her undone by his very presence a silent answer to her teasing.
He increased the tempo, the slow, grinding rhythm evolving into something more urgent, more demanding. The friction was intense, the heat between them reaching a fever pitch. He was no longer just 'getting back on track'; he was driving toward a finish line that he intended to cross with her.
"Tell me again," he commanded, his voice a rough, commanding rasp as he felt her hips begin to buck against him. "Tell me how good it feels. And use my name this time."
She bites her lips before looking at him with glazed eyes. "You feel so good inside me, Michael. So deep inside me."
The way she said his name, thick with lust and heavy with the heat of her climax was the final blow to his restraint.
"Damn you," he rasped, his voice breaking slightly.
He didn't just move, he drove into her. He abandoned the slow, measured tempo for a more powerful, rhythmic drive, his hips hitting hers with a heavy, bruising intensity that made the bed frame groan.
He watched her glazed eyes. He wanted to be the only thing she could feel, the only thing she could think about.
"Deep?" he echoed, his voice a dark, commanding vibration. He leaned down, his lips brushing against the shell of her ear, his breath hot and ragged. "Then let's see how much more you can take."
He reached down, his hand finding hers and lacing their fingers together, pinning her hand to the wood beside her head. He wanted to be tethered to her, to feel the exact moment her body reached its limit.
He increased the pace, his movements becoming a blur of friction and heat. He was watching her, his eyes wide and dark, tracking every spasm of her muscles, every frantic gasp of her breath. He was waiting for the storm, for the moment her body would tighten around him in that final, exquisite crescendo.
"Look at me," he commanded, his voice a raw, desperate rasp as he felt the tremors of his own release beginning to pulse through him. "Look at me when you break."
The moment she broke, it was as if the world had finally caught up to the intensity they had been building. Michael felt her entire body seize, her internal muscles clamping around him in a fierce, rhythmic desperation that was almost too much to bear. She let out a long, shattered cry, her head tossing back as the waves of her orgasm crashed over her, her body trembling with a violence that was both beautiful and terrifying.
The control he had worked so hard to maintain, the composure he wore like armor, shattered completely.
"Shit! " he gasped.
He drove into her one last time, a deep, final thrust that seemed to bury him entirely within her. As he hit his own peak, he felt the sudden, explosive release, a powerful surge of heat that felt like it was pouring from his very soul into her. He groaned, a deep, guttural sound that started in his chest and tore from his throat, his eyes snapping shut as he surrendered to the overwhelming sensation of coming inside her.
He didn't pull away. He couldn't. He collapsed forward, his chest heaving, his sweat slicked skin pressed tightly against hers. He buried his face in the crook of her neck, his breath coming in ragged, uneven stabs, his entire body vibrating with the aftershocks of his release.
The air was heavy, thick with the scent of skin and sex and the quiet, profound aftermath of what they had just done.
Slowly, he lifted his head, though he didn't move away. His eyes were dark, heavy lidded, and filled with a quiet, intense adoration that he rarely allowed himself to show so openly. He looked at her, seeing the flushed skin, the messy hair, and the beautiful, exhausted haze in her eyes.
He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he brushed a damp strand of hair away from her face. His touch was incredibly gentle, a stark contrast to the primal intensity of moments ago.
"You're a very good therapist," he murmured, his voice a low, dry rasp, though the corners of his mouth twitched with the smallest, most genuine hint of a smile.
He leaned down, pressing a slow, lingering, and incredibly tender kiss to her lips.
She closed her eyes, her hands coming up to cradle his jaw as he pulled away.
He grinned—that handsome lopsided smile that always showed a sliver of his lower teeth.
"Same time tomorrow?"
an: sooo...what do you guys think about the fic? you might be so weirded out why i attached slipknot's scissors to this but i think the track perfectly mirrors the frustration of wanting to rip through your skin to feel human again—to break free from the very drug consuming you, making you feel numb. also, you don't have to listen to it while reading! i just thought it fitted the fic while it played on my shuffle :’)
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pairing: matureera!michael jackson x s3xtherapist!female reader
synopsis: michael jackson is the world’s biggest superstar, but behind closed doors, his prescription drugs leave him entirely numb—so after humiliating himself with twenty-something models, he resorts to clicking a borderline sketchy ad on a sex therapist.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, age gap (reader is 27 / michael is 42), handjob, blowjob, fingering, p in v sex, missionary, creampie, switch!michael, switch!fem reader, crying during sex, michael can't get it up!, mentions of medications, hints of suppressed libido and erectile dysfunction, angst, comfort
word count: 9.3k (i know i got carried away)
an: this is kinda crazyyy! excuse the poorly designed windows layout below. also, first time using animated dividers :p the credits goes to @pixopix @cafekitsune @graphicdesignevident !
Click clack.
In front of the massive, heavy desktop computer in the Neverland Ranch private study, Michael sat with his silver prescription eyeglasses–surfing the web for God knows what.
As the pixelated pointer wandered over the screen, a sketchy, flashing banner ad promising “Discreet, Absolute Healing for Men’s Private Needs” pops up.
Michael’s brows shot up, his posture straightening in the squeaky office chair.
The ad was borderline sketchy. It was unpolished–only consisting of texts and that purple font. “House Calls Only,” the ad read.
He bit his lower lip, the hours of mindless scrolling suddenly had a point.
He remembered the time when he discreetly arranged encounters with the women he found attractive during fan meetings and autograph signing events. Those twenty-something slender models who looked picture perfect in photos. But behind closed doors, those encounters had turned into a recurring nightmare.
Michael remembered the look of polite confusion shifting to an uncomfortable, subtle patronizing pity on a beautiful brunette’s face when his body simply refused to respond to her touch. That quiet humiliation of sitting on the edge of a hotel bed, his head in his hands, his belt unbuckled, while he listens to the rustle of fabric as the girl dressed herself in silence, offering an empty reassurance before slipping out the door.
To them, he was a myth–and finding out he’s a broken piece of a man who couldn’t perform under the weight of his painkillers was a disappointment they couldn’t hide.
He must’ve been the talk of the town among those kinds of girls, he thought.
So he stopped trying to meet women and retreated into the dark, using his desktop computer and dial-up internet to search for a solution. Anything.
Now, as the ad flashed across his crest fallen eyes, his heart hammered against his ribs as he clicked it, hiding behind an encrypted email and a fake name.
Truthfully, he did not expect anyone to really come to the ranch. It might’ve been a scam. Or worse, it is a plot made by the tabloids to get him.
But now, twenty four hours later, the reality of that desperate click sat directly across him.
Michael had expected a ‘doctor’ his age, or perhaps a senile old man to enter his house. But no. Across his mahogany desk, a woman much younger than him sat in that armchair, looking impeccably professional in a white tailored blazer, cream colored pencil skirt that stopped above her knee, a pair of black pantyhose and those cream colored stilettos that made his breath hitch.
He felt out of place in his own space as he watched her balance a clipboard on her knee, her expression neutral–clinical, focused, and devoid of that wide-eyed eagerness Michael usually saw.
To her, he wasn’t the biggest, most hunted man on the planet. Tonight, he was just ‘Peter,’ a client who had paid a massive sum for a private house call.
Michael was a nervous wreck. He isn’t familiar with how any of these sex therapies go. He is tucked into his swivel chair, wearing a pair of black silk pajamas, his long, slender fingers tightly laced together between his knees.
“Alright, Peter,” she began, her voice smooth and businesslike as she tapped her pen against the clipboard. “Let’s establish the baseline. I’ve read the file you gave me, and it notes a persistent inability to achieve or maintain an erection, correlating with your long-term medical regimen.”
She looks up, her long eyelashes fluttering as she stares at his face.
“I need you to be precise and discuss what you feel when intimacy is initiated.”
Michael flinched, a deep crimson blush instantly rushing up his neck. He lets out a mortified gasp as he looks down on his lap.
“I…I don’t know if I can say it out loud, it’s…it’s embarrassing.”
She sets her pen down. “Peter,” she said, her tone tightening with that clinical authority that made his pulse spike. “If you wanted a yes man, you should have stayed with those girls who walked away. You paid for a clinical intervention. If we are going to understand the side effects of your medications, you have to strip away the shame. Now, answer the question. What happens when you are touched?”
The demanding edge in her voice did something dangerous to Michael’s heart. For years everyone coddled him, speaking in hushed voices afraid to disagree with him. Being spoken to with an unapologetic dominance left him completely bare.
He swallowed hard, his large eyes vulnerable as he looked up. “I–It starts out okay,” he shyly smiled. “I feel the heat of it. In my mind. I want it so badly I can’t breathe. But then, it’s like I am drowning. I feel like my body is miles away. I go numb, and then…I see the disappointment on their faces, and the panic paralyzes me.
She did not speak to offer empty comfort. She simply nodded, jotting down a quick note on her clipboard before setting it firmly on the mahogany table. She stood up, her movements deliberate as she circled the table and stopped directly in front of him.
“The physical numbness is amplified by acute performance trauma,” she murmurs, stepping directly into his personal space. “We need to re-establish a tactile baseline. Can you unbutton your shirt?”
Michael froze, his eyes drifting from the curve of her hips up to her eyes.
“Here?”
“Right now,” she commanded softly, her eyes with absolute certainty. “Let me see what we’re working with.”
With shaking fingers, Michael reached up and slowly unbuttoned his shirt, the fabric parting to reveal the pale expanse of his chest.
She did not hesitate. She leant down, her steady hand reaching over, her palm flattening against his chest. The contrast of her cold skin against the feverish heat of his torso made him let out a ragged gasp.
“Your heart is racing,” she notes, her thumb tracing a soft firm line on his ribs, applying a calculated pressure that made his head loll back against the backrest of his chair. “Close your eyes. Block out every memory of your ‘failure.’ Focus on where my hands are moving. Tell me what you feel.”
“I feel…pressure,” Michael choked out, his eyes squeezing shut as his hands gripped the worn leather of his chair. “I feel your fingers. It’s…It’s hot.”
“Good. Your neural pathways are awake. They’re just blocked by your anxiety,” she whispered. Her hands slowly moved downwards, sliding over his lean stomach, her fingers trailing with a deliberate friction that stopped just at the waistband of his pants.
She leaned down, her eyes watching his reaction as her lips brushed the sensitive skin right below his ear, her voice losing a fraction of its clinical chill. “Now, do you want to proceed and test our hypothesis?”
Michael’s breath hitched, a shallow, uneven sound in the study. His eyes remained squeezed shut, his lashes trembling against his cheekbones. He was terrified that if he opened them, the illusion would shatter that she would suddenly realize he wasn't 'Peter,' that she would see the myth and lose that clinical, commanding edge that was currently keeping him tethered to the chair.
But the heat of her hand at the waistband of his silk pants was too real to be a dream. It was a grounding sensation that made the rest of the room fade into a blur.
"Yes," he whispered, the word barely a sound. He swallowed, his throat tight. "Please."
He didn't move to help her, he was too paralyzed by the intensity of the sensation, his body waiting for her to take the lead as she had been doing. He felt a strange, dizzying sense of relief in her dominance. For once, he didn't have to be the one in control. He didn't have to be the one who provided, who performed, who led. He could just... receive.
Her fingers applied a steady, deliberate pressure against where his flaccid length rested, Michael’s head lolled back further, exposing the long, vulnerable line of his throat. A soft, involuntary groan escaped him not of pleasure yet, but of a deep, aching tension finally finding a place to land.
"Is this..." He paused, his voice straining as he tried to maintain some semblance of his usual composure, though it was failing him miserably. "Is this part of the...the clinical process?"
Even in his vulnerability, his mind tried to retreat into the safety of her professional jargon, a desperate attempt to rationalize the way his blood was beginning to thrum in his veins.
He felt her move closer, her presence enveloping him, the scent of her–smelling of vanilla and a hint of sanitizing alcohol filling his senses. He was hyper aware of the distance between his skin and hers, the way the air seemed to hum where they almost touched.
"Just focus on the feeling. Tell me how it feels."
Michael nodded weakly, his fingers digging into the leather of the chair so hard his knuckles turned white.
Her palms flattened against his flaccid length, moving in slow circles as her scrutinizing eyes watched his face.
Michael’s eyes flew open at the sensation, his pupils blown wide. A sharp, jagged gasp escaped him, his chest heaving as the sudden, direct contact sent a jolt through his entire nervous system.
He felt the familiar, terrifying tug of war in his gut. His mind was screaming, yes, more, don't stop, but his lower half felt sluggish as if veiled by an unknown presence.
"It's... it's doing it," he managed to choke out, his voice trembling with a mix of frustration and arousal. He looked down, his gaze flickering toward where her hands were working, before he quickly looked back up at her, his expression desperate. "The heat. It's there. But it's... it's like it's stuck."
He let out a frustrated, shaky breath, his hips giving a small, involuntary twitch upward, seeking more of that friction. He was mortified by how much he wanted it, by how much he was leaning into her touch like a starving man.
"Am I...am I doing it wrong?" he asked, his voice dropping to a quiet, vulnerable pitch. He sounded less like the man on the stage and more like a boy seeking approval. "The numbness...it's trying to come back. Every time I think it's working, it pulls me away."
He reached out, his long, slender fingers hovering near her wrists, not quite daring to touch her yet, as if he were afraid he might break the spell if he moved too fast. He was watching her face intensely, searching for any sign of that disappointment he had feared so much the subtle shift in a woman's eyes when his dick failed to respond.
"Don't stop," he whispered, a command wrapped in a plea. "Please. Just... keep going. Tell me what to do."
She hummed, her lips slightly grazing the skin under his ear. "Don't think. Feel." She seemed unbothered that his body wasn't responding, like this is completely normal. Her focus set on making sure he feels.
The sound of her hum–a low, vibration directly into his skin made Michael’s toes curl against the floor. It was the most grounding thing he had ever felt.
Most women, when they felt the stagnation, would hesitate. They would soften their touch, or worse, they would pull back slightly, their eyes searching his for a sign of apology. That hesitation was like a death warrant for him, it was the moment the shame would flood in and drown the sensation.
But she didn't hesitate. She didn't even blink.
She treated his body like a painting she was admiring, a territory she was reclaiming from the fog of his medication. Her lack of reaction to his lack of response was the most intoxicating part. It stripped away the pressure to perform. For the first time in years, he wasn't a man trying to prove his masculinity, he was just a man trying to feel.
"Don't think..." he repeated her words, the words a ragged breath.
He closed his eyes again, trying to obey her. He tried to let the analytical part of his brain–the part that calculated choreography to simply shut down.
He focused entirely on the friction of her palms. He focused on the weight of her, the scent of her, and the rhythmic, relentless way she moved. He stopped trying to force a reaction and instead tried to simply exist within the sensation.
A slow, heavy warmth began to spread from his groin, moving up his abdomen and settling deep in his pelvis. It wasn't the sudden, sharp spike he was used to chasing, it was a slow, creeping tide.
"It's...it's different," he murmured, his voice thickening. He leaned his head back, his throat exposed and pulsing.
She feels his length start to harden against her palm very slightly. "You're doing well, Peter." She pauses her movement. "Do you want me to take your pants off? Feel me directly on your skin?"
He looked down at her hands, seeing the subtle change in himself, the slight, tentative thickening of his length beneath her palms. To him, it felt like a miracle.
"Yes," he said, the word coming out more forcefully than he intended. He cleared his throat, trying to regain a sliver of the dignity he usually wore like armor, but his eyes betrayed him. They were wide, shimmering with a raw, unadulterated need.
"Please," he whispered, his voice dropping into that low, velvety register that usually commanded stadiums, but here, it was stripped of all bravado. "No more barriers. Just...you. Directly."
She watches him peel his pants and boxers off. His hands trembling slightly as he pulled the waistband of his silk pants–revealing his pale length, barely half-hard, his length mostly flaccid but the arousal is there.
She reached into her medical bag, grabbing a small bottle of water based lube, spurting a generous amount on her palm before gripping his length firmly.
The cool, slick sensation of the lubricant was a shock to his system, a sudden, sliding glide that made his entire body arch off the leather chair. As her hand closed around him, firm and unapologetic, Michael let out a sound that was halfway between a gasp and a sob.
The directness of it was overwhelming. Without his pants to buffer the sensation, every ridge of her palm, every subtle movement of her fingers, felt magnified a hundred times. He felt the slickness coating him, the warmth of her hand mixing with the artificial coolness of the lube, creating a sensory overload that made his head swim.
"Oh..." he breathed, his eyes lidding shut as he surrendered to the feeling.
He felt so high.
Michael was acutely aware of how he looked–how much of him was still soft, how much of him was still struggling to rise to the occasion. He felt the old, familiar prickle of shame at the back of his neck, the instinct to cover himself, to hide the failure of his body. But then her grip tightened, her thumb tracing a slow, deliberate path along the underside of his length, and the shame was forcibly pushed aside by a wave of pure, unadulterated sensation.
"It's...it's so much," he choked out, his hands finding the armrests of the chair and gripping them until his knuckles were white. "The sensation...I–It's everywhere."
He was beginning to feel it–the blood rushing, the heaviness in his groin shifting from a dull ache to a pulsing, insistent throb. The numbness he had feared so much was being pushed back by the tactile reality of her hand.
He began to move with her, a slow, rhythmic tilt of his hips that was almost entirely involuntary. He was chasing the friction, desperate to see just how much more of this contact his body could take before it finally, truly woke up.
"Don't be gentle," he whispered, his voice cracking, his eyes opening to find hers with a look of raw, hungry intensity.
Her pupils dilated as she saw his length coming to life, now standing tall inside her palm as she pumped him slowly.
The moment he felt himself fully harden, a surge of triumph rushed through him. The blood was there, the tension was there, the connection was there.
He let out a long, shuddering breath, his head falling back against the chair, a small, satisfied smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. He felt invincible. He felt like he had finally cracked the fucking code.
"Yes," he groaned, his voice a low rumble of satisfaction. "Yes, right there. That's it."
He began to move more rhythmically, his hips meeting her hand with an increasing, desperate urgency. The sensation was incredible–the slick glide of the lube, the firm, steady pressure of her grip, and the overwhelming heat of her proximity. He felt alive, more alive than he had in months.
But then, the familiar, dreaded sensation began to creep back in.
It wasn't a sudden crash, but a subtle, insidious softening. The intense, pulsing pressure began to ebb, the rigid strength in his length slowly, agonizingly giving way to a familiar, heavy lethargy.
Panic, sharp and cold, flared in his chest.
"No," he whispered, his eyes snapping open, searching her face with a sudden, frantic vulnerability. He tried to tighten his muscles, to force the blood to stay, to fight the inevitable retreat.
He looked down, his heart hammering a frantic rhythm against his ribs as he watched the very thing he had just achieved begin to wilt under her hand. The triumph was being replaced by a crushing sense of déjà vu.
"It's happening again," he choked out, his voice thick with a sudden, desperate frustration. He gripped her wrist, his fingers trembling, not to pull her away, but to hold her there, to anchor him to this moment before it slipped through his fingers like sand. "Please, what should I do?"
She stilled her hand. "Interesting. The erection lasted for more than three seconds before turning flaccid." She pulls back, her eyes staring into his. "Don't try to force it. Don't chase it. Just feel." She gently murmured before leaning down, uncaring of the taste of the water based vanilla lubricant as she licked his flaccid length, straight from balls to the foreskin covered head.
The moment her tongue made contact, Michael’s entire body jolted as if he’d been struck by lightning. A sharp, strangled cry escaped his throat–a sound of pure, unadulterated shock.
He had expected her to pull back, to look at him with that clinical, disappointed scrutiny when he softened. He had expected her to reach for her clipboard to record his failure. But she hadn't. She had leaned in. She had gone even lower.
The sensation was unlike anything he had ever experienced. It was a sensory explosion–the vanilla scent, the heat of her mouth, the wet, sliding friction, it was too much and yet, not fucking enough.
His hands flew to her hair, his long fingers tangling in the strands, not to push her away, but to steady himself as the world began to tilt.
He forced himself to breathe. He just let himself be a man being worshipped.
"Oh God," he whimpered, his eyes rolling back, his head thumping against the leather of the chair. "It's...it's not going away. It's different this time."
He felt the blood returning, not as a sudden rush, but as a steady, pulsing tide, driven by the relentless, wet heat of her mouth. He was beginning to realize that she wasn't just treating a symptom; she was rewiring him.
"Don't stop," he pleaded, his voice a low, guttural rasp, his fingers tightening in her hair. "Please...don't stop. Just keep doing that."
She stares into his eyes as she takes all of his hardening length into her mouth, humming softly as she feels him slowly grow inside.
The sensation of her taking him fully into her mouth–the warmth, the tight, velvet pressure, and the rhythmic hum of her throat against him sent a shockwave through Michael that felt like it might actually shatter his ribs.
As he felt himself growing inside her, the slow, steady expansion of his length against the heat of her mouth, a low, guttural groan vibrated deep in his chest. It was a sound of pure surrender.
"Ahh..." he choked out.
He felt the numbness retreating, the failure he had feared was being replaced by a sensation so profound it was almost overwhelming. He wasn't just getting hard, he was becoming alive.
His hands, which had been gripping her hair, slid down to her cheeks, his thumbs tracing the line of her jaw as he looked down at her. His eyes were dark, glazed with a mixture of arousal and awe. He saw the focus in her eyes, the unwavering professionality that made this feel so much more intimate than a mere sexual encounter.
"It's...it's coming back," he whispered, his voice thick and heavy.
He began to thrust, his movements no longer tentative or desperate, but slow, deep, and rhythmic. He was finding his own tempo, a steady, pulsing drive that matched the incredible sensation of her mouth.
"Don't let go," he commanded, his voice dropping to a low, commanding rasp, his eyes locking onto hers with a sudden, intense clarity. "Don't you dare let go."
She gripped his thighs as she began to create a suction–sucking his length as she bobbed her head.
The sudden, intense pressure of the suction was the breaking point. It was as if she had found the exact frequency required to shatter the last of his defenses. Michael’s back arched violently, his spine curving like a bow as a sharp, high pitched gasp was torn from his lungs.
"God!" he choked out, his hands sliding from her face to her hair, his fingers digging into her scalp with a strength he didn't know he possessed.
He was no longer in control. His hips began to move with a frantic, uncoordinated urgency, his body trying to meet the incredible suction, trying to push deeper, to find more of that overwhelming pressure. Every time she bobbed her head, a new wave of electricity surged through him, making his toes curl and his vision blur into a haze of white light.
"Please," he gasped, his voice a broken, desperate thread. He was hovering on the precipice, the tension in his body reaching a fever pitch that felt like it might snap him in two. "It's too much..."
But even as he said it, he was leaning into it, his head lolling back as he surrendered to the exquisite torment. He could feel the climax building, not as a sudden explosion, but as a massive swell of energy, a tidal wave that was about to crash over him.
He squeezed his eyes shut, his breath coming in ragged, sobbing hitches. He was terrified of the loss of control, of the sheer vulnerability of the moment, but he was even more terrified of her stopping.
"Don't stop," he groaned, his voice a low, guttural command that was more of a plea.
As she moved to move her focus on sucking his swollen head, her eyes gazed at his like an apex predator. Waiting for the exact moment her prey surrenders.
The vacuum-like pressure to the very tip of his dick made Michael felt like his consciousness was fracturing. He felt like she was pulling his life source directly out of his marrow.
But…it was her eyes that truly undid him.
She wasn’t looking at him like a doctor, or even a lover. There was a terrifying dominance–that he was hers to dismantle, hers to study, and hers to break.
“You’re doing this on purpose,” he choked out.
He wasn't even sure if he was accusing her or thanking her. The tension in his lower abdomen was a coiled spring, wound so tight it felt as though his very skin might tear.
"Look at me," he commanded, though it sounded more like a desperate prayer. He needed to see her, to anchor himself to the woman who was currently unmaking him. "Don't... don't look away. Watch me."
He was begging for the humiliation of being seen in his most undone state, because the alternative the thought of her losing that predatory focus was more terrifying than the pleasure itself. He was on the absolute edge, the tidal wave of his climax looming large and heavy, and he wanted her to witness every second of his collapse.
When he exploded, she groaned against his length as he came inside her mouth–painting her throat a pearlescent white.
To Michael, the world fucking shattered. His entire body went rigid, his spine arching so sharply it felt as though he might snap. A long, broken sound halfway between a sob and a roar tore from his lungs.
This was violent. This was raw. It was a visceral, pulsing outpouring of everything he had been holding back the exhaustion, the loneliness, the pressure, and the sheer, overwhelming need to be known.
He felt the rhythmic, heavy pulses of his climax, the sensation of himself being emptied into her warmth, and for a moment, he felt as though he were floating, untethered from the earth, drifting in a void of pure, white light.
His hands, which had been gripping her shoulders, slowly lost their strength, his fingers sliding down her skin as his muscles began to quiver with the aftershocks. His head fell back against the leather, his eyes lidded and glazed, staring up at the ceiling as he struggled to find his breath.
The silence that followed was heavy, thick with the scent of vanilla lubricant and the musk of their shared heat.
He slowly lowered his gaze to her, his eyes searching hers through the haze of his exhaustion. He looked at her with a quiet, intense reverence, a look that went far beyond the clinical boundaries of their "session."
"Did you..." He swallowed hard, a small, dazed smirk flickering on his lips, though his eyes remained deeply serious. "Did you get the data you needed?"
The vulnerability of being so completely undone was terrifying, yet it left him with a hunger that the release hadn't satisfied. He felt the phantom sensation of her mouth, the way she had looked at him like a prize she had successfully claimed, and it ignited a new, different kind of desperation.
He wasn't satisfied with just being the subject. He needed to be the force.
As the tremors in his limbs began to subside, a quiet, intense resolve settled over him. He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he cupped her cheek, his thumb tracing the line of her lower lip, still glistening from him.
"It wasn't enough," he murmured, his voice a low, gravelly rasp that vibrated between them.
He wasn't talking about the climax. He was talking about the connection, the sheer, unadulterated power of what had just happened. He felt the heavy, pulsing ache in his groin beginning to stir again not the frantic, panicked need from before, but a slow, deliberate rebuilding of strength.
"I need to feel you," he whispered, his eyes searching hers with a sudden, piercing intensity. He wasn't asking as a patient anymore. He was asking as a man. "Not just...not just like that. I want to feel you against me."
He was watching her every expression, looking for that clinical detachment to crack, for the predator to show a hint of the woman underneath.
"I want to see if it works," he said, his voice dropping to a deadpan whisper, though the heat in his eyes betrayed the seriousness of his mission. "If I can do that to you. If I can make you lose that...that control."
He moved his hand from her cheek down to her waist, his fingers splaying against her skin, pulling her just an inch closer, enough to feel the heat radiating from her body.
"Tell me you want to see if I can handle you. If I can please you."
She blinks. Her hands suddenly clammy as she holds onto his shoulders.
"I don't usually hook up with my patients," she teases though her voice is starting to get rid of that clinical tone.
Michael didn't laugh, but the corner of his mouth twitched a tiny, almost imperceptible smirk.
"Then don't think of it as a hookup," he murmured, his voice dropping into that low, velvet register that carried a weight of quiet authority. "Think of it as...making sure your patient is a hundred percent recovered."
He didn't let her pull away. Instead, he gently pulled her until she was draped across him, her skin meeting his in a way that made his breath hitch. He was acutely aware of the way his body was responding to her proximity–the slow, steady rebuild of his arousal, a heavy, pulsing heat that felt much more stable than the frantic spike from before.
He watched her closely, his observant eyes noting the slight change in her breathing, the way her pupils were still wide, the way the clinical coolness in her gaze was being replaced by something much more dangerous.
He shifted beneath her, a slow, grounding movement that allowed him to feel the weight of her against his growing hardness. He wasn't rushing. He was being patient, a man who knew that the best performances and the best sensations came from a controlled, steady build.
"So," he whispered, his eyes locking onto hers, intense and unblinking. "Are we going to keep talking about your professional ethics...or are you going to let me see if you can keep that composure when it's my turn to lead?"
The silence in the room was heavy, broken only by the sound of their synchronized, slightly uneven breathing. Michael didn't look away from her face. He kept his gaze locked on hers, observant and intense, as if he were trying to memorize every flicker of emotion that crossed her features.
He stood up from the swivel chair, carrying her body with him as he set her down to sit on the mahogany table.
His movements were slow, almost agonizingly so. He wasn't in a rush to reach the goal, he was savoring the tension, the anticipation that sat between them like a physical weight. His fingers, long and steady, reached under her skirt and hooked into the waistband of her pantyhose. He felt the slight resistance of the fabric, the delicate texture against his skin, but he didn't let his focus waver from her eyes.
He watched her pupils dilate. He watched the way her jaw tightened ever so slightly as he began to peel the sheer material down her thighs.
"You're being very quiet," he murmured, his voice a low, dry vibration. It was a tease, a way to acknowledge the tension without breaking it.
He continued the descent, his hands working with a calm, controlled precision. He moved the fabric past her knees, then her thighs, his touch light but intentional, ensuring she felt every inch of his progress.
As the fabric cleared the curve of her hips, he finally allowed his gaze to drop, just for a second, to the skin he had revealed, before snapping back up to her eyes to demand her attention.
"There," he said softly, his voice dropping an octave. "No more barriers."
He let the pantyhose pool around her ankles, leaving her exposed to his gaze and his touch. He wanted her to feel the heat of his attention, the way he was looking at her not as a therapist, but as a man who was very much aware of exactly what he wanted to do to her.
He leaned forward, his movements fluid and graceful, and pressed a soft, lingering kiss to the curve of her ankle. The sound of her heels hitting the carpet was a dull, heavy thud that seemed to echo the sudden pounding of his own heart. He stayed there for a moment, his forehead resting against her skin, simply breathing her in.
Then, he began to move.
He started at her ankles, his lips tracing the delicate bone, his tongue sweeping in slow, wet strokes that sent shivers racing up her legs. He moved with a quiet, intense focus, his eyes occasionally lifting to catch her expression, watching for the slightest tremor of pleasure.
His mouth traveled up the length of her calves, his kisses becoming more fervent, more demanding. He used his hands to hold her legs steady, his fingers spreading wide against her skin to anchor her as he worked his way upward. Every inch of her skin felt like a new territory to be explored, a new sensation to be mastered.
He reached her knees, his tongue swirling around the kneecaps as he bunched her skirt up her hips before his lips moved to the soft, sensitive skin of her inner thighs. He could feel the heat radiating from her, the subtle, involuntary twitch of her muscles as his mouth neared the most intimate parts of her.
He slowed down even more, his breath hot and damp against her skin. He was being meticulous, almost surgical, in the way he teased the sensitive skin of her upper thighs, his lips grazing the edges of her heat without quite touching it.
He wanted her to ache. He wanted the anticipation to become a physical weight, a pressure that she couldn't ignore.
"Tell me," he whispered, his voice a dark, velvet rasp as he pressed his face into the crook of her thigh, his breath hitching. "Tell me if you're still just 'observing' me."
He looked up then, his eyes dark and heavy with a quiet, predatory hunger, his face inches from her, his lips still wet from her skin.
"You paid me to make sure you feel good. My pleasure is out of the question," her voice losing all of the clinical tone. Her posture suddenly shy and uncertain.
He stopped his movement, his lips still hovering just inches from her inner thigh. Then, he slowly sat up, his movements graceful but heavy with intent. He didn't look at her with the eyes of a patient anymore. He looked at her with the eyes of a man who had just been given the keys to a kingdom.
Michael stood up, his hands sliding under her thighs to hook beneath her, lifting her slightly so he could settle himself more firmly between her legs. He wanted her to feel the sheer, unyielding reality of him. He was finally fully hard.
He leaned in, his face inches from hers, his dark eyes searching her face with an intensity that was almost overwhelming. He saw the way her breath was coming in shallow, uneven hitches. He saw the way she was looking at him not as a subject, but as her master.
"You're wrong," he whispered, his thumb catching her bottom lip and pulling it down just enough to expose the wetness of her mouth. "Your pleasure isn't out of the question. It’s the entire point."
He shifted his weight, his hips pressing firmly against her, making sure she felt every inch of his length against her most sensitive skin. He was being direct, his touch possessive and steady.
He moved one hand to the back of her head, his fingers tangling in her hair, not to pull, but to guide. He leaned forward, his lips brushing against the shell of her ear, his voice dropping to a command that was both a promise and a decree.
"Now," he breathed, his teeth grazing her earlobe. "Let me try and worship you."
His thumb moved, pressing firmly into the center of her panties, Michael felt the truth of her words. The fabric was heavy, saturated with a warmth that told him everything his eyes already suspected. She wasn't just submissive; she was desperate.
He didn't pull away. He didn't move to strip the last of her clothing immediately. Instead, he stayed there, his thumb moving in a slow, deliberate circle, grinding the damp silk against her most sensitive point. He wanted to feel the exact rhythm of her arousal, the way the moisture pooled and shifted under his pressure.
A low, dark sound halfway between a growl and a sigh vibrated in his chest. The control he usually prided himself on was fraying at the edges, replaced by a heavy, pulsing need to bridge the gap between the fabric and her skin.
"You're a terrible liar," he murmured, his voice a thick, honeyed rasp. He didn't look up, his eyes were fixed on the way her hips instinctively hitched upward, seeking the very pressure he was providing. "You said your pleasure was out of the question...but you're soaking."
He increased the pressure, his thumb pressing harder, more insistent, feeling the slick heat through the thin barrier. He was being clinical in his observation, but the intent was entirely carnal.
"Don't try to hold it back," he commanded, his voice dropping to a quiet, intense whisper as he hovered just above the damp fabric. "Let me feel how much you want this."
He slid her panties aside. He felt the slick heat of her, a directness that made his heart hammer a frantic rhythm against his ribs. He was driven by a singular, focused intent, his hips moving with a slow, heavy determination as he notched himself against her entrance.
He began to rub the swollen head of his dick against her dampness. He wanted to feel every nuance of her friction, the way she pulsed against his hardness.
And then, as if the world had suddenly lost its gravity, the tension snapped.
It wasn't a sudden drop, but a slow, embarrassing receding of the tide. The hard, pulsing strength began to soften, the heavy throb in his veins turning into a dull, heavy ache. The sensation of her heat suddenly felt distant, as if a layer of thick glass had been placed between them.
Michael froze.
He didn't move for a long time. He stayed positioned against her, his weight still pressing into her, but the commanding presence was gone. He felt a sudden, sharp pang of frustration, followed by a wave of quiet, stinging vulnerability. The man who was always in control, the man who managed every rehearsal and every public moment with precision, had just lost his grip on the most important thing in the room.
He didn't look up at her immediately. He couldn't. He stared down at where they were joined, his jaw tightening, a muscle leaping in his cheek.
"Damn it," he whispered, the words barely audible, a dry, self deprecating rasp.
He didn't sound angry at her, he sounded frustrated with himself. He felt the urge to pull away, to hide, but he forced himself to stay. He wouldn't give her the satisfaction of seeing him flustered, even if his heart was currently a chaotic mess.
But Michael can’t help the frustrated tears from escaping his eyes.
He had spent his entire life learning how to hold his face still, how to be the calm center of every storm. But here, stripped of his clothes and his pretenses, the frustration of his own body betrayed him. It wasn't just the physical loss of his arousal, it was the overwhelming weight of the vulnerability he had allowed himself to feel. He had let her see him undone, and then, in the most crucial moment, he had failed to be the man he wanted to be for her.
The tears were silent, hot, and unbidden, tracing stinging paths through the sweat on his cheeks. He felt a deep, hollow ache in his chest that was a humiliation he wasn't prepared for.
When he felt her lean in, he instinctively braced himself for a clinical observation, or worse the silent, polite pity of a doctor.
But instead, he felt the incredible softness of her lips against his skin.
She wasn't judging him. She was kissing the salt from his cheeks, her touch so tender that it felt like a benediction. The warmth of her mouth against his damp skin acted like a balm, soothing the jagged edges of his frustration.
Michael let out a long, shuddering breath, his eyes closing tightly as he finally allowed his muscles to go limp. The tension that had been coiled in his shoulders for hours perhaps even years began to bleed out of him. He didn't feel the need to be the performer anymore.
He reached up, his hands trembling as he cupped her face, his fingers sliding into her hair to pull her even closer. He buried his face in the crook of her neck, breathing in the scent of her skin, his forehead resting against her shoulder.
"Don't," he whispered into her skin, his voice a wrecked, vulnerable thread of sound. "Don't be kind to me because you feel bad for me."
He pulled back just enough to look at her, his eyes red rimmed and raw, but the intense, observant light was returning to them.
"Don't feel bad Peter. You're just starting to get back on track." she smiles softly before rubbing his cheek.
Michael let out a breath that was half laugh, half sigh. He leaned into her hand as she rubbed his cheek, his eyes fluttering closed for a moment as he savored the simple, grounding sensation of her touch.
He didn't pull away. Instead, he shifted his weight, moving his body closer to hers until there was no space left between them. He reached down, his hand finding hers where it rested on his cheek, and he pressed her palm more firmly against his skin, as if he were trying to absorb her warmth.
"Back on track," he repeated, the words a low, dark vibration. He let his gaze drop to her lips, then back to her eyes, his expression turning serious, almost predatory in its quietness.
He moved his hand from hers, sliding it down her neck to the nape of her hair, his fingers tangling in the dark strands to tilt her head back just a fraction. He wasn't rushing this time.
He leaned in, his lips brushing hers in a tease of a kiss, a slow, testing contact that was meant to reignite the fire he had felt slipping away. He was watching her, observing the way her breath caught, the way her eyes darkened, waiting for the moment he could prove to her and to himself that he could handle everything she was.
He decided. If he can’t please her with his damned dick, he will do everything to make her feel good.
Michael’s eyes never left hers. He was watching the way her expression shifted, the way her pupils swallowed the iris as he moved his hand lower.
His fingers were steady, despite the lingering tremor in his heart. He moved with a calm, surgical focus, his touch light and teasing at first as he circled her clit. He was exploring, feeling the way the heat intensified under his touch, the way she began to arch her hips instinctively toward his hand.
He increased the pressure, his movements becoming more rhythmic and deliberate. He used the pad of his thumb to apply a firm, consistent pressure, circling the sensitive peak with a slow, agonizing precision. He watched her face with a quiet, intense hunger, noting every hitch in her breath, every small, involuntary gasp that escaped her lips. He was looking for the exact frequency of her pleasure, the exact moment where her control would finally, irrevocably shatter.
He wasn't just trying to please her, he was trying to reclaim himself through her. Every tremor in her thighs, every soft moan she let out, was a testament to his power over her, even when his own body felt momentarily out of sync.
"There," he whispered, his voice dropping to a dark, velvet rasp as he felt her muscles tighten, her breathing becoming shallow and frantic. He leaned in closer, his face inches from hers, his eyes dark and heavy with a quiet, commanding intensity. "Don't hold back. Give me everything."
He shifted his hand, his fingers sliding a little deeper, providing a different kind of friction that made her entire body shudder.
"Show me," he commanded, his gaze locking onto hers, unyielding and profound. "Show me exactly how much you need this."
Then, the sound of her gasp loud, uninhibited, and completely devoid of that clinical composure was the most beautiful thing Michael had heard all day. It was the sound of a total surrender.
As she shuddered, her body arching violently against his hand, he felt the hot pulse of her release flooding over his fingers. He didn't pull back. He didn't even flinch. Instead, he leaned into it, his hand remaining steady and firm, his fingers moving with a slow, grounding rhythm to ride out the waves of her climax. He wanted to catch every single sensation, to feel the very moment her muscles clamped around his hand in the peak of her pleasure.
He watched her eyes roll back, his own gaze intense and unblinking, absorbing the sight of her undone. He felt a profound sense of triumph, he was able to make her feel good.
As the intensity of her orgasm began to ebb into long, shaky aftershocks, Michael didn't immediately move to reclaim himself. He stayed right there, his hand still cradling her, his thumb continuing to trace slow, soothing circles over her sensitive skin to soothe the ache of the climax.
He waited until her breathing began to level out, until the frantic tension in her thighs softened into a heavy, relaxed warmth. Only then did he lift his hand, his fingers glistening and wet, and he brought them up to his own mouth, tasting her with a slow, deliberate movement of his tongue.
He looked at her then, his expression calm and composed once more, though his eyes were still dark with a lingering, quiet heat. The vulnerability from before hadn't vanished; it had simply transformed into a deep, grounded connection.
"Did the patient exceed the doctor’s expectations?" he murmured, his voice a low, dry rasp, a tiny, satisfied smirk playing at the corner of his mouth.
He leaned forward, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to her forehead, his touch incredibly gentle. He stayed close, his body still pressed against hers, refusing to leave the space she had just created.
He shifted, his weight settling more firmly between her legs, and as he did, he felt the familiar, heavy throb returning to his own body. The frustration was gone, replaced by a singular, focused purpose.
"Now," he said, his voice a quiet, commanding velvet. "Let's see if I can finish what I started."
As he felt his length rise fully, he guided himself to her entrance.
As he sank into her, the sensation was overwhelming a tight, searing heat that felt like coming home. He let out a long, low exhale, his eyes closing for a fraction of a second as he felt the friction of her dampness welcoming him.
But he didn't lose himself in the sensation. Instead, he forced himself to stay present, to stay observant. He opened his eyes and locked them onto hers, his gaze intense and unwavering. He wanted to see the exact moment the pleasure hit her, the way her expression would shift from the soft afterglow of her climax to the sharp, focused intensity of his presence.
He began to move, but it wasn't the frantic pace of someone trying to prove something. It was slow. Deliberate. Heavy. Each thrust was a long, dragging motion, designed to maximize the contact between them, to make sure she felt every inch of him stretching her, filling her.
"Look at me," he commanded, his voice a low, dark vibration. He wanted her eyes on him, wanted to be the only thing she could see, the only thing she could feel.
He watched the way her pupils dilated, the way her breath hitched in her throat as he hit a particularly sensitive spot. He saw the slight tremor in her hands as she gripped the sheets, and the way her head fell back, only for him to catch her chin with his hand, pulling her gaze back to his.
"Don't close your eyes," he murmured, a hint of his usual dry, teasing tone returning, though it was weighted with a heavy, primal hunger. "You wouldn't want to miss your patient recovering, would you?"
He increased the depth of his strokes, his movements becoming more purposeful, more rhythmic. He was no longer the frustrated man from moments ago; he was a man in total control of his rhythm, using the slow, grinding pace to build a new, much more dangerous kind of tension.
"There," he whispered, his voice a velvet rasp as he felt her body begin to tighten around him again. "That's it. Just like that."
"Peter!" she moans as she holds onto his shoulder, her eyes growing heavy lidded as sweat dribbled down inside her blazer.
The sound of his alias ripped through the heavy, erotic air like a discord in a perfect melody. It was a name for a man who was a patient, a man who was not the one currently driving her to the brink of madness.
Michael’s rhythm didn't falter, but his expression sharpened. The slow, grinding motion of his hips became a little more insistent, a little more demanding, as he felt her fingers dig into the muscle of his shoulder. He leaned down, his hands moving to unbutton her blazer–freeing the tank top underneath soaked by her sweat.
"No," he murmured, his voice a low, velvet growl.
He paused for a heartbeat, his length still deep inside her, the sudden stillness making the sensation of him even more overwhelming. He waited until she was looking at him, until he had her full, breathless attention.
"Not Peter," he commanded softly, his thumb tracing the line of her jaw with a firm, possessive pressure. "He’s not the one in here."
He gave a slow, heavy thrust, a deliberate movement designed to remind her exactly who was currently claiming her body. He watched her eyes, waiting for the realization to sink in.
"Call me Michael," he whispered, his breath hot against her skin. "I want to hear my name when you lose your mind."
He didn't wait for her to answer. He resumed the slow, torturous rhythm, his gaze never wavering from hers, his eyes challenging her to drop the last of her pretenses and give him the truth.
She licks her lips. "You feel so good. I can see why those girls were disappointed when you couldn't get it up." she moans out as her eyes rolled back
A sharp, short exhale escaped him a sound that was half laugh and half growl. Most men would have been insulted, but Michael simply felt a surge of dark, amused energy.
He didn't slow down. If anything, the jab seemed to fuel him, the slight sting of her sarcasm acting like a catalyst for the tension building in his gut.
"Is that so?" he murmured, his voice dropping into a dangerously low, velvety register.
He leaned down, his chest pressing firmly against hers as he drove a deeper, more forceful thrust into her. He watched her eyes roll back, the sight of her undone by his very presence a silent answer to her teasing.
He increased the tempo, the slow, grinding rhythm evolving into something more urgent, more demanding. The friction was intense, the heat between them reaching a fever pitch. He was no longer just 'getting back on track'; he was driving toward a finish line that he intended to cross with her.
"Tell me again," he commanded, his voice a rough, commanding rasp as he felt her hips begin to buck against him. "Tell me how good it feels. And use my name this time."
She bites her lips before looking at him with glazed eyes. "You feel so good inside me, Michael. So deep inside me."
The way she said his name, thick with lust and heavy with the heat of her climax was the final blow to his restraint.
"Damn you," he rasped, his voice breaking slightly.
He didn't just move, he drove into her. He abandoned the slow, measured tempo for a more powerful, rhythmic drive, his hips hitting hers with a heavy, bruising intensity that made the bed frame groan.
He watched her glazed eyes. He wanted to be the only thing she could feel, the only thing she could think about.
"Deep?" he echoed, his voice a dark, commanding vibration. He leaned down, his lips brushing against the shell of her ear, his breath hot and ragged. "Then let's see how much more you can take."
He reached down, his hand finding hers and lacing their fingers together, pinning her hand to the wood beside her head. He wanted to be tethered to her, to feel the exact moment her body reached its limit.
He increased the pace, his movements becoming a blur of friction and heat. He was watching her, his eyes wide and dark, tracking every spasm of her muscles, every frantic gasp of her breath. He was waiting for the storm, for the moment her body would tighten around him in that final, exquisite crescendo.
"Look at me," he commanded, his voice a raw, desperate rasp as he felt the tremors of his own release beginning to pulse through him. "Look at me when you break."
The moment she broke, it was as if the world had finally caught up to the intensity they had been building. Michael felt her entire body seize, her internal muscles clamping around him in a fierce, rhythmic desperation that was almost too much to bear. She let out a long, shattered cry, her head tossing back as the waves of her orgasm crashed over her, her body trembling with a violence that was both beautiful and terrifying.
The control he had worked so hard to maintain, the composure he wore like armor, shattered completely.
"Shit! " he gasped.
He drove into her one last time, a deep, final thrust that seemed to bury him entirely within her. As he hit his own peak, he felt the sudden, explosive release, a powerful surge of heat that felt like it was pouring from his very soul into her. He groaned, a deep, guttural sound that started in his chest and tore from his throat, his eyes snapping shut as he surrendered to the overwhelming sensation of coming inside her.
He didn't pull away. He couldn't. He collapsed forward, his chest heaving, his sweat slicked skin pressed tightly against hers. He buried his face in the crook of her neck, his breath coming in ragged, uneven stabs, his entire body vibrating with the aftershocks of his release.
The air was heavy, thick with the scent of skin and sex and the quiet, profound aftermath of what they had just done.
Slowly, he lifted his head, though he didn't move away. His eyes were dark, heavy lidded, and filled with a quiet, intense adoration that he rarely allowed himself to show so openly. He looked at her, seeing the flushed skin, the messy hair, and the beautiful, exhausted haze in her eyes.
He reached out, his hand trembling slightly as he brushed a damp strand of hair away from her face. His touch was incredibly gentle, a stark contrast to the primal intensity of moments ago.
"You're a very good therapist," he murmured, his voice a low, dry rasp, though the corners of his mouth twitched with the smallest, most genuine hint of a smile.
He leaned down, pressing a slow, lingering, and incredibly tender kiss to her lips.
She closed her eyes, her hands coming up to cradle his jaw as he pulled away.
He grinned—that handsome lopsided smile that always showed a sliver of his lower teeth.
"Same time tomorrow?"
an: sooo...what do you guys think about the fic? you might be so weirded out why i attached slipknot's scissors to this but i think the track perfectly mirrors the frustration of wanting to rip through your skin to feel human again—to break free from the very drug consuming you, making you feel numb. also, you don't have to listen to it while reading! i just thought it fitted the fic while it played on my shuffle :’)
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synopsis: michael jackson is the world’s biggest superstar, but behind closed doors, his prescription drugs leave him entirely numb—so after humiliating himself with twenty-something models, he resorts to clicking a borderline sketchy ad on a sex therapist.
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pairing: dangerousera!michael jackson x undercoverspy!female reader
synopsis: a desperate, debt-ridden wardrobe assistant tries to sell out Michael Jackson’s private secrets to a tabloid—only to discover the soft-spoken singer already knows her game.
tags: mature content, explicit smut (minors dni!), porn with plot, power imbalance, age gap (reader is 24 / michael is 34), p in v sex, missionary, table sex, doggy style, mirror sex, creampie, oral sex (f receiving), dom!michael, slight choking, squirting, crying, slightlydark!michael (?), angst, comfort (?)
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The eviction notice carelessly taped on her front door was printed on cheap paper. But the ink bled through her senses–heavy enough to make her want to sink into the tiled floorboards.
Two thousand, and two hundred dollars. That was just the back rent for her cramped and moldy apartment in Glendale. The walls stained a questionable green, the air smelled permanently of old radiator fluid and the next door tenant’s fried onions. Throw in the monthly payments on a mountain of student loans for a graphic arts degree that had provided her absolutely nothing but a temporary contract as a low-level wardrobe runner, and she was drowning.
When she had managed to secure a spot on the production crew for Michael Jackson’s Dangerous World Tour, she thought it was the light at the end of a neverending tunnel. Instead, it was almost an exploitation scheme on how she is horribly treated by her superiors–only for a low salary barely covering her expenses.
As an assistant wardrobe coordinator, she was at the very bottom of the food chain in the glamorous kingdom of MJJ Productions. Her days blurred into an endless loop of labor–hauling heavy garment crates through the corridors of Culver City soundstages, her hands smelling of industrial steamer water and leather polish. She was the one who had to meticulously re-stitch the delicate gold piping on military jackets, and sprint across arena floors to deliver quick changes.
Despite working for the King of Pop, her paycheck was a pity, swallowed entirely by her debt before it even reached her palms. She was invisible to the money hungry executives, ignored by bodyguards, and survives purely on self loathing and stale coffee.
Then came the man in the ashy suit.
It happened at 1:15 AM in a greasy, neon-lit diner only four blocks away from the rehearsal studio. She was sitting alone in a vinyl booth, her hands nursing a mug of black coffee she could only pretend to enjoy. As her eyes burned with exhaustion, a man she had never seen before slid into the booth across her without asking. He certainly did not look like a normal blue collar worker, nor someone wanting to get her number. Not like she’s expecting.
He didn’t bother with the pleasantries. He only slid a heavy manila folder on the greasy table. When she opened it, her brows furrowed as her chest tightened.
Inside were copies of her bank statements, her four months worth of rent backlogs, her college transcripts, and the very resume he submitted to the recruiter in MJJ Productions.
“The world is hungry for a peek of the Dangerous tour,” the man said, his voice devoid of any emotion. “A major publication in London is prepared to pay thousands of dollars for a little…on the ground reporting. Nothing too major. Only personal habits. How he acts when the cameras are off.”
She swallowed. Her morals clearly blaring loud alarms in her head.
This is wrong. This is not who she was.
She tried to push the folder away.
“I signed an NDA. His lawyers will destroy me.”
“Well then, you shouldn’t get caught, little mouse,” the man replied without a hitch. He reached into his breast pocket and slid an ivory cashier’s check across the table. Her eyes widened as her gaze locked onto the zeroes.
Ten thousand dollars.
“This covers your back rent and your loans for the next months. There’s fifty thousand more waiting for you at the end of the first half of the tour. All we need are time to time reports, and audio recordings. Document everything. You do this, and your debt disappears. Practically a life brand new.”
She stared at the check. A life vest dangling in front of her eyes as she drowns in a vast sea. But it didn’t feel like salvation. It felt like being pushed head first into the water.
She thought of Michael–the way he always spoke to the crew in that gentle voice even as he complains about a beat that felt off, and how he just thanked her two days ago when she handed him his fedora. He was eccentric, yes, but she knew he was only protective of his privacy because the world had spent all their might to pick at it. And she knew that very same privacy is the one she is about to breach.
But then she thought of her landlord. The crushing weight of waking up every day feeling like a criminal just for being poor. Desperation crept up her throat like bile. With trembling fingers, she grabbed the check, folded it neatly in half, and slid it into her purse.
For three weeks, she lived a double life that even the best CIA agents would be in awe of her.
She noted everything. She documented the silence of the soundstages at 4:00 AM when he would suddenly decide to practice a five-second dance transition over and over again until the stage floor was scuffed by the residue of the leather of his loafers. She noted how he would only drink freshly squeezed orange juice and carrot juice even after a grueling set.
But the real deal was his private dialogue.
On a rainy Wednesday night, the production was locked in Culver City for technical run-throughs. The air inside the wings was freezing, smelling of damp wood and the synthetic scent of the subwoofers. While the rest of the wardrobe team stayed at the hotel, she stayed behind under the guise of cataloging the heavy beaded jackets and holographic military apparel.
When the technical crew went on a dinner break, she slipped into the dark corridor behind the main stage where Michael’s private quick-change trailer sat. Her chest ached with the familiar sickening mix of adrenaline and guilt as she reached into her pocket, pulling out the sleek, micro-cassette recorder.
She stepped inside his trailer. Her dirty Sketchers squeaking softly against the carpeted flooring.
Her hands shook violently as she reached toward the small velvet-line tray on his vanity mirror where he kept his heavy aviator sunglasses. She slipped the tiny recorder just under the plush fabric, hiding it perfectly.
She was just about to slip back out when she heard a rustle of fabric.
She spun around, her heart jumping straight into her throat. Her hip slammed into the vanity table, sending the clutter of powder foundations onto the floorboards with a wince inducing rattle.
Michael was standing in the narrow doorway of the trailer.
The Michael the world knew was completely gone. He has already stripped off his heavy blazer, leaving him in a loose v-neck shirt, revealing the smooth, pale skin of his chest. His damp messy curls fell wildly across his face, casting shadows over his large, dark eyes. He looked drained, but the sheer physical presence of him was suffocating.
“Michael!” she choked out, her hands flying behind her to grip the edge of the vanity, desperately regaining his balance and covering the velvet tray she was just tampering with.
“I–I’m sorry. I thought everyone was at dinner. I was just checking on the armbands for ‘Jam.’”
Contrary to what she expected, Michael didn’t look angry. He looked at her through his long eyelashes with a quiet curiosity she had never seen him direct toward a low-level crew member before.
He took a slow step into the trailer. The steel door clicked shut behind him, cutting off the distant mechanical hum of the soundstage.
“You’re always working so late,” he observes. His voice a breathy whisper–the exact kind of intimate audio publications would die for. Hearing it this close made her knees turn into jelly. “Everytime I look at the wings, you’re there. Stitching shirts.”
She swallows.
“It’s my job, Mr. Jackson,” her voice uneven. The guilt was a physical weight, pressing down on her lungs. He was closing the distance, his soft loafers making no sound.
“Michael,” he corrected gently, stopping just a few inches from her. He was taller than she realized standing this close—in comparison to when she looked at him from afar. A shy dimpled smile touched his lips, but his eyes were heavy, trailing down the front of her maroon paisley cut top before rising back to her face. “You don’t have to be so formal with me.”
He reached out. His long, slender fingers caught a stray lock of her hair that had fallen out of her messy ponytail. His touch was light, but it felt like fire against her skin.
“You always look so scared when I walk into a room,” Michael whispered, his breath hot against her cheek as he leaned down slightly, tilting his head. The innocent, boyish demeanor he always displayed was there, but it was masking a sudden intensity that made her pulse jump out her skin. “Do I make you nervous, sweetheart?”
“No,” she lied, her voice barely a gasp. Her heart rapidly thumping she was terrified he could hear it too.
“Mhm…I think I do,” he murmured, a lopsided smile flashing on his face. He didn’t pull away, instead, his fingers slid down the side of her neck, his thumb resting directly over the pounding artery in her throat. “Your heart is beating so fast. Like a little mouse.”
The nickname made her heart stop. The same nickname the man in the ashy suit called her, making her mind swim with an even more crushing guilt.
He stepped even closer, his hips gently nudging her back against the edge of the vanity, effectively pinning her in place. He stared down at her through his lashes, his breathing suddenly shallow.
“The managers…they yell at me all day. Everyone wants something from me,” Michael whispered, his voice dropping into a low, seductive rasp that vibrated down her spine. His thumb pressed harder on her frantic pulse, coaxing a hum from his chest. “You’re different. You just watch me. I’ve been watching you back, you know.”
He leaned in closer, his lips brushing the skin beneath her jawline, making her shiver violently.
“You work so hard,” his hand tightening around her neck with a sudden possessive urgency.
She closed her eyes. Her tongue darted out to lick her suddenly dry lips–making his eyes darken as he followed the movement.
“Let me take care of you tonight.”
He moves the hand on her throat and nudges her head upward, his lips immediately finding the column of her throat to plant wet, languid kisses. His other hand found the skin of her waist as it crept up under her shirt.
“Michael,” she breathes out as her knees buckle from the sensation of his mouth.
“Shh…” he moves lower, his tongue catching at her collarbone as his hands deftly lifted her shirt, inching it upward—revealing the unassuming fabric of her gray cotton bra.
He moves back slightly only to look down at her chest, his lips curving into an amused smile as he thumbs the underside of her bra.
“Very cute,” he mumbles before peeling off her shirt and dropping it behind him. His fingers immediately darted to her back, finding the clasp of her bra and twisting it free with the speed only an experienced man would have.
She gasps, her throat constricting as her arms flew up to shield her chest. He didn’t let her hide for long. His hands gently grabbed her wrists and set it down to grab onto his waistband.
“Don’t,” he breathes as his eyes wandered appreciatively over the peaks of her breasts, her nipples pebbling from the cold air of the trailer. “You’re so beautiful.”
She bites her lips as she watches him descend onto her chest, his mouth latching onto her nipples as he provided a suction so delicious her torso voluntarily arched into him.
He smirks into her skin, his movements becoming even more determined. His tongue darted out to draw slow circles on her nipple, his other hand twisting and pulling at the other.
Her hands flew up from his waistband to hold onto his nape. She sighs into his touch, her panties growing wetter by the second.
Suddenly, he withdrew—a string of saliva connecting the dark bud of her nipple into his lower lip. Her mouth dropped open as she looked at him with heavy lidded eyes. He moves to carry her on top of the vanity table, his hands strong and stable as they hook under her thighs.
He did not care for the mess of make up on the floor. He leaned in, kissing down her stomach as his fingers moved to pull her pants down. Once the fabric was removed from her ankles, he groaned as his hands softly travelled up to the soft skin of her thighs.
Michael moved to kneel down the floor of the trailer. His dark eyes gazing up at her with a hunger that made her heart stutter inside her ribs.
He kept his gaze on her face as he leaned in to plant wet kisses up the inside of her thighs, not quite reaching the heat of her desire.
“You’re so soft,” he mumbles into her skin. She unconsciously widened her legs, making him chuckle softly as he bit softly on the plush flesh of her thighs.
As his fingers hooked under the waistband of her panties, he paused.
“Do you want this?”
She stilled for a second. Her emotions are a mess–hungry and craving for his touch, and drowning in a guilt so heavy she believes she doesn’t deserve to even breathe near him.
Even still, she found herself nodding softly.
“Words, sweetheart,” he tuts as he palms her hips.
“Y–Yes…I want this,” she manages to breathe out.
Michael’s eyes grow darker. “Good girl,” he cooed as his fingers finally pulled her panties off her legs, his eyes fixed onto the soft patch of hair on her mound, the center of her thighs damp and smelling like pure desire.
He closes his eyes to compose himself. His hands tightening around her ankles as he maneuvered them to rest on his shoulders.
“Watch,” he commands her as he finally leans in, his mouth meeting her damp core.
She let out a choked moan, her hand flying to grab onto the table as she felt his flat tongue lick slowly from her perineum up to her pulsing clitoris. He didn’t rush. As a man who believed in the art of anticipation, he didn’t rush for the climax. He savored her—the young and ripe taste of her desire.
Michael moans into her core, the vibration causing her hips to stutter. His tongue moved to draw lazy eights onto her swollen nub.
When he feels her head loll back, he reaches up and grabs her chin to direct her gaze back towards him. “Thought I told you to watch,” he says as he plants wet kisses directly on her entrance.
“‘m sorry. It’s too much,” she whines softly as she forces her watery eyes to focus on his cruelly handsome face situated between her thighs.
He only laughs, the sound so full of condescending adoration. Instead of resuming his mouth’s ministrations, he stands up into his full height. His arms bracing on both sides of her hips as he leans in to look down at her through his lashes.
“‘s too much?” he coos as he runs a finger down the damp skin of her ribs, making her twitch away from the ticklish touch.
Michael draws back to fumble with the buttons of his trousers, her eyes following the movement with a reverence so deep it made her blood grow hot.
He smirks as he watches her watch him. He didn’t shy away from her gaze, instead, leaning into it as he finally dropped his pants, revealing the large tent on the center of his black briefs.
Her wide eyes zeroed into his arousal, her mind swimming with want, fear of this exact moment, and a great sense of shame.
“Does the little mouse like what she sees?” he moves to hook his fingers on the waistband of his briefs, slowly pulling it down as his thick and hard length sprung up, hitting his stomach as the fabric fell away.
She could feel herself salivate as she observed his arousal. He was long, thick, and slightly curving upwards. His pubic hair neatly trimmed as it surrounded his desire like a crown.
Now, she wasn’t a virgin. Being young and stupid, she hooked up with various boys from her college from those frat parties. But this was different. Michael was different. He’s way bigger, way thicker, and way more intimidating than those lanky seniors.
Michael slowly leans in, his hand finding her hipbone as his other hand lined up the head of his dick into her warm entrance. His chest was heaving, his mouth letting out ragged breaths as he tried to control himself.
She grabs his shoulders as he uses the swollen head of his desire to collect her essence.
“Michael,” she whines, growing impatient and needy.
He smiles softly before planting a soft peck to the corner of her mouth.
“Patience, sweetheart,” he breathes out before finally inching the tip of his length inside her.
He groans, his eyes rolling back at the tight and warm sensation of her. He forced himself to stop his hips, reminding himself to let her body adjust to his size.
Her mouth drops open in a silent gasp as she feels his tip notch inside her entrance. The feeling was so full, satiating an itch she didn’t know she even had.
It stung, for sure. But she was feeling impatient, and she felt like she deserved the pain a bit.
“P–Please…You can move,” she babbles, her eyes watering.
He bit his lower lip, a habit he can’t quite erase. His restraint began to crumble. The feeling of her warm and damp heat becoming too much to ignore, and her wide eyes staring up at him like he’s her god made his dick twitch dangerously.
“If you say so,” he grunts as he plunges in, immediately sinking deep into her heat. His pubic bone meets her swollen nub, making her brows furrow as her eyes fluttered close. She bites her lips, her fingers frantically squeezing his shoulder blades.
“You feel so good, sweetheart,” he groans, his voice gravelly and deep with lust.
He leans in to lick up behind her earlobes as he begins to thrust slowly inside her. His length practically outside her entrance before sinking back in, kissing her cervix.
“A–Ahhh…Michael, please,” she doesn’t even know what she is begging for. Her wet lips are parted as she pleads for him. Anything. Just him.
Michael’s eyes darkened as his lips curved upward in a dangerous smirk against her skin. “So desperate f’ me.”
He begins to thrust faster, his hips becoming a blur of motion, the vanity table begins to screech loudly against the metal floor.
“God…” he groans against her earlobe. His hands travelled up to fondle her breasts, his index fingers flicking her nipples quickly. Her head twisted to the side, overwhelmed by his assault.
Michael’s lips stayed brushed against the sensitive skin of her jawline for a heartbeat too long. She expected him to pull her closer. Instead, she felt a subtle change in the way he held her. The warmth in his grip turned rigid as concrete.
He stilled his thrusts as his right hand withdrew from his chest and darted downwards, somewhere she couldn't see from her angle.
He let out a soft, breathy chuckle against her neck, but it wasn’t the shy, high pitched giggle he gave the public. It was low, dry, and entirely devoid of innocence.
“You really thought I wouldn’t notice?” he whispered.
The words were so quiet she almost missed it, but the cold dread that spiked through her veins made her entire body lock up. She tried to pull away to look at him, but Michael’s hand travelled to grip her hip tighter like a vice, pinning her flush against the table.
“M–Michael?” she choked out, her voice cracking.
He slowly pulled his head back, looking down at her through his messy, damp curls. The boyish, naive expression she was used to was gone, replaced by a sharp, piercing stare. He looked at her the way a king looks at a thief caught in his treasury.
"I know every single object in this trailer," Michael murmured, his voice dropping to that signature, intimate rasp, though his dark eyes were completely cold. "I know when a bottle of cologne has been moved an inch to the left. And I definitely know when someone slips a cheap little plastic bug under my jewelry tray."
He gives her a condescending pout. “You think I didn’t see you flick through my vanity table? Guess you weren’t as sneaky as you thought you were, little mouse.”
She felt the air leave her lungs. This is it, she thought frantically, tears of absolute terror stinging her eyes. The lawyers. Her life is officially over.
"I—I can explain," she whispered, her voice trembling violently. "Please, Michael—"
"Shh," he breathed, placing his thumb firmly over her lips to cut her off. He tilted his head, a wicked, dark little smile touching his lips. "Don't lie to me. I hate liars. You're just like the rest of them, aren't you? Wanting a little piece of me to sell. Wanting to hear the secrets when the cameras turn off."
He revealed his right hand. She winced, expecting him to rip the velvet tray away and call his security. Instead, his long, slender fingers gently lifted the micro-cassette recorder from its hiding place. He brought it between their faces. The little red recording light was still blinking, a steady, blood-colored pulse in the trailer light.
Michael looked at the device, then looked back at her, his breathing suddenly shallow. The anger in his eyes didn't vanish, but it melted into a heavy, possessive hunger.
"You want a scandal, sweetheart?" he whispered, his face hovering just inches from hers. "You want something dirty to give to your friends in the press? Okay. Let's give them exactly what they paid for."
Before she could process his words, Michael pressed the recorder flat against the vanity table right next to her hip, ensuring the microphone was perfectly positioned to catch every single sound.
With a sudden, dominant surge of movement, his hands gripped her hips in a bruising force, his dick pistoning inside her so fast the pleasure is borderline painful.
"Michael, please," she sobbed softly, torn between the agonizing guilt of her betrayal and the blinding, electric heat of his skin against hers.
"Don't beg," he murmured, his voice a low, commanding growl as his hand came up to grip her neck not to suffocate her, but enough to make her dizzy. "You wanted to hear me, didn't you? You wanted to record me. So I want you to be very, very loud for the tape. I want whoever listens to this to know exactly what I did to you."
He leaned down, his teeth gently catching the soft skin of her shoulder, making her arch off the table with a sharp, breathless gasp. Michael caught the sound in his own mouth, kissing her with a fierce, desperate hunger that completely shattered his gentlemanly facade.
His tongue swirled against her. He’s desperate to taste every inch of her mouth, drool starting to seep between their lips.
His hands were everywhere—possessive, heavy, and completely unyielding—forcing her to bend to his will on the vanity. And as the trailer filled with the erratic, desperate sounds of their collision, Michael kept his eyes wide open, staring directly into hers through the dark, ensuring she knew that every heavy, undone groan he fed into her microphone was a mark of his absolute ownership.
With a sudden movement, he lifts her and sets her down to the floor, his length still plunged deep inside her. He maneuvers her so she is bent over the vanity, her face pressed against the damp and foggy mirror.
He resumes his brutal thrusts, his hand reaching up to grip her nape to anchor his movements. She lets out a cacophony of breathless gasps and moans, her wet lips smushing against the mirror.
“You wanted to watch me?” he grunts as he forces her neck upwards so her eyes are planted on his reflection. “Watch me ruin you.”
The vision was so erotic it made her veins grow hot. His face was flushed with sweat, his curly hair bouncing with every thrust, and his loose shirt damp with his sweat making his chest and toned stomach visible through the fabric.
“C–Can you take your shirt off, please?” she shamelessly begs. Her wide, tear streaked eyes met his through the mirror.
He groans, his hand travelling down to the curve of her waist. “Yeah? You wanna see me?”
He didn’t think twice. Although this is technically a punishment, Michael found himself submitting to her needs. He didn’t stop his thrusts as he moved to peel his damp shirt off him. The moment the shirt was off, he leant down—his sweaty chest pressing against the damp skin of her back.
He practically melts at the contact. It felt so real and primal. Unleashing an animalistic hunger inside him. He grabbed her leg, lifting it up to the vanity table, making her thighs spread impossibly wider. His thrusts become even more possessed. Her eyes heavy lidded as grunts and moans of pleasure fill the trailer.
“M–Michael,” she chokes out, her eyes rolling back as she feels her climax approaching. Her fingers clawing desperately at the wet mirror.
“Yeah? You gonna come?” he rasps out. He didn’t change the tempo of his thrusts, instead, his fingers travelled underneath her to play with her swollen and pulsing nub.
“O–Oh God!” she screams, her head thudding against the mirror as her thighs begin to shake from the stimulation.
His fingers move even faster, swiping across her clitoris in a dizzying speed and precision.
“You’re gonna take it, sweetheart. M-Make the press so happy,” he murmurs against the skin of her shoulder.
“You’re so tight, so perfect f’ me,” he grunted, his heavy breathing and the wet, slapping rhythm of his hips against her backside filled the room.
Her mouth fell open, her senses completely hijacked by the sensation of him drilling inside her relentlessly. The guilt and fear from being caught completely out the window.
As a wave of pleasure dawned on her, a long helpless moan escaped her lips, and she felt a string of drool spill from the corner of her mouth down into the foggy mirror.
Michael saw the way she became undone, the way she was losing control of her most basic functions. It seemed to fuel his hunger. He reached around her, his hand splaying flat against the soft flesh of her stomach, pulling her even harder against him, forcing him to take every unforgiving inch of him.
“Look at you…Completely lost in me, exactly like a good girl should be.”
He increased his tempo. He is chasing his peak, a moment of absolute perfection, and he is driving them both towards it. The table creaked loudly beneath them.
Her body buckled, his relentless thrusts making her muscles clench around him with an intensity he almost cannot move.
The second wave of her release was even more violent than the first. A hot, clear spray erupted from her core, the liquid saturating the skin of his thighs, and the sensation of it dripping down his legs made his heart stutter.
Under any circumstance, any other man would’ve been repulsed and slowed down. But Michael was not any other man. He was a man possessed by her pleasure.
He didn’t stop.
He let out a low growl. To him, the mess was a testament of her surrender.
“Yes!” he groaned. “Give it all to me!”
He continued to hammer into her, his hands gripping her hips so tight they would surely leave marks. Michael gave everything he had.
And in that moment of absolute ecstasy, Michael finally broke. He let out a strangled cry that was half sob, half roar as his entire body went rigid. His head snapping back as he came inside her with a pulsing force.
He stayed buried inside her, both of their frames trembling with the aftershocks of pleasure. The silence was heavy, broken only by ragged gasps and the soft drip of her essence falling onto the floor. He held her there, his face buried in the crook of her sweaty neck.
After a few seconds, he finally pulled out of her. His softening length dribbling hot release down onto the floor, joining her essence.
The tiny plastic mechanism of the recorder let out a sharp clack, signaling the end of the tape.
The silence that followed was suffocating, heavy with the scent of his cologne, sweat, and the tang of euphoria and fear. She lay motionlessly on the vanity, her hands trembling so violently as she bent down to grab her clothing. Every muscle in her body ached from the dominant grip Michael had her in just minutes before.
He quietly dressed again. The fierce persona had vanished as quickly as it appeared. He grabbed a fresh white tank top from his dresser and put it on, tucking it back into his trousers. His movements were slow and heavy.
He didn’t look at her as he reached over the table and clicked open the cassette door. He pulled the tiny tape out, holding it between his long, slender fingers.
She held her breath, expecting him to drop it to the floor and crush it beneath his feet to end her little game.
Instead, Michael slid the tape directly into the pocket of his trousers, patting the fabric down with a soft movement of his palm. He looked up to face her, a tiny, faint smirk touched his lips.
“Michael,” she whispered, her voice cracking as a wave of cold dread washed over her. “The tape…please. What are you going to do with it?”
“I’m going to keep it,” his voice a velvety rasp that vibrated down her chest. He took a slow step towards her, his fingers fixing the sleeve of her paisley cut top back onto her shoulder.
“It’s a very special recording, don’t you think? Every single sound you made for me. I think I’d like to listen to it when I’m lonely on the tour bus.”
“Please,” she choked out, tears of absolute desperation spilling over her cheeks. She thought of the man in the diner, the crushing weight of her debt. “I’m sorry. I–I’m so sorry I tried to record you. If I don't report to them, they’ll destroy me. I need the money, Michael. I’m in serious debt—my apartment, my student loans.”
Michael paused. For a split second, a flash of genuine surprise crossed his features, his large eyes widening as he registered the unfiltered truth of her desperation. He realized she was desperate to escape the claws of her financial ruin.
But he didn’t give the tape back.
Instead, his expression softened into something he can’t quite name. He reached out, his thumb brushed a tear from her cheek.
“You should have just told me you needed help, sweetheart,” he whispered, his breath hot against her skin as he leaned in closer. “I have more money than the world knows what to do with. You don’t ever need to be used by those vultures.”
He slid his hand down to her chin, tilting her face to force her to look into his consuming gaze.
“I’ll take care of your rent. I’ll take care of your bills,” he murmured, his voice a low purr.
“But the tape stays with me. It’s my insurance. M’ gonna make sure you stay a very, very good girl.”
Can you make one for reader as Quincy Jones but the good version and her and Michael get involved with each other 🥳
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pairing: offthewall!michael jackson x quincyjones!female reader
synopsis: transitioning from the vibrant soundstages of the wiz to the intimate late night sessions of off the wall, a brilliant young producer becomes the only person the rising star could trust.
tags: none, fluff, tooth rotting sweetness, shy michael, kisses
word count: 1.7k
an: thank you so much for the request anon! i think otw era mj would be so cute for this ask, so here you go! hope you like it <3
In 1978, at the drafty soundstages of Astoria Studios in Queens, the shy twenty-year-old Michael Jackson was just beginning to try and find his own voice outside the shadow of his father’s grip. Amid the chaotic, vibrant, and costume-filled world of a high budget movie musical, she was the brilliant young production prodigy–sharp, intuitive, and the only one who didn’t look at him like a child star or some sort of celestial being.
When he danced as the Scarecrow, his large brown scruffy leather shoes squeaking along the yellow brick road, she was the one behind the video village–sitting quietly in her plastic chair, holding a can of Coca-Cola and her face sporting a warm smile as she helped him find the rhythm of the musical numbers.
Michael fell completely in love with her creative mind. He trusted her ears, her nuances, and her vision that when the film wrapped and he flew back to Los Angeles to create his definitive solo album, he made a demand that shocked his label: She had to co-produce it with him.
Now, it is February of 1979 inside the Westlake Recording Studios. The atmosphere is warm and intimate, the air smelling of synthetic rubber and the permanent scent of the polyester soundproofing panels.
It was 2:46 AM. The session musicians had long gone home, their guitar cases locked away. The sound engineer they were working with left around twenty minutes ago–saying his wife will kill him if he gets home even later. The massive 24-track tape machine spun with a low hum in the corner, the golden glow of the volume unit meters bouncing gently to the ambient bleed of the electric piano chords from ‘I Can’t Help It.’
She sat at the massive Neve mixing board, her forehead cradled by her palm as she adjusted the equalization on Michael’s vocal tracks for the hundredth time. Her ears were ringing from the endless looping of his vocals, her fingers stained with blue ink from writing out tracking sheets.
Behind her, Michael was slumped in the oversized brown leather sofa, his long legs tucked up under his chin. He looked incredibly young, his afro perfectly round, framing a face that was soft, smooth, entirely unburdened by the world outside. He wore a simple red Neverland t-shirt, and his favorite beat-up loafers were discarded on the carpet.
“Michael,” she called out softly, not turning around from the board. “The second verse…the vocal comping is brilliant, but you’re clipping the mic just a bit on the beginning note. We might need you to step back from the mic an inch.”
There was no answer.
She paused, dropping her fingers from the faders and turned her swivel chair around.
Michael wasn’t asleep. He was staring at her through his long eyelashes, his dark eyes wide and completely locked onto her silhouette. When he realized she had caught him looking, a deep crimson blush instantly flooded his cheeks. He ducked his head, pulling at his collar slightly, a tiny, shy smile tugging at his lips.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, his voice sweet that barely even reached her ears. “I heard you. I promise. I just…I like watching you work.”
She smiled, her heart doing a dangerous back-flip in her ribs. She slid off the swivel chair, her olive green skirt rising up a little as she walked over to the sofa, sinking into the seat beside him. The couch gave way, tilting their weight together so their shoulders brushed. Michael instinctively tensed, his hands curling into loose fists against his knees–a tell-tale sign of his naive nervousness.
“You’ve been staring at the back of my head for twenty minutes, Smelly,” she teased softly, nudging his shoulder with hers. “You sure ‘m not ruining your creative flow?”
“No! Oh, no, never,” Michael stammered quickly, his eyes flying wide open, completely earnest. “I trust you more than anyone. On the set of The Wiz…you were the only one who made me feel like I could actually do this. I don’t think I’d even be in this studio without you.”
The sincerity in his voice was so overwhelming, his eyes wide with pure adoration that it made her throat tight.
“You’re the genius, Michael. I’m just here to make sure the tape captures it perfectly,” she murmured softly.
Michael bit his lower lip, looking down at his hands. He began to nervously trace the loose threads of his trousers, his dimples flashing briefly in the dim light of the studio lamps. "Can I…can I show you something? I wrote a lyric. Well, a melody idea. For the ending of 'She's Out of My Life.' But ‘m too embarrassed to sing it in the booth."
"Sing it to me here," she said, leaning her head back against the sofa cushions, looking at him.
Michael hesitated, looking completely terrified but deeply excited. He shifted his body, turning to face her fully on the sofa, dropping his knees as his legs met hers. He closed his eyes, took a shallow, breathy intake of air, and began to hum.
The sound that left his throat was pure silk. It was a soft, acoustic run, so tender and melancholic that it made the hairs on her arms stand up. As he hummed, his hand blindly reached out along the leather cushions, his long, slender fingers trembling just a fraction until they brushed against hers.
He didn't grab her hand. He just rested his pinky finger against hers, a silent, innocent request for connection.
She didn't shy away, instead, she turned her palm up and slid her fingers securely between his. Michael’s eyes flew open, his breath catching mid-note. He stopped singing entirely, his chest heaving under his red shirt. He looked down at their joined hands like it was the most endearing he had ever seen.
"You have a beautiful ear for melody," she whispered, her voice dropping to match his quiet intimacy.
Michael looked up, his face just inches from hers now. He looked so innocent, his large eyes searching hers with a sweet, naive wonder. He swallowed hard, his voice dropping to an absolute whisper. "Your hands are so warm. Sometimes…when we're mixing these tracks, I just want to sit here exactly like this. Is that… is that bad for business?"
She let out a soft, breathy laugh, her thumb gently tracing the back of his hand. "Probably terrible for business, Michael."
"Good," he murmured, a brilliant, genuinely happy smile breaking across his face, his dimples cutting deep into his cheeks.
Slowly, Michael shifted. Because they were tucked into the deep corner of the leather sofa, the movement brought his face incredibly close to hers. She could see the faint, beautiful pattern of his eyelashes casting long shadows against his cheekbones. He smelled faintly of the orange slices, and the clean scent of laundry detergent.
"You're…you're really quiet tonight," Michael whispered, his voice tiny as he looked down at her lips, his eyes widening in a flash of sudden, panicked bravery, before he looked back up to her eyes. "Are you tired?"
"A little," she murmured, offering him a soft smile. "But it's a good kind of tired, Michael. We made magic today."
"Mhmm. Magic," he agreed softly.
He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple bobbing nervously against his collar. He looked away for a split second. It was obvious his mind was racing, his sweet, naive heart trying to calculate a move he had probably rehearsed in his head a thousand times since The Wiz.
"Can I… uhm," Michael stammered, his cheeks instantly turning a dark crimson. He ducked his head, his afro shielding his face for a second as he let out a tiny, high-pitched, nervous giggle. "I wanted to…to say thank you. For the bridge on 'Rock With You.' You really saved it."
"Michael, you don't have to thank me for—"
Before she could finish her sentence, Michael leaned forward with a sudden, jerky momentum.
His eyes were squeezed shut, his entire body rigid with an adorable, paralyzing shyness. He aimed for her cheek, but because he was trembling so much, his lips landed a little too close to the corner of her mouth. It was a soft, incredibly sweet, and clumsy collision. His lips were warm and slightly parted, pressing against her skin with a tentative, breathless reverence.
He froze there for a full three seconds, utterly terrified to move, his heart hammering so loudly against his ribs she could practically feel the vibration through the sofa cushions.
When he finally pulled back, Michael looked like he had just watched a thriller movie.
His eyes were wide with a mixture of absolute shock and pure, unadulterated terror. He instantly pulled his hands back to his own lap, his face burning so hot she could feel the heat radiating off his cheeks. A frantic, breathless giggle escaped his throat as he tried to disappear into the cushions.
"Oh, gosh," Michael choked out, hiding his face in his large hands, his long fingers stretching across his forehead. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to—I mean, I did mean to, but I… I think I missed. Please don't be mad at me."
She couldn't help the bright, breathless laugh that bubbled up from her chest. Her own face was completely flushed, her heart racing a mile a minute. She reached out, gently grasping his wrists and pulling his hands away from his face so she could look at him.
"Michael, look at me," she teased softly, her voice melting with affection. "I'm not mad."
Michael peeked out through his long eyelashes, his lower lip tucked between his teeth, looking incredibly vulnerable and utterly endearing. "You're not?"
"No," she whispered. She leaned in, moving much slower and more deliberately than he had, and pressed a soft, lingering kiss directly to the center of his blushing cheek.
Michael went completely still, his eyes going round as saucers. A massive, brilliant smile slowly broke across his face as he let out a happy sigh. He didn't know what to do with his arms, awkwardly half-extending them before clumsily settling for locking his fingers with hers all over again, burying his face in her shoulder to hide his uncontrollable grinning.
“Now, will you please re-do the first line on the second verse?”
“Yes, ma’am.”
soooo… i am thinking of posting another fanfic soon (maybe a plot heavy smut one shot), and i need your help deciding what to post!
dangerousera!mj
matureera!mj
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pairing: thrillerera!michael jackson x assistant!female reader
synopsis: you’re his assistant making sure his life is in perfect order! but what if he wants to do something else than packing his bag.
tags: mature content, smut (minors dni!), face sitting, oral sex (f receiving), pussydrunk!michael
word count: 3.5k
an: my very first time writing smutty content :’))
You were Michael’s assistant—tasked in making sure he stays on schedule, knows all the deadline he needs to meet, he stays fed, and mainly comfortable to be able to work properly in the studio.
The digital clock on his bedside table cluttered with various Pinocchio stuffed toys read 8:32 PM. It has been exactly thirty two minutes since you asked him to pack his duffle bag and left him a strict itinerary for the weekend’s songwriting camp in the studio.
You marched down the hallway of Hayvenhurst, a small notebook tucked in your armpit. When you pushed the door open, the lecture died in your throat.
Michael hadn’t even moved.
The empty duffle bag lay pathetically on the foot of his bed as he lounged across the mattress propped up on one elbow. He sports a crimson button-down—his curls perfectly picked out, framing a face that is annoyingly handsome and is beginning to infuriate you.
“Michael,” you call, crossing your arms as you shift on one hip. “We are supposed to be at Westlake in an hour, and you haven’t even packed a single sock.”
He didn’t apologize. His wide dark eyes slowly tracked from the tips of her shoes, up the tailored line of her pants, settling deliberately on the open collar of her cardigan. A soft boyish smile on his face.
“I know, I’m sorry,” he murmured as he sat up, his voice soft and whiney. “I really tried to pack…But I got distracted.”
You frown.
“By what? The wall?”
Michael looked up at you through his eyelashes. His cheeks flushing a faint pink.
“By you,” his tone sweet. He sat up—his wide eyes sparkling with an emotion she won’t dare name.
“You looked so pretty out there giving me orders. It made me…think about things.”
He reached out with a hesitant grace, his long slender fingers gently grabbing the small notebook from your arm. He didn’t open it. He simply set it down beside him.
“You’re always taking such good care of me,” he whispered as he tilted his head. “But you know…as my assistant, you’re supposed to make sure I’m comfortable before I sing. M’ chest feels really tight right now.”
“Then pack the bag, Michael,” you tried to keep your stern voice though it came out uneven. “It’ll take your mind off it.”
“No…” he murmured with a sudden glint flashing in his eyes, completely playful and devoid of his usual gentle demeanor. “I think…I think you packing my bag would help my chest. And it will be very efficient.”
Your face practically heats up in a mix of frustration and embarrassment.
Before you could reply, he leaned up—his lips brushing your collarbone. His breath hot and trembling.
“Please, mama? Show me how good you are at your job.”
The air in the room felt suddenly heavy, thick with the scent of his cologne and the underlying heat radiating from his body. You felt your heart hammer against your ribs like a trapped bird. You were supposed to be the professional one. The one who kept him on track, the one who didn't let his charms derail the entire production schedule. But Michael was a master of breaking down those walls, using that soft, melodic voice to melt your resolve.
His lips were a warm, lingering pressure against her skin, sending a shiver straight down her spine. When he called you ‘mama,’ his voice dropped an octave, losing that boyish quality and replacing it with a low, honeyed vibration that made your knees feel dangerously weak.
"Michael, this is... this is highly inappropriate," you managed to breathe out, though your hands, which were supposed to be gesturing sternly, instead found themselves resting in tight fists on his shoulders.
He let out a soft, melodic chuckle, the sound vibrating against your collarbone. He didn't pull away. Instead, he leaned in closer, his nose brushing against the sensitive skin of your neck. He inhaled deeply, a low hum escaping his lips as he took in your scent.
"Efficiency is everything, mama," he murmured, his breath hitching. "And right now... my heart is racing so fast, it's almost distracting. Only you can calm it down."
He pulled back just enough to look up at you, his large, dark eyes wide and shimmering with a predatory sort of playfulness.
"Just a few minutes," he pleaded, his fingers sliding from the notebook to your waist, pulling you a fraction of an inch closer to the edge of the bed. "Pack my things... and then maybe... you can help me with the rest of my needs?"
He gave you a lopsided smirk, his eyes dancing. He knew he was being a brat, he knew he was playing a dangerous game with your schedule, but he also knew he wanted you right there, in the center of his world, instead of packing a bag.
Eager to escape his hold and not be even later to the camp, you stepped out of his reach and walked straight to his dresser. You grabbed a random pile of shirts, pants, and jackets. Hastily folding and stuffing them into the duffle bag.
Michael’s face brightened at this. Your uncharacteristically fast and sudden movements and the way you deliberately focused on the task at hand made him smile like a total loser.
He stood up, his bare feet padding across the carpet before standing behind you. You could feel the heat radiating from his chest against your back, a silent, heavy pressure that made it difficult to focus on the task at hand. You were trying so hard to be the efficient assistant who kept his life from spiraling into chaos, but Michael was making it nearly impossible.
His hands, slender and warm, slid around your waist from behind. He draped his arms loosely around you, his chin coming to rest on your shoulder. He was so close that every time you breathed, you felt the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest against your spine.
"See?" he whispered, his voice a velvety, high pitched lilt right against your ear, sending a fresh wave of goosebumps down your arms. "You're so good at it. So fast."
He nuzzled into the crook of your neck, his soft curls tickling your skin. You could feel the faint prickle of his eyelashes against your cheek. He wasn't helping you pack. He was simply standing like a clingy toddler.
"Michael, please," you huffed, though the reprimand lacked any real bite. You shoved a pair of black socks into the bag, your fingers trembling slightly. "If we don't leave soon, the engineers are going to think we’re unprofessional. We have a schedule to keep."
"Gosh, always the schedule," he murmured, a playful pout evident in his tone. He turned his head just enough to press a lingering, soft kiss to the side of your neck, just below your ear.
You gasped at the sensation of his lips.
“Michael…” you weakly protested, but the name comes out more like a plea than a reprimand.
He lets out a soft, triumphant hum, a sound of pure satisfaction. He leans even more of his weight into you, his chest molding to your back as he nuzzles the sensitive skin behind your ear one more time.
"Is that a 'Michael, stop it'..." he whispers, his lips grazing your earlobe, "...or a 'Michael, keep going'?"
He’s being so bold, so uncharacteristically confident in his pursuit. The shy, soft spoken boy is nowhere to be found making you stunned and unable to think properly.
"It's a 'Michael, we're going to be late'," you try to insist, but as you reach for another sock, his hand slides from yours, moving up your arm to graze the skin of your shoulder, his touch light as a feather.
"You're so stubborn, mama. It's one of the things you do best."
He turns you around in the small space between you and the dresser, his hands sliding down to rest firmly on your hips. Now, you're forced to look up at him. His dark eyes are hooded, intense, and swirling with a playful mischief that makes your heart do a frantic little dance. He isn't looking at the bag, or the schedule, or the clock. He is looking at you as if you are the only melody worth recording in the entire world.
"The engineers can wait ten minutes," he says, his voice dropping into that smooth, commanding register that makes your knees feel like they're made of water. "I’m the star, remember? But if you don't look at me like you want to... then I don't think I'll be able to sing a single note tonight."
He leans in, his forehead resting against yours, his breath hitching as he waits for your answer. The duffle bag sits forgotten at your feet, half stuffed with clothes, as the silence in the room becomes thick with a tension that has nothing to do with work and everything to do with the man holding you.
“What do you want to do?” you breathe out.
The question hangs heavy in the air, and you can feel the exact moment his breath hitches in response. The playful mask he was wearing slips just a fraction, revealing the raw, unadulterated hunger underneath. He doesn't answer immediately, instead, he just stares into your eyes.
His hands on your hips tighten, his thumbs tracing small, deliberate circles against the fabric of your pants. The heat from his palms seeps through, grounding you even as your head begins to spin.
"What do I want?" he repeats, a low murmur that vibrates in the small space between your lips. He lets out a shaky, uneven breath. "Gosh... where do we even start?"
He leans in, closing the distance until the tip of his nose brushes against yours. He’s so close you can see the way his long lashes cast shadows against his cheekbones. He smells like the faint, sweet scent of the orange juice he had earlier.
"I want to forget about the studio," he whispers, his voice dropping into that soulful tone that he usually reserves for the most intimate moments of a song. "I want to forget about the deadlines and the schedules... and just be here. With you."
He tilts his head, his lips hovering from yours, teasing you with the promise of contact but not quite delivering it. He’s a perfectionist, after all. He believed in building tension and anticipation until it’s almost unbearable.
"I want you to stop being my assistant for just a few minutes," he breathes, his eyes darkening with a sudden, intense heat. "I want you to just be mine."
He finally closes the gap, but not with a kiss to your lips. Instead, he presses his lips into the corner of your mouth, closing his eyes and letting out a long, shuddering exhale. Giving you the chance to pull away, or perhaps slap some sense into him as his assistant.
He's giving you a choice, but he's also making it very clear that he has already decided how this night is going to end.
As if something flicked inside you, you gently grabbed his jaw as you dropped the duffle bag—his clothes escaping and unfolding on the carpet. You crashed your lips into his.
It isn't a gentle kiss. It isn't the polite, kiss on the corner of the lips he did beforehand.
Michael lets out a muffled sound against your mouth halfway between a moan and a whimper before he completely melts into you. His hands, which had been resting tentatively on your hips, slide upward with a sudden, desperate urgency. His fingers tangle into your hair, pulling you closer as if he’s trying to merge your very souls.
He responds with a ferocity that catches you off guard. His tongue sweeps experimentally against yours, tasting of sweetness and heat, and he groans deep in his throat a low, vibrating sound that you feel in your own chest.
He stumbles back slightly, his heels catching on the edge of the rug, but he doesn't care. He pulls you with him, his body pressing you back toward the edge of the bed, his movements fueled by the the months of longing he’s been suppressing.
He breaks the kiss for a split second, just long enough to gasp for air, his forehead leaning heavily against yours. His eyes are blown wide, dark and shimmering with a raw, primal intensity. His breathing is ragged, his chest heaving against yours.
“You have no idea... how long I’ve been wanting to kiss you."
He doesn't wait for a reply. He dives back in, his lips finding the sensitive curve of your neck, his teeth grazing your skin in a way that makes your toes curl into the carpet. He’s taking what he’s been craving for, his hands roaming your body with a possessive, hungry grace.
The professional facade you tried to maintain is officially gone, replaced by the same feverish hunger that has been consuming Michael for weeks. As he collapses back onto the mattress, his breathing is heavy, a rhythmic, desperate sound that fills the quiet of the room. His eyes, dark and dilated, never leave yours as he reaches up, his fingers trembling slightly as they tug at the hem of your cardigan.
"Please..." he whimpers, the sound high and melodic, yet laced with a gravelly desperation. "Please... don't make me wait. Not anymore."
He shifts, settling himself on his back, his hips arching slightly off the bed. The crimson of his shirt bunched up, revealing the toned expanse of his stomach—the product of his hard work as a dancer. He looks up at you with an expression of pure vulnerability, his eyes shimmering with a plea that is impossible to ignore.
"Take them off," he breathes, his voice dropping into that deep, soulful register that vibrates through your very bones. "Your pants... just... let me see you."
The logic in your brain practically flew out the window. The alarm bells telling you that he is your boss and you are his assistant are dead silent as the hunger you tried to hide and the need to please him overtook you.
As you move to obey, your heart hammering a frantic rhythm against your ribs, his hands reach out to guide you. When you finally kneel over him, the moonlight from the window catching the curves of your silhouette and the cotton of your underwear, he lets out a low, shaky groan of pure want.
"Sit..." he gasps, his hands sliding down to your thighs, his touch burning hot against your skin. He pulls you closer, his eyes fixed on yours with an intensity that feels like it could melt iron. "Sit on my face, mama... please. I want to taste you. I need to this is real."
He is begging. The man who commands a crowd of thousands is reduced to a needy mess at your feet, craving the your scent, your taste, and your very being. He wants to lose himself in you, to drown out the noise of the world in the most primal way possible.
As you move to fulfill his plea, hovering just above him, you see the way his eyes close in anticipation, his lips parting as he prepares to receive you.
“Michael, I—I don’t want to crush you,” you stammer out as you hover your hips above his face.
A breathless laugh escapes his lips, a sound that is half giggle and half groan. Even in his state of desire, that playful, boyish side of him peeks through. He looks up at you, his dark eyes hooded and heavy with lust, a devastatingly handsome smirk tugs at the corners of his mouth.
"D’aww…You could crush me... and it would be the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me."
He doesn't wait for you to find your composure. His hands, those long, slender fingers, reach up with a sudden, decisive grace. His palms slid up the insides of your thighs, the heat of his skin making your breath hitch.
As you hover there, trembling, your hips suspended just inches above his lips, he reaches for the edge of your panties. His touch is incredibly gentle, almost reverent, as if he is handling a piece of porcelain.
With a slow, deliberate motion, he hooks his fingers into the fabric and slides them to the side, baring you to his hungry gaze.
The air in the room feels like it's been sucked out, leaving only the thick, intoxicating scent of your arousal. Michael lets out a shaky exhale, his eyes widening as he takes you in. He looks like a man being given water after years of drought.
"Mama..." he whispers, the name a breathless prayer.
He doesn't hesitate any longer. He reaches up, his hands cupping your hips to pull you down, guiding you until you are seated firmly against his face. The moment your warmth meets the soft, damp heat of his mouth, a low, guttural moan erupts from his throat a sound of pure, unadulterated relief and ecstasy.
He begins to taste you with a frantic, desperate hunger, his tongue swirling and teasing, his lips molding to you with a perfection that only a man of his talent could achieve. He alternates between tasting you and providing a sharp suction which made your hips stutter—making him tighten his grip on you.
You whimpered loudly. Your head throwing back as you reached down to hold onto his curls.
He loves the way you touch him. He loves the way you aren't being "the assistant" anymore. You’re being his.
As you tighten your grip on his hair, guiding his head closer, his movements become even more possessed. He’s calculating, sensing the way your muscles tense and the way your breath hitches, and he adjusts his pace to drive you even closer to the edge.
"Mhm... yes, mama..." he murmurs against you, the words vibrating through your entire body. He pulls back for just a second, his face flushed, his lips wet. He looks up at you through those long, dark lashes, his eyes completely glazed with lust. "Don't hold back... please. Give it all to me."
He reaches up, his hands sliding from your hips to your waist, his thumbs digging into your skin as he pulls you down even harder against his mouth. He wants to feel every tremor of your pleasure.
He begins to use his hands as well, his fingers moving to rub frantic circles as his tongue thrusted in and out of your heat which made your vision blur. He’s a perfectionist, and right now, his only goal is your pleasure.
The world around you becomes a blur of white noise and electricity. It’s as if the music has reached a crescendo. Your breath hitches, then a cacophony of moans escaped your throat as the wave of release crashes over you.
Your thighs, trembling and weak, snap shut around his head, locking him in as your body surrenders to the overwhelming tide of pleasure. As you come, you feel the warmth of yourself gushing, and Michael meets it with a ferocity that is almost primal.
He doesn't shy away. He leans and drinks you in, his mouth working with a desperate, hungry intensity to catch every drop of your release. His flat tongue lapped your release as he swallowed your pleasure as if it were the most decadent thing he had ever tasted.
He moaned. The voice low and muffled by your skin. He sounds... satisfied. He sounds like a man who has finally found the missing beat of a track he's been trying to write his entire life.
As the waves slowly begin to recede, leaving you limp and breathless, your legs trembling against his cheeks, he doesn't let go. He stays there for a long moment, his lips lingering against your sensitive skin, his breath hot and ragged against you.
Slowly, he gently maneuvered you so you are sitting on his lap, his movements uncharacteristically heavy. He sits up, his hair a wild, beautiful mess, his face flushed with sweat and your arousal. His eyes are still dark, still shimmering with that intense, predatory heat, but there is a softness there now, too a profound, vulnerable tenderness.
He reaches up, his fingers trembling slightly as he brushes a stray lock of hair away from your damp forehead.
As you regain your breath, your eyes darted down to the obvious tent in his pants.
“Don’t you want me to take care of you too?”
He laughs. The sound light and amused—breaking the heat and tension of the moment.
He pulls you toward him, wrapping his arms around you. He holds you tightly, his chin resting on top of your head.
“I’m fine, mama. We’re going to be late to the camp, remember?” he lets out a lopsided smirk.
“Besides, we have an entire weekend ahead of us.”
Something tells you this isn’t over.
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pairing: romanguard!michael jackson x concubine!female reader
synopsis: plucked from poverty to serve a cruel emperor, an elite guard and a gentle concubine are forced to wear masks of submission within the theater of the roman court. but when a stolen glance across a banquet sparks a feeling more dangerous than love, they are forced to confront the roles they play for a forbidden rebellion of passion.
tags: roman era au, forbidden romance, shared trauma, unhappy relationship, mature content, eventual sexual content, angst, yearning, fluff (will add more warnings)
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an: whewww, my first tumblr post! i used to write on wattpad back in 2018 and i never got back to writing until now! i was scrolling through the michael jackson x reader tag and got inspired by a post about queen’s royal guard mj. idk if i will make this into a series but i hope you guys like this :’)
The air inside the triclinium was thick and suffocating. The smell was a dizzying mix of scorched pheasant, honey, the sharp tang of wine, and the cloying scent of Syrian nard. Tonight, the Peristyle was a temple to Dionysus–a night filled with ecstatic dancing, wine, and celebration of the bountiful grape harvest of the season. Rows of bronze oil lamps cast flickering shadows across the fired bricks and tangled vines, throwing a fiery orange glow over the sweaty bodies of Rome’s elite.
Michael stood flat against a pillar of mottled marble. The stone was cool against his heated shoulder blades–burned from the day’s patrol and tasks. A brief respite from the inferno of wine-fueled euphoria. As a member of the Germani Corporis Custodes, Michael was treated as little more than a piece of furniture. His heavy dark leather pteruges hung stiff against his scarred thighs. His knuckles were raw, calloused from years of gripping iron–picked very young among the house servants to be trained into the imperial guards unit, his childhood stripped away from him–thrusted into a life of survival and violence. His hand rested lightly on the pommel of his sword. He was trained to be a smooth phantom. Trained to be a ghost, yet a beast when the occasion rose.
His eyes, supposed to be scanning only for poison and peril, kept returning to her.
She sat on a low woven stool at the foot of the Caesar's reclining couch. Similar to him, she was plucked from the dark, damp laundry quarters beneath the Palatine hills because her face was deemed comparable to Venus’. Tonight, they dressed her like a prize to be sold. She wore a stola of translucent Coan silk, dyed a deep Tyrian purple that mirrored the color of the grapes displayed on the table. The fabric was of starlight–clinging to the curve of her hips with every breath.
Michael found his gaze drifting to her hands. Her fingers were fidgeting together–idly scratching at her neatly trimmed nails. An improvement from her then alkaline salt stained nail beds from scrubbing fabric. She wasn’t looking at the drunken actors performing a comedy for the senators pouring Dionysus’ blood down their chins. Her eyes were fixed entirely on her lap. Her expression wasn’t one of fear. It was heartbreakingly calm–a product of years of endurance. He recognized that look instantly. It was similar to the look of his mother counting their Denarius to pay their taxes. It was the look of the poor surviving the whims of the powerful.
Suddenly, the Caesar burst into a wet laugh, the wine unlocking the madness that always crept behind his imperial dignity. Without looking, he reached down with a heavy, ring-encrusted hand. His thick fingers squeezing her jaw. With a sharp jerk, he forced her head back.
Michael’s chest tightened.
“Look at that, Gaius!” the Emperor bellowed, his thumb rubbing rough circles against her jawline, smudging the pale lead powder the servants had painted onto her skin.
“The gods gave us grapes to bring joy, yet she sits here like a burial shroud.”
Michael saw the tremor in her lower lip. She did not cry. Instead, with a practiced gentleness, her lips curved upwards. She put on the performance entirely empty of real joy.
Satisfied, the Emperor let go with a careless shove, turning back to his golden goblet.
She blinked rapidly against the glow of the room, her eyes wandering aimlessly until they collided directly with Michael’s.
Michael’s heart froze. He did not blink. He did not shift his stance.
For three seconds, he let his facade soften. His wide dark eyes softened with a raw empathy that shouted: I see you.
Her mouth dropped slightly ajar. For one stolen moment, amidst the roaring laughter and madness of Dionysus’ feast, their eyes locked and nothing else existed.
Four nights after the feast, the madness of Dionysus had treated from the main halls, leaving Palatine hill blanketed by a humid silence.
Michael was assigned to the perimeter of the concubine’s private gardens. A place of gravel pathways and rows of laurel and narcissi.
The air out here tasted of damp soil and powdery floral. A sharp contrast from the feast’s smell of fat and oils. Michael stood beneath the shadow of a stone archway, his hands resting behind him. His brow damp from the summer sun.
Then, the soft hiss of leather sandals against gravel broke the silence.
Michael’s posture became rigid, his hands immediately grabbing the pommel of his sword. Out of the darkness emerged a figure draped not in the Tyrian purple of the feast, but a simple linen toga. Without the pale lead powder on her face, she looked like what she truly was. A daughter of the working quarters, walking with her posture hunched, as if still carrying her mother’s laundry baskets.
She stopped when she saw him, her breath hitching in her throat like that faithful night when their gazes locked. Protocol demanded her to halt and walk away. Protocol commanded him to ignore her like a statue.
But, Michael relaxed. His gentle voice cutting through the bright sun like a smooth melody.
“You shouldn’t be wandering the garden unattended.”
She stared at him–unable to take her eyes off his disheveled curls, his wide eyes, and the bow of his lips.
She took a shy step forward, her fingers nervously dancing along the laurel leaves.
“I could not breathe inside,” she whispered. “I still smell the stench of wine.”
Michael softly let out a breath through his nose.
“Ah… Then you came to breathe in the honeyed narcissi.” His expression is soft, contrary to the common guard’s grimace.
She smiles. The apples of her cheeks round as she looked at him.
“You like them too, Custodes?”
“Call me Michael,” he murmured. The breach of protocol made him almost regret the suggestion.
“I do. Before the legion took me, my father and I used to tend to the late Augusta’s garden. The honeyed scent always stuck in my nose at the end of a day.”
Her eyebrows raised in interest as she stepped closer. The smell of her hair reached his senses.
“I miss the scent of the laundry rooms below the courtyard. I still remember my mother scolding me for not scrubbing the fabrics right,” she recollects.
The air between them grew thick. Charged with an unspoken understanding of what the other lived before being trapped in this gilded cage.
“Your mother only wanted you to survive,” Michael said. His voice dropped an octave as his fingers played with the metal of his sword.
She smiled bitterly.
“The laundry quarters are brutal but at least in there… They are honest. There are no masks.”
She shifts her focus on picking a random leaf apart.
“I saw you that night. You looked at me as if you knew me,” she whispered. Her cheeks dotted red from the sudden surge of confidence.
He drowned from the scent of her–no longer smelling of the Caesar’s nard, but purely of skin and sweetness of the flowers around them.
“I knew your soul,” Michael corrected softly.
Michael knew the penalty for what he was doing. A Custodes who dared look at the Caesar’s property. He would not only face a sword, but the arena. His life was doomed the longer he stayed. Yet, looking at the soft smile on her lips and the ruby of her cheeks–the conditioning of the legion began to fracture.
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basically was a whole bunch of nothing :// just wanted to get this out of my system!